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Thursday, May 19, 2005


The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy...

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[Sorry everyone for not going to your sites yet again … might as well not come to mine than]


has my gone any better? From yesterday in one word no…

I now know where my brother gets the jackass ness from my mom and dad! Always thought it was just my mom … I was wrong

Skool sucked I felt sick all day dizzy and blah

Home wasn’t and isn’t any better

My father was yelling at me for my food getting cold so I was just sting there thinking wtf than he was yelling more and more and I stared to cry but I had the evilest smile on my face like run before I kill you all … but I wouldn’t because of one thing holding me back I don’t want there dirty blood on my hands I cant be dirtied by there blood now can I?


~ You can close your eyes to reality but not to memories ~

I think I know why im acting like this … my true self that I locked away 3 yrs ago is coming back out … the hurt little girl who didn’t want any thing from anyone, didn’t want to be loved cared for or anything. *Sigh* im becoming her again the scared lil girl that dissent want to let anyone in or lets her guard down. Never wanted to be close to anyone at all, than I changed become more human, but I guess the memories came flooding back heavy theses passed 2 days and im changing back? …


Sorry if this hole week of posts was just me ranting I bet it makes no sense at all -.-




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Wednesday, May 18, 2005


When love and death embrace...

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Ello all again


Yesterday was just not a good day -.- history and the hole day I felt like hell so I slept in history so I have no idea if billy tried to talk to me (yes the boy has a name lol) but he glanced at me twice than I fell asleep

Than in gym billy wasn’t there ha I made him skip I wonder if I made him nervous XD

French I slept study hall I slept … lunch my friend meg hug me and I flipped and screamed at her out … I really didn’t want to be touched and I don’t know why
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I felt like hell all day and you know what didn’t help? My damn brother coming over he just had to be his damn self

I was coming of the stairs and I see his damn face (just seeing him made me mad) than he had to open his mouth XD! A single statement from him made me feel so angry so depressed and confused at the same time I just broke, he knows I have vary low self esteem if I have any and he had to say “ hey fatty you know none cares about you and they never will” [can someone plz beat him up for me?]

I felt like hell already and he just has to say that? I got so mad I got right up in his face and didn’t say anything than punched the wall right next to his head and walled away

I am a big girl *pokes side* kinda swishy to but he doesn’t need to be a jackass!

Im going to bed now before I start to feel worse than I do already if that’s possible


~take care sweetheart~




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Tuesday, May 17, 2005


The fear I see when I look in your eyes makes you believe I’m one of a kind

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*Bangs head into wall repeatedly* damn im stupid

I told the dude I liked that I liked him ._.

My one friend that I told on Friday kept on saying I had a crush and he just wanted to know who it was … than she wanted him to guess (this was at the start of the period) than he randomly guessed if it was him and we both said yes but he thought we where joking than we had to run all period.. And right when we where going in to the skool I ran up to him and told him it wasn’t a joke and he just looked shocked? And didn’t say anything. So I went into the locker room all confused and he said to my friend Raman “I have to go pray now” … ya I guess he doesn’t like me than

Damn its going to be soo awkward in history class I sit right next to him and in gym I sit in front of him -.-

I still want to know what he meant by he had to go pray im not the anti Christ am I?


God damn it im so confused right now … maybe I shouldn’t have told him…

Im going to leave you all before I start cursing more and not make any sence what so ever ^^;;

~Take care sweetheartz~




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Monday, May 16, 2005


   bored ness!!

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Ello all … sorry for not posting yesterday and not going making any rounds soo many people to see over 200!


Nothing to do soo bored well I have my homework but that’s for homeroom and study hall! Should go to sleep than I am kinda tired …



Made a new icon its me aren’t I pretty? Lol ya right

its meant to be blurry to give it a effect

Nothing to post @.@

Stat time again ^^;;




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And I have over 200 friends … a lot I know!




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Saturday, May 14, 2005


   WTF!?!

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Ello everyone I have a favor to ask you all

Plz compare theses 2 wallpapers for me


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my wallpaper made on 05/01/05



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keri’s wallpaper that was made today…


Do you see a resemblance?? Look in the right hand corner!! It’s my LW!!! (my signature kinkda blurry tho but not the piont) they didn’t even take it off!!!!!


Sould I report this? But what do I say when I do @.@ I need some help!!




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Friday, May 13, 2005


  

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HAPPPY FIRDAY THE 13th

I got wired looks all day for saying that ^___^


Got another quiz back toady 95% still doing really good in skool but not paying attention at all still… 23 more days till skoools over!!!!!


