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myOtaku.com: luicifers wife

Friday, September 24, 2004

All alone I fall to pieces
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Ello all (did you ever notice I almost say that every day..)

Almost every day is the same… wake up go to skool do the same exacted things in skoool see the same people go home do home work than repeated why is life a cycle? XD I don’t want to live the same thing over and over again yet it brings me comfort to know what’s going to happen next
But time goes by so fast its like just yesterday I was still in 5th grade not really caring about anything no problems I wish I could go back to then it was fun and I didn’t need to act happy… like now I have to be “happy” so they think its all right I wish I could be happy and not pretend but what is happy? I think I lost the meaning thru out all the stuff that happened to me since I trued 13
And why is that I become a teen and I have more problems than ever? Like my grandfather’s death my brother blaming me, than I believe him and become suicidal
*sigh * and a week before that happened I see my than boy friend with another girl so ya flue to the depression fire
Than I get left alone for periods of time it was fun in the beginning than you wonder why and start to think like today I was home alone and I was thinking about this (that’s why im postn it) I usually don’t remember it I push it out of my mind and make my self forget but it all come flooding back today
Who the heck am I (I know im jen but I mean I lost touch with my true self I think) maybe I locked it away… I must find that key now the key to happiness! (If you have it share)
Hmm I wonder if all good poets go thru this pain to make poetry cuz it seems every one of my poems reflected my pain also ^^;; got to love the good work I get from it all my be my pain will make me famous meh sounds ok to me

[Random ranting about my life…. I was thinking all day today spacing out because of the memories]

That’s the most I ever typed…. I am vary wordy this week all the poems and now an essay about my problems XD got to love it!

Listing to: Fall To Pieces by Velvet Revolver

Talking to: no one

Mood: err?

Time: 4:46 am

Quiz:

You are a neutral you fight for what you want when
you want. You can go either way the light side
of things or the dark, it depends on how you
fell at the time You are smart funny and are
probably have a better sense of the world than
most people ever will.

~~What are you??? Gurls only!!~~ Very long quiz good answers
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Questions: None

~Take Care Sweetheartz~

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