Thursday, September 23, 2004

These questions and answers can help me redefine myself And I thank your open ears for all the help

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Ello all once again^_^ Lol as I promised I have poems for you 3 to be exacted XP I made one a day in study hall What else I do today.. Went shopping looked for a job boring right on to the poems! Dream stealer: Withered lies Lost cry Torn soul Do you think I’m out of control? Lonely heart Battered innocents Incomprehensible evil Did I ever have a soul? New tomb Fresh wounds Is there anywhere to go? Failed love Lustful hate Dreadful fate As you take all my dreams away --- Broken Soul: Dull cry Never side good-bye Just morning here So much to bear Every chance I wonder why Over whelming disrepair Should I even care? Take me there Kill me now Every thing died that day Time took it all away That day my love faded away --- Breakdown Forceful sound Bring me down Drowning in this unholyness Whiting for deaths sweet kiss Soothing sound Seeping into my dreams Lil closer than it seems Dieing sound Every thing comes around Then we drowned This is my last chance Loving sound Dieing now Love the poems…. Lol 3 for the price of one! Listing to:Ice~the rasmus Talking to: no one (is anyone on this early?!?!?) Mood: HYPER [I had a coffee colada ^^;;;] Time:5:37am Quiz: Waterfall ?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla Questions: Q: Why does my peach always cry when I eat him? A: maybe you have the magical living peach .. how would I know! Q: WHY DIDN'T YOU WATCH THE FIRST GHOST IN THE SHELL MOVIE? A: CUZ I DON’T WANT TO! Q: When are you going to watch the first one? A :I’m not going to watch it and u can’t make me Q: You do know that it is one of the most internationally acclaimed animes EVER, right? A: no but still I don’t want to see it Q: If a monkey farts in the middle of the forest with no one else around, is it still hilarious? A: I bet …. Why u fart when no one is home? Q: Why hasn’t anyone spanked my monkey? A: you want some one to spank it … XP Q: My monkey is cute enough isn’t he? A: nope Q: Who the hell came up with that monkey question in this post? (Those question are reserved for ME) A: haha vary funny the monkeys are not only your share the monkeys Q: What is quantum physics and how has it affected your life? .... A: * stares blankly * ummm monkey? Q: When a person has no one to talk to and nowhere left to turn, is it okay for that person to create an imaginary person/thing that would listen to him or her? A: yes Q: How many Lemonades can you stick up your nose? A: I don’t know lest find out! Q: to drink or not to drink the margarita, that is the question A: DRINK IT!!!! Q:which came first...the orange or orange? A: BANANNA ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher

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Ello all I hope youz had a better day than me ._. I’m going to list the events because I don’t feel like righting in sentence form 1 get up at 4 am before sunrises and trip on cat 2 get to school wait around hit head in concert wall (accident) 3 cut finger during French 4 study hall do HW make another poem /has headache 5 during lunch Steff said something bout some one fucking a frog I spit up my coke and feel ill 6 English sit next to boy who wont shut up get bigger headache 7-heath boy behind me wont stop laughing cuz we are talking about female reproductive system 8 went shopping with mom got pants 9came home found out one of my friend is suicidle XD (help her with the problem) 10 walk out side fall off deck 11 take shower dresses and so on 12 couple mins later cats in shower I get him out 13 I slip on water fall in the floor and hit my head Grate day hu? _ _ _ I dint type up ether of my new poems >-> and I said I was going to I must type “dream stealer” and broken soul” tomorrow ill type them big headache from hurting my head too much to day ^^;; ~ ~ ~ I made this quiz to see how much yall know me click the link or go here Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard! - - - Listing to: wish I may ~ Breaking Benjamin Talking to: no one [no one is on XP] Mood: tired I always am z.Z Time:6:50am Questions: Q: if you were a nail polish what color would you be and why? A:I would be moron dark yet still bright enough lol Q: How many bandannas can you stick up a monkey’s ass? A: a lot! XDD Q: When you have no one to talk to and nowhere left to turn to, is it okay to create someone/something that would listen to your problems? A: like an imaginary thing? Or talking to something? I think is fine if I have no one at all I talk to Chester (my lp poster) ^^;; So you get it off your mind but it would be much better to talk to a real person even if its only on the pc or the phone ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Your Pretty Face IS Going To Hell

