Saturday, April 22, 2006

Happy Saturday~~!
Meh, at least I tried to sound happy...i'm just not a happy person.
Well, I got my hair done...AGAIN~! The lady screwed it up and it was all totally crocked so I had to go back. It looks a lot better now...It'd be nice if it just stayed that way for more than a day. lmao.
Omigosh....now I totally hate me schizo buddy. Well, I have 3 but I'm talking about the one that's constantly mean to me. She went and typed a comment on Linda's site (izzat your name?) (serenity453) and she spilled my secret...so if your reading this...you were not supposed to head that...well, read that.
But I guess now that one person knows you all should know. Ano....last year I was actually placed in an asylum (the one down the street) for attempted suicide. Hope this doesn't really change what you think of me. Cuz now I sorta regret it. I still should be in therapy...but I can't afford it. And I couldn't afford to stay in the asylum either. And really, I didn't want to be there. It was so depressing. That was like the worst point in my life. So hopefully that'll never happen again. As long as I have friends who care...damn, that sounds so sappy.
But all I do now is smile about it. Cuz if I smile it makes my close friends forget. Now Imma stop strolling down memory lane before I cry and have ANOTHER mental breakdown.
So how are you guys since I really have nothing to talk about??
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Friday, April 21, 2006

Courage is only fear that's said it's prayers
Heh. I'm like falling alseep, well, that'd be nice since i haven't slept in for days. I went out with some friends...it was really fun cuz we played man hunt (and turns out i'm actually good at it and i run fast) and I met a totally hot guy. His name's Adam...which is a cioncidence because my "ex-boyfriend for a day"'s name was Adam. Then my other friends wanted me to go to the park to play...none other than man hunt (jeez, it's like popular all of a sudden).
Then I had to walk my doggies...then do the dishes...then clean my room....then make dinner twice cuz i suck...then I was forced to take a walk...got hit by a car, which wasn't all that bad cuz I actually got some "sleep". Heh. Omg and the laundry...i hate doing that....(hehe, my brother does it better...HAHAHA) Owch...hurt myself laughing.
Omg and my schizopheric buddy won't shut up. We were like best friends...until whatever I "did" to her today. I have no fucking clue. But all I can say is...haha, i have three schizo buddies in my head and you guys don't~! :P
Sry, had to say that. Oh, you guys ever hear of "True Light" from DNAngel? Well, I got the sheet music...and Imma self teach it to myself! *determined look* Oh, and yes, I can play the piano and I'm actually good at it. (heh, look at me! i'm good at something!) Well, I hope I am. My mo likes it...but other than her...no one's heard me play ecxept for my tone deaf grandmothers...and my great uncle, who slams his hands on the keys and calls it Bach.
And guess wht?!?! Heh, nothing, and I still haven't done my reports yet...heh, book report (haven't read a book), science term paper (no clue what scientist I chose), and a computer term paper (who cares about the integrated circuit?!) This shit is bananas~! That reminds me...of the computer teacher...she's soooo dumb. Like really stupid...like de der der *crosses eyes and slaps hand limply on chest repeadedly* And one day she came in wearing all yellow and currently the Gwen Stefani song was popular...
Heh, I've said too much annoying stuffs...just trying to pass the time really on this post cuz I really don't wanna start on my reports...seriously...i'd rather shoot myself. Well....Ja ne~!
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

Makin' Brain Stew
Woah.....people actually look forward to my posts??? That kinda scares me. Like really, really.
Anyways, hiya! Well, whatever the doctors did to me is really annoying. I haven't slept in the past three days and it's really taking it's toll. Urgh, and I still haveta write 3 reports. Damn my teacher to hell. I'd totally hit her if she wasn't a body builder....and if she didn't win the regional championship. eh-heh-heh.
And, double urgh, (don't ask) I still haven't gotten my Confirmation dress for next Saturday. Imma freak out.
OH! But I'm happy (whts with my damned mood swings?!?) the park I was talking about before is building a new boardwalk and a bike path! And they thanked me "for finally opening their eyes". YAY! I'm worth something! *gets out my dad's beer* Banzaii!!!!
Okay, happy time over. Well, I gotta start my reports and walk my doggies! They so cute since they just woke up from a nap. Lol. I'm all bubbly right now. (damn mood swings strickes again)
Byeas~! (oh, and by the way, since you guys always comment a lot. I'm just telling you that I check all of your sites everyday even though I don't comment on them that much...i was never good at words. lol)
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Just when you thought it couldn't get worse
Yes! No one mentioned it! (just don't ask, please, i was just afraid i sed too much last post, don't ask)
Anyway. Hiya! Sry I'm so happy, I just came back from the mall and I got 2 graphic novels...but I owe my dad some money. lol.
Urgh, last night was a disaster. I was sleeping...like normal. And the next thing I know I'm at the hospital at 3AM. The doctors said my parents called an ambulance cuz I went into a screaming fit at midnight and wouldn't stop. And...I couldn't ask him what he was doing to me because I...well...damaged my vocals. Heh. I still can't talk but he said with enough fluids I could get my voice back. Anyway, I got next to no sleep last night cuz I spent the night there hooked up to machines. O.o
Well, then 12PM rolled on by and they finally told me what was wrong. I have minor brain damage. He believes that I'm not just plain stupid (hey, first honors, woot) he says it may be due to too many severe blows to the head. Now it's memory lane time! *we are the champions music plays* All those times I got hit in the head with a bat...all those times they've ran me over with their trucks...all those times they've slammed my head into walls...yeah, good times, good times, not really, though. *music stops*
I just hope I don't have anymore "fits". Lmao. Well, maybe I'm a tinsey winsey bit glad this happened...cuz maybe it'll persuade them to not hit me anymore...and my posts were kinda getting boring...maybe they still are?
Oh, well. Byeas!
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Monday, April 17, 2006

