Sunday, October 3, 2004

Put your hand in mine Never let go

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Ello all I feel better ^_^ but I still have a headache… but maybe that’s from running around and stuff… who knows My dad still thinks im sick but no I was just being random with him talking about how I want to chop all my hair off I have had long hair for so long its about 25 in long now if not cut it all off die it all blue or black I just hate being a blond (no offence to any one who is blond) What else did I do…nothing really but I did make this really really odd and random poem ill let yall read it ^^;; -_-_-_-__-_-_- As the world sees me: Golden strands Pale flowers Cascading down my back Gray eyes Sad skies Water draping my face Broken heart Shattered glass Both beyond repair Old scares Cut open again Lost attempts Morbid life Rip it up Tear it off Let me go But hold on tight Set me free Change my soul Listing to: Angels With Even Filthier Soul by Hawthorne Heights Talking to: Dave and Kate Mood: hyper Time: 12:20 am Quiz: You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time alone but do like other people's company sometimes. You just need your space. You have a few priviledged friends who saw past your colder exterior to find the true you. You can have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to admit it) so you could be soft one second then storming around the next! But over all, you're a very pleasant person once people take the time to get to know you. You're a good friend for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when it comes to creative things.(If you can't see tje pics, go to my homepage and look near the bottom and find your result) What season are you? (pics) brought to you by Quizilla Questions: Q: What does "Nan des ka" mean? A: I have no clue Q: How much wood could a wood-chuck chuck? A: A LOT Q: If my genes were crossed with that of a sea turtle, what would result? A: something not right…. Q: how many poems will u make until u make a book A: lol I don’t know I have 30 I think now… how many do u need to make a book? And will people buy it?

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Saturday, October 2, 2004

When I look into your eyes, you help me realign And show me just how to be myself inside

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Ello all again I stayed home from skool yesterday Yay my mom saw I was sick (I must have looked att crappy) I feel lil better but still have a headache and I can’t have any aspirin so I get to have a the headache all weekend joy… Kate and Steff (I think) walk to my house for no reason so we hung out and where retarded than one of got stung with a bee so they had to leave I have yet another poem [I hope yall don’t get tired of reading them] plz tall me what u think The war: My tears fall down and shatter like glass All I could say was why as you watched me cry All is fair in love and war But death is a whole other story It strikes with out warring and with out pity It mocks and taunts us it never goes by the rules I lose all hope and can’t go on But you keep me strong we will move on Listing to: nothing Talking to: brit steff Mood: tired Time:12:20 am Quiz: You have angst because you are lonely. You need to learn to open up and let others in. Why kind of Anime Angst lies in You? brought to you by Quizilla Questions: Q: What happened to your questions section? A: it died

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Friday, October 1, 2004

Love is the red of the rose on your coffin door, hallelujah lock and load

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@.@ Ello all I am still sick and really confused and really feeling sick today -.- damn and most likely they will make me go yet again do I need to be coffin up a lung? Anyway I was watching the bush vs. Kerry debate I was confused because I was dizzy but I understood that bush only talks about the tersest and nothing esls! >.< Kerry talks about schools and economy and all that other stuff he fought for this country did bush? NO! but if bush is still in office I will have to sigh up to be drafted (same for my lil sister and bigger brother) cuz the war would still be going >.< enough of my politics. Half of you don’t live in the USA so ya ^^;; “Man I love how you can churn out poems just like *snaps fingers* that. and they're good poems” - darkeangel Ya I do make a lot just like that *trys to snap * maybe cuz I have many feeling on any giving day? Lol I don’t know but I have another poem lol Yay My Game: So Death is a game That makes you the pieces And I am the creator I made you who you are Who wants to play today? Pick your path to death I am willing to help you with the game By the end of the day You will have mastered the game No one can save you now You’re in my world You will win with your sins And the prizes is DEATH Listing to: Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns N' Roses Talking to: no one Mood: no comment ._. Time: 12:00am Quiz: Black/grey You’re heart is empty and your mind is filled with basically nothing but morbid thoughts of death and nothingness. Youre a loner, and thats ok for you because you dont like people and have little social skills to none. Like Purple youre very deep and thoughtful and often spend your time at your computer or alone in your dark room, reading/writing anything that is around. Youre alone and maybe you want that to change but than again maybe you dont (rate me) What color is your mind? (Anime Pictures) brought to you by Quizilla Empty heart sounds about right… ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Thursday, September 30, 2004

So give me all you poison and give me all your pills and give me all your hopeless hearts and make me ill

