Wednesday, September 14, 2005

   *koff*
^-^ well I'm happy... dude this kinda creepy, being happy for like a whole week!!! usually I'm mad, or I'm complaining about something by tuesday... ^-^ oh well.

humm so yesterday was unity day. it was cool, THE SOPHMORES KICKED ALL THE CLASSES BUTTS IN TUG OF WAR!!! ha ha ha we beat out all of them, soo cool. ^-^ oh and I met this really cool guy. mis name is micah. (it sunds like micka though) I even got his number!!! hes soo cute! red hair green eyes, really tall. heh... *drool* major cutie. *sigh* and arda isnt going to homecoming. so I guess I'll ask micah. ^-^ I hope he says yes. that'd be cool.

so I've been sleeping all this week. cant help it. *yawn* and I think I'm gonna go sleep some more... see ya'll later...

-kumiko
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Monday, September 12, 2005

   woo hooo!!!
^-^ happy again today!!! (jeeze... Its like I'm on prozac, but I'm not... O.O) lol I'm just feeling good. well humm what went on today... oh I got the pattern, and fabric for my homecomming dress!!! ^-^



isnt it just wonderful? ^-^ I'm making the blue one, the one with the flower. but I'm doing mine in aqua green, with a pink lining, so when I dance you'll se the flash of hot pink on the bottom. *smug grin* just a little trick I picked up from irish dancing. the richins timm dressed had that, and it really catches the eye. hummm speaking of homecomming, I've already had 2 boys ask me out. -.- but the problem is, I dont like them... *sigh* I dont know what I'm going to do. I mean tiffany and her guy are trying to set me up with someone, but its not really doing anything. I guess I'm going to be going with arda... hes in cross country, an I talk to him alot. but I donno... my maturity level is that of a 3rd graders when it comes to dating... O.O

its just boys scare me. *sniffle* thier all so... I donno... I guess I'm just scared to death of dating. I always feel like ripping out of my skin when a guy hits on me, because I have no idea what to do!!! *wail* and the problem is... SOME BOYS LIKE THAT!!! *sigh* well arda is pretty shy too... hummm I have no idea what I'm going to do...
ohhh found one of my old pics!!!



humm I like it.. but its still wayy light. ooh and it looks funny... -.- but that was like a year ago, so I guess my drawing has gotten better ^-^ I cnat wait to put up the picture I'm doing for the contest!!! *squeal*

well, I gotta study that pattern for the dress, its wayy complicated... oh tomarrows unity day!!! its like a mini fair!!! yay!!! and I might just aske arda to homecomming then... *shakes in fear* that is If i get the courage to talk to him... lol

peace!!!

-kumiko

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Sunday, September 11, 2005

   PEACE OF MIND!!!
^-^ yay! I feel so relieved. see this pass few weeks I've been really tense. see, I have a lot of family in mississippi, and lousiana, and they live really close to the coast, and when katrina hit, I was really scared. Espically for my cousin Frog. *sigh* yes his name is frog brooks. -.- dont ask why his name is frog... I asked him, and I guess its short for some really long french/aferican name. lol I dont even want to try to spell it.

but anyway. after katrina hit, I was freaking out, I mean they all live by the coast, in the bayou. But a day after the hurrican hit, we got a call from huston, saying they fled just before it hit, and now thier all sitting safe and sound up here in ohio. ^-^ gosh I'm so happy!!! and frog's ok. in fact hes been messing with the people here. lol. like today, he went out to the greek festival with us, and he tried to order a gyro. key word- tried lol no one could understand him through his thick cajun accent, and the fact he was slipping into french didnt help any. so I had to inturprate, and I felt like some great lingustics master because I could understand him, and no one else could. but at least he stopped messing around, and he cleaned up his accent enough to order bachleva and coffie. those poor greek ladies. they where not happy with poor frog. lol

well my cold finally cleared up. ^-^ thanks to everyone who wished me well!!! it made me really happy. ^-^ hummm well whats going on... oh! we only have 3 days of school next week!!! so I wont have as much homework!!! yay!!! not just that, but my dad has convinced me to enter a drawing contest. ^-^ I'm pretty execited, because this will be the first time I've shown my work publically. before I would just show my friends, and my dad, but well... I showed frog, and he was like "tha's real [puredy hon!" ^-^ I love having frog around. I kinda wish he would stay. oh and ladies! he single!!! and hes only 20!!! lol come on!!! well I gotta go, frog's tryin to figure out how to order chinese... jeeze, and hes complaning he cant undersatnd them!!!!

peace ya'll!!!

