Monday, June 13, 2005

   gurr...
Listening to-
B.E.P
-dont funk with my heart

I have just wasted like freggin 4 hours of my life! I was looking for my pants, cuz I'm going to band practice tonight. And they where sitting on my bed. Well uhh yea whats going on... Like I said band practice tonight. Yay! I get to spent 4 hours marching on the parking lot in the barren desusting hot humid ohio heat. plus All I'm gonna hear is angelina going on and on about how she feels bad.

This girl named bridget a girl in the flute section, well her mom just died. like fell over dead. And instead of being a good person, and leaving the poor girl to her grief, because she just lost her mother at age 17! no not angelina. She calls every single person she knows and goes on and on about how she feels bad, because she's been making fun of her and saying she was on welfare for years.

I just wanna beat the shit out of her sometimes. she can reall be a bitch. When I lost my grandmaw I didnt want anyone to even look at me. Because she died a horriable death. My grandmaw was gay, and her partner left her right after having a stroke, and yea, it was messed up. I just know how bad it feels to loose someone, and angelina needs to really step off. I'll prolly tell her that tonight.

on a much lighter note, I'm almost donw with my fushigi yugi fan fiction. ^.^ I just posted the 9th chapter, on fanfiction.net, and I'm writing the epilouge right now!!! this one deffinately beats my 41 chapter inuyasha fan fic I wrote. ^*^ yup yup happy happy. I feel like patting my self on the back, but that pesky spell check is deflating my ego really fast. I'm spelling alotta junk wrong. so I guess I should get back to work...

^.^ still cant help bein a little happy...

-ja ne!
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Friday, June 10, 2005

   *yawn*
Currently Playing-
Mezmerize
By System of a Down

- B.Y.O.B

* yawns*

so like took my last exam. Spanish is a fuckin bear by the way. I just got pissed half way through, because I was so stupid. I've been cramming so much, last night I only got like 2 hours of sleep. problem is, I totally forgot everything I studied. Gawd I'm so fuckin retrarded. I totally bombed it. But *yawn* everything else went kinda o.k. history was easy, english was easy, band? psssshh Breeze. Science was kinda confusing. Algebra? I damn near cried. It was so hard towards the last comp. I was tearing up. It killed me. *falls back* not like I can do anything now. todays the last day, and now I must wait. sucks way bad, cuz I still have summer gym, and summer health, as well as marching band. so *yawn* oh yea really great.

I'm kinda mad at my mom too. Not like really bad. Just mad cuz she told angelina my secret. I have this irrational fear of turkeys. its totally crazy. I'll starts screaming and crying if I even get near one. I've had it since I was a toddler and it's gotten less severe with the older I get. But today it was like the fear just swept over me again. It's really scary ok?!? I dont see those pansy asses who are afraid of spiders and shit get made fun of! NO ITS THE CHICK WHO'S AFRAID OF TURKEYS!!! WELL YA KNOW WHAT?!? FUCK YOUR SPIDERS!!!

*koff* sorry just pissed. Now everyone knows, and I'm gonna get ragged on for a few months because of it. I never told anyone about my fear. It's even hard for me to eat turkey on thanksgiving. November is hell on me. I'm so afraid. Thats why I hate fall so much. I fuckin hate turkeys. I hate them so very much. *gurr* I wish I could go kill one. get over my fear ya know? but then again I dont want to get close to one. They might get me. scares the fuck outta me.

Haru-"having fears is like having excess baggage, the sooner you loose them the lighter life will be..."



liz-*humph* well I aint goin to go pet a turkey any time soon. so you can go fuck your self. bitch.



