Thursday, February 2, 2006

   slowly but surely
slowly but surely my life is getting better. i've been staying after more n' more which means that i sit at home and be bored less and less;) i'm going on the ski trip in february and i got my skies, and the boots, and someone said i can borrow their poles! which means that i could be all set to go! so i'm pretty excited for that. of course life isn't perfect, far from it, but it's not bad. and i don't expect it to get bad. so i guess that's good. my blood sugars have been leveling out;) and tomorrow i get to stay after again, which means once again, i may get bored (that's always an option cuz ya never know what could happen) but it will be more fun then sitting at home being bored. o i got the part that i wanted in the play too! i'm playing james, he has a decent amount of lines, but the lines are like 1 on this page and 2 on the next, so i'll have to know my cues pretty well. well i have a history test today:( so i better go and study like mad for it. how are you guys doing? anyone looking forward to the end of the school year yet? (i'm not)
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Sunday, January 29, 2006

   getting better
well i decided that i'm just gunna be stupid n' not say nething. i mean who cares? so i worked today for 7 and 1/2 hrs. it was really busy @ first, but then it slowed down, n' then i was busy, but not w/ customers. n' surprisingly i worked that much, but today was a good day. maybe i should spend less time on my comptuer??? prob will never happen cuz i just like my computer to much;) so i've almost watched the entire 5th season of friends tonight! laur n' i r talking n' her n' i r making plans to rule the world, so i'm not all alone. jenny n' i finially talked, it was good. she wants to come and visit but whenever she can i am never there. o so tomrrow i might have to work but hopefully not. if not i'm probably going to church (unless i use the sick card) and then going to tim hortons which is now open in my town 24/7... which means that i can walk down there RIGHT NOW AND GET A CAPPACINO! n' it is w/in walking distance;) hmmm... well how was yr guys' day?
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Saturday, January 28, 2006

   i'm just sad at the moment
so it hasn't been a bad day, but not a GREAT day. it's weird lately, that's how all my days have been. i feel like i'm not giving my days credit if i'm just like, yes they're good or yes they're bad, i dunno. so y am i sad u ask? well it all started when the girl i liked told me about this guy that she'll never stop liking, so i decided i'm going to stop going for her cuz i'd just be mean if i tried to break them up (which i could do;)) then from there i decide i'm going for someone else. ya know ask all the questions u can cuz the person u want to ask them to might not be here the next day! so i brought some things up w/ the girl that everyone knows i like.. it was going well, then one of my friends starts talkign to her n' tells her that he liked her n' she says she liked him! then the person tells me (which is totally true) that she doesn't know i exist... i mean it's true, but i don't want to hear that. then i'm talking to someone n' this person doens't know who i am, so it's fun... then the same person im's her n' tells her not to talk to me! i'm like WTF!! but then i thought about it, the person asked y i was acting so pissy, n' i just said ferget it:( cuz i know that bringing things up isn't good, cuz i don't want to lose someone over a girl, especially one that will never hook up w/ me... so not over a girl, n' if i did confront the person then it wouldnt' be good. i mean y lose a friend over something like this right??? i dunno??? what do u guys think?
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Saturday, January 21, 2006

   what's happening?
!~!WHAT'S HAPPENING!~! i really don't know. things just seem to be crashing to my side. nothing seems to working out for me. it's so weird. my grades are lower then they've ever been, family: well it's just not good, school: so many people, so little expression. it's just weird, so different, n' i don't know what i've changed. i can't balance everything nemore. i mean family, school work, social life, friends, computer time, homework, studying, it just can not add up. and then i've been over analizing all of my friendships w/ almost everyone. i know i've scared people away, which can be fun, but i just havn't really been trying to fit in as much nemore, it's just to hard. but i just don't care what people think of me, MOST PEOPLE! but then my over analizing problem has been at an all time high. is ne1 else feeling like this. and JENNY IF YOU'RE READING THIS Y DON'T U UPDATE, OR EMAIL ME, OR SOMETHING! U JUST VANISHED!

Whoever you are, there is a younger person who thinks you are perfect. There is some work that will never be done if you don't do it. There is someone who would miss you if you were gone. There is a good reason for becoming better than you are. There is a place that you alone can fill.
Unknown
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Sunday, January 1, 2006

   NUMA NUMA
Well this is the first song i started with for 2006!


http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/numa.php


totally rocks my world! so far the new year has been filled with so many emotions it really is crazy. well gunna go check somethings now, school starts tuesday!
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Friday, December 30, 2005

   friday morning
well it's friday morning, 2:05am. i gotta work tomorrow @ 1130, but i really don't wanna go to bed. i'm watching friends @ the moment. ne1 like friends here? well after i work we're going to see king kong, it should be really good. it's 3hrs long. well the days r just dragging on longer n' longer. vacation sucks so bad. but i know i won't wanna go back to school when i have to, i don't like change even if it's for the better. well here's another quote. how r u guys doin'? ne1 else hate vacation?


I feel nothing, apart from a certain difficulty in continuing to exist.
Bernard de Fontenelle
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Thursday, December 29, 2005

   current mood: anxious
So ya life's not going to bad, although it's going to good either. so i guess it's all good. i'm currently saving up for a skiing trip in february. i need around $500, so far i've saved up $145. but paychecks come in tuesday n' last week i worked my ass off. if all else fails i can just borrow the money n' pay back whoever i borrow from. my christmas rocked, i got a laptop from my dad, n' a trip to nyc january 14th to see the phantom of the opera! i love my laptop n' i use it all day, but i can't wait for the nyc trip! i've decided that i'm going to clean my room again today, i've kinda been hanging out here alot trying to act invisible, which btw has been working great. today i'm playing the sick card. we have company over n' i don't,..., well,..., click w/ them. yesterday i almost got in trouble for not hanging out, so today i decided i had better come up w/ an excuse. don't wanna get every sick right;) well how was yr guyz christmas?

Robert Green Ingersoll: Quote: Hope
The greatest test of courage on earth is to bear defeat without losing heart.
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Sunday, December 25, 2005

merry christmas
just wanted to say really quick...
!~!MERRY CHRISTMAS!~!
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Saturday, December 24, 2005

   what i'm doing today
So, this will take up the entire post so i'm just going to tell you what i'm going to do today. I got home around 930am, and now it's 140pm, not much done, but alot to do. k so pretty soon my mom n' step dad will get home and i'm going to hang out with them awile then go to my dads house to open a christmas eve present. and then back here to open a chrtistmas eve present. and then hanging out here till about 1am or 2am then going back over there till around noon. then back to here to hang out with my mom and stuff, open things up here, then up to my grandma's house, then back to my moms house. should be fun right? hope so. what r u guyz doin'?

Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around.
Vanilla Sky

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

leaving for skiing trip
Well i'll be leaving today for the skiing trip. which means that i won't be able to update till saturday. vacation doesn't totally suck, and life isn't HORRIBLE, it's jsut hell on earth ;) tomorrow i'm making a 9ft sub @ work. it shoudl be interesting. i wanna pull an all nighter tonight, but i know that'd be insanely stupid, which is y i might do it. these quotes are so much fun to look up. u guys should take it up. well leave me a ton of comments cuz i'm gunna want them when i get back. o n' tell me what u guys r gunna be doing.:) thanx

Do more than exist, live. Do more than touch, feel. Do more than look, observe. Do more than read, absorb. Do more than hear, listen. Do more than listen, understand. Do more than think, ponder. Do more than talk, say something.
John H Rhoades

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