Monday, September 13, 2004

Don't you want our hearts to be torn wide open?

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Ello all what is up? I get to live with my brother for a week -.- that’s going to be grate! (vary vary sarcastic right there) at lest there is only 3 days of school but still he is the only person I can not at all get along with we are complete opposites I care a lot about every one I know [even him] but he could care less he’s evil! Make fun off people left and right because they are not like him damn him I cant believe im related to him moving on… I made another poem ^^;; I hope yall like it… Forgotten: [Dedicated to all the heart broken] Broken dreams Shattered hearts Lost hope That is what you did to me Memories flooding back Reopening old wounds Dried tears Wilted flowers Crumbling tombs Your love made me happy And lies made me bleed Oh so many times Clouded souls Fallen angels Demented lies All that there is to say All that there is to do Is forgetting you! Listing to: Salt In Our Wounds by HIM Talking to: no one Mood: sad/remembering Time: 12:00am Quiz: find your element at mutedfaith.com. [edit]: yes thare is a resion for me tobe derpressed if you read my post i had yesterday you would know why... but its more like lost in a state of thinking more than derpressed and alll my poems are derpressing sooo MEH!^^ ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Sunday, September 12, 2004

Every rose has its thorn Just like every night has its dawn Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song

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Ello nothing too post really… so sorry if I didn’t get to your sites yesterday ^^;; I had lost to think about like evil ex calling me for no damn reason XD but is all good now ^_^ Here is a song I cant get out of my head since I herd it 2 weeks ago:P "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" By My Chemical Romance Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way. For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took, Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor? I'm not okay. I'm not okay. I'm not okay. You wear me out. What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? (I'm not okay) I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what they mean (I'm not okay) So be a joke and look, another line without a hook I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look! I'm not okay. I'm not okay. I'm not okay. You wear me out. Forget about the dirty looks The photographs your boyfriend took? You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed I'm okay. I'm okay! I'm okay, now (I'm okay, now) But you really need to listen to me Because I'm telling you the truth I mean this, I'm okay! (Trust Me) I'm not okay I'm not okay Well, I'm not okay I'm not o-fucking-kay I'm not okay I'm not okay (Okay) Talking to: no one Listing to:I'm Not Okay (I Promise)by My Chemical Romance Mood: errr? Time: 11:08 Am Quiz: Green You are a very calm and contemplative person. Others are drawn to your peaceful, nurturing nature. Find out your color at Quiz Me! ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Saturday, September 11, 2004

It's when hate turns to love and love to hate & Faith to doubt and doubt to faith

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Sorry if I didn’t get to your sites yesterday or today my mind is racing with TONZ of things like reflecting on losses and ppl calling me that I thought where out of my life forever… im just so confused so ya Today is 9/11 we should all remember the fallen heroes some we might of knew the other we don’t but still they all gave there life to try and help others that they could live this day is one that you wish to forget but never will and we shouldn’t than all there deaths will be in vain! (I sound like a preacher but I don’t care) this should never happen again so maybe that’s why remember ever year…. Im going to stop now be for I cry Listing to: Endless Dark by HIM Talking to : cortny Mood: sad/upset Time: 3:00 Qwiz: no qwiz they all no work for me XD ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Friday, September 10, 2004

   errrrr?

