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Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Walkin Through Barbwire
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Just woke up yet again and its only 11 something meh still to early
My moms out shopping again but I don’t care I rather stay here posting/doing nothing than go shopping … I hate shopping (sounds like im the anit girl) well I don’t like most girly things I don’t take 2 hrs to do my hair and make up because half the time I don’t ware make up and it only take me 10 mins to brush my hair and im done. And what’s with girls and shoes!!! I have a pair of boots and a pair of sneakers that’s it some of my guy friends have more shoes than mee.
I don’t even understand girls … and I am one!! How fucked up is that? Some questions I cant answer
-Why they have soo many shoes
-Why dose it take them an hr or more to get ready
-Why do they make their bf (or gf who knows) wait even though they are ready?
-Why do some where clothes 3 seizes too small [do they just want to look like sluts?]
-Why do they like shopping so much?
-Why are they sooo obsessed on being skinny? [Over half the girls in my skool I bet I could break in half because they are frekin toothpicks]
don’t even get my stared with guys XD they are confusing also … not as much so as girls but that’s not the point lol
Vary random post ne?
~take care sweetheartz~
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Monday, July 11, 2005
Don't let life pass you by...
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I just woke up *rubs eyes * and its almost noon I go from not sleeping at all to sleeping all day? Meh I don’t care nothing to do anyway.
But if I am awake there is a theme to almost everything im reading and or watching … death.
Im reading Cross3 that’s it about death and exorcisms
Im reading the DaVinci code that’s it about murderers and religion
On the news death terrorism war murder huricains bombs XD
So all around me there is death!![im surpirzed i just noitced that becuse its always arounds us everyday death is unstopable]
So that’s the only thing that’s been on my mind … im surprised my moms doing okay she’s off and shopping today with the kids im glad she’s happier
But now I bet its my time to have a mental break down … it hasn’t happened yet but I can almost feel it and I only have a half a case of green tea left and that seem to be the only thing that calms me down -.-
~Take care sweetheartz~
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Friday, July 8, 2005
Requiem Of The Gods
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I am no longer hyper witch is a good thing
This morning around 7 am I was still up and I was watching the Christian channel XD my mom thought I wet crazy because they we praying and I was watching it intently … I was even scaring my self so than my mom gave me ice tea and I calmed down and watched finding nemo the tea must have really calmed me down because I was no longer hyper and I was just walking around the house insted of running … after waking everyone in the house up with my oddness I went to sleep lol woke up later around 6pm and looked for the pics … because today is pic day!! Lots of random photos of me and my friends or me with my friends yay
[Kate Steff and me] Kate is the one with the oigy-bored steff is the scared one and im just standing their thinking if you hit me you die
its Kyle!! He sat across from me in lunch and I took that pic of him XD
kate looking scared becuse of me doing the zoolander pose lol
[Meg Kate and me] out side HH just hanging out that’s from 2 yrs ago
Steff at the lunch table
Kate and steff just being crazy
nikki and steff
me pimpin nikki and steff ^_~ LOL (I have too much makeup on xD)
its Brit (shes the girl that I kicked in the ass)
Meg dose not like the hug XD
kate trying to eat steff
[Stefi Sara and Amanda] them at the mall playing mop hockey
and lastly me with my hair up when my friends saw this pick they did not know it was me … XD lol
lots of pics now you know what the crazy girl LW looks like …. I cant believe I posted so many I hate pictures of myself and look how many I have lol
~take care sweetheartz~
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Thursday, July 7, 2005
Weep no more we will prevail
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Everything is back to normal …. Okay normal is not the word I am looking for … well its better ^^;; my moms is back to her old bitchy sleeping all day self not moping around crying even though I do see couple of tears here in there I understand she finally got it threw her head that it was not her fault . How do I know she’s better she went shopping XD and dragged me along ehh I don’t mind I wanted to make her happy so I tagged along. I hate to see people sad that’s why I try to cheer people up everyone should be happy even though im not [well almost everyone kris can just rot in hell! ^_^]
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Soo my mom is better that’s good. But I think im losing it I haven’t slept in 48 hrs? lol and I have been hyper and loving it!!! no sleep and hyper hmm everyone should run for the hills (starts singing iron maiden) I was left home alone for about 6 hrs or more soo what do I to pass the time? Watch my HIM DVD!!! Im running around the house singing him hyper off a case of soda and 6 adviles I took an hr before yep I was and still am vary hyper and medicated!!! And I also had coffee!!! So im going to be up for a wile but that’s good because I really don’t want to sleep and get those dreams…
Everyone said I have been dealing with everything soo well but I don’t think I am
The only reasons why I am happy and hyper is because of the medication, soda, coffe and seeing Ville valo half naked ^-^ see kind of forced happy ness … but its better than no happiness hu? I need a hug … I should go and find joey or one of my other guy friends because I have been wanting a hug from a guy lol…I want a guy *pouts* [shut up meg I know what you are going to say and kate noo I don’t want your cousin]
ya im going to end this post now because I don’t think it made any senses to anyone @.@ lol and if it did wow you can understand my hypernesss!!!! …..