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I scare Christians! (lol had to say that ^^;; ppl think im all satanic cuz im my Sn XP) Bonjor cava? That = to Ello what’s up in English XD love the French im doing well in that class I completed the project and I know what’s going on in that class ^^;; ---- Study hall is sooooo boring XD I made yet another poem I ‘m not posting it today cuz I just don’t want to type it XD but ill post it tomorrow the title is Dream Stealer Im glad every one of yall like my poems if I ever get a book I know yall would buy it ^_^ Lol hmm im going to put up some of my friends favorite poems and mine too so there are 3 pomes in all for this post ^_^ (And if you have a favorite poem of mine can you tell me witch one and why? Thx ^^) ----- [Dave and Steff’s favorite poem] Forgotten: Broken dreams Shattered hearts Lost hope That is what you did to me Memories flooding back Reopening old wounds Dried tears Wilted flowers Crumbling tombs Your love made me happy And lies made me bleed Oh so many times Clouded souls Fallen angels Demented lies All that there is to say All that there is to do Is forgetting you! ---- [Kate Katie and Courtney’s favorite poem] Shredded: Rip my wings out so I can fly Tear my eyes out so I never cry Grab my hand and take it all away Shred my heart up so I can't feel the pain Take my voice so there is no silence Fallow me thru this winding road You stole my soul so I only have faith in you You make me feel like never before I tear my heart out to give you I rip my wings out so I can Fly away with you --- [And my favorite poem that I don’t think I ever posted…till now! Also my first poem ever ^^] What You Are To me: You say this and that you don’t want to hurt me but you broke me you’ve turned your back on me Why are you ignoring me? Tell me now or ill move on The way you look at me And the way you made me feel It’s burning me up on the inside I wont be ignored I ‘m stronger than this I wont cry one more tear for you You’ve turned your back on me for the last time You lost it all and now I’m gone What do you have to say that you cared? I put my trust in you And you broke that trust Now I’m gone out of your life I’m now and forever an memories of what you Could never do … What you never said… What you never showed… The way I feel now is your entire fault And now and forever You’ll be an expense to me for all the Money… Days… Weeks… & Love I spent on you Was all for what the lies you fed me? Never again you and me are done I am now set free Love is ruined and lost for me but I know your heart will never work again You’ll die from the inside out All you are to me is a memory! --- (Long post and still more to go!) Listing to:Close th the Flame~HIM Talking to: no one (sorry Steff and Dave my dad pulled the plug yesterday to the modem XD) Mood: Tired must sleeeep more! Time:5:00am Quiz: You are Poetry. You are often the most emotional of the arts. You are introverted, in that you tend to let people come to you rather than trying to get their attention. You get along well with Music and Literature. What form of art are you? brought to you by Quizilla What else would I be? Questions: Q: If a student becomes the teacher, is the teacher now a student? A: the teacher is ether working side by side with the student or the student took over the teacher job (at lest that’s what I think) Q: How may toes does a mutant mole have? A: most likely more than a regular mole would have maybe 20? Q: WHERE'S MY MOMMY? A: Betty how would I know where your mom is… Q: Has New Jersey actually gone "Gay-Crazy"? A: well the governor is gay so maybe Q: Why am I typing? A: cuz you are Q: WHY HAVENT U WATCHED GITS: INNOCENCE YET? A: cuz I don’t want to and I haven’t watched the first one ether Q: Is it too awesome for you? A: righttt Q: Am I too awesome for you? A: o.0 I don’t know are u Betty Q: Do you know my friend? His names El Diablo. A: yes I know the devil Q: Why do you suck at Halo? A: cuz I do & I don’t have a feel for the game Q: - Why does Xbox suck? A: cuz PS2 is better Q: What is the profound meaning behind hairy balls? A WHY WOULD I KNOW ASK A MAN! Q: do u plan on divorcing Lucifer anytime soon? A : hmm its hard to divorce him since he Lucifer and all but you never know ^^;; ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Monday, September 20, 2004

They say That I must learn to kill before i can feel safe But I I rather kill myself then turn into their slave

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Ello all not so bored anymore Have to go to skool for a whole week now XD we have been having 2 days than 4 than 3 never a whole week: P o joy… What else is going on?. I made yet another poem! Are yall getting tired of reading them? [Hope not^^;;] I have 22 or 23 so Far. so when will I have a book? Set In Stone: Heart set in stone Love scorn soul Shot in the dark Yet you still took my heart Showing no fear Shed a glass tear Standing here Could you have survived? Was I ever alive Can you make me live? Rose turned to dust Hate in to lust Who in this world can I trust! Death knows my name And I know his just the same I’m the only one to blame As the flam Burns away all that came before Set in stone Hope you enjoyed that one to ^_^ hmm now I have to top that one…. Are all artists like that? Not likening their work striving to make it perfect? Listing to: City Of The Dead ~ the Rasmus Talking to: no one (sorry to everyone I was talking to last night XD my dad pulled the plug on the modem that why I signed off so suddenly) Mood: listing to music / chillin Time:1:09am Quiz: You are a dark writer. A fierce and loyal follower of Poe and the other gothic authors, you LOVE to instill a sense of revulsion and somewhat fear in your readers. You love to poke their brains with logic dealing with the darker side of the human mind and character. Truly surprising and a true individual, you'll do ANYTHING to create a scene. :) What's YOUR Writing Style? brought to you by Quizilla Qestions: new part i adopted from my friend Dave [VileFantom](you can go to his site too and bug him with your ?s) go ahead ask me anything at all ill anwser in it in my next post ^^ ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Sunday, September 19, 2004