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i woke up right noe my head hurst like allll hellll and i have this wirrd convo with steff that i dont remeber having XD here ill show you... BeoyndRedemption: hehe BeoyndRedemption: elllo BeoyndRedemption: i know sommmmething BeoyndRedemption: you dont knooow BluAngel129: what would that b? BeoyndRedemption: who i like BeoyndRedemption: hehehe BluAngel129: bob BluAngel129: ur hand BeoyndRedemption: oo ya "bob" BeoyndRedemption: thatshi s code name i gave him ^^;; BeoyndRedemption: GLITTER BluAngel129: kate: my bead can hear u BluAngel129: bed* BeoyndRedemption: O.o BeoyndRedemption: AGAIN BeoyndRedemption: STOP MOKING ME BluAngel129: right BeoyndRedemption: whos kate? BluAngel129: a crazy lady we know BeoyndRedemption: oook mommy BluAngel129: she gonna stalk u now BeoyndRedemption: O.O BeoyndRedemption: just like that other dude BluAngel129: she gonna rape u BeoyndRedemption: YAY IM GONNA BE RAPED BeoyndRedemption: ^_^ BluAngel129: n chop ur body into lil pieces BluAngel129: n get them BeoyndRedemption: oOo BeoyndRedemption: shushie BluAngel129: eat* BeoyndRedemption: awww BeoyndRedemption: i miss the pants BluAngel129: the pants know what ur seeing BeoyndRedemption: i want a pair off pants BeoyndRedemption: can i have yours? BeoyndRedemption: LET GO ON A ROAD TRIP BeoyndRedemption: phooonnee BluAngel129: kate said the pants u had on ur head r ones ed cumed in BluAngel129: road trip BluAngel129: fone? BeoyndRedemption: who ede... BeoyndRedemption: cum to jamaka BeoyndRedemption: PHONE BluAngel129: what bout the fneeeee BeoyndRedemption: i dony know... BluAngel129: foneeee* BeoyndRedemption: u on the ponhe? BeoyndRedemption: ............ BeoyndRedemption: BOB! BluAngel129: what fone? BeoyndRedemption: give me your pants.. BeoyndRedemption: i dopno BeoyndRedemption: whos phone? BluAngel129: no, ed cumed in them, not even kate want BluAngel129: u were screaming fone b4 BeoyndRedemption: oOo BeoyndRedemption: you have phonne BluAngel129: yeah BeoyndRedemption: yay BeoyndRedemption: *ring* BeoyndRedemption: ^^ BeoyndRedemption: i want a bffff BluAngel129 signed off at 7:09:19 PM. BeoyndRedemption: why do youz get onez BluAngel129: who do u want as ur bf? BeoyndRedemption: ... BeoyndRedemption: ummmmm BeoyndRedemption: =^^= BeoyndRedemption: i forgot his namee BluAngel129: try to remember BeoyndRedemption: KATE! BeoyndRedemption: noo noo BeoyndRedemption: >.< BeoyndRedemption: salad figers... NO BluAngel129: remember BeoyndRedemption: >.< hmm BeoyndRedemption: its a malee BeoyndRedemption: kate male i think BeoyndRedemption: but shes not him BluAngel129: ok BluAngel129: then who BeoyndRedemption: ... BeoyndRedemption: I DONO BeoyndRedemption: -.- BeoyndRedemption: katee do u knoww BluAngel129: corey? BeoyndRedemption: O.o BeoyndRedemption: noooo BeoyndRedemption: over that BeoyndRedemption: i must off beeen smokin somthing BeoyndRedemption: like pants back than BeoyndRedemption: GIVE ME YOUR PANTS BluAngel129: tell me who u like 1st BeoyndRedemption: i forgotttt BluAngel129: is he tall? BeoyndRedemption: i think so... BluAngel129: long hair? BeoyndRedemption: sparklyyyy arm BeoyndRedemption: i dono maybe BluAngel129: ian? BeoyndRedemption: o.o BeoyndRedemption: noo BluAngel129: billy? BeoyndRedemption: i dont think he gose to owr skool... BeoyndRedemption: BILLY -.- he forgot me BluAngel129: how dare he BluAngel129: dave? BeoyndRedemption: whos dave? BeoyndRedemption: DAMN U BUSH BeoyndRedemption: whats viagra? BeoyndRedemption: BLINKKY BluAngel129: make u grow hair on ur head BeoyndRedemption: really? BluAngel129: dude from brooklyn? BluAngel129: no BeoyndRedemption: oOo BeoyndRedemption: i want hair.. BeoyndRedemption: brooklin... BeoyndRedemption: the black dude? BluAngel129: no BeoyndRedemption: weeee am i wasted? BluAngel129: one BluAngel129: yes, yes ur BeoyndRedemption: ^^ hehe BeoyndRedemption: damn it i forgot the name of hoe i like... BeoyndRedemption: but he nice i know that ^_^;; BluAngel129: does he go online alot? BeoyndRedemption: boy** not hoe BeoyndRedemption: no hoe BeoyndRedemption: hoes are bad like kt BeoyndRedemption: i think sooo >.< i do i keeep on forgetingg OOO KITTY BluAngel129: close the door BeoyndRedemption: ok BeoyndRedemption: OWWW mt head hurts BluAngel129: hangover? BeoyndRedemption: i colsed the door BeoyndRedemption: ^^ like u told mee BeoyndRedemption: what im i hangiong over? BluAngel129: now who do u like BeoyndRedemption: TREEE BeoyndRedemption: "bob" BluAngel129: what is his name? BeoyndRedemption: kate knows ask her BluAngel129: bob ross?? BeoyndRedemption: o.) BeoyndRedemption: o.0** BeoyndRedemption: letsa go drive a car! BluAngel129: NO BluAngel129: damn caps BeoyndRedemption: aww BeoyndRedemption: are u talking to miss pants? BluAngel129: yes BeoyndRedemption: weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee BluAngel129: my bed is talking to u BeoyndRedemption: yours is stalkinf me too? BeoyndRedemption: its a conspercy BluAngel129: yep BeoyndRedemption: >.< BeoyndRedemption: riiiiingg my talking plastic thinggy BluAngel129: vibrator BeoyndRedemption: o.0 BluAngel129: spell onominipia! BeoyndRedemption: onmypenus BluAngel129: oh yeah BeoyndRedemption: yay BeoyndRedemption: glitter BeoyndRedemption: rinnng the blue thingggy BluAngel129: yeah BeoyndRedemption: that talks with your voice BluAngel129: blu vibrator BluAngel129: fone/?? BeoyndRedemption: yay BeoyndRedemption: fonnne BeoyndRedemption: its vodo BeoyndRedemption: talking your vocies ya i almost told her the dude i liked XDDD i think i was drunk... KATE WAS I? you would knoe ^^;; talking to: no one LIsting to: Planet Hell by Nightwish mood: confussed Time : 6:30 am Qwiz: What Is Your Best Sexual Skill? Name: Age: Sex: MaleFemale Sexuality: StraightGayBisexual Flirting Skill Level - 95% Kissing Skill Level - 1% Cudding Skill Level - 83% Sex Skill Level - 5% Why They Love You You have a way with words. Why They Hate You You get tongue-tied when they ask you to talk dirty to them. This QuickKwiz by lady_wintermoon - Taken 702488 Times. New! Get Free Horoscopes from Kwiz.Biz ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Thursday, September 9, 2004

