Thursday, July 6, 2006

Gregorian Chanting for the Soul
Hey, I guess I survived my first day! Okay, in the first day I accomplished: Basic Chemistry, The History of Robotics, The Pendulum in Physics, Basic Algebratic Equations, some crap from the Middle Ages, and I made no friends. So I was kinda the loner kid in the back that didn't say anything and just nodded her head from time to time.
But it was the worst during Music class....I forgot what it was actually called...we had to listen to Gregorian chant. And for all you dumb people out there (just kidding!!) that's from the Middle Ages when instruments were not allowed to be played and only the Monk people made the music. So it's pretty boring.
*yawn* And I get to do all that good stuff all over again today!
But....I am sooo tired...last night was just...really hard on me. lmao, moving on from that subject....god damned me.
Me getting some fanarts done soon is not looking too good, i just don't have the time, and my dad's been rougher than usual. Seriously I asked him, "What crawled up your ass and died?!" And you can all guess what happened next...*owchies for me*
Oh, yeah, and before I leave again for the dreaded place, I am really really really sorry about last night, onee-chan~! No, really, I feel really really bad about everything....Ai Shiteru!
-puppy

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Wednesday, July 5, 2006

Happy Belated 4th of July!!
Sorry I wasn't here yesterday to wish everybody a Happy 4th. But I'm here wishing you a Happy Belated 4th...so does that count?
Yeah, well, I spent the whole fucking day cleaning the house instead of doing something fun for the holiday. Meh, bastards. And my dad kept yelling at me and I was all like Shuddup! lmao.
Gosh, yeah...the acceptance test Monday that I had to take was a disaster! I didn't know anything! I left like half of the test blank! I was about to cry....then they said that it didn't count and that they were messing with our heads...wtf?! I was so mad.
But today I start the summer school for overly smart peoples....(i'm tired of saying that, and for the record, I ain't that smart)it's gonna be murder...cuz my friends that I know from last year are in a seperate class than me...and I won't even get to see them at lunch either. So I'm pissed too. Spending about 12hours with people I don't know doing really hard work...*cries* I need a hug...
And a vacation....I've never had a vacation...*starts crying again*
And thanks Ouro for opening my eyes that posting early in the morning is better than posting really late....thankz~! lmao, I woulda never guessed.
*cries again* And sorry that I haven't been visiting everyone...I try~!!! I just lack the time! *sniffle* Forgive me?
Well, I need to go study...cuz I just heard that we are expected to finish the "acceptance" test today....oh, god....it's not fair!
I'll try and talk to everyone later if I don't die from school....or the mad homework they give us!
....Not like anyone will be that sad. lmao. Just kiddding....I know how many times everyone tells me otherwise. You guys are the best. Ai shiteru, onee-chan.
-puppy
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Monday, July 3, 2006

   Banzaii~~!
Hey, I'm sorry that I didn't get my 2 fanarts up yesterday. ^_^ I promise I'll put it up as soon as I'm done typing this. Promise!
Yeah, sorry again. My friend called out of the blue and asked me to go swimming....even though I'm slightly hydrophobic and I haven't been swimming in years. lmao.
But I had fun. ^_^ Wow. This is amazing, two good days in a row! I must've done something good~!
Omg, I'm watching Baseball bloopers....it's fucking hilarious. lol.
Speaking of watching stuff, I just watched the anime "Gankutsuou: The Count of Monte Cristo" and there's only one thing I can say about it....color vomit!!! What were they thinking with all those color textures?!?!
lmao. Well, I have that acceptance test to take at 4PM today. So I'm all nervous about that....but you can never tell because I'm a gunslinger. lmao. My face doesn't change when I get nervous. lmao.
I'll try and get that Black Cat fanart started soon....cuz my bro is getting so annoying about me doing it...and don't you guys start either! lmao, just kidding.
Well, I hope everyone has a happy 4th of July tomorrow in case I'm not here, cuz I'm supposed to go to a bbq. ^_^ yummy. lmao.
Ja ne!
-puppy
OMG I LOVE THIS SONG lmao.
Hey dad
I’m writing to you
Not to tell you
That I still hate you
Just to ask you
How you feel
And how we fell apart
How this fell apart