Some upcoming posts might contain ~
~pics of me and my friends
~a poem or two
~random rant
~and other things lol
~take care sweetheartz!~
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Tuesday, July 5, 2005
Wrap your troubles in dreams
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Damn…. And I thought I was fucked up
Around noon today my dad way yelling nothing new to me he yells a lot so I thought nothing of it went back to sleep than I woke up around 7 pm more yelling this times I knew who he was yelling at my mom, she’s been acting more bitchy more distant and upset why you may ask? Well it’s the anniversary of my grandfathers death [her father] in a week or so, my grandmother had been acting wired also but that’s because the fuckhead Chris has been acting like grandpa! -.- He’s so fucking dumb!! And my grandmother told my mom about this and now she’s upset because she’s randomly crying than around 10:30 when my dad came back home from the fire works with the kids she flipped out and stormed out the house and went some where … now she’s back and locked herself in Chris’s room… My father wants to talk to her about it because we know she’s upset about the whole death thing but she’s like me bottles everything up and wont talk to any one about her emotions … But why cant she open up to her own husband? I dono I doubt I can help her even though we are the same in that aspect that we don’t like talking to people about our problems. I don’t even know if I want to help her. She has to learn how to forget and/or move on!!! [Ya I should take my own advice but that’s for another day and another post]
She has to remember the good and try to live life that what he would have wanted
Crying wont bring anyone back no matter how long or hard you cry All the tears in the world wont bring anyone back so everyone should stop crying for the dead they are in a way better place now …
Yes im sad that he’s gone but im not going to cry I cried enough for him and he wouldn’t want us sad I could see it in his eyes that he wanted to die and he died the way he wanted to In his backyard doing what he wanted to do
Maybe I should go talk to my mom seeing her like this makes me worry
[Holy hell im worrying about my mom the worlds going to end]
So if im not online or posting for a wile im trying to get my moms life and mine back in order witch is going to be vary hard im going to need a therapist XD
~Take care~
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Sunday, July 3, 2005
ya...
hmmm nothing too post @.@ than why am i posting? why the hell am i talking to myself??? wooot i have gone crazy!! well i think you all knew that before ^^;; ill have a real post or at lest something tomorrow
hmmm well made 12 new wallpapers posted them yesterdy and the day before so enjoy ...
~take care~
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Friday, July 1, 2005
Lies make the wolrd go round
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no real post today just a bunch of quizzes because I was going to write a big post about something … but I really don’t want to anymore … me and my one friend are bickering back and fourth about shit and when I see her today im kicking her ass …. So im looking forward to going to the mall …. On to the quizzes that I think say a lot about me evein to they are only quizzes
You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.
What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.
What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Life sucks and you know it. Nothing ever turns out
okay, nothing ever goes your way and while you
have to live this horrible life the gods are
laughing at you. The whole meaning with life,
according to you, is simply to die. But you
have not become this way just like that, you
have probably been decieved, betrayed and hurt
by people who meant alot to you in your past.