Everyone feels so far away from me heavy thru sift thru dust and the lies

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Well the pictures went ok I think but all day I was embarrassed and I know never to whare a skirt to school again. Damn men where staring at me and if I was wearing my regular attire they wouldn’t be staring at me (not like I want them to at all) damn all most all the man in my school are f*&king superficial only looking at appearance. Another embarrassing thing that happened today was my mom wanted me to go shopping with her for bras XD but I don’t know my size sooo my mom wanted my dad to measure I was like hells no And one more embarrassing thing damn my mom she says to me during dinner Mom: “ so when are you getting a boyfriend?” I’m looking at her like she has 3 heads I sit there thinking of what to say than Me:“ why I need a boyfriend?” Mom: “ well it’s about that time” Me:“ IM 14 DAMN IT what you want me to be a hoe?” Mom: “ noo noo just find some one so you’re not all depressed” Me: “ and where am I going to find this person? Internet??” Mom: “maybe” Than I just walk into my room not wanting to talk about that anymore. Listing to: Love's Requiem by HIM Talking to: no one Mood: mehhh Time: 5:14am Quiz: Black blood! Depressed and hurt. You are not evil, but you know that ther isn't only sunshine on earth. You are very loyal, wise and concealed. You have the blood of the dead ones, you're a true soul! What is your true blood color? brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Wednesday, September 8, 2004

   ha im usin a smillly

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Ello all its picture day XD o joy im going to get my picture taking today and im going to show you some of mine last yrs yearbook picture XD I look pissed don’t kno why Meg me than Kate all in front of Herbert hover last yr One more thing for all my male friends out there do you really think about sex every 15 seconds? (We talked about it in heath class today) Talking to: Steff and Betty Listing to: crickets Mood: sleepy (will go right to bed after this) Time 12; 30 Quiz Your anime expression is sleepy! What's Your Anime Expression? brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Tuesday, September 7, 2004

To die is to know that your alive and my river of blood wont run dry

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Ello and thank you all for answering the questions yester day ^_^ Nothing to do here have to go back to skoool today XD I still have to do my English homework but it’s a letter about your self and im not that interesting … cant wait till Wednesday (being vary sarcastic right now) cuz its picture day at skool 4th day of skool we have pictures -. – I don’t really like pictures cuz I don’t look that good and all… I have a pic of my self but I don’t know how to upload it on to the web site so yall could see what I mean XD but if you really want to see what I look like im me and ill send you the picture Currently talking to: no one Listing to: Last Resort by Papa Roach Mood: depressed -.- Time: 12:03 Am Quiz: A lot of people cut for the blood, the feeling, the rush... You don't. You cut because you hope someday you will cut too deep. And that's sad, cuz people like you, are the most wonderful people I've ever met. Please be careful with yourself! What Kind Of Cutter Are You? (~TrIgGeRiNg~ pics) brought to you by Quizilla yes... mostly cut sooo deep that all the blood comes out... ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Monday, September 6, 2004