-liz

(*humph* bitches)

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Thursday, June 9, 2005

   remeber?
Remember When...


boys had cooties,

when friends always listened to you,

when dreams were unshattered

and worries were few.

when recess was too short

and life was too long.

when decisions came easily

with no need to belong

. when storks delivered babies

and passions werent so strong

when friendships werent broken,

right was right and wrong was wrong.

when bad things didnt happen,

only skinned knees brought tears

and the night light quieted all our fears.

when decisions were solved by "eni, meanie, mini,mo."

when boys were so YuCkY!

and goodbye only meant till tomorrow.

when your clothes didnt need to match

and real friends didnt part.

and the fun went on forever

without a broken heart

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

   IEEE!
*falls over* I WAS MUGGED! ieee!!! *fwaump* carl, my old section leader, and well my frined,, he found out about my grades. the mabye yes mabye no she just might fail kinda thing. and oh man. He stared me down and begun yelling at me, thien like josh brown got behind me so I couldnt get away, and carl was like a milli inch from my face yelling at me! he was so close I swear to you i could taste his breath!!!! * cries* it was like so totally freaky!!!!!lol but funny cuz when he was done I was like, there are just some things in this world that do not need to be scene that close... and he laughed. but I was seirous! if it means I will never be that close to carl, or josh,i'l do flippin trig, while doing back flips through hops of fire!!!!! *cries*

HORRIABLE!!!
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Sunday, May 22, 2005

   *shiver*
Liz- *shakes* I am like sooo out of it... *flaps back* i really dont know why either... O.O prolly from my cramming. exams are next week, and not only do my eyes hurt from memorizing whole text books at 3:00 in the morning, my brain hurts. I must have abused my brain cells to the point of no return. and it really sucks pouring over whole semesters of non-readable notes filled with random doodles. but thats not the worst of it!!! its still not getting higher than 50 degrees here, AND ITS THE END OF MAY!!!! gurrr... I want to go to tokyo so bad its not even funny. I mean yea every ones like "so do I!" but I'm just dead on my feet. tokyo would be such a calm for me. I'm so stressed out! between exams, the possibality of failing, and becoming a repeat freshmen, marching band, all my band friends bitching about thier boy troubles... oh yea thats why I'm out of it. I'm just gonna give a little hint to some of my so called "friends" who are obvisouly too dumb to realize it. IF THE STUPID FUCKIN WALKING DICK CHEATS, LIES, AND OR DUMPS YOU... *shakes head* MABYE HES NOT INTO YOU!!!!

*growl* kinda a no brain'er. I"m tired of thes retarded "oh he cheated on his last girlfriend but he loves me enoough to not cheat on me!" or "I can change him!" or "BUT I LOVE HIM!!!" and I mean I'd understand if the guy was cute. hell I'd do some stuff. not as retarded as breaking into my ex-boyfriends car, just to hide in there and surprise him when he gets in (*cough* sarah *koff*) but I mean I could see being torn up. but no! these guys are ugly as sin!!! just a couple in-breed trailer trash mullet monkeys!!! THIER FUCKING RETARDED!!! truely!!!

heres and example. if they jump in front of a moving car, after a basketball game, and they are not drunk or high... THIER A IN-BREED TRAILER TRASH MULLET MONKEY!!!! *drills her fingers into her head* AH DUR!!! oh heres another example. if thier bragging to thier friends about how they got in a 3-way with this chick AND HIS COUSIN!!!

HE MIGHT JUST BE A MULLET MONKEY!!!!


GAWD!!!!

Haru- *stares* you make funny faces.

Liz- *head in hand* hatsuharu sohma from furba ladies and gentlemen.

Haru- *shrugs* marik got thrown in a mental hospital after he attacked a car.

(*far far away*)

Marik- *in a random cell bound to his bag, and wearing a mask; like hanibal lecter from siclence of the lambs* hello doctor....

Dr. yugi- uhh hello *shiver*

(scary un holy sounds)

(back with liz)

liz- uhh right... well yea I'm pissed, haru since your the temp roll the credits.

Haru- *sigh* yea uhh I'm supposed to say some witty catch phrase here right?

Liz- *with a bottle of rum and a cigar playing poker with a coupla camera men* I guess...

haru- uhhh I'll try anything once... twice if I like it?

Liz- *winks and hand haru a bottle of gin* thats not bad for a newbie!
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Friday, May 13, 2005

DANCE!!!
bump bump bump!!! *dancing around to techno* WEEE!!! I am happyyyyy!!! *screams and jumps on mariks back*

marik- WHAT THE FUCK!!!! *knocks her off* BE EMO AGAIN!!!

liz- *sniffle* but i dont wanna!!! *flashes mid term* I'm only failing 2 classes bizach!!!

marik- *sweatdrop* and thats something to be proud of?

