Sunday, May 28, 2006

   OMG!!
My dad was so nice to me today! Yeah, and I'm actually happy! Or is all that sugar i had the one who's talking.....
I mean like, my dad took me to the bookstore! He NEVER takes me there!
And then i had a SHOPPING SPREE!! He bought me everything I wanted that I could get my hands on in 2 hrs. lol.
And then we went out to eat. And we just talked...and joked about stuff and people, mainly my classmates and his co-workers. And then we took the long way home and we listened to all my music, instead of all the pop and country he usually listens to. I think I actually got him into my kinda stuff!
*sigh* It came to an end all too soon, and I feel like he's gonna be back to his normal self tomorrow. I wonder why he did all that stuff for me?
Life is a wonder sometimes...
And when life gives you lemons...make apple juice!!
Tipo, donde as mah coche?!
Sorry, brushing up on my Spanish. Anyone know what that means? lol, i don't even take Spanish, that's how sucky my school is! It's slow in language, math, social studies, art, computers, AND english! Jesus...
lol, well, I'm done letting the sugar talk. ttygl!! Ja
-puppy
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Saturday, May 27, 2006

   Hiiiiii!
Sorry about all that, you guys. Heh. But I'm better now, and getting better each day.
I'm really sorry to Blackrose, though. And don't say that I shouldn't be sorry cuz I ought to be. So I'm really sorry. But see? I'm still alive!! *happy dance* Ugh, can't do that yet....But, sorry again for everything. And thank you again for everything!
Well, today was pretty normal. I dragged my ass to church. Damn, if we lived any further away from church I wouldn't have made it there. Then I found out that I had to train for my summer job, and I was all like fuck this I'm tired I'll do it later. lol.
Heh, I just stabbed myself with a pencil, it takes a special kind of talent to that. Ew, my blood is bitter right now. lol.
Well, I hope I didn't miss too much in school...and I hope someone doesn't like decide to poke one of my stitches or something. Or ask where I've been.
Well, talk more later. How've you guys been doing? Well I hope! Bye
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Friday, May 26, 2006

She's back home, peoples!
Well, last night my sister came home. Even though she really isn't supposed to be home yet. She woke up at the hospital and freaked. She started ripping things out and smashing things. It was totally scary.
Well, all she wants to do is sleep now. But she talked to Blackrose last night. Well, idk how long she was talking cuz I feel asleep in my room. But she mustve tried to make it back to her room by herself cuz we found her on the kitchen floor. And when I shook her awake all she said was, "Almost made it!" And passed back out again.
So I really haveta thank Blackrose for bringing my sister's hopes back up, cuz it was scary looking at her before she talked to you. And my sis also wants to thank everyone else who commented.
She'll be better by Saturday, and that's a promise by her! Cuz she wants to make her own posts, and go to church.
We'll see about that second one, she really pushes herself too much. Heh, well, I'be gotta go, I think she's due for another dose of medicine and pain killers.
She HATES needles....I'm so gonna get punched in the face or something....lol, oh, well. It's worth it. Bye
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Thursday, May 25, 2006

Um, well, it's still Mike. Great news! My sis made it through the night! Those damned doctors don't know who they're dealing with!
They say that she could die at any moment today, but I think that's bullshit, too. I took off of school to go see her, and she looked a little better, even though they say she keeps on getting worse.
But I'm still scared.
I haven't really realized how many chores she had to do until I had to do them...Jesus, no wonder she complains about them so much.
And I'm gonna clean up her room today, too. It's such a mess from...that. And it smells like death, basically it's all bleh. Frikin' blood everywhere.
I'm fucking glad my dad has work today and that he didn't go to the hospital. Damn, my sister can just give up the forgiveness and mercy act she has for him and just get a restraining order. Idk if it'll help though.
My dad doesn't follow the law...and my sister tends to find loopholes in them. Cuz she does all this "unneccicary (sp?) community service" as the police calls it and that starts up a "riot". They're just frikin' fans who wanna do something to make things better.
Yeah, my sister has never liked authority, or the government. And she HATES Bush. lol. Idk why, she just does. And you don't mess with my sister when she hastes something.
Well, keep ya posted.