To you, life is not even bittersweet.
How do you see life?
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You are sad because of your grief
Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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Your Month Theoretically Is March..Utterly and
deathly alone..Petrified ..And Down..
Your month has shown a lArge amount of
Individuals with Depression disorders and
Bipolar accesidies..You Are locked up inside a
Ball of Confusion and scarse thoughts..You
Know it or not have a Material Possession that
means the words to you that keeps you from the
brink of suicide or sustains you from the
indorseing modern world..Open up...Simply
stated as that...But it's your choice..Your not
crazy..Your not in a Lonely state..Your Not
confused No matter what they say..No matter
what they say?..
Colors:Deep blues, Plad Greys, and Scavageing Teal
Greens and a Deep scarlet red.
Relationships:..Your relationships need some work
..You lack the trust you need to inpower in a
seprate individual..It will take Years for you
to Completely open up to another..But when you
do..And If there Pure enough to stay with
you..Your Karma Is complete....Lonelyness and
Scarse movements end..
Prsonality Traits:You are Clenched so to speak.
Allowing little movement inside your feelings
elivateing them to wither Up. You do HAve
STrong emmotions..These emmotions are so strong
that you could become an extremely important
individual..But alas..You Lock your self up..
Animal Sign: A White Snow Owl
Quote:Please Don't Leave..I don't want to alone
again..
What does Your BirthDate Reveal about you? + Detailed Answres +
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Kurosaki Hisoka: You're rather antisocial, but
that doesn't keep you from caring about others.
You only let a select few get close to you, and
you trust them above anything else. A good
book and a quiet place to read are what you
enjoy the most, and though you don't really
like sweets, you do appreciate a cup of hot
cocoa. You value efficiency and competence and
absolutely hate incompetence and hypocrites.
You find it difficult to express yourself or
show that you care, and generally keep from
other people. Also, it's hard for you to
believe that other people actually care about
you. You may have experienced trauma at some
time in your life and you really do need all
those little signs of affection and need from
others.
Which Yami no Matsuei character are you most like?
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Your ideal man is ... *SCREAMS* Kazutaka Muraki!
Ahk! You like sadistic, evil, perverted,
underservingly good-looking guys! Eugh. You
must like it kinky in bed, ne? Muraki is a
doctor, who takes pleasure in other people's
pain. If you go for that, then consider
yourself lucky. O.O
Who's Your Ideal 'Yami no Matsuei' Man?
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YAY I always seen to date the crazy guys too lol ^^;; but I don’t mind crazy guys are awesome
Lol lot of quizzes hu …
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Thursday, June 30, 2005
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ELLLO MYO!
I am really hyper right now lol and its 1:15 am and I just got finished watching “the lost boys” I love that movie its about a vampire motorcycle gang they turn this one kid in to a half vampire but he doesn’t want to be one so he kills them all but the head vampire is dating his mom plot twist! Good movie
Hmmm moving on today is Thursday I think so tomorrow I get to hang with meg and Kate and who else we see at the mall … brit my other friend and Mr. Pooffy might be there who knows (Mr. pooffy is kates umm boyfriend[?])
Wile at the mall we are trying to hook birt up with one of megs friends im all for hooking her up than she will stop hitting on me ^__^
It seems everyone has some one else but I don’t.. I really don’t care that much [it would be nice to have some one but in not despite] yet Kate wants to hook me up with her cousin … all I have to say is wha? Lol he’s cute but yah lol
~Quiz of the day~
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my trait: secretive, reclusive, messy, disorganized, introverted, unassertive, rarely worries, dislikes large parties, does not like to fit in, does not need to control others, solitary, ambivalent about chaos, tough, leisurely, does not respect authority, not aggressive, observer, abstract, impractical, dislikes leadership, daydreamer, bizarre, does not make friends easily, not a perfectionist, suspicious, rarely irritated, strong physical instincts, unsympathetic at times, risk taker, submissive, weird, sarcastic, strange
yep that’s me ^_^
~take care sweetheartz~
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