Liz- ^o^ *jumps up and down* absoultivily!!!! *whispers* compaered to my last set of grades... I am god.

marik- *shakes head*

Liz- *giggle* EVEN MY MOM WAS HAPPY DUDE!!! WE WHERE IN THE CAR AND SHE WAS SINGING "ONLY 2 F'S OH!" *grin* I'm happy yo.

Marik- your so sad.

liz- *sniffle* but its sooo cool dude!!! I fot a freggin 90% in english, flippin 84% in history! ^.^ *falls in mariks lap* I'm doing good!!!

marik- *pats her head* You're so special....

liz- *grin* I know ^.^ oh!! 8 days till graduation!!!

marik- -.- uhh sweetie sorry to break it to ya, but you're a freshmen

Liz- I know but that fat ass hole asian basterd kyle graduates, so I dont have to deal with him.

marik- so.. uh nice...

liz- *grumble* I would love nothing better than to rip his small intestines out through his mouth and hang him with it.

>.< GAWD I HATE THAT BASTERD!!!!

*sigh* but... ^.^ he hates me too... *giggle* hey mabye he'll move out to a different country... or a different planet, so like his head will exeplode in space... ^.^ that would be a kodak moment right there... *sigh* just seeing the blood splatter out into oblivion...

Marik- *kisses the top of her head* your so morbid.

liz- ^.^ I know

marik- thats why I love ya!
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Wednesday, May 4, 2005

   what can I say?
I'm a hormonial teen living in a harsh reality. Everyone agrees. But does anybody do anything about it?!? oh hell no! high school is a prison for most people, but it really is hell for me. I'm slowly dying inside, with every page turn of my text book, to ever hall way I turn. From every jammed locker and a "tardy again brooks" to every couple making out on my stair case.

yes my stair case. Everytime I get that feeling, like, I'm gonna snap, I'll skip class, and go to that stair case. I usually sit there, with my head on my knees and I'll cry, but sometimes I'll scream. It depend on what's going on. What do you exepect me to do?!? stand back and be blissfully ignorant like all the other screaming gossiping girls at my school?!? I'm too smart for that! I cant cling on the arm of some idiot boyfriend and begin to gossip everyday and pretend to like it!

I already tried that road! I tried having a boyfrind I could always talk about! had him for 8 months!!! I was in that clique!!! with the fake tan and dyed brown hair. the bright rugbys, and tight pants. the louie votton hand bag, and pink flip phone. those where some of the most depressing times of my life. AND I WAS GETTING FUCKING HONOR ROLL!!! Anime changed me.

from the moment I sat next to a girl named stephanie thompson in a lonley english class, I was changed. I had always liked anime, but I tried to hide it, because to my friends it was "that japaniese pokemon crap"
but it wasnt. it never was, and it hurt me when they said that. when my boyfriend said that. it hurt really bad. but talking to he, she said to me

"alot of people are like that, but you know what I say?"

"what?"

"you laugh at me because I'm different, but I laugh because you're all the same"

I wanted to cry. It was true. compleatly. I looked like all the other girls. every last one! I changed. and now after fighting off all those jerk so called friends, I get herrassed by teachers!!! I dont care any more. I'm numb. your threats mean nothing to me. Even band... right now if it ment never having to deal with that place again? I'd give up my right to live. I'd chop off all my fingers and toes. I'd run up to the tallest peak of every moutain in the world just to scream it.

