Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Well, it's 10:49 PM and my partents just left, driving to Toronto.
Why are they going there, you ask?
Well, my grandmother is in the hospital, dying. They went to see her one last time.
I wish I could've gone with them, but the pain would be even greater than it is now.
Sure, I may seem the same on the outside, but inside, I swear I'm torn apart.
I don;t know where to go from here, what to do.
I love her so much and I will miss her greatly.
Why does life always do this?
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Monday, April 2, 2007

Great.
I feel like crap, my dad I'm sure feels like crap, too.
My brother just came home with his girlfriend.
Joy.
Maybe he'll leave soon.
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Sunday, April 1, 2007

At this moment I feel... incapable... of being loved by anyone or anything. I think I'm starting to give up on finding love, seeing as everytime I open my heart, it's shattered again.
I'm too open with people..
And now that I am sure I haven't a chance with anyone that I know, I don't know weather to just stop trying or not.
I don't know.
I just want to be loved. For real.
That's all..
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Gr. Okay, I have a problem.[Notthatanyonecaresbutwhatever.]
This guy, who is like.. seven years older than me, keeps hitting on me. It's starting to really bother me...
I mean, I try to be nice, but I'd like to have a boyfriend more my age.. Not that I can acheive that easily, either.
Whatever. God what the hell am I supposed to do?
I swear I'm doing everything wrong in the relationship area.
Maybe I don't deserve anyone.
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Most recent AMVs I made..
Someone - DHT [FF7,8,&X]
Someone (Final Fantasy 7,8, & X)

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Ghosts - DDr song. [FF7]

Aerith's DDR Death.

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Breathe For Me - Deadstar Assembly [FF8]

Breathe For Me [ff8]

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Ghosts - DDR song[again] [FF8]


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Monday, March 26, 2007

I don't update this much anymore. No one reads it or really cares, anyways. So whatever. Haha. I could post that I was dying from some horrible sickness, and no one would care or even notice.
I find that mildly amusing.
Anyways, I can still vent for my own benifit, right?
Right.
So anyways, that's all I have to say today. :3
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Okay,I'm annoyed. I've been wanting to make an amv recently, but everytime I try, it stops like.. ten second into the song, so my work is absolutely useless. D:
I don't understand why, though. Because there is nothing wrong with the songs.
It's rather depressing.
And what is worse, is that when the song stopped on the most recent one, it had pretty much the best beginning I have ever created. ;_;
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Friday, March 9, 2007

It is now officially spring break for me. :]
This is going to be one boring week. Har~har.
^^
How is everyone?
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Thursday, March 8, 2007

   Aye, well, half my friends have been ignoring me lately, but there isn't anything I can do about that. As long as I have the few that I still do talk to. It just goes to show who your real friends are, and I know who they are at this point. :] Thank-you guys!
Hm...I'm really confused about a few life issues, one bing love. >< One of the hardest things to figure out. I don't know what I'm feeling anymore... there is only one person I am sure that I love, but I HAVE to get over that, I know. It's still hard. >< Then there are other people. But I need to know why? How the hell did I get myself into this? D:
Oh well, uhm... in my wallet, I have five dollars and some change. :]
I have no idea why I said that.
But yeah so.... HI.
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Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Okay, so exams are here. Three tomorrow and three on Friday.
Tomorrow is the mile exam. D:
Not going to be fun.
And then reading, and band.. but band doesn't have an exam. :D
And then on Friday isEnglish, Science and math. D:
Wish luck,please.
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