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

   Sad.....
Um, well, it's Mike....yeah, her borhter again. It hasn't seemed so long since I've been posting for my sister, hasn't it?
Well, I dunno what happneded, my sister was well, really paranoid to say the least last night, but when I asked she dissmissed it as "nothing".
But around...idk, 1:30AM I heard a bang and screaming and things being moved around, someone moving around....and then crying...
Then I realized..."Shit! My sister!" I ran to her room, scidded and fell right before her doorway...and I saw the most blood I've seen in my life...she looked so lifeless, like a broken porcelin doll. There was so much blood, I wanted to throw up, and it was everywhere.
My sister opened her eyes and smiled at me and said, "There a-aren't a-any st-stars out to-tonight, brother. S-see? I...I want t-to live. To live for...h-h-her..."
And that was it, I was a little jealous of this "her" but, in contrast to last time's, "I want to die." This time she had said she wanted to live. And it made me feel better as is sat next to her waiting for the ambulance to arive.
My sister is in the hospital now, she has two bullet wounds to the chest, several lacerations, and stab wounds. They can't stabalize her, and they say she probably wont make it through the night. It's not fair though, she wants to live...I want her to live.
Yet they say she's gonna die.
My father said it wasn't him, but when we went to go see her today, he couldn't hold back the biggest grin I've seen on him all his life. He looked like a maniac. And they identified the bullets as his, too. Since he has the same gun, I think he has about 2 or 3 guns in total.
I want to go see my sister again, but I just can't bring myself to look at her, so hurt. Everything around her says death. And I don't want to be there in a place like that, but I don't want my sister to die alone.
IDK, if she dies, she dies, or at least that's what my sister would say. I hope, that if she dies, she'll be happier wherever she's going.
Sorry you guys, I'll keep posting for her as soon as we get anything...
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Terrfic Tuesday Everybody!! ....this ain't working
Well, today was just...off, to say the least.
I'm as sick as a dog from my father yesterday cux he nearly choked me to death, but hey, I got off easy.
I was running late today and missed Ist period and was late for second period. And I got in so much trouble for that...yeah, from the teacher's who's hair doesn't move...lmao.
Then my firends started agruing...about whatever. I couldn't listen to them anymore, I had a headache. lol. And it was so damned cold! And then I slept through lunch. So no food for me...well, no food for me anyway as punishment, and I just can't order food, cuz the lunch lady yelled at my friend a year ago and then I yelled at the lunchlady and now I'm boycotting her. Lol, no money for her!
Urgh, to make matters worse I haveta go to some Awards Night/Dinner tonight. I hate those kind of things, cuz I HAVETA wear a skirt and get all dressy just to get some trophies...i think I'm getting like 3.
And last night was the worst...I dunno, my mom was yelling at me cuz my Math average went down from an A+ to an A and then she kept saying how horrible I was and everything, and how she wished I was never bored...and somehow it got into my dead grandpa and how I didn't cry when I was serving his funeral. You can't cry on the altar, you'll get kicked off of the team, and my father had told me not to cry and be strong for everyone else. And I dunno, I decided to take a bath, actually sitting down for one, and well, ANOTHER mental breakdown ensued....
Much crying and choking on myself...
Then I reaslized I wasn't choking on myself after 30 minutes, I was actually passing out and drowning....and me being hydrophobic was not helping....so I almost drowned for the 4th time in my life.
LMAO. Yeah, I'm such a wuss.
Well, how are you guys? ^_^ I'm tired of talking about myself, it gets old....and boring. lmao. TTYGL~! Still have a lot of homework to get done...and I wanna spend some time stabbing something and calling it "therapy". Bye!
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Monday, May 22, 2006

