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Birthday
• 1989-01-22
Gender
• Female
Location
• Talk to me and you'll find out.
Member Since
• 2003-09-27
Occupation
• Your Hopeless Romantic Otaku...and i mean hopeless
Real Name
• just im me (msn im: Rurouni_warrior@hotmail.com

Personal

Achievements
• Realize people aren't always how they seem. but also that some people's kindness can save your life.....thanks Ume-kun.....
Anime Fan Since
• For a long while. Probably will always be an otaku.
Favorite Anime
• Inuyasha,RK,Generator Gawl,Fruits Basket,And well to make it short almost all anime out there.
Goals
• To finally find my other half, to be loved by somebody i love.....(i finally found him!!!! i love you Dani!!!!!)
Hobbies
• Drawing,reading, writing songs and poems and such. being an otaku
Talents
• Playing both Bass and Drums, Drawing pretty damn well(fanart are bad examples), loyal

myOtaku.com: Lovehasfailedme

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Ok i take it that hardly any of you know what's going on in my life so here's the update. I gained a crush on someone named Kurt and realized i'd never have a chance in the world. i gave up on him and now we are great friends. i now have a bigger crush on a friends named Nate. He's wonderful but i know this will never go anywere either. I just found out that the love of my life, my first love, Ryan, thinks of me here is our e-mail to eachother so far:
Me-Hi Ryan....
>Um... Im glad that we've been talking more lately.......ive been
thinking
>of something lately and i really need to talk to you about it. A long
while
>ago you sent me an e-mail telling me that youll always love me no
matter
>what well i just need to know if thats still true. I mean i belived
that to
>this day but my belief as sortof faded lately and i just need to
reasure
>myself that the one person i truly do love is still in love with
me....im
>sorry if this seems akward to you but ive been thinking about it for a
long
>while now and contemplating it with myself and i just had to let you
>know....I still love you more that anything in the world but it hurts
me
>sometimes cause i think that im just fooling myself that youd still
love
>me. i don't deserve your love but just that gift alone would make me
the
>happenest woman or girl in the world! it may seem like im being a
little
>dramatic but its true. i love you so much and i need to knoe how you
feel
>about me. i need to know this so that i
> know im not just fooling myself again. if...if you dont love me
anymore
>than at least i can know that theres is no chance of haveing your love
back
>and that i just really need to move on. you were and still are my
first
>true love. Other might think its stupid because of our age but love
has no
>age....at least thats what i believe in. just please. e-mail me back
>telling me how you feel so that i can finally be free from this
thaught
>that has been clawing at my mind for the longest time now. Thank you
for
>everything....
>I love you....
>Godnight...
>~Jess
Ryan-i still love u, im not sure in what way, but i will love u forever i
think u
should move on though despite how i feel. all i have ever brought u is
missery
Me-That's not true....the confusion of everything that's going on in my life brings me missery. sure you've made me sad a few times but not really seriously hurt me untill you broke up with me. i will try to move on though and i might call you later today. love you
bye
~Jess
And thats it so far. i need help with this. i know i must move on and i told him i'd try but i love him so much. I can try to make things work out with Nate but i doubt a higher realationship is even possible. I'd like to come to all my friends here on myotaku to help me on this. I relized that you've all never really known me personally, the real me, besides a few of you like Nitz, Chris, Emily, and Richard. i know that i have to open up more often to make our friendships worthwhile and i would love for you all to do the same. thanks for evenrything and please send comments or PMs to help out with thins. Thank you...all of you.
Till net time, farewell.
~Sango
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