Wednesday, June 22, 2005

well i'm much less stressed now! cause it's official my summer has started..i'd tell you what i got on my E.Science regents..but..i think i'll leave you in suspense for a bit longer..

when i got home, sammy was still sleeping but she stayed up with me and helped me study till 1am so i was gonna let her sleep as long as she wanted and not jump on her bed or something like i normally would..

it started pouring rain outside around 1:30pm at my house..and it was awesome! i at first thought it was fog because i couldn't see any rain..then i stepped outside and it was awesome..i could just barely hear my voice..i love the rain so much..it is so cool..i stood in it for a while..

but later i realized our garden was kinda floating away lol..well almost..and when i looked for the source i saw water pouring out of the gutter..it was coming faster than the rain itself..so i got sammy and we went around back to get 2 buckets..she de-watered the garden while i held a bucket over her head to catch the waterfall..it worked..but we had to empty the buckets every 5 minutes or so..10 if the rain slowed..finally when the rain stopped i saw that the gutter had bent from the rushing water..it was fun tho..it would have been histerical to have watched from the outside i assure you..

danny is leaving for camp so soon..i'm missing him already and he has't left yet..he's coming over tomorrow..so that should be fun..

still not in a good mood about sleeping over at my grandma's..ugh..

my physical therapist for my knee told me today i'm improveing..in my lifting excersies i've gone up 1lb. and in my force one i'm lifting 5more lbs..so i'm hoping that's all good news..and i hope that i CAN play soccer in the fall and basketball later too..
Loudmusic>gotta jet
Time>10:23pm
p.s. i'll fill you in on my regents score b4 i sign off..
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

it's official..i've lost my mind over this Earth Science regents..we were not well prepared..tho i can't entirely blame the teacher cause it was on us to make up for what she messed up on..i did alot of the work..but i missed a little more than 2 weeks because of my knee and i never made up for the stuff i missed..

i'm literaly sick to my stomach..again..this is the 2nd time i've been sick because of this stupid regents..i got a 21 out of a possible 23 on my practicle part of the exam..but in order to get a 71 or higher i have to get 50 out of 84 questions right..and you're thinking oh that's not too bad there are 84 questions..it wouldn't be too bad if i had studied more..lots more..i looked back on teh 2004 june E.S. regents..and more than half of that stuff was new to me..

what if i fail! what then!?! i let down, my teachers, my family(esp. my dad), and myself..i couldn't handle that you guys..i really couldn't..danny told me recently that i've been kind of "out of it"..it's the test..i'm so stressed over it..he's coming over on thursday w/ his brother and sister..if i fail this i won't be the best of company..

i've been studying since i woke up from a nap i took at from 12 to 1..and i still feel unprepared..my best friend white is trying to calm me down..but there isn't much he can do..i mean can he send my brain all the knowledge it needs to pass this test..i wish..

sorry to be buggin you all w/ this..

on a not much better note..my cousin Michelle is coming up for the weekend..and that's cool and all..but i have to spend the night(friday)at my grandmothers..i can't physically sleep there..i hate sleeping there..so much..last time i was there i got a total of 1 hour of sleep..it's so uncomftorable..i hate it..

on an even sadder note danny is going to camp soon..i'm going to miss him so much..i really am..i love him so much..i'll be writing and calling and trying to visit..::sigh::..
Loudmusic>gotta jet
Time>10:09pm
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Sunday, June 19, 2005

Fathers Day
well..today our power went out for some reason..so brenda woke up at 9:00am and came in saying we lost power and that we missed sunday school..which stunk cause i love my sunday school class..

i saw danny's hair today, it is pretty much the same color as brian's so it's kinda cool cause the whol grad class is blonde lol..his mom is giving him alot of problems about it tho..which is stupid..but i won't elaborate..i think he should do whatever he wants,he knows his boundaries.

i took my dad out to lunch at subway today, he was happy about it so i was glad about that..we saw the valencia's there, and it was kinda funny cause dad had this feeling we would see someone there we knew..and there they were..

i got my practicle for my earth science regents tomorrow..i'm not doing so well thinking about it..ugh..i keep forgetting things i know i know and it's really upsetting..i was sick to my stomach yesterday..
Loudmusic>gotta jet
Time>10:45pm



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Saturday, June 18, 2005

welll..last night i slept over at Grace's house, that was eventful as usual. i had a good time..i played some ddr even though i'm really not supposed to..but i don't think i did that much damage..

grace bought the sims2 the other day, and her comp won't take it..the game downloaded..but the computer can't find the directx 9.0 video card..it's really annoying..i searched her whole computer for it and it isn't there i tell you! and mr.davis(grace's dad) downloaded it quite a few times so it really is rather annoying cause that game is awesome!..

right now i'm watching Anime..

oh! guess what i woke up to today..obviously i was at the davis's..but anyway..phil's alarm went off at 5:30am! i was like "phil turn that off" and he just grumbled and grace and i watched him roll over..then grace got up and smacked him and said " turn that off you idiot!" that alarm had a really annoying sound..and then the rooster's(the davis's live on a farm) wouldn't stop crowing!! it was so annoying..so grace went down stairs and chased them away..but they came back..we didn't fall back to sleep for quite a while because they came back..

my dad picked me up from their house at 3:30pm ish and brenda(my step-mom) my dad and i went to a grad party for one of brenda's relatives..it was kinda boring but i stuck it out..

well on monday i have the practicle for my earth science regents..trust me there will be lots of cramming..pray for me will you please..i'm kinda worried about this test..
Loudmusic>gotta jet
Time>10:16pm
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Thursday, June 16, 2005