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Ello Still sick >.< all dizzy with a headache but better than before I had a heath test and the dude behind me is so immature he throws papers at me droning regular class and during the test he was laughing [we had to label the female reproductive system] I wore the same thing as one of my brother friend’s lol the same hoodie ;P black with cross bones and everyone was pointing that out wonder why.. Than in study hall I made 2 poems (to make up for yesterday lol) ~~~ Heart Anarchy: Broken trust Faded lust Everyone knows angels fall first They break your heart Than your back to the start Souls cast in to the dark Wondering hearts No more reasons Break the cross I loved you lil angel But now that’s lost This is an anarchy of my heart +~+~+~+ Fear: In another hazes Can’t keep track of the passing days Try to hold on to your time here But have no fear ill be there Nothing will keep us apart Until the last beat of your heart I loved you than and now Yet you wonder how Time keeps us part But you will always Have a place in My beating heart Listing to: Sucker Train Blues by Velvet Revolver Talking to: no body Mood: tired/kinda sick still Time:12:00am Quiz: Everyone thinks he's a bad person, that he has no heart and that he couldn't love or ever be loved. Well, you just proved those ignorants wrong. This dude would go thirty times around the earth if you would ask him to. A person who threatens you must really have a death wish. What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^) brought to you by Quizilla now to find my ‘evil’ bf… lol! ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Don't look at me now ,Fell too fast your wings won't hold

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Hi everyone I still feel sick -.- and still have to go to school unless my mom tells me I can stay home but I doubt that and I kinda want to go in because I have 2 quizzes and a test today so much fun >.< [Sorry if I didn’t get to your site yesterday and maybe not today too tired] My mom made me go shopping with her yesterday even thought I was sick and it was poring rain to (aint she smart) but I got one dark gray hoodie one black hoodie one black hoidde with cross bones some pajama pants and Velvet revolver’s cd Contraband so got something out of it but I think im more sick too @.@ ~~~ I made no new poems I slept in study hall instead of weighting but I up loaded a lot of them to Fiction Press .com http://www.fictionpress.com/~luicferswife that’s the link to my page with the poems ^^; Listing to:Big Machine by Velvet Revolver Talking to:no one Mood:icky/sick Time:6:20 am Quiz: Quiet Girl What kind of little girl were YOU? brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Tuesday, September 28, 2004

I don't have anything Since I don't have you

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Yellow all What’s up with yall? Hope you are feeling better than me im burring up and feel all meh sneezing and feverish but I still have to go to skool ant that grate ._. I feel crapppy dang skoool must go have test ~~~ Some one asked me about the XP look at it side ways it’s a face crossing its eyes and sticking it tong out! Lol I didn’t beveled yall like my poem so much make me soo happppy ^_^ you all say im deep but I don’t think I am… ^^;; anyway I have yet another for yall to read [Yay!] _-_-_-_-_ Time: Takes our dreams away Losing all we hold dear Making us wither away We all die alone any way Only shattered pieces remain Of o place un- touched by time It’s almost up We are always rushed Always slipping away Nothing more to behold Every thing unfolds The hand criss cross As time just stops Thare you have it … is it any good? I don’t think any of my poems are >.< but you all like them soo I keep making them Listing to:The Funeral Of Hearts by HIM Talking to:no one Mood: sick Time: 5:56am Quiz: You have Blue Wings! You are artistic and highly creative. Others are amazed by your imaginative ideas, and the way you speak so smoothly. You are very social, but you like talking face-to-face, instead of the phone. You love dancing, Writing, acting, drawing, singing, anything that requires artistic style. You have many friends, and are popular because of your unique style. Though your jokes crack up everyone around you, you often daydream about many different things, lost in your own world. Even though, you are optimistic, and remain friendly and loved by others in reality, you always like to visit your fantasy world for some peace from the hectic world. What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix! brought to you by Quizilla Questions: Q: is it 4 ne1 in particular? (Yesterdays poem) A: every one of my poems are about some one I know Q: Pop quiz, hotshot. There's a bomb on a bus. Once the bus goes 50 miles an hour, the bomb is armed. If it drops below 50, it blows up. What do you do? What do you do?! A: jump of the bus or drive it over a cliff XD ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Monday, September 27, 2004

We can wash down this engagement ring with poison and kerosene

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Ello all XP (yup that’s my favorite greeting) & Sorry if I dint make it to every ones site yesterday I was so sleepy ^^;; My brother came over today that was so much fun >.< why cant he use his own computer dose he have to bother me? Yes, danm evil person. … Ok moving on ^_^ Made another poem [don’t you love reading them?] I know I should have bout that book on how to get your art published.. O well ^^;; Here is the new one I made today ~~~ Forever: It’s not your fault You’re the key to my heart And you stole my soul Yet you wouldn’t know I love you now So much that I cry My bloody wings carry us high Into the dieing sky Love turns into unknowing sorrow Tears of joy Lost in the pain Can’t we do better? Nothing else to surrender Petals of the past disappear Coming from this unwanting fear I love you now and forever And you stole my heart Forever What do think of this one? Listing to: Thank You For The Venom by My Chemical Romance Talking to: no one Mood: hyper/tired (is that possible?) Time: 12:00am Quiz: Your tears are lavender. You are a dreamer. You dream of lands with lilac skies, glimmering stars, and rushing crystal waters. You long for love and companionship. You feel as if your young years are seeping away through your brittle fingers and that you are not living your youth to the fullest. Your beliefs are love, passion, togetherness, and the power of two. Although you are quite the passionate type, your true love has not yet entered your life, though you have before thought your school crush as your true love. You cry when you think yourself to be all alone in this emmense, mysterious world, but you never stop to take notice that you are surrounded by warm, loving people who would be willing to embrace you in their kindness and chase away your shadowy thoughts. Just keep on believing and your imagination land will someday become a reality. What Color Are Your Tears brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Sunday, September 26, 2004

