Friday, September 28, 2007

   New Begginings!!

Okay so it's been about a year since I was last on! Geez thats hard to believe. I have a couple other online journals so i kinda just forgot about this one! i'm sorry so sorry! So lets see, whats new..well I re did my site for october Death Note style! Ummm what else. OH yeah! So back in December I moved out into my own little apartment. Everything was going good until i quit my job at SEARS and started partying every night. Plus I had two roomates who didn't pay rent for the whole five months they were there. So now I'm living with my grandma and trying to get financialy stable. And soon I'm also gonna be moving to California and I'm just super exctited about that!! It'll be amazing. I'm also kinda trying to find myself a new boyfriend or girlfriend. I'm sorta lonely but it's not that bad. Baisically I'm just trying to better myself. ya know. Hopefully things will turn out the way i plan.

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Sunday, October 8, 2006

A Current Update On The Life Of Me!

So I bought The Little Mermaid special edition DVD and soundtrack today! I'm so excited to watch it! I absolutly LOVE the little mermaid! Its one of my most favorite movies. This girl I know told me today she had never seen it! That's like the saddest thing I've ever heard! *TEAR* Also I seem to have gotten a boyfriend. I wasn't really even expecting anything like that to happen. I mean i wasn't expecting it at all! lol! That doesn't mean I'm not happy though. I am, I'm just gonna have to be very good and remember that now I have to dedicate my time to that person just as well as to others and other things. This is always a complicated thing for me but I'm gonna try my hardest! I'm going to go and try to get a job at a bank. I think I'm gonna go put in more applications Wednesday. Don't get me wrong my current job isn't bad its just that working at a bank gives you so many benefits that will just work better for me. Speaking of things of benefit, I'm so very much looking forward to hopefully attending at least some college classes next fall! I just really need the mental stimulation which is weird cause i hate school. I'm also gonna take some Japanese courses in the summer. If I do it then I'll Be able to get a full year in just three months! That way I can succsessfully make a trip to Japan in the Winter! I should have enough money by then but saving is soooooooooo hard! I hate it cause there are so many things out there worth spending my money on! Ah Well! The other night my friend showed me a song he wrote. It was so awesome! I REALLY liked it. I'm still having a hard time just putting what i thought about it into words! I'm so proud of him! He did such a good job! It'll be even better when he shows the rest of the band and they all give their opinions to make it even better! I'm so excited for them! Not just that song but all the stuff I've heard so far from them is totally awesome! I went over to talk to my friend Lelia today. She said she hadn't been eating very much and felt tired so before she went to work I brought her some really yummy cheesecake! It made her happy! I went to ask her opinion on some things. She gives the most awesomest advice! I honestly don't know what I would do without her! She always listens to my bitching and moaning with a friendly ear. She keeps me grounded ya know. Thanks Lelia! Geez this went way longer than I intended! I guess I better stop here. -Laterz

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Thursday, October 5, 2006

A mixture of current thoughts

Lets see... so last night I went and spent the night with Lelia. It was super fun as usual! We actually didn't do much though. We went to michals to get some art supplies and then came home and sat in her room drawing. I worked more on the shading and detail of my picture. Its coming along rather nicely. The hardest part is the hair! Its so difficult and you have to be careful because one wrong line can fuck up the whole thing! The other day when I was sick I went to the book store to kinda stock up. I got Angel Sanctuary vol 3, this months Newtype, a really pretty journal with a whole bunch of love quotes in it and illustrtions, and a book on Taoism. Its a super interesting religion and I'm really enjoying learning about it! So the Decaying Processes next show is on the 29th. I'm super excited to go and a few of my friends are joining me so that should be fun. I can't wait to hear what the guys can do, so far I've only heard one song and it had no lyrics and is on their myspace, hearing them live will be completly different. I'm confident that they'll be awesome though, They seem to be so comfortable in this new band and it really should work to their benefit! Well I gotta get ready for work so that'll be it for now! -Laterz

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Friday, September 29, 2006

Geez I'm Tired!

