Wednesday, October 4, 2006

FOR GUNDAM LOVERS
GREAT NEWS FOR THOSE WHO LIKE CARDS AND GUNDAMS. I DISCOVERED 2 WEEKS AGO THAT THERES A CARD GAME OF GUNDAM. ITS CALLED GUNDAM WAR,ITS REALLY COOL. COMPLICATED BUT ONCE YOU UNDERSTAND THE RULES ITS REALLY FUN. I BOUGHT THE STARTER DECK 2 WEEKS AGO AND PLAN ON BUYING 2 BOOSTER PACKS ON SATURDAY. IF YOU WISH TO KNOW MORE,GO TO .WWWGWCARDS.COM
THEY EXPLAIN EVERYTHING AND SHOW YOU HOW TO PLAY.
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Tuesday, October 3, 2006

ANOUNCEMENT
GREETINGS TO ALL. IF YOUR INTERESTED IN POETRY GO TO MY NEW FRINEDS SITE. HOTARU INAGASHI. HES A POET LIKE ME.
WITH REPSECT,
ATTILA
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Monday, October 2, 2006

GRAVEYARD SHIFT FORM HELL
AS I WALK THROUGH THE GRAVES, I SEE MY OWN GRAVE...

IN THE DISTANCE,THE ONE WHO WILL MAKE MY DEMISE, STANDS BESIDES IT...

AS I APPROACH MY GRAVE, I CAN SEE ITS FACE...

ITS THE SAME FACE I SEE IN THE MIRROR,I AM MY OWN DEMISE...

FOR THE ACTIONS I HAVE TAKEN, I WILL BE MY OWN EXECUTIONER...

I REALIZED THAT IM NOT AS PERFECT AS I THOUGHT, IM NOTHING BUT A CORPSE WAITING FOR ETERNAL REST...

MY SOUL YEARNS FOR REST,BUT THIS BODY WONT SURRENDER... THIS MORTAL SHELL THAT TRAPS ME AND ITS WEAK ....

I TURN MY GAZE TO SEE ONLY THE GRAVES OF THE ONES I ONCE CARED FOR,BUT BECAUSE OF ME THEY HAVE SUFFERED AND DIED...

THEIR SOULS WHISPER MY NAME, THEY KNOW ILL JOIN THEM SOON...

AT LONG LAST THEIR EXECUTIONER WILL BE AT THEIR MERCY...

THEY PUSHED ME AWAY, TOO CLOSE TO THE EDGE...

AS THEY PUSHED,MY SOUL BECAME NUMB AND THE BEAST AWOKE...

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT THEM, I NEVER MEANT FOR THEM TO DIE, I ONLY WANTED TO BE LOVED...

ONE BY ONE THEY FELL, IN MY HANDS I HELD THEIR FUTURE...

ONE BY ONE, THEIR LIMBS WERE SEVERED AND THEIR SOULS CONDEMNED TO THE GRAVE IN A RESTLESS SLEEP...

NOW, I MUST JOIN THEM, MY TIME AS A REAPER AND EXECUTIONER IS OVER,NOW IM THE ONE WHO WILL MEET THE COLD GRAVE...

I WILL BE MY OWN REAPER...MY OWN EXECUTIONER... NO ONE ELSE WANTS TO DELIVER MY SOUL,NOT EVEN MY LORD...

