Tuesday, April 27, 2004

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Foreskin in this damned place I wait to die and waste away, the darkness is holding me tightly and will never go away the tears I cry wont bring them back or bring me to the light I am gone from the world and theirs nothing that can change that I will never see the sun resin because it is all darkness to me, I don’t belong anywhere in side of me there is nothing to lose I can go never looking back die right now I wouldn’t care nothing to lose I wanna let go of the pain I felt so long take it all away with one act the very worst part of you is me so why would I wanna stop you this wont last ill be gone never to return I don’t know what set me off first but I know what I cant stand being here looking at you seeing you like this I walk away but the sun goes down and I fell the night betray me . It holds me tightly and I hope I won’t wake up to be lost in this forsaken world. You always take away when I give in well never again I walk away in to the darkness not wanting to wake up not willing to live another day it holds me tightly death is here holding me wanting me to go with him I wont say no and you cant stop me the sun is not rising for me any more. I walk on I for fit this game you play with me im done and I win the kiss of death is the last I feel he takes me away in to the darkness holding me tightly forever never seeing you the light ever again … your love is lost im now dead he loved me more and im with him in the eternal darkness never letting go of death because he loves me more than you the light ever did and as I stay death is mine and I am his ……forever in the darkness we hold each other moood::: dipressed stament of the day: FUCK PARINTS! ~peace~

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Monday, April 26, 2004

   rain is evil!! ( its raing here)

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not that much to day im putin up a fan fic of min here:~~~ There stood two demons (Tasuzuki & eclipse) and an angle (Brittany) they where in heaven disusing a important matter at hand~~~ " She will awaken so we need to find and protected her." Said Brittany franticly." Yes we know she might be our only hope now because, Alexiel is weakened and can't fight them off." Staid eclipse, " how will we protect her?" asked tasuzuki. " Simple two of us will o down to earth and befriend her." " Nothing should happen to her she will be more power full than Alexiel and Rosiel put together but if ether Katan or Rosiel gets to her before she awakens she will be in danger." Eclipse said as he tried not to worry. " Ok we will go downs as humans and look over her." Brittany said as she put her wings away," come on Tasuzuki we have to go now." " Ok than call my name if you need any thing." Eclipse said as he faded out. ~~~~ They where all instantly friends they looked out for one another and this went on for 3 months Brittany and Tasuzuki dint know katan gotten to her also. They never knew angle was going out with katan till that one day~~~~ I was on the empire state building with him." yes I do love you why do you ask this agene" I say looking at him confused. " Well because my dear you are sadly mistaken I don't love you " I sit there in shock " what in the holy hell do you mean," I screamed at him. " this was a game and you have lost." He makes a ball of energy in his hands. "Good bye foolish one" I scream " why katan why what was the last tow moths to you." He smiled. "They met nothing what so ever to me." Than he hit me with the energy ball I fell off the building closing my eyes whispering. "Why did you do this to me." I was falling towards the ground fast, but than I was could but two strong arms. I looked up to see who it was but before I could I fell asleep. ~~*Flash back two months ago angel in a bar with Brittany and Tasuzuki ~~~ "Come on angle let's dance," my friends said as she pulled my out on to the dance floor. "Ok I am coming" I get right be side them. We dance to some songs than we get tired and sit down. What I dint know was that a pair of eyes were watching me. We get over to the bar. Than Brittany and Tasuzuki went out to dance some more .I get up to go and I bump in to this tall handsome man. "Sorry I dint look where I was going" " it is all right would you like to dance." He asked I say yes and we dance for hours on end. The club was closing and I was still dancing. " I think the club is going to close." I say as the music stops. " Well may I take you home than?" I blush " ok I didn't catch your name". We are now walking on the sidewalk it is about 6 am " my name is Katan and what is your name" " my name is angle I hade a wonderful time" they where at her apartment. "Well I hope to meet you agene angle" he took her hand and kissed it" till we do I bit you a dew" ~~~~ If only she knew he was not what he had seamed~~~~ ~*End of flash back* " Where is she " Brittany was looking for her everywhere. Nether of them could find her. ~~ To where angle is~~ "What happened to her" kuri said as she came in to see angle lying on the floor all bloody." Shh she needs to sleep and I found her falling from the empire state building."Kira whispered to her. All the others where around her as well saira and setsuna keep and eye on her until she started to wake up. ill get to yalls sites right after this ^^. mood: hungry/bored! qestion of the day;why do we whare shoes?? and song of the day :Funeral Song By: the RASMUS: I dumped you again I don't understand It's happened before Can't take it no more These foolish games Always end up in confusion I'll take you back Just to leave you once again I died in my dreams What's that supposed to mean? Got lost in the fire I died in my dreams Reaching out for your hand My fatal desire I've failed you again 'Cause I let you stay I used to pretend That I felt ok Just one big lie Such a perfect illusion I made you mine Just to hurt you once again I died in my dreams What's that supposed to mean? Got lost in the fire I died in my dreams Reaching out for your hand My fatal desire long post lol ~peace~