I'm gonna apologize in advance for any spelling errors. I'm super tired and well, thats my excuse. I'm so happy because I have tommorrow off! I am liking my job less and less. I really want something new but I'm gonna wait till I turn 18 just cause things will be far easier that way. I'm currently working on a new drawing. its a girl with her back turned and looking back. She has flowers in her hair nd a beautiful poofy dress but she's also holding a gun loosly and she looks really maloncholy. I'm gonna draw her on a terrace under the moon and then turn it into a giant painting! SQEEEE! I'm sooooo excited!!! Well I guess thats it for now. -Laterz

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Monday, September 25, 2006

Writings On The Wall...

Today while I was out eating with my family something interesting happend and it affected me deeply. After eating I went to the bathroom and there on that tan wall to the left of me was a tiny inscription. The writting was slanted so I had to tilt my head a bit to see the neat little letters that spelled out a message so clear and true. It was something I would have never guessed to find in a bathroom. The writing read: "Life Is Never Worthless" Something so little affected me in a very big way. I've been feeling a little down lately and I know it's a small combination of things but most of all my own feelings of worthlessness. The one thing I want more than anything is to make an impact in this world, to leave my mark, so to speak. So far I feel I haven't done that, but that little message gave me hope. The person who wrote it understood that you can make a difference just by how you affect those you meet and form relationships with. After reading it I felt a bit better and decided to relay that same message to anyone who reads this. If you don't believe me, thats fine, you may understand someday... Who knows, if your reading this maybe I've been of some worth to you without knowing it, or it could very possibly be the opposite. -Later

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Sunday, September 17, 2006

Anime Orgy!

Hey guys! Well I'm super happy because a couple of days ago my InuYasha 3rd season box set came and I watched the whole thing in a little less than two days! It made me so happy! I was jumping around my kitchen like a loon! I also just orderd the box set of .hack//SIGN so I can't wait for that to arive. I've seen the whole thing but I just don't have it! I'm also looking into buying a laptop! There sooo expensive though. ah well thats what payment plans are for! Well that's about it for today. I'll probably be on again tommorrow! -Laterz

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Friday, September 8, 2006

Alice Nine!

While I was on one of you guys' sites I found about Alice Nine and so I did a little research and not only are they gorgeous but I really like their music! Man I want a guy who looks like one of them! I think I found me a new obsession!

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Tuesday, September 5, 2006

Will you come play in the clouds with me?

Hullo everyone! How are ya'll? Me I'm a little sick but its alright. I changed my site, The theme beings wings is supposed to represent freedom. Thats what I need rihgt now. I just need ME time! I'm finally getting back to being my old independent self! It's a good feeling! I truly won't feel free until I move out but thats a work in progress. My artistic inspiration has finally come back as well wich just that makes me sooooo much happier! Oh also another great thing is that on the 12th of this month the third season of InuYasha comes out! I'm so friggen excited!

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

a quiz cause I'm bored...

What Inuyasha Ending Theme Are You? Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

Don't clip my wings, please just let me ride the wind alone.....

Hi guys! Its been awihile and a lot has happend. Well I met this new guy, his names' Matt. He's really nice and he loves video games and anime. So i thought, oh, perfect right? Well I feel like I usually feel with guys after a while. I feel so smotherd, I just want to get away. Plus he wants kids and as far as I know I really don't! It makes sense for him to be thinking along those lines because he is 24 but I'm 17 and I'm not! He also seems to be wanting something REALLY serious and to tell you the truth I don't even know what I want anymore. I don't know how to tell him this... he even broke up with his girlfriend because of me! I just don't get myself! I'm never happy with anything! I hate being alone but I feel trapped when someone actually does want to be with me. I just don't know...I really think I'm gonna be alone forever, and to tell you the truth that might be best...at least I won't hurt anyone that way.

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