I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

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Ello What is up? Sooo bored nothing to do … o ya home worked I got half it don’t just need to type up one more thing and print 2 things out but im not motivated to do it XDD So bored I chaged the site again and did this: "Getting to know you..." Created by papayarain and taken 286 times on bzoink! + THE GENERAL INFORMATIONAL JUMBLE + Full name [last names can be left out]: jennifer barany (now im going to get stalked) Nicknames: jen jenny poo XD (damn u dave)jenny Date of birth: march 29 1990 Place of birth: dunnelon NJ Current location [as in your home]: edison Other places [general areas] you've lived in: NJ Parent names and ages: brenda/johnny Sibling names and ages: brianna 7 / dale 5 / kris (evil) 15 Zodiac sign: Aries Chinese animal sign: Hores Birth stone: he blue one ^^ Birth flower: Xd i dono Birth colour: blue Birth number [add mon+day+yr until you arrive at a single digit:] 8 + KNOWING ONE'S FAVORITES + Type of food: MEXICON Specific food dish: TACO Colour: sliver Weather: snow Country: FINLAND City: dont know Store: hot topic Random object: pc Television show: any anime Movie: X/1999 Thing to say: WEEE Moment in history: civil war Holiday or event: b day Memory: none? + SIMPLE WORD ASSOCIATIONS + ...love... hate //...dream...// wish ...fake... snow //...monkey...// Betty ...food... taco //...school...// DAMN IT ...California... LP //...New York...// dave (cuz u live thare XP) ...hair... long //...Dell...// MY PC ...hug... yay //...college...// .. more skool ...family... mom and dad //...alcohol...// whare? + ANSWERING QUESTIONS + [What is your definition of love?] when you can trust some one with youe heart [Are you fearful of being loved or loving someone? Why or why not?] yes cuz of the pian... [What is your general outlook on life?] "in the end it doent evin matter [What do you think about politics?] Xd dumbb [If you were president, what would you do?] not be like bush stop war [What did you want to be when you were 5-years old?] a chef [How about at 15-years old?] (im only 14 but) poet [What about now?] poet [Why has it, or hasn't it, changed?] cuz it has [What sort of people annoy you?] my brother [What sort of things do people do that give you hope?] my friends [What do you think of America right now?] its really scwed up [How about France?] DAMN THEm [How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck would chuck wood?] 10000000 Still need a Halloween Costume? Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! listing to: I'm Not Okay (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance talking to: steff kate and dave mood:Bored (no bored puffs) time:12:00am qwiz: You are a CYNICAL VIRGIN. What Kind of Virgin Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ya that’s me XDD ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Saturday, September 18, 2004

Ain't it fun when you know that you're gonna die young It's such fun

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Ello im so sorry if I dint get to your sites yesterday I was thinking (yes I can think) about almost everything u can imagine but mostly why.. Like why Sh*&%T happens… --- My brother is going home!! Yay (back to my grandmother that’s where he lives) He can’t live with me.. and I just don’t understand why he doesn’t like me and tried to kill me [ya he pushed me in front of a bus] I wonder what I ever did to him! I would love to know and fix it… am I that irritating some one would want to kill me? He gets almost every thing he wants because he the oldest child and my parents think its just a ‘phases’ they do every thing for him to make him feel happy so he wound do that again but when there not looking he dose it again! XD but he was like this since I was 4 pushing me in to walls hitting me but than when I trued 14 he pushes me in fount of a bus…. Lovely hu? I just don’t understand him what did I dooo too him is he jealous? But of what??? Sooo confused right now ill talk to yall later Listing to:Since I Dont Have You by Guns N Roses Talking to: steff and court Mood: upset Time:12:16am Quiz: One Step Closer IM A BOUT TO BREAK are the words that ring in your head. They've pushed you to your breaking point and you gonna let it all out right now. Scream " SHUT UP WHEN IM TALING TO YOU "and finally be heard this time. Which LINKIN PARK SONG are YOU? brought to you by Quizilla sooo true! ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Friday, September 17, 2004

You love the way I look at you While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through

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Ello all What’s up with youz? Nothing going on here so bored! I was to lazzy to make a poem [I cant be creative all the time!] I was left home again today and they say I can’t go anywhere (I would walk around aimlessly) but no I have to stay inside my big silent house that’s why I stay by my pc so I can talk to people What else……. I redid my quiz I have on qwizzila that’s about it [It’s my shortest post ever!!!] Listing to: Points Of Authority by LinkinPark Talking to: Dave Mood: bored (that’s the only bored looking one XDD) Time:12:00am Quiz: You live for your friends you know they need you as much as you need them ^-^ you care about them and will always be thare for them What Do You Live For ? (Up DaTed) brought to you by Quizilla Yay its my quiz ^_^!!! ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Thursday, September 16, 2004