Sometimes silence can seem so loud.....
Yeah, it's me, Lauren again. I just got back home around 2 and a half hours ago. Yeah, I didn't quite make it to California...but I got really close. Like in Kansas or something. The trains had all good timing, too! lmao, but it sucked having only crackers to eat, I was sooo hungry. And...well, when I was there, in Kansas, I had an odd feeling that I was being watched I just wanted to take the opprotunity to do what I've always wanted to do. lol, I climbed a bridge and was at the top. I spread my arms out wide, just taking in the air and anjoying the moment...then I hear someone shouting "suicide attempt!" and the cops are all around me at the bottom.
So they took me home, and just as we were leaving Kansas one of the cops decided to be a smartass and yell out into the radio "Todo, I don't think we're in Kansas anymore!" Oh, ha ha, very funny. Almost so that I forgot to laugh.
Yeah, and my dad did beat me up for causing "trouble". And well, the house functioned almost as normal as I had left, well no one did the dishes, but that was it. So I guess I got the answer I was looking for when I left.
People at school are starting to get suspicious about why I'm absent a lot, and why a always seem to be in "pain". Damn, and I thought I masked that up pretty well. And the double damn of the day was when my bff asked me, "Hey, Lo? (that's my nickname, but my bro calls me Laur) Why is your smile crooked?"
A crooked smile? Okay, if ya finally noticed it couldn't you have come up with a better word than crooked? I woulda been fine with "broken".
So, yeah, later I haveta go in for questioning at the police station downtown...I hope just giving them the silent treatment will work, cuz I really don't feel like talking to anyone. Especially some faggots who think they're all that and a bag of chips.
Chips sound good...but as extra punishment I can't eat anything for at least 2 days. It doesn't sound bad, but I haven't eaten much since breakfast Saturday. And as you can tell I really don't like crackers that much.
OH! lmao, guess what song my subject came from?! I betcha can't tho, that's okay, I'm just weird like that.
Well, I'll leave you to yourselves now, I've got a lot of make-up work that I missed. C ya!

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

   Well, she really did it this time....
Yep, It's Mike again. heh. Um, well, as you can already guess my sis has run away successfully this time. Cuz it's not the first time she has...it'd be like the....24 or 27?
Anyway, she told me she'd be running away for a little while, but she wouldn't tell me where. And she left around 1 AM last night. But I can tell how she got out. First she tried her bedroom window, but it's painted shut, you can see the chips she made trying to break it open. But she broke in the door that leads to the back steps and got past our 2 dogs and our grandma. Then she broke into the basement (yeah, she has to break all these locks) And then break into the backyard, which is like a frickin' mini jungle. And you can tell she got really pissed off at the door cuz she broke the whole thing off the hinges. Then by the trail in the greenery you can tell she hopped 10 fences just so she wouldn't have to walk in front of our house. And there's fresh blood on one of the metal fences, so I'm guessing she cut herself, too. That's my sis for ya.
I don't know where she's going, and I'm sure she told you guys, but I wouldn't read her posts, cuz I'm not THAT evil. And she'll somehow know that I was looking at her stuff. She's weird like that, but it's true.
But she left me some clues!!
Okay, the first was on her bed...and it was a simple piece of paper that said "LPAEPS" and then, it took me a while to figure out enough to unscramble it so it read APPLES. lol. So I went where we put all the apples when we went grocery shopping.
And the next clue said "The next clue is pinned to the back of the boy I hate." Well, at first I thought...my father? No. How would she do that? And then it struck me like lightning...MATT! She had the class picture on her bulletin board and sure enough that next clue was pinned right behind it.
And then this clue read..."The person who makes it, sells it. The person who buys it doesn't use it. And the person who uses it doesn't know they're using it. What is it?"
And I was all like..."I'm on a roll! I can do this! YEAH!" And then...I couldn't figure it out. Heheh. Can any of you guys figure it out, I promise I wont tell anyone, I just wanna know where my sister is.
My parent's are really mad at her, though. But I bet that's exactly how she wants it. I bet that she wants to prove to them that they can't function without her. And that this would somehow change them.
But they've got the police out chasing her, and my dad was like, "Bring her back. Dead or alive." And I was like....dude, alive.
So if any of you can figure out her riddle, it'd be really awsome! I hope she gets what she wants before the cops get her....well, bye.
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Saturday, May 20, 2006