-kumiko

(p.s.- frog says if one of you cute otaku gallies wanna hook up theres plenty of frogger to go around... *punches him* jeeze hes worse than my big brother!!!)
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Saturday, September 10, 2005

   *sniffle* bloody cold...
listening to-
violent pornography
system of a down
mezmerize

*sniffle* damn it... I caught menakishi's cold. -.- I'm all full of mucus, and I looks all gross... -.- boy it aint a pretty sight. lol well I went on a shopping spree today. my mom has been iching to go shopping for a while, so I just sucked it up, and went out to the mall. and it was fun!!! I bought mezmerize, by system of a down, a way cool old man hat, and a pair of cool goggles to go with the hat. I think I'm gonna wear it during unity day on tuesday... *shrug* donno lol

I'm happy, I'm joining muse machine this year, as well as art club, ^-^ so I get to see carmen at the shuster center this year!!! I'm so execited, as you can tell. but I'm a major opera fan, and carmen is my most favorite, next to phantom of the opera. humm what else is happening at school... oh tiffany, my friend got asked to homecomming... which means I now gotta get off my fat lazy bum, and get up the courage to ask a dude out, because I am now exepected to go to homecomming, since tiff is going. -.- I was so much happier avoiding the opposite sex like the black plague... *sigh* but I gotta do it. oh well... there are good guys out there, I just gotta look. -.- lol well I am a very different girl. I like system of a down, baseball, soccer, boxing, and skateboarding... so I guess I'm not the average gal... lol

dude this song, "violent pornography" is sooo cool... here this is part of the chorus-

-its a violent pornography, choking chicks and sodmy the kinda shit thats on your t.v.-

lol ah ha ha ha ha ha ha

dude most brilliant band ever!!! lol

well I'm gonna drag my lazy, sickly, gross mucus filld corpse to bed, I'll see ya'll later...

-lizard
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Thursday, September 8, 2005

   *yawn!*
listening to-
feel good INC
the gorilaz
deamon days


-.- *yawn* so I went out and got the new c.d. from the gorillaz. I've been listening to that, avenged seven fold, motion city sound track, NoFX, and system of a down lately. I really like them. 'spically motion city. ^-^ I really like thier sound. its awesome.

heh well enough about music, I guess I should go on about wht I've been up to. uggggg I'm sooo worn out, its not even funny. it feels like by thursday, I'm dragging my lifeless limp rotting corpse, weighed down my 20 pound back pack, across the hall to each of my classes. I've been spending an average of 3-4 hours a night on homework, then I have to do my chores, and then I have to finish my fan-manga thing for furuba. and its hard as hell to get to sleep, because theres these crickets under my window that are sooo loud, and this dog that wont shut the hell up next door to me. before, the sound was kinda nice. but now I just feel like setting fire to my lawn, and throwing a brick at that damn dog.

its pretty bad when you dream of ways to kill your neighbors dog. but I fucking hate that mutt. >.< I hate it!!! well thats just my sleep deprovation talking. I get to sleep at midnight, and get up at 5 am. >.< oh well, at least I'm doing well at school. if I die in the middle of biology, at least at my burial, they'll say,

"hey did you know she had all A's and B's in her classes? yea! even with 1 AP class! she lead a full life..."

he ok mabye I'm going over board. but tomarrow is friday and I'm going to the greek festival this weekend. so I get to knaw on some lamb, and sleep in!!! ohhh hey Im listening to the gorillaz old C.D.. it always makes me smile

"I'm happy feelin glad, I got sunshine, in a bag, I'm useless not for long, the future is commin on..."

la la la.... ha ha

-lizard
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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

   *sigh* back to school... *sigh* oh well
*sigh* so it was my first day of school yesterday. -.- I feel so empty now. its like the moment summer vacation ends, I shut down. I dont hate school, but by the same token, I'm not to fond of it. as I see it, its a nessary evil, with a few perks. *shrug* oh well

but whats cool, I have my old english teacher again. Its funny, last year, I couldnt stand mrs.beeman, but now, I love her class! I squealed when I saw her name on my schedule. and I get to see her 1st peirod, and my bud josh brown is doing seinor aid for her. ^-^ I really wanna do well in her class, shes a cool teacher, and after dealing with me last year, I really wanna proove to her that I am a good kid. uhh lets see, my 2nd pierod is bio. my teacher is preety cool. shes kinda a bit of a flake though. like in the middle of talking about the rules and stuff, she goes into a story about her cat. but shes nice, and its a cool class. next is cooking. -.- I'm a good cook, and the only reason I'm doing the class is to boost my GPA, because I wanna do national junior honor society with tiffany. but in my cooking class, the only people in there are stoners, preps, and posers, who keep talking to me. *yawn* so I'm stuck in a class with a buncha people who have no brain, or free thought what so ever.