But i'm not ever going to know if i'm right or wrong 'cause we're all going in the same direction

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Ello all! Yay 4 day week endddddnesss for the Jewish holidays ( sorry if I didn’t get to your sites yesterday XD hw ) My mom was talking to me again >.< She said I should get a Bf and not be so lonely … but im not that lonely ya im lonely when they leave me home alone duh. She wants me to have an “older man” * gives mom blank stare at this point* Than she says “ ya like 16 or 17 that’s a good age ^^” (me o.0) I want to know why she really wants me to have a bf Its not like I don’t want one… but what’s up with her? Wired wired mom Maybe I should get one to shut her up… but one I like SOOO CONFUSEING!! Damn mom ~ ~ ~ I made yet another poem ^^;; if I make one every day ( looks like I might but that’s cuz I have nothing to do in study hall) I will have a book soon YAY 180 days sooo ya a good amount of poems ^_^ happiness here is my latest one- In Joy & Sorrow: Is happiness nothing at all? Beauty slain Nothing to regain Miss fortune and fame With no regrets at all Sacrificing every thing To walk on Soulless eyes Looking out on the world So dead and gone Iv seen more than I should have With no regrets I move on My own Yet another I made in study hall… my be I should call my self a poet yall think I am ^^;; maybe this could be my career could youz see me as a poet for a perfusion? Listing to:From The Inside By LP!! Talking to: no one (sooory every one I was talking to on aim last night I fell asleep ^^;;) Mood: confused (about the whole bf thingy) Time:11:42AM Quiz: ~~~~-^ OPPOSITE LOVE^-~~~~ Your love is wierd. You suddenly fell inlove or have a cruch on an enemy or someone you though you never date. You seem shy,silent,and nicer to that person. tip,so you like an enemy,oppisite always attrake. LOVE SECTION, Whats your love type? very,very good pics.UPDATED brought to you by Quizilla yay?!? ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Amidst all tears there's a smile

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Last day of school till we get a four day week end YAY I made another poem today At this rate ill have a book by the end of freshmen year ^^;; Here it is I think is more of my happier ones …. Lol Dust of futures past: Stop living in the past Move on Be strong Stop living a lie Live your dream Live now Come on Still going strong Nothing will go wrong No one can hold you back Nothing to hide There are no more lies Sift thru the dust Make it the future And forget the past Was that good? I randomly made that in study hall Listing to: In Joy And Sorrow by HIM Talking to: my self Mood: content Time:12:00am Quiz: Innocence. you still enjoy childish games and you like to act immature. It's not what you do, it's the way you are, you're sometimes shy but hey! Sometimes you're dumb and stubborn, but it's what makes you cute. What Spirit Do You Represent?(Anime Pics) brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Tuesday, September 14, 2004

with souls to be saved and faith regained all our tears wipe away

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Joy to the world my brother knows when to back down XD He was yelling at me today (seem to be like a pattern for him) and I just snapped and yelled right back at him. He dint know what was going on I am usually vary quite and reserve so no one really knows my emotions. The look on his face was priceless ^^ I think he was scared… I never really yell ether so whooo hooo I sacred him.. Maybe now he will stop doing shit to me ^^ im just happy I haven’t been happy in a long time like a year that I have been happy happy lol and me being happy is scaring my mom lol she thinks im all psycho or something but nopppeee And I hugged my dad I think that gave him a heart attack lol I haven’t hugged some one in sooo long ether XD [maybe im to happpy.... is that posible?^^;;] ~ ~ ~ My Statistics: Total Visits: 1711 Popularity Ranking: # 138 (239) Guest book entries Artist Rating: 71% [63 votes] Number of Pictures: 4 Last updated: 08/06/04 Listing to: Nemo by Nightwish Talking to:NO one Mood: Happy! Lol yay Time:6:06 am Quiz: You're a "Green Angel". You're one person who is extremely protective of people around you (especially your friends) and you'd end up as a gaudian angel. You're stronger than most and aren't ashamed to show it. People know how tough you are and don't dare to mess with you when you get mad. You're real close with your friends and couldn't live wihout them so even in heaven, you want to help them. You know they'd want you as a gaudian angel and you'd love to be able to ensure safety of your friends for yourself because you're on of those "If you want something done right, do it yourself" kind of person. (please forgive me if you cannot see the pics. I'm having some difficulty with them. If you'd like to see your result picture, email me @ soccerprincess@sunsemi.com and tell me ur reult) What Color Angel Are You? (PICS) brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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