You know my name You know my gaze You'd know my heart If you knew my place

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H-ello all Nothing much happened today I woke up around 1 pm (and they came home at 6 pm 5 hrs!) and no one was home ._. I hate that they just leave me all alone no note nothing telling me that they left so I was walking around my house with no glasses (lost them) looking for people XD and I find no one and that just want to make me cry… I hate being alone I always have I just feel like they really don’t give a damn and what where they out doing bring my brother to a train thing XD They thought I liked to be alone no not really I told them this before and they know I freaked out and stuff but no they think about him before me >.< And when they come home they wonder why im in the living room in a little ball -.- Damn I hate it when they do that and I couldn’t use the phone [they tell me not to] and no one was on the pc soo I was talking to my catz XP I had a grate! Day how bout youz? Listing to: Poem by Taproot Talking to: Betty and Kate Mood: stressed Time: 12:14 am Quiz: Red: Aren't you the romantic? Life is poetic. If you don't already, write poetry, you're good at it. What color do you see the world in? brought to you by Quizilla Questions: Q: Where do you come up with all your questions that you ask me? A: they come from my wonderful mind :P Q: 1,1,2,3,5,8 ... what's the next number in the sequence? A: @.@ damn you must find answer…. Is it 13? Q: mmm bop? A: ?.? Err ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Saturday, September 25, 2004

if I was sane, would I fuck it up all over again?

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I just woke up z.z so good morning Thank you all to who commented yesterday ^_^ I know there is no true meaning to happiness that you need to make your own but that’s hard to do! XP lol _-_-_ Went to the mall yesterday [im always a day late I think never posting in real time] With Steff and Kate we ran around got manga and I think I gave them bruises ^^ I play fight and I don’t know I hurt them that bad….and randomly people from my school I really don’t know I see there say hi to me .. soo wired I must type up my home work later I had to make a fable I made one called “the frog and the snake” I think is good but im not a story writer ^^;; But I do right poems … (I hope u have known that XD) and I made another one in study hall I hope you all enjoy it ~~~ Angles resurrection: The angle sleeps Yet is always awake She’s doomed to this hell Her heart is chained As she waits for the day That one person takes it all way Her love is lost She feels so numb She sits wondering As dead letters scatter Adoring the floor Not able to read them anymore A frail cry come to her lips Here heart is the on to blame With it cold dieing flame The angle sleeps Not wanting to wake anymore Now I have a total of 26 poems Yay book O poems here we come (lol) Listing to: Kiss & Make Up by Skindred Talking to: no one Mood: z.Z soo tired Time: 12:55pm Quiz: You are a Love Sick Angel. You have no one to love and it upsets you to the point that almost no one wants to be around you esp. people in love, but what do they know its not your fault you haven't found someone to stick. And because of this you blame the Love Angel for not shinning her grace on you and you hate that stupid Pure Angel who's always trying to help but shes just getting on your nerves. Please rate this thank you. What kind of angel are you(for gurls but guys are welcomed) brought to you by Quizilla Questions: none yet again… ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Friday, September 24, 2004

All alone I fall to pieces

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Ello all (did you ever notice I almost say that every day..) Almost every day is the same… wake up go to skool do the same exacted things in skoool see the same people go home do home work than repeated why is life a cycle? XD I don’t want to live the same thing over and over again yet it brings me comfort to know what’s going to happen next But time goes by so fast its like just yesterday I was still in 5th grade not really caring about anything no problems I wish I could go back to then it was fun and I didn’t need to act happy… like now I have to be “happy” so they think its all right I wish I could be happy and not pretend but what is happy? I think I lost the meaning thru out all the stuff that happened to me since I trued 13 And why is that I become a teen and I have more problems than ever? Like my grandfather’s death my brother blaming me, than I believe him and become suicidal *sigh * and a week before that happened I see my than boy friend with another girl so ya flue to the depression fire Than I get left alone for periods of time it was fun in the beginning than you wonder why and start to think like today I was home alone and I was thinking about this (that’s why im postn it) I usually don’t remember it I push it out of my mind and make my self forget but it all come flooding back today Who the heck am I (I know im jen but I mean I lost touch with my true self I think) maybe I locked it away… I must find that key now the key to happiness! (If you have it share) Hmm I wonder if all good poets go thru this pain to make poetry cuz it seems every one of my poems reflected my pain also ^^;; got to love the good work I get from it all my be my pain will make me famous meh sounds ok to me [Random ranting about my life…. I was thinking all day today spacing out because of the memories] That’s the most I ever typed…. I am vary wordy this week all the poems and now an essay about my problems XD got to love it! Listing to: Fall To Pieces by Velvet Revolver Talking to: no one Mood: err? Time: 4:46 am Quiz: You are a neutral you fight for what you want when you want. You can go either way the light side of things or the dark, it depends on how you fell at the time You are smart funny and are probably have a better sense of the world than most people ever will. ~~What are you??? Gurls only!!~~ Very long quiz good answers brought to you by Quizilla Questions: None ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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