next is lunch, and of corse I sit at the band table! its fun though, and theres this really cute senior guy that hangs out with us, and hes always smiling at me. ^-^ not like I can get him, I think he has a girlfriend, but it fels nice to be checked out once and a while. my 5th pierod is history, and has nothing but my friends. damon, joal, tiffany, rachel, stephanie, and nicole. *grin* and coach grimm is my teacher, so this should be a happy class. my 6th pierod, is HARD!!! *cries* man algebra! of course. well its kinda my fault, I skipped 6th yesterday, so I could eat lunch with tiffany, and missed some stuff. 7th pierod is symphonic band. god I already wanna hang myself, and we havent even started playing yet. then 8th is gym.

but with band, I just hate most of the new freshmen, and not just that, but a lot of my old band friends are totally snubbing me, because I quit marching band. *sigh* oh well, I guess they wernt very good friends in the first place, but it just hurts. I worked my ass off last year, and everyone is still snubbing me.

oh well, I know who my true friends are I guess. its unfair, but I'm still in band, and I'm to good, and I've put in to much time to just quit all together. but sometimes its just feels like I'm misriable ither way. if I'm in marching band, my grades will suck, and I'll be stressing out about school, and have no time to my self, or if I'm not in marching band then I"m getting snubberd by the very people I bent over backwords to help.

the worst is my friend angelina. I have done so much for her, like once, I covered for her so she wouldnt get in trouble with her mom and dad, because she was retarded, and has sex during spring break, I delt with her gossip mouth when I told her I kissed sears, and she told everyone, and he now refuses to look at me.(she asked him out later and got turned down, by the way) or when I beat her at tennis and she calld me a lying bitch, and said that I sucked at tennis when she would run away from the ball. *sigh*

shes a horriable friend, but I never saw it.

Oh well.

*sigh* I do feel preety good about this year though. ^-^ my guidance dude, is awesome. I just met him today, to get my schedule changed. They gave me health, when I already passed it, so I'm taking sculpture 1 instead. I wanted drawing 1 but it was full. *grin8 all my exetra classes are cake. I'm taking cooking, band, and gym 1st semester, then sculpture 1, and band. *does happy dance* woho! I'm a gonna raise my GPA baby!!! I love being a sophmore.

cuz when youre a sophmore, you dont have the same responsibilty as a junior, the stress of a senior, and youre not a stupid freshmen anymore. yay. I feel preety bad though. so far, I really dont have very many high exepectations for the class of 2009. they all seep preety dumb. ah mabye thats what everyone thought of our class, but we have some cools people in the class of 08`. ah mabye thats just my ego talking. donno.

well I gotta finish my algebra homework. ta ta!

-lizard
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Saturday, August 20, 2005

   jeezzzzeeee maaaannnnnn
*holds head* ow ow ow ow... my head hurts so bad... I stayed up till like 2am drinking pina coltas with my mom. She had a bad day at work, and she doesnt know how to make them, so I made some for her, and we just sat around talking. See, she's the building manager of this doctors office, and they are applying for mal-practice insurance, and this one companys rep is a total ass hole, that always hitting on her and junk. and even the day I went in to visit her, and get my stiches removed, he was checking me out!!!! I felt like puking. but yea, hes giving her a hard time, because she picked a different company, and he didnt get his commishion. oh well ass holes like that dont deserve it. but yea, her job is getting stressful. and my dad picked up more hours at his job, so I'm home alone a lot more now.

heh its kinda funny, because my little sister is getting ferrel. I mean sure I'm one to talk, all I do is sit outside and draw, for an hour, then drink pina colatas, and watch soup operas, play video games, and watch anime, till like mid night but still...