"I DONT CARE!!!"

and that man... My history class is a large source of contempt, and spite. I despise the new student teacher, and I loathe mr. combs. He was at one time a mentor. a few months ago he was awesome. but now? I actually look foward to him getting sick, so I get a sub. I dream of the day he falls over weaping at the words that pour from my tragic poetic lips. and my english teacher with the crowd of delta teachers would say they never knew that I was like that.

do you want to know why you never knew who I was? because you branded me. from the moment you saw my black shirts and jelly bracelets, the moment you heard short japaniese phrases come from my group of friends, from the moment you knew I exsisted, you branded me.

and thats why I dont care. you ask me and yet are astounded at the simple reason for why I would never do my work. its the condasending remarks. the short greeting dripping with scharasim, the all knowing "I-know-what-you're-going-through" looks. its the little "meetings" in which you badger me and treaten me with my school work, and give my mother sympthetic looks like you're saying "I'm sorry you have such an ungrateful little shit as a daughter" the calls home and the e-mails talking about my weekly progress.

I'm 15 not 5 you pompous, over bearing, narsisstic, egotystical, arrogant, short winded bastered! leave me alone!!! I dont want your trouble! stop treating me like I'm some charity case! saying "we can save this kid oh we need to take away all anime" blah blah. anime hasnt been the poison its been the cure! Its the only thing I have that gives me an escape!

it gives me hope that I might not live through the fate I have. to not end up in a loveless marriage, and a coupla kids I dont know. to be saved from spending my lunch hour around a water cooler making small talk while hinding my hate for my sad pitifal mundane life.

damn it

I cant belive it

I'm crying...

this is too much.

its almost like this is turning into some ransome note.

I wish.

that would be my only way of becomming free.

and on the plus side, I would'nt have to go about killing my self, and having my mother blame her self.

I could have some crazed seiral killer do it. they post my face up all over the 6:00 news, and they'd have my mom and friends crying on camera, begging for me to come home.

they'd find my mangled bloody manuplated corpse in some dried up creek bed in indeana, and they'd identfy me.

My funeral would be done in the traditional buddist way, and the whole school would show up. not for me. they would hope there would be cameras around, so they could cry and say that we where best friends (even though I'll have only met them once) all so they too could get on the 6:00 news.

and every chinese new year they'd have a candel lit viguial, because its my favorite holiday.

wow that felt really comforting. its kinda morbid... imagining your own death and all. but it made me feel alot better. i guess, i gotta find a way to deal somehow. I'm not really sure how... seeing how I dont really have the will to try. but I have to.

one thing I do know for sure though... I'm gonna go off tomarrow. I just really hope its such a grand scene I get pulled out of the high school in hand cuffs. I would love that. and they'd assign my a court hired shrink!

Yea I'm gonna go off on a tantrum so big the cops have to be called.

man I cant wait for tomarrow!
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Monday, May 2, 2005

   IEEEE!!!!!!!!!
Liz- *lying on her back on her couch* owwwww....* pops a few midol* this sucks yo...

marik- *walks into the room holdin a bound and gaged ryou* I found the basterd... *growl*

yugi- *passed out on recliner* kill the son of a bitch

Joey- Lemme do it!!! *lying next to stephanie on the sofa*

Bakura- *tied and gaged to a chair shirtless, while tea sits next to him giggling* mfff!!!

tea- *stands up* ohh lemme play with them please?

Ryou- *got un gaged* PLEASE IT WAS A JOKE!!!

liz- *sits up* oh sure!!! getting us all high, and fuckin with us (on a school night I might add)is your idea of a joke?!? *rolls shirt sleeve up* oh marik! I didnt show you!!

Marik- *drops ryou and bakura into teas room* yea? didn show me what?

(*muffled screams as joey,yugi,steph, and duke enter tea's room*)

Liz- *hold out fore arm* lookie!!!

Marik- *stares* what the fuck?!? you got inked!!!

liz- *grins* not really I got like a outline, but my ma says if I get a 3.0 gpa this quarter I get it!

marik- what is it supposed to be?

liz- *looks down* promise not to laugh?

marik- *sits next to her* sure

Liz- *screeches* ITS THE SEAL FROM YUGIOH!!! I COULDNT HELP IT IT LOOKED SOOO COOL!!! but i changed it some. it had aribic and egyptian hyrogliphic characters all around it. its like 12 of them one for each zodiac. ^.^ yup its sooo cool!!!

marik- *pats the top of her head* ok... ok... your so special...