Im gym today my friend ramen (yes said like the food) asked me if I liked anyone because the day before I told her I had a crush and ran out of the skool but I didn’t want to tell her because he was standing right next to us!!! Literally!! He’s one of my best guy friends and I like him -.- … first guy my age I like lol

But she almost secreted when I told her and almost told him so I got her in a head lock so she wouldn’t tell ^^;;

But it’s a crush … and you know what happens in the end you get crushed … that’s why they call it a crush


It’s a never-ending cycle …. Ill always be alone XD!!!


Ok no more of me compiling

~Take care sweetheartz~




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Thursday, May 12, 2005


You know my name you know my face you’d now my heart if you knew your place

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Ello all …. Miss me?

Im back and I have no idea where I was, I was here but lost in my own mind I guess you can say.
I wasn’t depressed or down [the post yesterday was just a song I couldn’t get out of my head]
I was just lost trying to find my self and I just made myself a little confused during the process and forgot to post ^^;; sorry


Schools been going ok, but in the time I wasn’t paying attention being lost in my own mind I get 100% of at lest 6 quizzes I do better if im not paying attention T.T


Kate got a weirdo wanting me now -.-# he’s 17 and his name is Allen I think, I went out with a 16, 17 and 18 yr old before (noo not at the same time players are evil!) so its not the age thing, it's that I have no idea who the hell this guy is … damn you Kate


Nothing else going one made more wallpapers as seen below and more e cards I even made a quiz but I have to see if they approve it and if they do yall can take it ^-^


Now I must go to your sites I haven’t been here in 4 days!

~Take care sweetheartz~




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Wednesday, May 11, 2005


Take your empty words your broken promises And all the time you stole cause I am done with this

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"Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all wanna know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never..never..never..never"
...



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Sunday, May 8, 2005


   HAppy Fucking MotherS Day ... rightttt

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GoD Damn Them To HEAVEN !! (what I don’t want them in hell with me)

I wake up today to my mom yelling like some one is stabbing her but no she’s out of toilet paper!!! I wanted to slap her.

Than she wanted a gift from me because it mothers day … well than act like a goddamn mother and maybe ill get you something, she’s never around and when she is she’s helping my damn brother with everything. Yes he got you something because you care about him and him you. I could care less about both of you XD she even forgot my birthday twice so I should get her a gift?!

dont you dare start the "she brought you into this world" crap she even told me about 3 times that she never should of had me and that i was a mistake ... wonderful mom hu?!?


Than Chris just had to come over and be all “look what I got mom and I got bagels from my job too!”


Soo im just really pissed off he’s here my moms a bitch my sister is In the room with the DvD player when I asked my father if I could watch my dvd she runs in there.


IM so fucking pissed right now .. all day I have been laid back all lazy than he comes and my blood is now boiling

Hate is Thicker than Blood … lets test that out *gets knife* COME HERE KIRSY!!!!


yep i Love my family cant you tell??

Quiz of the day
Darkness in the Heart
Your Heart is Ruled by Darkness. Are you ok? I feel
bad for you my friend because that means that
either something bad must have happened to you,
or you just feel like being a very dark person.
You either don't really have a lot of friends,
or always seem to be alone even when with
people... or maybe you just want to be this
way? I really have no idea because I haven't
even met you! But Just so you know, don't frown
because you never know when someone could be
falling in love with your smile! :D


What Element Rules Your Heart?
brought to you by Quizilla


(sorry for the lovely words in this post)
~take care sweetheartz~




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Saturday, May 7, 2005


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Ello all Antidepressants for all *hands everyone a bag of sugar* im feeling better I hope I didn’t worry anyone and sorry for not posting yesterday ill make sure to go to everyone’s sites today! Now a play by play of my life for the past 3 days (football terms woot)



Thursday
Nothing much just slept all day went to skool came home and went to bed … so much fun!


Friday

felt better or crazier … I went to skool with my hair up in buns (looked more like witch hunter robins hair to me) and a skirt. I got attention ^^;;

Than I got my major English test back I got a 98! 108 with the extra credit ^-^


Made more wallpapers

Found my castlevania circle of the moon game!!! (reason I didn’t post just couldn’t put the game down)


Today

Watched the “Secret Window”


Read some of “the davinci code”

Made more wallpapers (will have up later)

Posting…. Lol


That’s about it now off to your sites



~take cares sweetheartz~



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