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Dress shopping was like hell in a handbasket. I swear everything I liked my mom hated! It was so not fair, and she kept saying that all I wanted to try on were black dresses, meanwhile I was holding a white dress, a blue one, and a pink one. I was like just shoot me now.
Oh, sry I was all in a haste to go before. I was just really busy but I wanted to post something. lol. I can't believe I letf all my art supplies in my bed and slept on it. Now all my sheets are colorful and dirty...I haveta sleep on the floor as punishment.
And the drawing....theO didn't have the category so I put it in Original. I hope that was okay, I sed that it wasn't my character, and besides, no one is gonna pop out of my computer and kill me or something....*hides behind a cereal box waving a ruler at anything that comes near me* Check it out, plez if ya feel like it later.
Heh, I know I have issues. Oh, speaking of issues! I have to go see a physcologist (cannot spell). Why? It's complicated. My mom called me fat...and well, I'm not fat but I'm not skinny either. And that exact same night (last night) I threw up and she says I'm trying to be anorexic. And this morning I was washing the dishes and accidentally cut my wrist on a kitchen knife. And my mom was all like freaking out cuz I was bleeding a lot. And then she was freaking out because I wasn't freaking out. And then she's like "you're suicidal!" and called up the asylum down the street (yes, we have a mental home down the street) to see if they'd take me.
Gosh, one minute she hates me, then she's all concerned over nothing. It's not like she ever noticed what I USED to DO. (I am implying something here) Heh, but I swear I stopped cuz I made my best friend cry when she found out. So, hmmmm, maybe I do belong there. But wait! There's no computer there! *gasp* the horror! I love talking to you guys *gives all of you hugs* yay! It a cornocopia of love (laughs like a madman at my potter puppet pals joke)!!!!
Bye now cuz i'm just rambling on and on and on and on and on and on......and on. TTYL
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Happy Belated Easter~~~~!
(it took me forever to spell it, my brain's not functioning right today, lol)
Anyway, how was everyone's Easter? Mine was okay I guess. Well, I got nothing for Easter...and my mom didn't hide any eggs. I was mad that I didn't get anything while they got my brother a skateboard. *grumbles curse words* She says she hates me therefore I get nothing. Bah!
But we went down to my grandmothers house. We felt bad that she might have to spend the holiday by herself since grandpa died recently...man, he's missed.So we went down to Spring Lake, New Jersey. And OMG was it beautiful *says it in a Jim Carey kinda way*!!!! Pretty flowers and pink trees everywhere~~~! I mean it would even make the ugliest girl look beautiful if she sat under a tree reading a book. So, all in all, I had a nice time.
Last night I drew a picture, go me! I'll post it later when I have time, cuz right now I'm typing like lightning cuz I have to go dress shopping AGAIN! But it's a picture of that pink haired girl from Maburaho. I was kinda pissed cuz I left all my stuffs in my bed and I slept like that.
Well, I g2g, my mom's being a bitch! lol. TTYL!
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Friday, April 14, 2006

   Another Day, Another.....
Well, it's like 11AM and I'm posting now cuz idk if I'll get to go on later. lol. My mom and dad took the day off *cries a river, builds a bridge, and jumps off*
I might go dress shopping today...for Confirmation. Man, I bet I'd look so ugly in a dress. Oh, yeah! Me poem, okay, it's long and it doesn't rhyme, and black is mah fave color.
What is Black?
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Black is a most misunderstood color

What I Say.......

