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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Alone Again
Well, yeah, today and last night...just plain sucked.
First of all, my family and I were eating dinner together for a change...which was weird, but then I had to go to the bathroom. And when I came back they were all laughing. I checked if I had toilet paper on my foot or anything, and that was a negative NO so I was like whatever. Then after dinner I can't remember what happened. But the next thing I know it's 5:30AM and I'm sitting on my front steps, chained to the railing with the worst headache in the world...then it dawned on my, while I was in the bathroom my dad spicked my drink! He was laughing his ass off.
That sucked. Majorly. I've still got the chills from staying out there all night. And I have welts in my wrists from the chains. (where the hell did he get those?!?)
And why did today suck? Well, you know how I wrote that poem for my bestest friend, Alison? Well, I guess you can guess wht's comming next. Yeah, she just...came up to me today and told me that she didn't want to be my friend anymore. And because she's not my friend anymore, none of her friends can be my friends...so it's a whole domino chain reaction...and now I have no friends.
And I don't know why...but I had to deal with it today. I mean like, I got so sad that I worked up a 105 fever. And well, no one cares. I sat in the back of the class dying...I couldn't even pay attention to what we were doing. my body was like working on auto drive, only doing necicary things, like turning the page when everyone else turned it.
I mean...didn't anything I've ever done with her matter? Didn't my poem matter? All those friendship braclets we forced eachother to wear? When we picked eachother up when we were down? All those times we laughed together?
Well, I guess not, cuz I'm alone again now. And I don't have a reason to wake up and do things in the morning. I mean, like, all of you guys are great...but you're not here with me. And you're not there to pass notes to me during class. So, I feel alone.
And I really don't want things to go back to how they USED to be. That was the worst.
....But, if I do the "bad thing" again, she wont be there anymore, right, to tell me that it'r wrong? So, I guess that's one plus, and I guess I can finally die without being missed, right? Right.
Well, enough about me, cuz I sound like a baby's who has lost its mother. How are you guys doing? I g2g, I still have a fever and it's killing me. Bye.
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