   Not getting any better yet
OMG, I'm so tired today, and I've got the worst headache I've had all year.
Yet my parents still drag me to the store to go grocery shopping with them, I mean like I usually don't go, but they forced me...
Urgh, so I'm carying groceries up the steps in the new paper bags that A&P got, and my dad runs up to me, smacks me so hard on the HEAD (owch, massive headache alert) that I fall down the STONE steps. And what's his excuse? He didn't like the way I was carying the groceries.
Well, fuck that.
Then he kept yelling at me cuz I didn't do the laundry yet, meanwhile I'm still putting groceries away...and he calls me worthless and useless and what not. Then he makes me do the dishes too.
Then my mom claims that I screwed up the laundry...so my dad sinks his hand into the Bleach, then kinda tries to stuff his hand down my throat. At leasy I thought that was what he was trying to do. It didn't work though, cuz his hand is big and my mouth is small, but I swallowed a good amount of Bleach and now I'm like...poisoned...
Heh. And rhen he tells me to leave cuz I don't like it here. No SHIT I don't like it here. So I left, I didn't get very far cuz every 10 blocks I walked I had to throw up. So I just went back home.
But, yeah, I'm going to leave tonight cuz I'm starting to feel better. I'm gonna see if they can catch me. It's not for good, I just wanna see what they do if I ran away after they yelled at me.
So, I'll try to make it to Canada by going north through Maine. Then I'll try and get a citizenship there and see if I can change my name or something. Even though I hate Canada, they've had it too good for too long.
Heh, let's see how long this lasts, cuz well, idk. I'll have to actually break out of my own house without anybody noticing with like 2 backpacks with some belongings.
.....Yeah. Oh, so I'll leave tonight...well, after my anime! lmao. And if I'm on my screen name, it'll be my brother on, cuz somehow he got my password...he's evil.
So I'll tell him to put an away on or something, lol.
I'M SO GLAD UR BACK ED!!!! *big hugs*
Bye!
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Friday, May 19, 2006

   1/2 Days are Fun...ish
Yeah, it was a half day for a teachers conference. So me and my close friend...okay I've only got like 3 close friends, anyway we went to the pizza parlor, and who do we see?? All the teachers in there for pizza....yeah, our town has serious issues.
And our town almost had a tornado...right above our school!! lol, if it had touched the ground, all the residents of Bayonne would've died and then Bayonne would'ne become a flooded wasteland. Glad it cleared up though, I really didn't wanna die in school with a nuch of people who hate me.
Okay, that dramma aside...so after that awkward pizza meeting, me and my close friends went to Meghan's house (my 3rd closest). And well, my bff Alison is like allergic to cats, and Meg has one, so we decided to stay in one room without the cat the whole time and decide on what movie we want to go see. And well, Meh didn't look so good so we told her to just go sit in the bathroom and then tell us how she feels in 5 minutes.
And well, the cat got in through a locked, wooden door. And then Alison freaked out cuz she didn't get it cuz she was on the computer. And well, Alisons friends also showed up and they're scared of cats too so they just stood at the doorway, watching. And then the cat HAD to crawl under the bed...and Alison's still like "OMG, get it out!" And I'm like, I'm allergic to cats too, and she's like ooooh, shit! Lmao, so I was like, okay everyone back away and i'll sit on the bed to see if it comes out, and i know that Meg's bed sinks when ya sit on it so I was being really careful...and then I hear this high pitched "MEEOOOOOWWWNNNNN!!!" And I jump and was like no! I hurt the cat! It was Ali just playing with me. And I was like, oh no you don't! Then I smacked her and rufused to look for the cat.
Well...then I'm on my hands and knees looking for the dmaned cat (yeah, i know, i cave easily) and the I finally find it, and it decides that my arms is a scratching post...and well, I managed to get the cat out from under the bed and put it in the basement, but I got cuts all over my arms. lol. I actually counted: 53 little cuts, 22 of which were deep and bled for 30 minutes. lol.
We decided to see the Davinchi (sp?) Code...and it was so weird, and confuzzling. And I was like the monk guy deserves a cookie! I was about to strangle myself with my tie! Yeah, I was wearing a guy's tie...so???
Yeah, I have the worst headache from that movie...so I only recomend it to people who like French or who is really devoted to Jesus. I mean like...some guy in the movie said "Arigato" which means thank you in Japanese, but the subtitles said he was speaking French for "pardon me". So, I was like wtf?!?!
lol. Well, yeah, I'm bored with my like. Sry with all the little details, I'm just avoiding my father by making it look like I'm typing up study notes for a physics test.
So, how are you guys?
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