Friday, November 17, 2006

More Poetry from ANA here
I know alot of you hate myspace.com, but if you like my poetry, you can go to :

My URL
http://www.myspace.com/lielani

My Blog URL
http://blog.myspace.com/lielani

check me out if you get the chance- my poetry is the only thing really there. Unless you need lyrics or pictures and etc. TTYL
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   What If - written at 7:25pm centraltzusa
What if....

Tomorrow never came?

What if....

I vanished from you, would your life still be the same?

What if....

I said I loved you- would you say it too?

What if....

I let go of everything and let you do what you wanted to?

What if....

I cared so much that my own happiness was not enough, but your ment much more?

What if....

You really loved me more than I did you- or better, yet- the same, right down to my inner core?

What if....

I believed all your lies?

What if....

I broke all my bonds for you, as well as my ties?

What if....

I loved you so much I gave you every bit of me, even when it hurt me?

What if....

You loved me so much you didn't ask it of me?

What if....

Our love could last forever and love could hold us together?

What if....

What if is a question I could ask always and forever.

Like what if I was the only one for you?

Or what if when we said "I do" you'ld feel it too?

What if you could hold me up and let me love you?

What if I was the only one in your life made just for you?

What if you loved me more than anyone?

Just like I love you more than anyone.

What if... there's a million of them,

But I do know this- my life without you is nothing but a sin.



by: ANA


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Friday, November 10, 2006

   Pics and a smokin' car...go figure
You guys probably wounder where the pictures are, right? Well... my husband and I have one, yes one, vehicle and I was planning on visiting white dragon until... yup until.... the vehicle blew up. So we had to buy a new one and I'll be waiting until we get enough money up for me to head over there. Thanks be to God that nothing really bad happened to us cuz we were both driving down main st. in traffic when it blew. So... until I get the money up to make the drive, I'm sry guys.
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Monday, October 30, 2006

   Hay- its a quickie:
I'm having a baby girl!!!! I had to tell you all. >p>
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Update on art and etc.
I currently lost inspiration on my art- I'm multi-talented or just a jack of trades when you get right down to it. Sometimes I'm inspired to draw, or paint or write or whatever. The pregnancy is driving these urges mad... I think I'll finish painting a statue tomm. and then write a rough draft for a new book and then I should be ready to finish up my 2 drawings. I was xperimenting anime art with gel coloring... looks funny- don't try it. I'll also be finishing up my "self portraits" then the cross and hopefully in nov. ask my hubby to take me to white dragon for scanning. She might help me out with some new tips... hay- this will be the 1st time white dragon has met my hubby ^u^.

Well- until I get all that done- I was xperimenting with my site as well in the area of looks- maybe this one is too guady- I might want to update ... Well- wish me luck and ciao. (sry i don't have accents on here.)

TTYL
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Friday, September 29, 2006

   "backroads" by Tawni O'Dell
I just re-read 'backroads' by Tawni O'Dell, such a great book I recommend reading it- but you should be atleast 16 or older- it is quite graphic. The end disturbed me- but in the epolague I was given comfort- you must read that part, you miss a big part of the ending if you don't.
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

   News/ poem Ashamed by ANA
I will be moving on the 1st of October- so it will be a little while b/4 I'm back on- I will take this time to pack and unpack and draw more pictures to give whitedragon when i visite her...b/c I shall take her from her comfy home and comp to visit mine :P.

This poem below was inspired, of course by Seether's The Gift. Thank you Seether for a song that touched my soul and person. My poem is about and angel that fell from grace to meet a mortal who she saved- but in reality, he saved her- and she's confessing her sins to him.


Ashamed

Baby, can I tell you a secret?
Baby, promise me you'll keep it?
Hold me now I need to feel relief,
Hold me close like I'm your one belief.

I'm so ashamed of defeat-
So afraid of the truth you might seek.
I know I don't belong here with you,
I know the life I lead is trouble for you.

But I can't lose you-because you're my light.
I can't look inside the mirror anymore, but I might.
You give me a love so unbelievable- but I'm afraid,
Of the mess in my life that I've made.

I know I can't hide who I am-
But maybe there's a way you can...
Can you understand I'm not well?
That this life I've led is hell?

I'm out of reasons to believ in me,
I've been in this dark so long that I can't see.
You're my angel and my grace, you're my precious sweet,
Hold me now so I can feel complete.

I'm so ashamed of this life...
This pain that's like a knife-
I'm so ashamed of me-
Don't look at me-

Please, angel, forgive me-
Please angel- love me.
Hold me high and set me free.
Set me free from this life and me.

But you must know-
Before we go-
I'm so afraid of this love that you give me,
I'm so afraid that, like others, you'll leave me.


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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

   Update on postings and pictures
I'm sorry all you guys- still trying to get a fairly good amount of art together (that looks decent) before I take the long drive over to whitedragon's house -_- just to scan and post these. Yet as you can imagine- it is a ways out there and I don't want to waste gas (and the money- can't believe the gas prices v_v) to drive out there and only post a few. And- on the plus side, I'm working on getting a laptop and a scanner/printer so I can do this a little easier. I do appologize for the delay- I'll have whitedragon notify all of you (that check her religiously) for info on the picture post so u don't have to waste space waiting for me to get some up. Thanks for your interest in me- just be patient, please, and thanks to all those that are and still continue to comment on my writtings. Cross your fingers and maybe I'll finish soon.
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Monday, September 18, 2006

   My Sorrow
I gave you everything I had to offer you.
I gave you love and did all I could do.
You cut me deep and broke my heart.
You left me laying falling all apart.
I'ld die to know you love me.
I'ld die to know you miss me.
Even though I was your sacrafice,
Even though I paid the price-
When I left you didn't notice anything.
I left, on your pillow, your ring,
And yet, you don't try to remember us...
You won't remember us.
So I cry alone, isn't someone missing me?
Why aren't you missing me?
If I bleed- will you even care?
If I fall will you even be there?
All alone in the dark,
My world shattered apart.
Is someone loving me?
Isn't someone missing me?
Maybe somday....
Maybe someway....
Someone's loving me...
Someone's missing me....
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My Winter's White Rose; my most popular poem published.
A winter's rose is bright and true
White as snow with eyes so blue
You cared for me
Through the storms you helped me see
The light that shines in me
You took this broken dove and set her free
In all my life i will never find another like you
You were my star and inpiration, now you've left and what do i do?
Where did you go to and why did you leave
When the trumpets sounded you wouldn't breath
You took part of me with you when you went
The rose so shining now seems bent
But all I have to do
Is close my eyes and I see you
My love for you will stay everlasting and true
Though my heart aches and cries for you
My rose lives on through me
He pushes me to be the best that I can be
For that,I love you always Daddy
You made my life joyous and happy.

By:ANA
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