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Sunday, April 25, 2004

  

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i sletp all day yesterday XD. to day im watin the race in talidaga (sp) and jr. is doin goood .^^ mood: dazzed song of the day :Sweet Child O\' Mine BY: Guns~n~Roses:She's got a smile that it seems to me Reminds me of childhood memories Where everything Was as fresh as the bright blue sky Now and then when I see her face She takes me away to that special place And if I stared too long I'd probably break down and cry Sweet child o' mine Sweet love of mine She's got eyes of the bluest skies As if they thought of rain I hate to look into those eyes And see an ounce of pain Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place Where as a child I'd hide And pray for the thunder And the rain To quietly pass me by Sweet child o' mine Sweet love of mine Where do we go Where do we go now Where do we go Sweet child o' mine She's got a smile that it seems to me Reminds me of childhood memories Where evrything Was as fresh as the bright blue sky Now and then when I see her face She takes me away to that special place And if I stared too long I'd probably break down and cry Sweet child o' mine Sweet love of mine She's got eyes of the bluest skies As if they thought of rain I hate to look into those eyes And see an ounce of pain Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place Where as a child I'd hide And pray for the thunder And the rain To quietly pass me by Sweet child o' mine Sweet love of mine Where do we go Where do we go now Where do we go Sweet child o' mine ~peace~

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Thursday, April 22, 2004

   damn chages

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today wasss boring!!! nothing too dooo otako is bing a tart XDDDit dont love mee. Mood: hungy / angry qestion of the day: is thare a god? song of the day :"Not Like The Other Girls"-THE RASMUS :No more blame I am destined to keep you sane Gotta rescue the flame Gotta rescue the flame in your heart No more blood, I will be there for you my love I will stand by your side The world has forsaken my girl I should have seen it would be this way I should have known from the start what she's up to When you have loved and you've lost someone You know what it feels like to lose She's fading away Away from this world Drifting like a feather She's not like the other girls She lives in the clouds She talks to the birds Hopeless little one She's not like the other girls I know No more shame, she has felt too much pain, in her life In her mind she's repeating the words All the love you put out will return to you ~peace~

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Tuesday, April 20, 2004

   FETHERS

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THIS SONG IS STUCK IN MY HAED!!!!!!!!!! "In The Shadows": BY THE RASMUS. No sleep No sleep until I am done with finding the answer Won't stop Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer Sometimes I feel I going down and so disconnected Somehow I know that I am haunted to be wanted I've been watching I've been waiting In the shadows all my time I've been searching I've been living For tomorrows all my life In the shadows In the shadows They say That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe But I I rather kill myself then turn into their slave Sometimes I feel that I should go and play with the thunder Somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder I've been watching I've been waiting In the shadows all my time I've been searching I've been living For tomorrows all my life Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher I've been watching I've been waiting In the shadows all my time I've been searching I've been living For tomorrows all my life I've been watching I've been waiting I've been searching I've been living for tomorrows In the shadows In the shadows I've been waiting Mood: chillin qestion of the day: why is cheese yellow??? ~peace~