THIS IS THE GRAVEYARD SHIFT OF A CONDEMNED SOUL...
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Friday, September 29, 2006

WALKING CARCASS
EVERYDAY ITS THE SAME...
SAME ROUTINE,SAME FEELING OF EMPTYNESS...
WE WALK AROUND, DOING THINGS ONLY BECAUSE THATS WHAT WE WERE TAUGHT TO DO...
WE HAVE NO FREE WILL, IF YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO, YOUR USELESS...
ITS THE SAME FOOD,SAME TABLE,SAME FEELING OF NOTHINGNESS...
WE ROAM THIS PLANET LIKE WALKING CARCASSES,WE FEEL NOTHING AND DO EVERYTHING WE'RE TOLD TO DO...
WHAT IS THE MEANING OF BEING ALIVE IF EVERYTHING IS MONOTONE AND NOTHING CHANGES...
OVER TIME YOU LOSE ALL FEELING AND HOPE...
WHAT ONCE WAS INTERESTING, NOW BECOMES ROUTINE AND IT TRACENDS INTO BEING NOTHING...
WE SAY THINGS SO PEOPLE WOULD ACCEP US, AND DO THINGS WE NEVER RELLY WANT TO DO...
WE OBEY OTHERS IN ORDER TO SURVIVE IN THIS HORRIBLE EXISTANCE...
ONCE, WE WERE ALIVE, BUT NOW EVERYTHING MUST BE PERFECT, THERE IS NO ROOM FOR FUN,NO ROOM FOR ERROR, NO ROOM FOR ADVENTURE...
WEW BECOME MONOTONE OURSELVES,WALKING DAY IN AND DAY OUT LIKE WALKING CARCASSES...
WE WAKE UP, DO OUR ROUTINE AND THEN GO BACK TO SLEEP, ONLY TO WAKE UP NXT MORNING TO DO THE SAME...
WE PASS THE DAY WISHING FOR IT TO END BECAUSE NOTHING CHANGES AND THE ROUTINE IS LIVED EVERY DAY...
THIS IS WHAT WE,HUMANITY,HAVE BECOMED. NOTHING MORE THAN CARCASSES THAT WALK,TALK,EAT...
OUR SOCIETY HAS FORCED US TO BE LIKE THIS,WITH ITS REJECTION AND ITS IDEAL HUMAN BEING.A HUMAN THAT IS EMPTY INSIDE AND OBEYS WITHOUT ASKING WHY...
THIS IS OUR HUMANITY,OUR FUTURE AND OUR DEMISE...
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

MY APOLOGIES TO ALL...
IM VERY SORRY, IVE BEEN BUSY WITH SCHOOL AND HAD NO TIME TO POST ANYTHING OR WRITE ANY NEW POETRY. I MIGHT HAVE SOME FREE TIME NEXT SATURDAY. BUT NOTHIG IS ASSURED. I HOPE TO TALK TO EVEYONE SOON. IM GETTING QUITE BORED WITH ALL THIS SCHOOL WORK. ALSO, MY HEALTH DOES NOT IMPROVE, IM ALWAYS ILL OR MY OLD INJURIES START HURTING. SOMETHING ALWAYS FUCKS UP THE DAY. REGARDLESS OF WHAT IT MIGHT BE, ILL ALWAYS BE ALONE, EVEN IN MY PAIN.
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Friday, August 25, 2006

