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Saturday, November 19, 2005
The Flying Trucks!!
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Crazy, but that's how it goes
Millions of people living as foes
Maybe it's not too late
To learn how to love
And forget how to hate
Mental wounds not healing
Driving me insane
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
I've listened to preachers
I've listened to fools
I've watched all the dropouts
Who make their own rules
One person conditioned to rule and control
The media sells it and you live the role
Mental wounds still screaming
Driving me insane
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
I know that things are going wrong for me
You gotta listen to my words
Yeah
Heirs of a cold war
That's what we've become
Inheriting troubles I'm mentally numb
Crazy, I just cannot bear
I'm living with something that just isn't fair
Mental wounds not healing
Who and what's to blame
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
Changed the music because that other song was going to dive me crazy … and what better song to put up than crazy train?? OZZZY!! ^_^
Yesterday was Friday … yes and I went to kates house just to get out of my house and do something that’s a reason I didn’t get to go to anyone’s site ya bad meh lol
Over at kates house we just talked … but wile we where talked at her kitchen table I looked out the window and I thought I saw a truck in the tree xD … she just lives by the park way and ya
Other things that we did was fix her computer to some what working ness it can go on the Internet but it will freeze up a lot
Than we played with glue …. Don’t ask why we where just gluing things and than I got glue all over my hands and rubbed it on my black pants. And than my pants had all this white stuff all over itttt Kate and I thought it looked so wrong.
Than Nikkei and I where talking than reading manga than they found a scrap album from middle school and pictures from 7th grade o.0 and than they got out the 5th grade yr book and we went down memory lane with the really bad pictures.
Now its all ready none (just woke up) so I better get to the stuff that I have to do
~Take care sweetheartz~
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Friday, November 18, 2005
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Your IQ score is 111
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Word Warrior. This means you have exceptional verbal skills. You can easily make sense of complex issues and take an unusually creative approach to solving problems. Your strengths also make you a visionary. Even without trying you're able to come up with lots of new and creative ideas. And that's just a small part of what we know about you from your test results.
Your Super IQ score is 106
Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.
The way you think about things makes you a Linguistic Architect. This means you are brilliant when it comes to language and words. You are also very good at understanding things on an abstract level. You are at your best when you put those two skills together to communicate new ideas and see how they fit into different contexts. You understand math and science on a gut level, even if the equations and science don't come as easily. You can use these skills to be a great communicator or to create a masterpiece.
How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Linguistic Architect? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Linguistic Architect. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.
[go here http://web.tickle.com/ for the quizzes]
111-106 IQ is that good? … I have no idea just randomly took those 2 quizzes and damn them they made me think! Lol its not like im dumb far from that because I have an 96- Geometry 91-Bio 98-History those are all my averages so far for some of my classes so im kinda smart eh? That’s what everyone around me says. This one guy that’s in almost all of my classes he asked me if I was passing everything and im just nod and he look so surprised almost like how in the world can I pass.
Yet that’s a good question im not an over achiever in any aspects but if you look at any of my test and or quizzes from any of my classes you will not see anything lower than a B
(It surprises me to) all I do is sit there in class and some times participate nothing much I even think I did more last yr , yet last yr I barley passed my algebra class and now im passing geometry with flying colors?? Crazy eh not like im complain just winding where the sudden memory kicked in.
Speaking of tests I have about 2 today so I should be headed of to bed right now (its 12am im getting back into my old posting habbitz xD)
Other news rather than me rambling I found my poem book!!! Soo I might have a new poem up soon [havent had a new one up in a long time eh?]damn thing was hiding under stuff in my draw … the power of cleaning lol
Also more wallpapers on the way and im always open for requests for specific anime/video game wallpapers that some one wants
And that’s alllll…
~take care sweetheartz~
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Thursday, November 17, 2005
Learn to be Lonely
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*There is a poof of smoke than you see me*
And I have returned with my decision I will stay since and I don’t want to leave you guys and also why leave a month before my 2 year Anniversary? ehh I guess I was just frustrated about not posting in a wile and ya and not having time to post
seems yall don’t want me to leave but I might not have as much time as I had before for Myo … I used to post everyday ^^; but ill post when I can kay? LIKE TODAY I have a post wooot!!
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Changed my site around again … its still the phantom of the opera But its Erik as Red Death ^-^ I like the red more and no Christine xD
Also I changed the music to the song with the lyrics and here are the lyrics for you all!! (… ya im hyper notice the exaltation points)
Christine:
In sleep he sang to me, in dreams he came,
that voice which calls to me, and speaks my name.
And do I dream again? For now I find.
The Phantom of the Opera is there inside my mind.
