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Wednesday, March 15, 2006


   get a mac.
Hey everyone! bored up here in ohio. as usual. humm just got home from school. finished my writing ogt. god these state issued graduation test are a pain in the ass. I absoultely hate them. any test issued by buerocrats that haven't been in school for 20 years and plus, are not going to follow the known requirement for the new generation.

ok, I'm done. I'm listening to this song, I listened to non-stop over the summer. its called white houses. It makes me feel so happy. last summer was a big mile stone in my life. I finally started thinking for myself. I quit band, and swam everyday! I played outside, and did jazz dancing. I love the song. it makes me feel so happy, and hopeful for this summer.

I just remeber waking up in the middle of muggy hot july day, and leaning against the wall, watching everything outside my house, through my bedroom window, drinking a cup of coffie. I matured alot in those short 3 months. Alot more than I could have ever hoped for in marching band. I also gained alot of better friends. michelle, jessica, shannon, stephanie. people I usually only said "hi" to in the hallway. I've gained a new insight on life, and reality in general.

I've gained a new smile. I'm no longer wrapped up in band drama. actually the only minimal traces of drama I have now are related to band. I feel alot better about everything. and really...

I like feeling this way. I have no ounce of guilt quitting marching band. no matter what happens in life I know, I'm destianed to go to a better place. with sandy beaches, and happy people, and small towns.

*closes eyes* its almost summer soon. who is going to join me? not doing marching band is a strange new thing, I'll admit. you feel like a lost lamb, looking for its herd. and yet, that huge freedom, and happy feeling... its priceless.

absoultely priceless.

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