Black is the dark of night and the promise of outerspace
Black is bed time
Midnight
My room at night
Black I see when I close my eyes tight
Black is the color of a good night’s rest

Black can be quiet, silent, and still
The sound of Black can be soft
like a black cat purring
or loud like my favorite rock band
Black is the color of the print that speaks to us
from the pages of books, newspapers and magazines
Black is the color of the ink I use to write
my thoughts in my journal

Black can be sweet like an overripe banana
Black can be bittersweet like the darkest chocolate
Black can be spicy like too much pepper
Black can be bitter like coffee with no milk
or the last licorice jelly beans that no one wants

Black feels like my dog’s cold and wet nose
Black feels slick like the smooth fur of my Shih-Tzu

What They Say…...

Black is evil
Black is bad luck
Black is fear
Black is a scary story
Black is a witch’s spell
Black is a creepy shadow
Black is a lie
Black is a graveyard
Black is a cold winter night
Black is wrong

Reality…...

Black is the base of all other colors
Black was the color in the beginning and will be the end
Black is the darkness that God will deliver us from

Black is the color for me.

Okay, that's it. I don't like it very much, considering I've had to type it up about 60 times. lol. I hope it rains or something, I love the rain! Oh....church. I don wanna go! *sounds like a little kid throwing a temper tantrum* But I'm head altar server....that's like 5th most important person in the Church. So I'm special (ed)lmao. Yea, so I haveta be there. Anyway, Ja Ne!

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

Dirty Work
I'm sooo happy with all the people who comment after I post something!!! *sparkly eyes* lmao, totally OOC, but ty though!
As promised I went back to the park...and I found a shit load of people cleaning up the park, and people actually IN the lake cleanin. It touched me that so many people would take a fourteen-year-old seriously.
I joined in and we had the whole park cleaned up in about 6 hours. By the way...how do you clean grafitti off of a brick wall? Beats me. That same old lady came at the end to thank me....then she patted by back as she looked at my work. I tripped and fell in the lake after she patted me....and me being slightly hydrophobic didn't help. Lmao. I took like 5 baths after that.
I also had to take a few pictures for the paper cuz I won some kinda poetry contest for the state or something like that, lol. But the photographer was a bitch. "Why is your hair in your eyes? Fix your glasses! Smile girl! Straighten up, why do your shoulders sag?!? Get your hands out of your pockets!" OMFG lady...she needed a chill pill or something.
So, if any of you guys want to read my poem I'd be happy to type it up in my next post, all ya haveta do is tell me. Ttygl, byeas~!
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

We-wo
Still got no sleep last night, freaky red-eyed lady killed me in my dream so I didn't wanna try to sleep again. Sheesh.
YAY! I'n finally off for Easter Break! I'm happy. And as a plus I got out earlier today. ^_^ And i got to go out with my boyfried! I know wht ur thinknig, but he's a boy and he's a friend. Nothing more. -^_^-
It was weird tho, I was on my way home and someone came up to me (no, not a micro mini granny). She looked like she was about 45ish, and asked me if I could rebel against something for her. And I asked how'd you know I do that kind of stuff?!? And she was like ur very infamous around town, and that I've made quite a name for myself. (oh, jeeez. didn't expect that) So i was like wht against? And she was like you'll see. I was like w/e.
She led me to the local park and to the lake. And I was like OMFG! There were like 60 people crowded around there looking very angry. She told me that she sat there everyday for a week and watched people just dump garbage into the lake, and took pictures of them and gathered them to the spot. (at this point i was like are you crazy lady?!?)
She told me that I HAD to make them stop polluting. So I stood up there (like Martin Lither King Jr. only i'm a girl and i'm white) and spoke to them with a megaphone. And it was pretty good for something I made up on the spot...lol, and they seemed pretty convinced to stop, but I haveta go back tomorrow, lol.
So that was about it today, and imma try and take a nap and see wht happens. Hopefull nothing bad. Oh and as you can see i'm still alive and my dad didn't kill me for being late, he actually forgot. But who's complaining?!!? lol
Byeas~!

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

   Tired
I'm soo tired today. I didn't get to sleep cuz all i saw in my dreams was those lady's red eyes. Well, it's not like my dreams aren't already creepy. But my friends got creeped out because I "fainted" at lunch today. Damn it, I fell asleep! lol.
But school was okay, well, except for Matt who kept poking me in the back with a pencil during our Social Studies test. That was a killer for sure.
I was late going home today from school. (you guys remember from last time wht happened when I was late) But my friend's cousin was there and he was just adorable!! Well, so I was about 30 minutes late. And I thought I was okay since when I got home my dad wasn't there, but he left about 10 messages on my phone saying that "you're dead for being late". Hehe, so I'm scared for my life right now as I'm typing this. But, oh well, not a big loss to other people out there.
I just really really hope my mom comes home before he does. Then I'll go get my hair done or something (i know it's girly for me) so i don't have to see him. Hmm...maybe i'll cut it...*evily smiles*
Well, ttyl (if i don't die before tomorrow) and i got a lot of geometry homework tonight, it looks like somone could drown in it -_-lll
Better get on it...lol. Bye~~!
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