LOVE...HATE...ITS ALL THE SAME...
WHEN SOMEONE ASKS YOU WHAT LOVE IS, WHAT DO YOU ANSWER? MANY SAY ITS THE MOST BEATIFUL THING IN THIS WORLD, BUT IS IT REAL?
I DONT KNOW,NEVER EXPERIENCED LOVE, SO I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS NOR HOW IT FEELS...
MAYBE LOVE IS LIKE HATRED, ITS A STRONG EMOTION AND IT COULD MAKE PEOPLE DO GREAT AND TERRIBLE THINGS. ITS A VERY THIN LINE BETWEEN LOVE AND HATE.
BOTH DRIVE YOU CRAZY AND BOTH DESTROY YOUR SOUL. HOW CAN HUMANS LOVE? WHAT DRIVES THEM TO RELY ON SUCH A FOOLISH THING, ITS NOT REAL. IT IS ONLY AN ILLUSION MADE BY HUMANITY TO CONVINCE THEMSELVES THAT OTHERS CARE.NO ONE CARES THAT MUCH , NOT EVEN GOD. HE IS THE FIRST LIAR. IF HE ACTUALLY LOVED HIS CREATION, THEN WHY DOES HE LET US DESTROY OURSELVES AND DOES NOTHING BUT WATCH AS WE SUFFER AND DIE.
LOVE IS USELESS AND MAKES HUMANS WEAK, ITS IS POINTLESS. I MAY NOT KNOW LOVE, BUT I KNOW HATRED AND WHAT IT DOES TO THE SOUL,ONE THAT NO LONGER ROAMS INSIDE THIS CARCASS.
LOVE IS MADE TO SUFFER, TO NEVER LOVE MEANS THAT ONE WILL NEVER KNOW LOSS, AND THAT IS A GOOD THING. DONT LOVE SOMEONE, JUST CARE FOR THEM A LITTLE. IF YOU LOVE, YOU'LL JUST HURT THEM. I KNOW MANY HAVE TRIED TO LOVE ME, BUT I ALWAYS HURT THEM. IM UNCAPABLE OF LOVE,ITS NOT SOMETHING I DO,I CAN'T. MY HEART IS NOT BIG ENOUGH TO LOVE. MAYBE I DO LOVE, I LOVE HATE,PAIN, DEATH...
FOR WHAT PURPOSE IS LOVE MADE,NOTHING GOOD COMES OUT OF IT, LIKE I'VE SAID BEFORE. HOW CAN YOU LOVE? ITS WRONG. I DONT WANT IT, IDONT NEED IT. I ONLY NEED MYSELF AND THE ONES I PREY UPON, THE WEAK.
LOVE WILL GET YOU NOWHERE, IT WILL ONLY DESTROY YOU.
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Friday, August 18, 2006

BUSY WEEK
I STARTED SCHOOL AND IVE BEEN BUSY FOR THE PAST WEEK. THE SARGENT IS WORKING US LIKE ANIMALS. ALSO THE TEACHERS ARE ASSHOLES, FIRST WEEK AND I ALREADY TOOK 2 QUIZES. NEXT WEEK TWO MORE TESTS. ALSO I MUST LEARN THE COMMANDS AND IF I DONT GET THEM RIGHT ITS PUSH UPS AND THEN EVEN MORE PUSH UPS. MONDAY, A UNIFORM AND COMMMAND EXECUTION INSPECTION, IM GOING TO THE GROUND FOR SURE. BUT ILL BE ONLINE, PM ME AND ILL ANSWER AS SOON AS POSIBLE. MAYBE NEXT DAY.
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Thursday, August 10, 2006

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN...
I WONT BE ABLE TO UPDATE THE SITE OFTEN AFTER AUGUST 14 DUE TO THE FACT THAT I START MILITARY AND ILL BE BUSY GOR THE FIRST COUPLE OF DAYS. IF ANYONE PM'S ME, ILL ANSWER AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. IM WORKING ON SOME NEW POEMS, BUT ILL PROBABLY POST THEM NEXT MONTH. ALSO THE WOUND IS HEALING NICELY AND THE STICHES WILL COME OFF IN 2-3 DAYS. I CAN MOVE MY HAND AGAIN WITHOUT TOO MUCH PAIN.


WITH RESPECT,
ATTILA
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Friday, August 4, 2006

I HAVE RETURNED...
WELL THE STUPID STORM NEVER CAME CLOSE ENOUGH TO CAUSE ANY DAMAGE, TOO BAD. BUT IT WAS 2 DAYS OF HELL.
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Tuesday, August 1, 2006

OUT FOR A FEW DAYS...
THERES A TROPICAL STORM COMING TO PUERTO RICO SO I WONT BE ABLE TO BE ONLINE FOR A FEW DAYS. THE ELECTRICITY WILL PROBABLY BE OUT FOR 3-4 DAYS. ANY PM MESSAGE WILL BE ANSWERED AS SONN AS POSIBLE.

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