Phantom:
Sing once again with me, our strange duet,
my power over you, grows stronger yet.
And though you turn from me, to glance behind.
The Phantom of the Opera is there -inside your mind.
Christine:
Those who have seen your face,
Draw back in fear.
I am the mask you wear.
Phantom:
It's me they hear.
Both:
You're/my spirit and my/you're voice in one combined.
The Phantom of the Opera is there inside my/your mind.
(In the background)
He's there, the Phantom of the Opera . . .
Beware the Phantom of the Opera . . .
Phantom:
In all your fantasies, you always knew that man and mystery . . .
Christine:
...Were both in you.
BOTH
and in this labyrinth, where night is blind,
the Phantom of the Opera is there/here inside your/my mind . . .
Phantom:
Sing, my Angel of Music!
CHRISTINE
He's there,
the Phantom of the Opera...
And that is the new wallpaper I made and its up now! Enjoy
*Dances off into the night*
[yes I am way to hyper for my own good >.> but be happy!! The hyperness made me do it]
~Take care sweetheartz~
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Dare you trust the music of the night...
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As most of you can tell … I have not been here in soo long I have even turned off my site in the last week or so because I haven’t been updating … xD
Life has just been …. Hmm lest sum it up in one word DRAMA its like im living in a damned soap opera -.- which I want nothing to do with the back stabbing, romances and all that stuff I can live with out!! Damn life *grumbs*
Why am I back now? Goood question im thinking on ether staying trying to post whenever leaving my site off completely
or quieting Myo All together …
I don’t know what im going to do
*dances around in the shadows listing to the music of the night*
~Good Bye? Or Until next time? Take care sweetheartz~
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Friday, November 4, 2005
the phantom of the opera
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Ello alll .. Sorry I haven’t been on yet again its just ya…
Now today’s Friday ya… and I have a date
*Twitches* not that I don’t want to go on the date he just is a lil wired
Moves along to fast he was asking if he was my boy friend… well no we are going on one date … than he asked if he could kiss me no you don’t kiss on the first date! O.0
Now im going to be all twitchy all day and when I go on the date im going to be all like stay at lest 3 feet away at all times xD…
But brits coming along for some reason to “document” my date and Kate and Meg will just be like ya wtf is going on
The dude is not crazy or anything but it’s just he’s rushing things I don’t like rushing
im going crazy thinking now about how things can go wrong …
we are going to see saw 2 and ya bloody good ness on a date lol
ya I should be getting to sleep now its 12:30 …. Wish me luck ill need it XD
~Take care SweetHeartz~
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Wednesday, November 2, 2005
Part Of Me
Part of me won’t go away
Everyday reminded how much I hate it
Weighted against the consequences
Can’t live without it so it’s senseless
Wanna cut it out of my soul
And just live with a gaping hole
Take control of my life
And wash out all the burnt taste
I made the problems in the first place
Hang my head low ‘cause it’s part of me
Ya hardly see right next to the heart of me
Heard of me the routine scar
New cuts cover where the old ones are
And now I’m sick of this
I can’t stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade away on my sanity
I rather not even be then the man that’s staring in the mirror through me
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Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what’s killing me (4x)
I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me
It can’t be frightening if you’ve never felt it
Once it’s been dealt with you feel like you’ve been touched by something angelic
And then melted down into a pool of peace
Cease to be the animal you used to be
Remove the broken parts you know were wrong
And feel the karma when the problem’s all gone
And then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can’t let be
And that reason’ll last fight to free yourself
Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well
And now you know you can choose to lose the part in your heart
Where your insides bruise
You can live if you’re willing to
Put a stop to just what’s killing you
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Chorus
(Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently
This part of me won’t go away, part of me won’t go away
Everywhere I look around I see how everyone aught to be
Every time I see myself I see there’s always something wrong with me)
Chorus (2x)
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me (2x)
Just kinda depressed dono why maybe because im Still sick … or because im soooo damn confused about things …. Who knows -.- … ill be ok… once I figer some things out … (love all the dotz hu?) anyway see ya all around
Take care SweetHeartz~
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Monday, October 31, 2005
CANDY
HAPPY HALOWeeENNN ... ya im hyper why??? to much gliter and pink .... why is thare to much gilter and pink??? becuse im being a girl for haloweeenn .... this is the most pink ill ever whare .... and i have gitery eye shadow and gliter on my chest its every whare and i have pig tails ^^;; @.@ dont ask why im being this i just am give everyone at skool a heart atack from all the damn pink ... im makeing no snese now am i ANd i cant spell BONUS! XD
Bonfires burning bright,
Pumpkin faces in the night,
Oh, I remember Halloween.