Are you happy out there
In this great wide world
Do you think about your sons
Do you miss your little girl
When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night
Do you even wonder if we’re alright
But we’re alright
We’re alright

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years
Learning how to survive
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive

The days I spent
So cold, so hungry
Were full of hate
I was so angry
The scars run deep inside
This tattooed body
There’s things I’ll take
To my grave
But I’m ok
I’m ok

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive
And I’m still alive

Sometimes I forget
Yeah, and this time
I’ll admit that I miss you
Said I miss you

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I’m writing just to let you know
I’m still alive

And sometimes I forget
This time I’ll admit
That I miss you
I miss you
Hey dad.......

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Sunday, July 2, 2006

   Yesterday's Daydreams
Well, I'm sorry I didn't post yesterday. I went to Six Flags-Great Adventure with my bf. I had such an awsome time~! Me and my friend made total asses of ourselves. There's this car that comes around with crazy music, and they stop and dance wildly for a while. And they had Cotton-eyed Joe music, so me and my friend went to the middle of the park and did the Cotton-eyed Joe with the people who drove the car! And people were taking pictures and staring at us like we were crazy. hehehe. Hey, we were out there to have a good time....and it was weird like...as soon as we got off of an attraction or rollercoaster....there'd be a big line that had formed. We're trend setters! lmao. We make the rides look fun...even though I can't really scream on them, lmao.
Yeah, I know I'm still sick, but I still went on all the rides...but I skipped out on "Kingdaka"....because people were calling it "Kingdom come"....
But, yeah, I had loads of fun~! ^_^ Yeah, onee-chan, we did have a lot of fun before I had to go, and I thank you for that~! *hugs*
I got off from work today, I was like fuck this it's Sunday and you people don't pay me like the other guys. lmao, I'm so literal and to the point.
*yawn* I drew a new pic at work...so maybe I'll post that...depends...cuz I drew 2...and the second one sucks ass, and I'm not just being modest or anything....it's really horrible. lmao. And I'm being pressured into drawing a Black Cat fanart, and a Hellsing fanart....even though Hellsing isn't even close to my style. lmao.
Well, I guess I'll talk to everyone laterz. Hope yesterday...and today was as good as my yesterday....and I just confused myself. lmao. Byeas~!
-puppy
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Friday, June 30, 2006

Let it be....
Well, yesterday was pretty fun at work. lmao. I had a lot to do. So it made me feel less lonely. ^_^ And I got paid!! WHOHO!
It was crazy though, cuz something caught fire or something....and I had to deal with the cheif of the fire department and everything. It was a disaster, leaving me and two priests standing out in the rain for god knows how long, and then we almost get struck by lightning. lmao. Yep, it was a total fucking mess.
And I got even more sick. But no, the priests didn't get sick at all!
Lmao. Oh, well. I'll be sad though, cuz I start my summer-school-for-overly-smart-people the 3rd of July. Well, that's when I haveta take my acceptance test, which is mad hard. lol. But I'm sure I'll get in.
Idk if there'll be any study hall this year so I can use the computer. So I'll either haveta post early in the morning, or late at night. Which sucks ass.
Well, at least the weather's nice today.
How is everyone?
-puppy
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Thursday, June 29, 2006

Never let me go........
I guess I'm surviving. Whoopie.
Sry I didn't update yesterday, I had to go to work. And it was totally boring. I mean like I was all by myself, organizing shit, and nothing happened the whole freakin time.
And I haveta go today again because my co-worker, well, one of my friends can't make it. She has a big softball championship game tonight, and she's the only pitcher the team has. I wanted to go, but now I haveta go to work and sit in this creepy-ass office where everytime you move the whole place creaks! GAH~~~!!!!
*sigh* Sorry I'm complaining so much...I'm just kinda sick, and I get irratable when I'm sick. lol.
*yawn* Well, I'm sure you'd all love to hear me ramble some more, but I feel like listening to music...or watching some of my anime DVD's that I've never watched yet. lol. I'm weird like that, I just save everything.
So, I hope everyone's doing better than I am!
Ja ne!
-puppy
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