"Haunted"-Evanescence
::sigh:: well i officaially wish i could rewind and take the Math A regents over..i got an 80..that sucks..i don't get 80's in math..i'm not one of those people who MUST HAVE STRAIGHT A's..i just know that i don't get lower than a 90 in math..and so i'm kinda upset..

well anyway..enough of me complaining to you..

after the regents the davis's came to pick me up and bring me home but they invited me to go to kingston w/ them and we had a good time..

well..my mom has been crying for a lil while..because we can't see her again this weekend and that makes 4 weeks in a row..so i do feel bad..we have our ups and downs but i still love her..

wish me luck w/ school..i have until the 22nd..that is the day of my earth science regents..pray for me please..i'm worried about that one more than ever now..
Loudmusic>gotta jet
Time>10:47pm





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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

"Step-Up"-Avril Lavigine
well..todya was more of waking up at 7am..just to go to school till 11:45..i would like to have school at 11:45 to 3pm..or not at all..i should really take that up w/ New York State..

i'm cramming for my Earth Science regents..doing 3 chapters a night..and the questions even if they aren't assigned..i think it's kinda stupid because i lose sleep over it..math is better tho..i think i'm doing well in that..no cramming at home..just at school..

brian dyed his hair..it's very bright now..he should take a pic of it and show you guys..he's Twilight Force by the way..he won't go swimming at my house yet not for another day cause he doesn't want it to turn too much of a strange color..

danny's grandama is still at his house..till tomorrow i think..tomorrow is his brother's birthday..but my sister has no money right now so i think his birthday present will be a bit late..

ahh regents..sorry..i guess thes testing is getting to me..it's time for me to step up some..i glided through this year..and now i have to pay for it..i may have had a good average but i didn't work that hard for it..not all the time..i guess it depended i did work veyr hard sometimes..but i guess now is one of those times..
Loudmusic>gotta jet
Time>10:29pm
p.s.wish me luck for the remainder of my school stuff..i have till..june 23rd..cause 22nd is my last regents..so no more after that..







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Monday, June 13, 2005

"Easier To Run"-Linkin Park
wellll..today was the 1st day of my full blown regents review stuff..ugh..don't live in new york or california people..

ron is teaching both classes for now, so it's fun, we were doing density and mass w/ candy bars..so that was sweet..oops..lol i guess literally..

i had 3 chapters to read for earthscience..ugh..i'm a little more than halfway done w/ it..so it's not too hard..but if i highlight and read aloud it registers better..but i often find myself thinking of somthing else..and have to snap out of it..

well danny's grandma likes me..his mom pulled me out of regents review math just to tell me how much..lol i was very confused to say the least..

parker, brian, grace, and phil all came over today after school..(school ended at 11:45, i got home at 12:30 in teh afternoon..oh and it started at 8:30ish)..it was fun..

loudmusic>gotta jet
time>10:23pm
p.s. gotta finish up my homework


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Sunday, June 12, 2005

well..now i know why i was upset today..and why danny didn't say much of anything..

i'm such a freaken moron..i really suck..i really really really suck..

..i didn't hug my bf on the day he graduated out of school..i feel terrible..but here's why..(that "but" is not an excuse i deserve for him to be upset..i'm just upset w/ myself for hurting him..)

something got around to my dad..someone told him that danny and i broke the physical contact rule and hugged him tha last day of school..i wish i had..but i didn't..so he was all over me today about huggin danny or ever getting too close to him..

so i didn't hug him all day..if i had..i would most like have cried..i'm not worth your time..sorry for bothering you guys..
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"In The End"-Linkin Park
well..it's the near end for the seniors..danny, grace, and brian officially graduated today..a few tears escaped my eyes while i was listening to each of them..they all have a special place in my heart and i will miss every moment i'm not with them..i will miss their humor..and their fun attitudes..i will miss their leadership..i will miss them..

i know grace and danny will be around for a couple of years..but brian is going away..i don't think i'll do to well with that when the time comes..i know that today it finally hit me that they are all..grown up..

at the grad party i was having fun for a while but for some reason i ended up all down..and i'm not entirely sure why..cause some cool stuff did happen today..most of it i knew would happen..but no one believes me except one person..and i can't elaborate on that..sorry..

i hurt my knee again recently..one of my teachers was chasing me w/ a water gun and i didn't wanna get in my dads new van all wet so i moved to quick in one direction and now i have a knot in my knee..i'm so mad at myself..you have no idea how angry at myself i am..

i met danny's grandma today, she's nice, she said "you're darling"..right..then danny's mom was all" oh kate's the brains of the Bartholomew family..and she's in my advanced english class.." and much more but luckily i had to jet so i wasn't stuck listening to mrs.valencia say nice things about me that i don't deserve..

danny said little to me today..dunno why..i talked more to his friend parker than him..mostly about sports and i think he's a little surprised that i know what i know..but it was cool...

i need to get a new icepack for my knee..
Loudmusic>gotta jet
Time>9:43pm
p.s. i have to regents to take..math A on thursday..and on the 22nd my earth science..i HATE earthscience..
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Friday, June 3, 2005

"Falls on Me"-Lifehouse
lets see..today was a good day..i hung out in the morning at school..
danny got me a lil stuffed animal and it's quite cute..

i'm tierd right now..and kinda hurtin..cause i "played" basketball today..even tho i'm not supposed to..and guess what..i made more shots than the guys..it was great..but now its painful..-_-

tomorrow i have to go to my grandma's and she treats me like i'm 5 so that's no fun..but my cousin matt who is a marine is coming to visit so that's my upside..

sammy is at a girls sleepover at the dome..so i get to use up her aim time and sleep in my room w/o her loud noises..
Loudmusic>gotta jet
Time>10:25pm
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