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Sunday, April 18, 2004

   LONG QWIZ

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Mood: pissed, im not a god damn soup can dont lable me!!!! ABOUT YOU Your full name:: jennifer barany Age:: 14 Height:: 5'6 Natural hair colour:: dirty blond Eye colour:: bule/gray/grenn Number of siblings:: 3 Glasses/contacts?:: glasses Piercings:: ears Tattoos:: no but want some Braces?:: nope FAVOURITE Colour:: black Band:: AFI Song:: sliver and cold / in the end Stuffed animal:: this black bear Video game:: castilvanya (sp) TV show:: lodded Movie:: queen of the damed Book:: manga Food:: TACO Game on a cell phone:: err CD cover:: the art of drowing Flower:: black rose Scent:: orange Animal:: bat Comic book:: angle santuary Cereal:: pops Website:: www.afireinside.net Cartoon:: ... alot DO YOU Play an instrument?:: i sing dose that count? Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: yes Like to sing?:: yes! Have a job?:: no Have a cell phone?:: no Like to play sports?:: no Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: noo! Have a crush on someone?:: errr Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: nope Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: yes Have any special talents/skills?:: no Excercise daily?:: ya Like school?:: helllll nooo CAN YOU Sing the alphabet backwards?:: yep Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: yup Speak any other languages?:: ya Go a day without food?:: yes Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: lol yup Read music, not just tabs?:: yes Roll your tongue?:: no Eat a whole pizza?:: yes HAVE YOU EVER Snuck out of the house?:: yes Cried to get out of trouble?:: yes Gotten lost in your city?:: no Seen a shooting star?:: yes pritty XD Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: no Had a serious surgery?:: no Stolen something important to someone else?:: nope Solved a rubiks cube?:: .. no Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: ya ^^U Cried over a girl?:: no Cried over a boy?:: hell nooo Kissed a random stranger?:: why would i kiss anyone Hugged a random stranger?:: noo Been in a fist fight?:: yes Been arrested?:: not yet Done drugs?:: ummm Had alcohol?:: yes Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: lol many times (KATE) Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: hehe yup Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: hell no Swore at your parents?:: many many times Been to warped tour?:: i wish Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: yup Been in love?:: no Been close to love?:: ya Been to a casino?:: not legle Ran over an animal and killed it?:: yes Broken a bone?:: noo Gotten stitches?:: yes Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: sounds like a plan lol Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: yes Made homemade muffins?:: ya Bitten someone?:: hhehe ya Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: noo More than 5 times?:: nope Been to niagra falls?:: no Burped in someones face?:: no Gotten the chicken pox?:: yes WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU Brushed your teeth:: yesterday Went to the bathroom:: why do u care O_o Saw a movie in theaters:: 3 moths ago Read a book:: yesterday Had a snow day:: 2 motha ago Had a party:: moth Had a slumber party:: never Made fun of someone:: lol all the time Tripped in front of someone:: err dont know Went to the grocery store:: monday Got sick:: today Cursed:: today PICK ONE Fruit/vegetables:: fruit Black/white:: black Lights on/lights off:: off TV/movie:: tv Car/truck:: truck Body spray/lotion:: lotin Cash/check:: cash Pillows/blankets:: pillows Headache/stomach ache:: headache XDD Paint/charcoal:: charcoal Chinese food/mexican food:: damn i ate both today err Summer/winter:: winter Snow/rain:: rain Fog/misty:: fog Rock/rap:: ROCK Meat/vegetarian:: meat Boy/girl:: nether Chocolate/vanilla:: vanilla Sprinkles/icing:: sprinkels Cake/pie:: pie French toast/french fries:: WAFULL Strawberries/blueberries:: strawberries Ocean/swimming pool:: swimmig pool Hugs/kisses:: hug! Cookies/muffins:: muffin p33n/bewbz:: .... Wallet/pocket:: pockit Window/door:: windo Emo/goth:: labes are for sope cans Pink/purple:: nether Cat/dog:: cat Long sleeve/short sleeve:: both one over the other Pants/shorts:: pants Winter break/spring break:: put them both together Spring/autumn:: autumn Clouds/clear sky:: clear sky Moon/mars:: moon FRIENDSHIP How many friends do you have?:: wowo to many to count What are their names?:: do i have tooooooo Do you have a best friend?:: thare all close Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: not like that eww Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: no Have you ever lost a friend?:: ya Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: no Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: TES TIME Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: yes Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: errr i forget Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: ... Do you miss any of your old friends?:: yes What friend have you known the longest?:: brit Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: .. If so, what is it?:: ....... How often do you spend time with your friends?:: half the day Do any of your friends drive?:: no Has a friend of yours ever died?:: yes Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: we wher acting like hookers What do you think your friends think of you?:: i bet they think in retated LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP Have you ever been in love?:: no If you have, with who?:: >-> Are you single?:: yes Are you in a relationship?:: noo If so, for how long?:: ...... Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: mostlikrly What is your idea of the best date?:: ............ What was your first kiss like?:: never had one How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: ....... Do you think love is a load of shit?:: YEA! Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: ........ If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: yes Have you ever been dumped?:: no Have you ever dumped someone?:: ya Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: ??/ nothing realy hug? WORD ASSOCIATION Slippers:: skinky feet Hat:: head Hard:: ewwwww Free:: soul Space:: moon Taste:: foood Good charlotte:: KATES ASS Red:: blood Deep:: cuts Heart:: atacke Cord:: gitar Cheese:: stick Rain:: drop Work:: shit Pedal:: meatle Head:: o_o Bed:: sleeep Fluff:: marshmellow Hardcore:: \m/ ROCK ON Race:: nascar Knife:: cut arm Jump:: off I.... am:: awake want:: jade need:: love crave:: forgiveness love:: nothing hate:: myself did:: hurt feel:: lonly miss:: grandpa am annoyed by:: everyone would rather:: die am tired of:: living will always:: morin SILLY STUFF What is your favourite genre of music?:: hard core What time is it now?:: 9:00 What day is it?:: sunday Whens the last time you called someone?:: today How much money do you have right now?:: 0 Are you hungry?:: no Whatcha doin?:: this duh Do you like parades?:: .. Do you like the moon?:: yes What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: sleep? Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: no If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: kill Have you ever had a picnic?:: ya Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: no What about sock em boppers?:: nope Are you wearing any socks right now?:: no DO YOU THINK YOU ARE funny?:: thats what they say pretty?:: no sarcastic?:: yes lazy?:: ya hyper?:: not right now friendly?:: err evil?:: lol smart?:: hell no strong?:: kinda talented?:: no dorky?:: er ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know) high:: dad skip:: cortny dance:: kate lonely:: me pen:: cory XDDD he eats them flower:: gradma window:: kt psycho:: ME brain freeze:: kate orange:: regriyo sassy:: kt jelly:: maegan FOR OR AGAINST suicide:: for!! love:: AGAINST drunk drivers:: AGAINST airplanes:: AGAINST war:: AGAINST canada:: AGAINST united states:: for rock music:: FOR gay marriage:: for (noo im not gay but they sould be able to) school:: AGAINST surveys:: for parents:: AGAINST cars:: for killing:: FOR britney spears:: AGAINST coffee:: 4 pants:: yes plzzzz WOULD YOU EVER Sky dive?:: no Play strip poker?:: nooo Run away?:: yes Curse at a teacher?:: ya Not take a shower for a week?:: ya Ask someone out?:: no Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: no Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: nope Go scuba diving?:: no Write a book?:: no Become a rockstar?:: no Have casual sex?:: NO! LAST QUESTIONS What shampoo do you use?:: swave Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: NEVER What kind of computer do you have?:: dell What grade are you in?:: 8th Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: yes !lol Or just make out?:: ..... How many posters do you have in your room?:: over 500 How many cds do you have?:: 20 or 30 What time is it now?:: 9:11 extremely long survey brought to you by BZOINK!