Dead Cats hanging from poles'
Little Dead are out in droves'
I remember Halloween.
Brown Leafed Vertigo
Where skeletal life is known,
I remember Halloween,
This day anything goes,
Burning bodies hanging from poles,
I remember Halloween,
Halloweeeeen
Halloween
Candy apples and Razorblades,
Little dead are soon in graves,
I remember Halloween,
This day anything goes,
Burning bodies hanging from poles,
I remember Halloweeeeen
~dont let my husband get you tonight ^_~ becuse tonight all hell beaks free
Take care SweetHeartz~
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Sunday, October 30, 2005
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Ello all… I just typed up my memoir its supposed to be 300-600 words long and I have think I have way more than that its about 1 and a half pages regularly typed and they want double spaced and that 3 pages @.@ ya ….
Im going to post it of it if you don’t want to read it than don’t XD! Lol but if you do read it tell me what you think
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Life as I knew it changed from that day froth. I was not going to be the same little girl anymore. Growing up came quickly after. Depression came just as quickly did not know what to do I thought he was going to be here forever. I thought he would see my drams come true, seeing me down the aisle for my wedding. Holding his grandchildren. Now all those dreams wont come true now those dreams are nonexistent. Now I know that forever is just a lie. Different dreams have come forth now, yet I am still not the same little girl from my child hood. I can’t say that I am a woman now but I can say I have gown up. I grew up more than I thought. Also most all my views have changed. Like on Life, Death, Love, and God have all changed because of that one event and the things that fallowed after.
It was summer and I would be going into 8th grade the next coming school year. I was in my room with my one friend Brittany talking laughing having a good time. Than all of a sudden my little brother runs into my room. Its funny how your moods can change in a blink of an eye. How everything’s fine one movement and so wrong the next. After my brother told me what happed I had a blank stare on my face, no tears as of yet. It hadn’t sunk in yet. I was still thinking it was a horrible joke Brittany asked me if I was all right. And all I could do was nod a yes words would not come out. I watched as she left my house and I got into my car.
On the ride to his house I still had a blank expression until I saw him laying in the grass with a sheet over him. All most everything I believed in went out the door that very second. The tears finally came to my eyes emotion finally took over me. The death of my grandfather was the death of my faith in many things also the death of some of my dreams. But it brought the birth of my writing and also many issues to come in the next 3 years.
The funeral was mournful. How else can you describe it? Yet it was the only time my older brother and me ever hugged on another. It was the first time we ever acted as a family. The tragedy brought us together briefly than ripped us apart. After that the fighting go more hurtful than ever. I couldn’t even see my brother with out fear, rage or sadness washing over me.
My mother was in a depression also, also as deep as mine but I still couldn’t talk to her about anything she would never understand. My little brother and sister didn’t even realize what happened. So young, innocent, and naïve. They both had the blondest hair and the bluest eyes. The look of innocence. I couldn’t talk to them they wouldn’t understand me even if they tried. My older brother tall, dark blond, squinty shifting eyes. I never trusted him before so I wasn’t going to start trusting him now. The only person left was my father, tall with brown hair and deep gray eyes, I trusted him but I still couldn’t talk to him. I couldn’t talk to anyone. I kept all my emotions locked inside. Slowly my eyes trued to gray slowly I lost my innocence.
My brother was always someone I feared and hated. We have had this rivalry for so long, we have never gotten along. My grandfather would keep him away from me and told him not to say those hurtful things to me, and he would listen. But once my grandfather was gone who was going to stop him? My father tried to stop him but he wasn’t as affective. After my grandfathers death it seemed Chris become more malicious in his taunting. I became more vulnerable I lessoning to words more closely. I listened to his words more I stared to believe what he was saying. Your useless no one loves you, you are better off dead, and you should just die. After a period of time I believed him.
With the verbal abuse from my brother I fell into a deeper depression. I thought all he said was true and I just couldn’t take it anymore. So I tried to end it.
After my friends, family and school found out about my attempts at suicide I was sent to a metal help clinic I was not mentally stable. I did not know what to live for anymore. I didn’t think anyone cared. I didn’t think anyone would miss me, why should anyone miss me? I was questioning everything and every one. I was questioning god about every little thing. I was and still am questioning if god is even there.
The meaning of life still eludes me. Why am I here I still ask every day. No one has no one at all I see this now. Life is precious no one has the right to end it not even the person living that life.
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Done… ya now I have to print that and my homework done! … But im to lazy to send it to my dads pc than print it -.- im such a procrastinator anyway I should get to sleep im still sick and im medicated wooot!
~take care sweetheartz~
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