All of my tears will air dry with just a little time
Well, I survived till today, taking much more verbal abuse and storing it in the back of my mind.
God damn, the place where my dad stabbed my foot is so ugly now...it is gonna scar really bad. And I actually do wear flip-flops in the summer! NOOOO!
My mom stormed off somewhere cuz I was being "unreasonable" this morning. Okay, so last night I had this major stomach ache, not just the one where you go "ow, it huuurts..." but the one where you rush to the bathroom every 10 minutes to puke. So I didn't fall asleep till 5AM, and I woke up at 10AM, and she starts yelling at me for waking up late. Then she threw kitchen knives at me, yelled at me some more, and took my brother and left.
God, she has issues.
I am really starting to hate her. And it's really really hard to make me hate someone, cuz I am as patient as a rock.
Well, I bet you guys hate hearing me ramble about my life and what's wrong with me. So I'm gonna try and stop for a little while. Sorry~!
Well, I've got to go. I'll try cleaning something to see if that'll make my mom feel better.
So far, I'm leaning toward answer choice B.
-puppy

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Monday, June 26, 2006

   huh?
Since when did I become a Senior Otaku? Woah....
Oh, yeah. It's my bff's birthday, and even though she has no clue what anime is...HAPPY BRITHDAY, ALLIE!! YOU DA BEST!!
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   So sick of love songs, so tired of tears. So done with wishing you were still here.
Sorry, I'm just having trouble with life right now. Heh. Well, I always have trouble, don't I? Whatever. And not having a computer of my own right now sucks ass.
Yesterday afternoon was okay. I got tons of graphic novels, and a Rurouni Kenshin poster. I mainly bought a lot of Yami no Matsuei, I really recomend it if you haven't checked it out already. And I also got the last volume of Rurouni Kenshin, it's funny cuz my friend told me it wasn't comming out till next month, lmao. Now I have the whole series!!! lmao. Got some more FMA, and I'm giving Hellsing and Black Cat a try, too.
Yeah....lol. But I have a lot of summer reading for high school, so first comes first.....oh, who am i kidding? I'm reading my anime!
That aside, I was pretty happy until I got beat up...pubically for...something. I don't know. But it hurt....lmao, he stabbed my foot. Why my foot? Idfk. Why am I laughing about it when I can hardly walk? Idfk. I'm just weird like that, I laugh when I'm hurt. Reflex I guess.
Is it just me, or is my fanart getting worse and worse?
Yeah, my mom was such a bitch to me today....she pushed me out of a moving car...on the highway. After dodging 10 cars while rolling on the ground, successfully bruising places that I never thought would get bruised from something like that...I was partially hanging off the edge. I hate her so much. And then she had to verbally abuse me. I hate that more, cuz she degreades me and pushes it so far that I feel guitly that I'm still alive.
Really, really, really guilty.
And guess what? She took the whole week off. So we can do that over and over and over again till I either A: die B: kill myself or C: survive till next monday.
Anybody wanna asnwer which one?
Well...whatever. ^_^ Keep smiling, right? *sigh* right. Byeas
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Saturday, June 24, 2006

A Light With A Sharpened Edge
Well, last night pretty much sucked. No, it didn't bite the big one, but it still sucked. I'm never going out to eat with my parents ever again. *sigh*
But, whatever, no one cares.
I'm pissed though, I wanted to clean up the park today....well, I was asked to do it by some neighbors...(pompous assholes they are) but it started raining.
I love the rain though! WEEEEEEEEEEE!
Yeah, okay...weird moment there. I hate my mom's scanner....it's too good....way too good. *growls at scanner*
Sorry about all the weirdo subject titles...they're just random lyrics from songs that...idk, reflect my mood. lol.
I might not be here tomorrow. It depends on what my parents are doing. And today's pretty much out the door already. So I'm sorry.
Okay, on one final last note, never get steak at Outback Steackhouse....mine still looked alive.....dun dun dun.
-puppy
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