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   SUGA!!!!

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i was thinking today i might wanna join the army/navy to give some porose in my life sould i? why i am up at this hr (1am) im on a sugger hi i drak 5 things of soda and ate some cookies^-^U.its realy boring now....... and im going to see it i know how to instale my scaner ! w0000t. mood: hyper/hot/w000t! ~peace~

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Saturday, April 17, 2004

   YAY!

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w000t over 800 pll came to my site!!! ^-^ yay plz come back and one aggain thx for coming.

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Friday, April 16, 2004

   bored bored MAD bored

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LIES my dad lied to me yet again . he said he was going to buy me stuff from the mall today Xd . but in sted we go totarget with my mom XDDD damn LIES. moood: pissed thr hell off black foxez: I hate you! x.x LPMikeMike: err LPMikeMike: what i do black foxez: I dont want to go out with dan! LPMikeMike: ? LPMikeMike: waaa black foxez: you said that to kt LPMikeMike: like i care LPMikeMike: noo i dint LPMikeMike: i said you hage aroud him tooo much black foxez: my keyboard ish delayed LPMikeMike: nice black foxez: and my hair brush smells like kt's house LPMikeMike: O-O ooook LPMikeMike: but you and dan would make a cute cupple black foxez: x.x LPMikeMike: waht LPMikeMike: youz would black foxez: Me and Dan are just good friends LPMikeMike: oo now your geting alll protetive black foxez: Ooooh, that was just like me and Matt LPMikeMike: lol black foxez: Shit ~peace~

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

  

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what do yous live for? why do you wake up in the moring? is thare a resion you want to live another day? i dont know what i live for.... im trying to find that . Mood: thinking realy hard song of the day Last Resort By PaPa Roach:Cut my life into pieces This is my last resort Suffocation no breathing Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding This is my last resort Cut my life into pieces I've reached my last resort Suffocation no breathing Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding Do you even care if I die pleading Would it be wrong, would it be right If I took my life tonight Chances are that I might Mudilation out of sight And I'm contimplating suicide 'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine I never realized I was spread too thin Till it was too late and I was empty within Hungry, feeding on my chaos and living in sin Downward spiral, where do I begin It all started when I lost my mother No love for myself and no love for another Searching to find a love upon a higher level finding nothing but questions and devils 'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Nothing's alright, nothing is fine I'm running and I'm crying I'm crying, I'm crying, I'm crying, I'm crying I can't go on living this way Cut my life into pieces This is my last resort Suffocation no breathing Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding Would it be wrong, would it be right If I took my life tonight Chances are that I might Mudilation out of sight And I'm contimplating suicide 'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Losing my sight, losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine Nothing's alright, nothing is fine I'm running and I'm crying I can't go on living this way Can't go on living this way Nothing's alright! ~peace~

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