Shes given up cloths.

all she does anymore is lay on her bed naked, with a cowboy hat on, playing mario all day. I swear to god. and she wont eat anymore, so about every 3 hous or so, I slide a coke, and a nutty buddie bar through the crack in the door, and pick up her trash. its a pretty fair trade, I get free reign over the house, and she doesntyell at me when I start singing "kill the white people" as loud as I possibly can while I gardening.

hummm mabye thats why the nighbors moved... cuz I'm preety annoying about it. but ray, or mail man, who is of color, like my self, is always laughing his ass off when he comes by. but I'm going crazy here in suberbia!!!! its nothing but prissy white boys trying to skatebored, and a sluttly chick that lives across the street from me making out with some random dude in her front lawn.

*sigh* oh well. it was funny though, I had to get my sister to take a bath, so I ran the bath water, cut of the electricty, took a sheet, wrangled her up, and threw her in our tub. heh no kidding. I swear. and damn shes quick! she was running all around the house hissing at me, till I traped her in a corner of our dining room, dude it was sad. cuz I had to dress her too. my mom was getting mad that she was moving around naked all the time. I mean school is starting soon, so shes gotta at least get used to underwear!!! jeeze its hard to put shoes on an 11 year old.

yeas my naked wacked out cat girl little sister is 11, almost 12 years old! I knew how to make a martinii by that age! she cant even make a good long island iced tea. seirously, I have no idea how shes gonna make it in the real world. *sigh*

well 10 days till school. yay, I might get my old homeroom. I liked that desk. it was perfect for sleeping in. ^-^ ohh ans 23 days till x-fest, 7 days till the black eyed peas concert, heh I am bumbed that the green day concert got postponed till the 23, but thats only 3 days away, so I'm happy. ^-^ ohh I drew a cute picture for my fruits basket fanfiction! its momiji, and his big sister, my character, dancing. its really cute. I might even put it up.

*yawn* well I'm feeling a bit peckish, so I'm gonna make my self some brownies. I've been craving chocolate. ja ne!

-kari/lizzie/kumiko/gummy wolf

lol
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

   some random story that popped in my head...
`ello all!

ok... well yea, so I am a slave to time warner, I have thier Ultimate package. 1000 cable channels, HBO, and all those movie channels, the soccer channel, the tennis channel, anime network on demand (*sigh* my one true love) and a buncha others. As well as around 120 music channels, including this wicked awesome techno channel, called dance hits. its awesome, and what it does, is play the song, and pop up random trrvia about the song, and this one, I'm sure many are fimular with, called "I gotta get through this." ohhh I love it so.

but in the random trivia, it said that the dude who wrote and sang it, wrote the song while walking to his best friends house, to profess his love for her. and I was touched. things like that just never seem to happen anymore, and, now this is absoulty no offence ment for any guys, I am in no way a femminist wacko who hates all things with a y chromosome. its just not like that, but it just seems to me, like all the guys I know personally, are total jerks in love, who ither see nothing but sex when they meet a pretty girl, or they exepect the girl to do everything, like exepress thier feelings.

and oh my god! do you know how hard it is to tell someone you like them? or even worse... tell them you love them?!? its the absoulte best worst feeling of passionate raw fear, and hate, and love... happy, angry, embarrased, feeling sexy... you go insane just thnking about stuff!

like, what if they dont feel the same? what if they do? what if he yells at me and calls me a slut or something? or what if he pulls me up in a passionate cheesy movie kiss? what if what if what if!!! you can drive your self crazy just trying to plan out what you're going to say!!! heh its soo stressful.

but yea, I was inspired to write a story. tell me what you think about it. I'd like some feed back.


-hikari


"Kya... if you keep pacing back and forth lie that you're gonna wear a hole in my rug." Kya paused from her thinking, and looked up, at her two guy friends lounging out in the couch across from her. "oh sorry mio, akaro... I'm just..." she let her sentence to fade in the air, as her worried mind began to wonder. "you're just worried because your going to profess you love to him..." mio finished for her. she nodded lightly, and sat at her friends feet, rubbing her temples. "you know, I though the hardest part was admitting to my self, that I loved him... its taken me years to do that... but now, here I am, ready to drill my head into that fireplace, just over telling him something, I've been saying for years..." she trailed off again, and stared at the roaring fire, resting snuggly, in the fireplace of her friends home.

