Saturday, November 3, 2007

my mind isant feeling well
things i ask or wonder...

am i really good enough? she says i am, and it not that i dont beleive her, its just i just dont thing i am. i cant be. i guess im in a down mood ATM... but its not something that just came about, i guess i have always not felt like im god enough for anything or anyone. there isant one thing that i do that makes me eel good about myself. and its usally just doesnt feel fair. i guess i dont deserve to let my self to feel happy, or almost just afriad to. im just letting everyone down. i feel like im trested like this no body, no matter what i do for ppl. and i dont do things for a thank you or a reward...i just feel like i should feel good about myself about it and i dont. this is often upsetting...and i guess it doesnt bother me to be upset... i just dont ever have a shoulder...

idk, maybe im just being all whatever and things will get better... i try so hard to look on the bright side of things.

i know she things im special, but i dont feel special for anything else. i know this isant coming out right so if she reads this she may get mad at me. not like anyone will you know.

i dont know what else to say, i mean i would just vent to someone but i dont trust anyone with my feelings, and she just get mad at me which makes me feel worse. so i'm typing this out, and actully hope she'll read and understand and just be there for me. i dont like it when you mad at me for how i feel. i cant help it, plz just be there for me...

well i'll stop before i cant stop actully showing how i feel infront of these hundreds of ppl, and its REALLY hurting my throat. tear are already running down my face, but my facial expressions are normal. thats good atleast

more then anything i wish i could make ppl and her happy. and i feel like i fail on that alot. well im gonna go. byes.

PS im so srry if your upset with me when you do read this, that not what im trying to do. V_V
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Sunday, September 9, 2007

six flags is now closed... in 5 minutes
Things are better with my penguin and I. not that things were bad, she had just been really stressed. I hope this weekend made up for things a bit. I love you so much.

so theres this third party that i do not want to discuss, but i hate them for their ways. that is all on that

my mother called me today and told me she had to put my dog to sleep. my peguin helped me get through it soon after i was told. I'm sad about about it tho. I just wish i could have said goodbye. so i hope this makes up for it... Bye teeka, I'm glad feeling better V_V. that was hard to type...

antways... i miss my penguin already. shes that greatest, she really is.
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Friday, September 7, 2007

not a good week
ok well on top of being sick which involves dizzyness and the temperary fevor. I have to work... but im putting that on hold till i can think strait.

i was told something today that is bothering me to no end and i really ned to talk to my penguin about it. and I think she fell asleep, so i hope she doesnt mind me called in the morning.

stupid insecurities... i hate them...and they happen at the same time and in the same situations... but i guess now im realizing that and i can start to handle it better. one onw thing it that im usally wrong...and its bothering me and i cant say anything about it. if that even made sence. I miss my penguin so much it hurts, and idk...she seems to not like it when i mis her...and i dont mean it that way it sounds....im just venting...

well i cant focus on typing anymore, i g2g...laterz
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Tuesday, September 4, 2007

sick days
this is the first day i havent had a headache and a fevor...yay...this morning it was bad...101.9 fevor...but now its 98.8 i felt so releifed... and idk y, but im so dizzy. typing this seems like a chore. The doctor says i have bronchidis(sp?) which it plain stupid. but i dk what else to beleive. any hoo. i misses my penguin. shes so stressed, i wish i could just make things all better for her. im gonna find a graphing calulator for her, shes in desperate need.

hmm...

well anyhoo, i g2g

dont do drugs kids
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Friday, August 17, 2007

Why gay marriage is wrong.
WHY GAY MARRIAGE IS WRONG

1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

(one of the saddest parts about our society is that these arguments, before the humorous common sense, are the real reasons why people can't accept gay marriages.)
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

hmmm....
I'm procastinating again...i should be getting down to work soon.

my birthday is sunday... im not sure if i should be happy about it, but idk...any hoo...

I need realiable ppl... tear
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Wednesday, August 8, 2007

OMG GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE HTML!!!! I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!1

its like
wkdnfwonf="eihbffbjebrfejnferfefed"jhehfkjsdvkjsdfvkjsdfskjdfsdkfvbsdvkjedferferjferjfnekjrfnbekjbvekfjekjbfekhbrfelrnfjk
and it makes something like

Blah

and its so frikin tedious.... i want to hurt something......screaming will make thats feels better but no, i'll wake ppl up....EF YOU HTML

now i know whatever i need to know about it...i new plenty b4, now i know ....grr...ok, thats enought of my ranting. T_T
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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

and thus, your pwneg will be promised









wiat...can u hear that...almost....and there it is!!!!!!!!!

pwned!
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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

my retaliation!!
Cats of DOOMNESS









u just got pwned
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Sunday, July 22, 2007

this is from the bottom of my heart
Voldemort kills Snape. Harry marries Ginny (3kids). Ron marries Hermione (2kids). Fred Weasley dies. Hedwig dies. Dobby dies. Mad-eye dies. Harry dies and comes back to life....

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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