Three little words and a question why

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Ello all I want to get to know yall better so I made questions for you to answer ^_^ These questions are various from deep to completely random I will answer them also so you get to know me better to there are 25 questions and I would be happy if you answered them but if you don’t that’s ok all me answers will be in ()’s 1) What is your favorite color? (black or sliver) 2) What are you scared of? (bunny’s and my dad pissed off) 3) Do you believe in god? (no … I have my reasons) 4) What is the meaning of life to you? (I don’t know…. Nothing?) 5) Are you in love? (I don’t think so) 6) What’s your favorite number? (8) 7) Who is your idol? (my grand father) 8) What’s your favorite poem? (Helpless by DemonMessiah) 9) Do you hate any one? Why? ( my brother he just err evil the only person I cant get along with) 10) What’s your favorite song ever? (In Joy And Sorrow by HIM) 11) Did you ever want to die? (yes…) 12) What is love? (I don’t know that’s why im asking) 13) What is your style? ( punky goth I guess) 14) How many friends do you have (a lot) 15) What it your favorite band? (HIM LP Nightwish) 16) What grade are you in? (9th) 17) Do you wish you where some one else? (not really) 18) What do you think of when I say melon? (hehehe ^^) 19) What do you want to be when you grow up? (a poet) 20) What is your favorite smell? (reeses peanut butter cups) 21) What is your favorite flower? (chrysanthemums) 22) Do you where makeup? (eye liner) 23) Are you friendly? (I think so) 24) Are you an artist? (I don’t think so) 25) What is your favorite video game? (Castailvanya) Thank you for answering ^_^ and letting me get to know youz better Currently listing to: In Love and Lonely by HIM Talking to: betty and kaite Mood: hyper Time; 12:02 am Quiz: You are Soda (you have lots of friends and are really wild and crazy with your personality! What kind of drink are you? brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Sunday, September 5, 2004

Skin is cold and white Such a lovely lonely night

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Elllo all what’s up with you all to day? Nothing mush happing here with me But I finished my poem ^__^ ill let you guys and girlz read it and I hope yall like it Shredded: Rip my wings out so I can fly Tear my eyes out so I never cry Grab my hand and take it all away Shred my heart up so I can't feel the pain Take my voice so there is no silence Fallow me thru this winding road You stole my soul so I only have faith in you You make me feel like never before I tear my heart out to give you I rip my wings out so I can Fly away with you All lovey dovey lol I guess im just a romantic ^^;; Currently listing to: Breakdown by Breaking Benjamin Talking to: Meg, Steff, Dan, Katie, and Courtney Mood: happyish Time:12:04 am Quiz of the day: Right Here In My Arms What Song By HIM Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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Saturday, September 4, 2004

From lashes to ashes And from lust to dust In your sweetest torment I'm lost

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YAY the first week of school is over THANK DAVEY its over I see my brother in the halls XD but I did not get beat up.. I really think they think im a Jr lol I don’t think I look 17ish dang I don’t think I look 14 (maybe I should post a pic or something) I got all my books today and if I have to carry them around all yr damn im going to be able to kick my brothers ass ^^;; lol ~ ~ ~ I GOT MY PC BACK (hugs the computer and it will be spell checked) so I can go to everyone site and aim and what not ^__^ And for every one asking I dyed half my hair black blue XD my parents don’t trust me enough to do the whole head weirdoz I want to dye my whole head I don’t like being a blond (no offence to any blonds out there) but blond XD I just don’t like even thou my hair is brown/blond ‘dirty blond’ with blue! lol ~ ~ ~ In the middle of a poem… its really hard its about love XD its cuz hard love really confuses me so it might take a wile I work on it this week end ^_^;; Currently listing to: I'm Not Okay (I Promise)by My Chemical Romance Talking to: Dave Mood: happy/good Time: 12:06am Quiz of the day: You come from Dark Water. You are solitary and find peace in yourself, or maybe you're turmoiled but pull off peace. Where Did Your Soul Originate? brought to you by Quizilla ~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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