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Comments (5) | Permalink Monday, June 27, 2005
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
Fuck love Fuck life... ill live recklessly and hopefully none will care when I die
Have you ever wanted to cry yet not know why?
The past 3 or 4 nights I couldn’t sleep makes me think .. me thinking for a long period of time randomly is never a good thing
I start thinking about the o so wonderful past XD
Maybe In depressed again? Or never got out of the depression yet heh 3 yrs of depression that cant be good hu? and they let me out of their they must be blind do I look cured of the depression? Naw but im glad to be out of their away from the damn therapists they ask to many questions and im not one that likes talking or opening up to any one I cant trust any one else so why them?
They dig into you trying to make you talk trying to make to remember … but what if you don’t want to remember??
Damn therapy and because I didn’t talk they just gave me anti depressants! O ya they soo helped XD
Fuck it all woot doesn’t that sound fucking positive? Than again in not a damn ball of sun shine ether
Hmm the lil title thingy specks the truth hopefully no one will care when I die
But than again if it was that ez I wouldn’t be here I would be dead right now but people do care about me meh yet I still don’t know why I care about people also that’s why im here still
Time for a song that seems to explain what im feeling yet confuse me at the same time
-Saliva - Rest In Pieces-
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine. you look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I’m in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Its 5am now and i havent gone to sleep yet @.@
im going to try and sleep the day away now … such a cheer full post hu??
”There is a very thin line between love and hate, often times hate can be mistaked for love and love for hate....But ultimately, both emotions have the ability to break a human”
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Saturday, June 25, 2005
WTF!!!!
okay i just signed off yahooo reallly fast thairs this wired guy on thare talking to me he said he knows me and loves me!!! all i have to say to this is WTF?
ill post the conversation we had my sn is Powerman5000linkinpark and the wired dude is the other name
ninobrown910 : HI
powerman5000linkinpark : ello
ninobrown910 : cool
ninobrown910 : long time
BUZZ!!!
powerman5000linkinpark : yep
powerman5000linkinpark : hi
ninobrown910 : how u doing
powerman5000linkinpark : im good
powerman5000linkinpark : you?
ninobrown910 : cool
ninobrown910 : baby is been along time have been trying to meet you on line
ninobrown910 : bcos i have a little problem
BUZZ!!!
powerman5000linkinpark : yes?
ninobrown910 : will you help me out
powerman5000linkinpark : i dont know if i can
ninobrown910 : k
ninobrown910 : i will like to come to your country
powerman5000linkinpark : and how will you do that?
ninobrown910 : that is in your hand
powerman5000linkinpark : @.@
powerman5000linkinpark : what?
ninobrown910 : you try and get me visa
powerman5000linkinpark : and how do i do that?
ninobrown910 : you should know
ninobrown910 : or you get me some money
BUZZ!!!
powerman5000linkinpark : and why do you want to come here?
ninobrown910 : to see you
ninobrown910 : you know i love you
BUZZ!!!
powerman5000linkinpark : but thats alot of money
ninobrown910 : i knew that is why i told you ,i havea little problem
powerman5000linkinpark : i dont have any money ethir and i dont know how to get a visa
ninobrown910 : you go to your embassey
powerman5000linkinpark : and walk up thair and say i want a visa?
ninobrown910 : you paid
powerman5000linkinpark : ?.?
ninobrown910 : is like you dont like me anymore
powerman5000linkinpark : i cant just walk up to the embassy!
ninobrown910 : can you get me a call phone
ninobrown910 : ok i hve a friend that is owning me some money and i will like to ask you if wells fargo account
powerman5000linkinpark : fargo?
ninobrown910 : yea\
than i sighed off wiredo!!!!
he caled me baby XD! and he siad he loved me? i dont know himmmm!!!! im just confused if you want to talk to me ill be on AIM and MSN
~take care~
Edit: okay i just found out how to block him yay so now you can IM on yahoo again ^^;;
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Friday, June 24, 2005
One of a Kind
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Rant time!!! Plz sit down and read threw but plz do not get offended its my views on the subject thank you and if it makes no sense at all im sorry! XD
Why is the world obsessed with beauty and how someone looks? Why dose how you look affected soo much? Is the world that damn superficial? I have been watching “the hunch back of Notre dam” and “the phantom of the opera”
Both of them are shunned because they don’t look like the rest of us because they don’t meet the “sandered” that we but everyone up too!
What the hell would be a perfect male than all musses, tan, blond hair, and blue eyes?
And what the perfect female? Skinny as hell big boobs and dumb as a brick?
i used to have blond hair and blue eyes but my hair tured darker and my eyes faded [i have brown hair and grey eyes now yay]
Who the hell made this standard anyway? I for one like guys with brown hair and brown eyes hair
Why should we all try to be perfect when there is no such thing?
Everyone has his or her flaws no matter how pretty you are..
Damn world like Romeo and Juliet that was the most superficial play ever they see each other and fall in love? Get married than die all in the same week! All because they thought one anther was beautiful I can’t say if love at first sight is true or not but that’s ridiculous.
All Erik (the phantom) and qwazies motto (hunch back) wanted was love but for both of them the person they loved ran off with the blond guy [damn blonds!!!]
