Sunday, April 17, 2005

Hey lookie...


I adopted a cute wittle tiger....hehe.

This week has been so crazy.
Tuesday we had the Knights of the Guild come by and show us horsies. Whoopty fuckin do huh? Then I found out two guys got into a fight and both had guns. I reported them the next day...as did my friend Caitlyn. One o the guys was busted with drugs even tho he didnt have a gun. That made me laugh so hard...hehe Im evil. I also broke up with my gf Moriah. Can you (whoevers reading) belive the crazy bitch thought I was cheating on her with my friend Sarah? Though I would have if given the chance.

Wednesday, the school had a supposed gas leak. We were gonna go home, but nooo. Turns out the stupid boiler room left off a narshty gas smell and it got into the air vents.

Thursday...nothing Happened Thursday that mattered lol.

Friday was boring...but eventful towards the end. The best part of the day was doing nothing in Spanish coz our crazy teacher was gone. History was booooring...I fell asleep twice after I read 3 chapters ahead of the class. After lunch was fun...for me :D We have to be in lines to go inside after lunch, and I tend to go in the front with my friends. I was standing behind my crush Sarah, which put us really close. If that isnt good, the next part was. This girl Esmi cut behind me and pretty much pushed me into Sarah. The best part was that as close as I was, Sarah leaned back against me. Shes a lot shorter than me (which I find really cute), and I was trying to get my balace, so my arms were practically around her. It was awesome ^_^

Today on the other hand sucked...I missed my friend Makis debut...I wanted to go so bad..but I couldnt. I have a splitting headache and Im surprised I typed this much (is it alot? I cant tell XD). I was kinda depressed earlier...but Im okay now. My bro said hed take me to Diversions this Friday. Maybe I can meet up with Maki or Seth....I wanna ask Seth if I can spend the night sometime this week or next...I really need to get out of the house.
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Sunday, April 10, 2005

   Okay so its been awhile...XD
Eh...its Saturday night. Im writing poems and listening to music. And contemplating. A lot.

A few days ago I hooked up with my friend Moriah...who also happens to be the school slut. I seriously dont know why I said yes and I already want to break it off. Pointless of me I know...

I dont really get it anymore. Every time I get with someone at school, I just feel this huge emptiness. Like... I dont care what the outcome of the relationship is. I dont care if they cheat on me or if they dump me for no good reason. I cant find myself to care in the slightest as more than friends. I dont understand it. Ever since last year I either A) Like my S.O (significant other) for a little while then stop or B) Dont like my S.O at all and just said "yes" because I was bored or was in one of my: What the hell why not! moods. It might be what happened between me and my on again off again best friend/evil person/crush Devin. She was the only person I ever...I dunno. Felt like I was okay with. Barely touching her hand with mine made me shiver or blush. I dont even blush around my gf, and not when I was with my exes. She made me feel so many things and my S.Os couldnt even do that. I really loved her...I guess I still do. Maybe thats why I cant feel anything for any other people. We had a really rocky relationship (we never went out, but it was like we did lol). We got into so many fights...most of them verbal. One was a little physical, but not serious. Everyone thought she liked me back, though thats still a huuuge mystery lol...

Ah well, guess thats enough. Maybe later Ill delve into the angst ridden past that Elyssa and Devin.
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

   Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawn
Well...its been a few days but oh well. Im not gonna write much since I need to take a shower (it was hot as hell today x_x), and I need to catch up on my sleep.

Ive been playing Xenosaga Episode I lately since my bro let me put the PS2 in my room (w00t). I fell asleep on my floor today for some odd reason. The heat makes me sluggish, ah well. That or the game s cinemas, though somewhat interesting, are super long and boring. Heh.

Things have been okay recently. For me atleast. Its sad to say I found out one of my friends is taking Crystal Meth and another is having weird mood swings that are sometimes suicidal. I was surprised about my friend whos taking drugs because shes so...dorky and funny at school. She doesnt look or act like shed take something that dangerous. I cant say anything about it though...I wasnt supposed to find out. When I think about it, I know a lot about peoples personal lives and they dont know I know. If that sentence was understandable.

I went to the counselor yesterday with Kenny. I talked about my two friends and my parents making some things difficult for me. Mainly letting me hang out with my friends and (hopefully) spending the night at Melindas house on Saturday. She lives on the other side of SA...which isnt good. Maybe if Im overly nice and peppy my mom will let me go. Pssh.

Well, like I said, short rant, I gots to go get in touch with hygeine. I lost it today in the insane heat and the horrible smell that is my puppy, Sage. Oy vey.
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