Liz- HEY LAY OFF DUDE! IM ON THE RAG AND I DONT NEED TO TAKE SHIT FROM A ASS LIKE YOU!!!

Marik- *gets up and walks to the t.v.* damn I love ya and all but thats wayy to much information.

liz- *flops back down on the couch* ah well I dont really care.
*sees that marik passed Mtv* hey go back!

Marik- Why?

Liz- cuz I just saw green day!!!

Marik- *changes it* why do you like them soo much?

liz- ^.^ cuz the lead singer is the fuckin hottest thing on two legs, next to the lead singer of the killers.... god I'd fuck em both in a dead second...

marik- but you wont do me...

liz- cuz I dont wanna have a kid!

marik- BUT YOU'LL HAVE A KID WITH ONE-A THOSE RANDOME DUDES?!!?

Liz- well mabye, but oh man those kids would be hot! deep brown eyes, bright blond hair...

marik- and our kids wouldnt be sexy?

liz- they'd have blond hair black skin and green eyes... theys looks soo i unno not like ours..

marik- how would they have black skin?

liz- cuz your egyptian, and I'm biracial

Marik- i didnt know you where bi racial!

liz- yup! 1/4 black, 1/4 latino, and half irish!!! where the blond hair comes from I have no clue... but I get my green eyes from my moms side, and my skin from my dad!!!

Marik- thas cool... *thinks* hey we should have a kid...

liz- hey how about instead we try and have one!!!

marik- whats the difference?

liz- we have wild kinky sex for 6 days straight, but I dont get knocked up.

marik- how do we manage that?

liz- with the help of trojen man!!!

Marik- *shudders as liz grabs him by the arm and races to her bedroom* sometimes I wonder what kind of events made you turn into such a pervert...


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Thursday, April 28, 2005

   *munch munch*
liz- *much munch* soo what be up?

pharoh- iunno *munch munch*

malik- nunnin to report *munch munch*

liz- hot damn bakura you make some fine god damned brownies! *munch munch* =^.^=

Bakura- *points to ryou* wassn me *munch munch* him *munch*

Ryou- uhh thanks *sly grin*

Liz-*feling the munchies* soo what kinda brownies where they? *starts eating a bad of deritos*

Ryou- a special kind... ^.^

liz- ok? O.o *sees a butterfly the size of her fridge trying to bite off joey's head* woah dude tell me you didn...

Joey- DAMN ITS HOT!!! *starts pulling off his cloths, till hes left with his boxers then puts his shirt on his head like a turban* LOKKIE AT ME EVERY BODY! IMMA BUDDIST!

pharoh- *on the floor staring at the floor trippin out* woahhhh dude! if you look at that cloud it kinda looks like my mom!

steph- *lays next to him* thats not a cloud thats a pink elephant!!!

bakura- *spits the brownie out* NO SHIT THIS IS HASH MAN!!!

Liz- *next to malik giggling n the corner*

ryou- *holding in the laughter* what are you guys doing?

liz- *backs away* dude! chicago kicks ass!!

malik- *keeps spinning the record backwards* dude lets go record a song and play it backwards!!!

liz- *hops on his back* totally!!!

malik- *goes to bedroom*

bakura- you're learning well

ryou- pppffff!!!! *falls over laughing* I give em 5 minuats max before they go at it
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

ohhhh bordom
>.< lol tifferz cell phone just went off lol

liz-ican even breef IEE! i can even breff IEE! la la lo la...

marik- whos da chick in my seat singing with you?

liz-dat be ma one and only hot latin lover tifferz da hunter!!!

tiff- shut the fuck up

malik-yea

liz*grumble* damn

tiff- well fuck me dry

Liz O.O mmmkay

malik-I kinda like this gal

Liz- NOO! *tackles malik* your minnnee!!!

marik-*jumps on her* soo you do like the library then

Liz *turns head slowly* please not again! my guidance councler thinks I'm a loney!!!

tiff- mabye cuz you are?

Liz-well yea but *shrug* thats beside the point. I went to her office for a meeting yesterday, and well, outta no where she askes me to empty my bookbag, and when she looked at my scetch book....

TBC
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