But how am I going to change the world? Not many guys look at girls for who they are old for what they where and what they look like
The same with some girls they only care what the guy looks like, not knowing if he’s a jerk or not
Look deeper than the surface of everyone you might just find that one person ….
~take care sweetheartz~
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Deathwish
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Weee im hyper and ready to write out a post (first time for everything people)
I have had some guys hit on me in the past [why who the hell knows] but they all have the wriest pick up lines some are the old ones that every girl hates XD and others where just out their I must list them for you now!!
-“I swore I though u were Asian” (wired 20 year old looks me up and down after he asked what my heritage was … o.0 ya I realllly don’t look Asian)
-“you look so healthy” foren 30 yr old! All I did was nod and walk away scared (o ya I get the older men!! But 30 no thanks my age limit is 25! ;P)
-my shirt said ‘stop staring at me’ and I see this guy just staring at me so I say “ cant you read?” and than he said “ but I don’t want to look away” (so than I just walked away wired people)
-dude: did it hurt? Me: ?.? what?? Dude: when you fell from heaven Me: *Laughs* me heaven? When did I go there???? dude:*walks away* me: I win ^-^
~now on to the random ones me or my friends heard ~
-The alphabet start with abc letters start with 123 and love start with you and me
-what’s your sign?
-Do you have a map?…. because I got lost in your eyes
XD pick up lines o ya but it seems I get the most hmm how should I put it original[?] pick up lines yet I still don’t know why they hit on me im I attractive or something? Naw that couldn’t be it how could I be attractive?
The bottom line is guys lose the pick up lines!! Lol
~Take care sweetheartz~
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
RAin
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Wooot lets soo if I can type this up and post it before the lighting hits again…
Its raining I love the rain (not the lighting is evil!) and its raining vary hard vary pretty ^-^ I love to just walk in the rain even if I do get sick I just like to walk in it
(One of my e cards)
Another reason I love the rain it hinds your tears… the rain makes me happy yet sad lol yep im a wired person but I think you all already knew that hu??
Hmm what else happened I made 5 more wallpapers 3 Lucifer wallpapers 1high angel (forget his name) and 1 with 3 guys yay sexy men!
~quiz of the day~
Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz
~take care sweetheartz~
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
IM back!
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Did anyone miss me? ^-^ if you didn’t know I trued off my site for a cupple of days
Had things to do still didn’t get them done but I have a clear mind now so I can do every thing at once!
Things going on since I trued it off.. caught up on my reading and writing made some more wallpapers (from chaos legion awesome video game!) made more e cards yet to post though ^^;;
Also had issues with my mom but we are not talking again so everything is okay lol
O0o and I changed my site again what do you think of it? ^-^
Short post …. Random quiz for your enjoyment!
You Are A Hazelnut Tree
You're a charmer with a killer sense of humor.
You are very demanding, but you can also be very understanding.
No matter what, you always make a lasting impression - you're quite popular.
Passionate, you are an active fighter for social causes and politics.
In general, you are moody, honest, a perfectionist, and very sexual.
~take care sweetheartz~
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Theme To A Fake Revolution
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Ello all!
Damn im to hyper for 12am in the morning XD!! I should be getting to bed soon!! I have my English finals today the joy of filling in the bubbles!!!!
Hmm yesterday I was really lazy hu?? I went to no ones sites bad mee!! But I did continue writing some of my poems and I finished one yay for me… ill post it now than ^^;;
Angles Resurrection Vol II:
Pounding, scratching, screaming
Theses things will never leave me be
Everything comes back to haunt me
I have no where else to go
The screams echo in my head as I try to leave the confines of my soul
No one knows the pain I cause no one should ever feel this sorrow
I rather be lonely than torched
But what goes around comes around I get what I deserve
I am scratching and tearing at this unwanted heart
You see the lost soul threw your eyes
My pain makes your smile crumble
As the tears fall down our pale faces
The bloody handprints leave a lasting stain on the wall
The demons are scratching at your mind
As time washes it all away I still feel the blood on my hands
The cold red liquid won’t wash off and the metallic taste seems to stay in my mouth
The stains on my clothes wont come off
Will my soul ever be clean of this sin?
The endless dark cant hind me from everyone
It can shield me from what I truly am
I am a monster
No one should ever see me
You still think you can save me
But I only hurt you again and again
You thought you knew me
But all I am is one big lie
Coved in blood and sin
You called me your angel
Do you still think of me that way now?
Hell is my heaven
Im the ruler of the dammed
You cant save me
And all I will do is make you crumble
Because the only thing I feel is pain
Your love will never reach me as the darkness surrounds me
Searching, screaming and pounding
Ill make al your angels fall into my darkness
I am no longer your angel
I am a monster
The echoes call out to me, as your love will never reach me
Run before I turn you too
In to this
Blood spilling
Un caring
Monster I have become
Try to hold on to your memories of the good
Before the angel you loved turns into the monster I truly am
Wow that must be my longest poem! What do you think? And there is an Angles Resurrection I if you wish to read it ill send you the link
Do you also like the music? Its Hope by apocalyptic ^-^
~Take care sweetheartz~
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Monday, June 13, 2005
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yep again with the no updating XD!!
nothing to post!!!
soo bored
sooo sorry to all that PMed me ill respond soon and to all that signed my GB ill get right with you all
@.@ soo manny people!!!
grrr nothing to posttt BYE!!!
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