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Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Long time no post
Sorry I haven't really been posting. It's not that I have been busy. I guess I have just had other things on my mind. Sorry.
Lately I have been kind of distracted. I feel down, but I don't really know why. I feel left behind. I guess that is how I should say it. Like I have stopped, but the world is still moving right past me and pushing me if I get in the way. Like the school halls. I don't know why I feel like this, I just do. And the worst part is that I don't feel like I have a right to feel this way. Maybe it's because I haven't taken my anti-depressants in a few weeks. My mom doesn't know I stopped, but I did because she said that I could go without them and we would save money on doctor visits. I feel quiet and disheartened. Like unnaturally quiet. If I didn't have to, I probably wouldn't speak at school. I'm mad at myself because I have gained weight and I can't seem to get rid of it. My mom is mad because I have gained weight. I don't know why she is. She must feel thin now or something. I really feel like I am having a bad day, but, I really can't say that because nothing bad has happened. Maybe I am just being a baby. I have no reason to be down. I got a 100/100 on my mystery shop at work, our school musical is in two weeks, we just started a new marking period so I have good grades, my cat hasn't died, I haven't lost any friends. So, I don't know why I feel so down, but I do. My frown feels deeper and I zone out for no reason alot now. I feel like I'm not even really here. Like I am floating ten feet away watching the shell of myself go about its daily routine. Kind of like an out of body experience, but I don't really like it. I don't want to feel sad, but I do and I can't stop but the feel of it.
~Lumi ^_^
Current Mood: Sad
Current Music: None, I'm at school.
Quote: "He's gotta be the tragic figure standing in the rain, mourning the loss of his beloved. So down comes the rain, right on cue." - Mervyn Pumpkinhead, Neil Gaiman's The Sandman
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