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• Rachel

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• Individual Silver Medal in Music for Academic Decathlon Regionals 2005
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• Sailor Moon was first released in the US
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• Dai Guard
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• This is corny, but: To stand on the horizon
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• I can turn my tongue up-side-down! Oh Yeah!




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Saturday, May 29, 2004

Blah...again
You know, life just doesn't seem worth anything anymore. I don't even think I'm alive anymore, I just exist. I have so many questions that no one can answer without also sending me to a shrink as well. I'm running out of options. I feel that everyday I walk around with a mask on that looks as though it is laughing and smiling. Yet, underneath the mask I'm crying and screaming, and wanting nothing more than to die. I'm starting to wonder how many people would care if I disappeared. Maybe my mom would feel responsible, my sister would be sad, my brother might not really care, my other brother does not seem to even know me, and my dad would be sad. My list of friends is really short.
The saddest part about all of this is that what I really live for right now is my cat. I love her so much, I could never leave her alone like that.

~Lumi

Current Mood: Extremely Depressed and Suicidal
Current Music: Savage Garden
Quote: "What was the start of all this?
When did the cogs of fate begin to turn?

Perhaps it is impossible to grasp that answer now,
From deep within the flow of time...

But, for a certainty, back then,
We loved so many, yet hated so much,
We hurt others and were hurt ourselves...

Yet even then we ran like the wind
Whilst our laughter echoed,
Under cerulean skies..." - Chrono Cross
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