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Tuesday, January 4, 2005


Deep inside I'm broken

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12 stones ~Broken

Alone again again alone
Patiently waiting by the phone
Hoping that you will call me home
The pain inside my love denied
Hopes and dreams swallowed by pride
Everything I need it lies in you

‘Cause I’m broken
I know I need you now
‘Cause deep inside I'm broken
You see the way I live
I know I know your heart is broken
When I turn away
I need to be broken
Take the pain away

I question why you chose to die
When you knew your truth I would deny
You look at me
The tears begin to fall
And all in all faith is blind
But I fail time after time
Daily in my sin I take your life


‘Cause I’m broken
I know I need you now
‘Cause deep inside I'm broken
You see the way I live
I know I know your heart is broken
When I turn away
I need to be broken
Take the pain away

All the hate deep inside
Slowly covering my eyes
All these things I hide
Away from you again
All this fear holding me
My heart is cold and I believe
Nothing’s gonna change
Until I'm whole again

‘Cause I’m broken
I know I need you now
‘Cause deep inside I'm broken
You see the way I live
I know I know your heart is broken
When I turn away
I need to be broken
Take the pain away

Broken
Broken
Broken
Broken!



Lovely song that leads into today’s post… that’s song describes me soo well right now I am broken Im numb to everything around me like I cant feel any thing but than I feel and I just want to rip my heart out of my chest and randomly hand it to some one and say ‘keep it safe’ -.- I think I am depressed right now and I have no idea what brought this on me. This feeling stared in skool but I just kept a normal face on so one would think anything’s wrong. I wish I knew what was wrong. I think it’s the dreams im having like the one in study hall about my grandfather… than the one after skool when I fell asleep about my ex. All these bad memories flooding back at once is not fun! I really need a hug and duck tape *hugs random person and duck tapes heart back together * ya that might work… im shaking and crying what’s wrong with me *hugs another random person* might work if I had a real person to hug hu? Now I can’t stop listing to the song (one posted above)
I think im having a mental brake down not a good way to start of the New Year ne?
Now im ranting …… XD

Talk to yall later hope I can get my act together by than and make scenes to youz

~Take care~

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Monday, January 3, 2005


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Ello all!
Im a lil too hyper right now… randomly eating bread lol
Going to do my English hw in study hall and my history hw is not due till Tuesday sooo haa ^___^
Ok way hyper … ill be this way till 4 or 5 am than be all dead that’s the bad thing about vacation your internal clock gets all sewed up XD but iv always been a person of the night. I just hope I don’t fall asleep in math class again or ill get written up and there going to have to give me a drug test XD


Here is a pic with my black hair lil bit fuzzy (damn cam and with out my glasses ^^;; they create a glare)



yay way better than the blond :P

~take care sweetheats~



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Sunday, January 2, 2005


Yesterday is history tomorrow is a mystery today is a gift

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Ello all what’s up?
Nuttin much here
Just realllly bored XD
The last day of winter brake damn I have to go to skool tomorrow
And I cant sleep all day like I don now * pouts *
Well I should go to bed than get rest than finish my homework that I dint not get to ^^;;
Im going to be dead in home room by this rate if I say up any longer :P
Night morning or what ever you prefer… lol

~Take care sweethearts~


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Saturday, January 1, 2005


  

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Ello every one and HAPPY NEW YR ^_^
With a new yr comes change I have changed my site (look at the pretty red! Lol)
And I have changed my hair color it is jet black mostly ^^;; I dint really get all my hair dyed but it looks kool ether way .no more evil blondness!
Hope every one has a grate new yrs day hope yall didn’t get to drunk ^_~ lol
~Take Care~



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Friday, December 31, 2004


   I’ll be waiting For the end of my broken heart

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ello again soo sorry i didnt get to anyones sites im just in a dazy? i dono what to call it iv just really been out of it and i dont think im with it yet im kinda derpresed and lost inside my self like im trying to find something... but i would love to know what im looking for XD
ya im going to stop rantng before i bore yall to death ^^;;

now i must post this song ... its almost how i feel its wired
The End Of Heartache by Killswitch Engage:

Seek me
Call me
I’ll be waiting (x2)

This distance
This dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release
And the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you

Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity

(Seek me) For comfort
(Call me) For solace
(I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion
(Call me) I’ll be waiting
(I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

You know me
You know me all too well
My only desire to bridge our division

In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors
Mirrors my torment

(Seek me) For comfort
(Call me) For solace
(I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion
(Call me) I’ll be waiting
(I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture a bitter memory

For comfort
For solace

(Seek me) For comfort
(Call me) For solace
(I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart


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Wednesday, December 29, 2004


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ello all sorry i havnt been on the pc much most likely been sleepin... ^^;;
holidays make me tired
if yall get bored go to my web site (poke the boittin that says my web site in left hand side bar) its nothing much
now i must post a song i cant get out of my head ^^;;
Taproot~Now:
well i need to be around you and i need to see your eyes on me now
and i need to caress your face with mine
and i need to know that you care 'cause i bleed in pain when i'm without your soul
cuz I love you on a level so high ot's hard sometimes I know i am to me around you
we have to be together now I'll miss you while I'm gone
but here and now is where I belong.
will you wait around for me,
I hope so 'cause without eachother we're wrong

~take care sweethearts~

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Monday, December 27, 2004


   yup....

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ello all... nothing realy happened this x mas.... soo thares nothing much to talk about! hope yall had a grate x mas ill talk to yall later....

look my new wallpapers! (go to wallpapers to see loger verson you can downloud)






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Saturday, December 25, 2004


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ello all hope youz all have a vary marry x mas even tho i know mines going to be hell or ill sleep all day!!!! lol take care and happy holdays love your fav angel jen ^_~





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Friday, December 24, 2004


   HIII

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ello alll MARRRY X MAS
im now at Courtneh house with KT also .. we are just chillin and they had to find my boob size XD grate hu? kt want to get me a push up bra.... so thats why they sooo needed to get the size.... wiredos lol and aperintly im am a 46 c.. yes yall needed to know to lol

now they are brushing my hair joy... lol love the raondomness.....


MARRYYY X MASSSSS





ya....


random post....




BYE

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Thursday, December 23, 2004


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Ello all … this week has gone by fast its already Thursday last day of skool till 2005 yay ^_^ o and its almost x mas how could I have forgotten that …. Lol
People are still asking me what I want than I answer I don’t known I doubt you could obtain it ^^;; but I got a kool gift from brit today she I got hair dye (black yay no more blond jen!!!!) a box of lights ^^ (lol secret meaning to them) and a HIM razor blade romance patch yay thank you brit *hug *
*~*~*~*
Today I m going to where a skirt to skool … lol got to go thru with the dare not worried about the cold but more about the pervs in my skool XD that’s why I usually never where skirts damn men….


Time:12:01am

Listing to:To The End~MCR

Quiz of the day:
HASH(0x8e40158)
Your soul is bound to the Rose Petals: The
Wronged.

"'ve come undone and all hopes of mending
me are gone because the pain took my soul.
Can't you see? The only one who can put me
back together again is me."


The Rose Petals are associated with sorrow,
reflection, and wisdom. They are governed by
the goddess Persephone and their sign is The
Teardrop, or Broken Love.

As a Rose Petal, you are always self-reflective and
may be hard on yourself. You probably have
been hurt in the past by other people and can
sometimes distance yourself, as a result. You
don't usually let other get too close to you,
but you are very good at mending your spirits
back together by yourself.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla


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