"Yes, but you do know that those words hold new meaning now." akaro spoke wisely, sating at the fire too. Mio smiled brightly, and rubbed the back of kya's blonde head, as he leaned back into akaro's lap, twirling his fingers, in akaros long dark hair. "thats very true akaro sweetie!!! I remeber it was super ultra hard for me to tell you I loved you!!!" he said happily. Kya chuckled, and looked at her friend mio, his bright red hair, and warm brown eyes... no one would have figured he could be gay. "yes but you do remeber, you asked to have sex with me, before you said you loved me." akaro said gantly, wrapping his arms around mio's waist, and alouing mio to rest his head in the crook of akaros neck. kya smiled gently, and imagined doing the same with the man she loved. Kyo...

with his shaggy blonde hair... happy warm green eyes... tan honey skin... Kya hugged her self, closing her eyes gently, to soak in the feeling. he was forbidden... by all laws of common belief. he was her forbidden love. but she urned to taste the sweet apple of sin. she wanted to kiss him deeply, longly, sweetly. kiss every inch of him. exeplore his flesh that rightfully belonged to her when he gave her his heart. To simply rub her cheek over his neck, his chest, his arms, his kands. she wanted toclose her eyes, and lay so close to him, so that she felt his breath, carress the fine hairs of her cheek. feel his eyelashes kiss her forehead, as she slep in the warm embrase of his loving arms. Kya felt a shudder run through her bones, and she almost felt his arms arms aroud her...

and she heard a knock on thw door. she knew it was him.

her twin brother.

her taste of sin.

-kari

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Friday, August 5, 2005

   *squeal* I HIT THE BIG 40!!!
yay!!! I now have 40 guest book entrys!!! woo ho!!!

ok lol oh I also almost have that game kill zone beat. seeing how I'm not aloud to get to rough I'm doing nothing but playing video games. OH! a lot of people dont know! I had a mole on my left hip removed on wendsday, because the doc said it could be bad... ya ya ya I really wasnt worried. but I have stiches on my hip, that are in such a bad place, they're really easy to rip. so no tennis, no running, no weight lifting, no soccer, no dancing, no baseball, no swimming, and no basketball. -.- *sigh* oh well. but thuesday they come out, and I can go back to running around like I'm mach 2 with ma hair on fire.

but till then I get to play kill zone, and final fantasy 7...(again) but I refuse to play halo. no way in hell. (well you'll never see an x-box in my house anyway!!!) lol but yea, that and I've been watching the soccer channel. its soo cool!!! I was watching a match chelsea vs manchester!!! ohhh it was awesome. and I know hes married, and has a kid, but I'm in love with david becham... *drool* hes soo dreamy...

ok well enough of that. must go! I have to beat killzone. see ya!

-kari
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Wednesday, August 3, 2005

   want to be alone...
*sniffle* im hurting... I just got my mole removed, and I got this huge gross bloody bandage over my left hip. but yea this picture I did in all eye liner, and mechanical pencil. ^-^ theres a poem, and a story behind it too.





you looked like you needed a hug

but you pushed me away with a simple shrug

you told me to leave you alone

but when I got home I saw you called my phone


I want to help you, but I've done all I could

I hoped you could remeber I've done more than most would

I feel to your mood swings I am bound

That our happiness cant be found


I know when you see me you see nothing at all

even though I'm the one thats there when you fall

this madness is where I remain

this sadness is slowly driving me insane


You laugh when I cry

You seem to hate being called a lie

I know you seem to want me to die

But I hope you feel something when I cry


I know when you see me you see nothing at all

even though I'm the one thats there when you fall

this madness is where I remain

this sadness is slowly driving me insane


you never knew how I felt before

like you just forgot to talk to me any more

so for this day, this life

I must remeber not to stay in strife



you just out of nowhere

remeber'd that I'm something

That I'm that anything at all

you remebered and felt a half inch tall


all the hurtful things you used to do

how you relized all I felt was true

I said friends dot act this way

but it was to late and you had to pay


I want to save you

from the little nothing inside

I want to make sure you wont cry


I know when you see me you see nothing at all

even though I'm the one thats there when you fall

this madness is where I remain

this sadness is slowly driving me insane


you looked like you needed a hug

but you pushed me away with a simple shrug

you told me to leave you alone

but when I got home I saw you called my phone


I want to help you, but I've done all I could

I hoped you could remeber I've done more than most would

I feel to your mood swings I am bound

That our happiness cant be found


I know when you see me you see nothing at all

even though I'm the one thats there when you fall

this madness is where I remain

this sadness is slowly driving me insane
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