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Birthday
• 1989-12-07
Gender
• Female
Location
• states. nuff said
Member Since
• 2005-03-30
Occupation
• student
Real Name
• EL Lizzo Don Porvalentino VII

Personal

Achievements
• I'd say, getting out of bed every morning. hummm And startng my baby, known as Dizzylogic.com
Anime Fan Since
• I was like... 2...(sailor moon hoocked me )
Favorite Anime
• fushigi yuugi, FLCL, chobits, ceres, inuyasha, full metal alchmist, azumanga daioh, trigun, cowboy bebop, sailor moon, fruits basket, card captor sakura, yu-gi-oh, pretear, arjuna, avatar, wolfs rain, full metal panic, saiyuki, naruto, gravi, and, DN ange
Goals
• hummm *thinking* I would love to go to africa, and help out the red cross with AIDS relief efforts... umm oh and to graduate high school with honors!!!
Hobbies
• I love playing and listening to music, oh I like designing outfits. umm cooking, playing video games, fueling my insominia, by watching kung fu movies at 3 in the morning, and Playing Sports, mostly tennis, and daydreaming
Talents
• playing trumpet, drawing, dancing, writing, running, I'm really flexiable... ummm I'm good at falling over my own feet.

myOtaku.com: LyingHereInHeaven

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

why I dont like being touched, why I dont want to fall in love

It's something I cant control,
Something I wish I didn't feel.
It makes me more than nervous,
It's something I'll never reveal.

It makes my stomach tie up in knots,
And causes so many butterflies.
But I will never tell you this,
All you will hear are lies.

It makes my body stop,
It takes my breath away.
Bt I don't know how to tell you,
I don't know what you'd say.

It makes my heart pound fast,
Causing it to skip a beat.
I know I shouldn't keep it hidden,
Not telling you makes me feel incomplete.

Looking deep into your eyes,
Going completely weak in the knees.
Love is what I feel for you,
But do you feel anything for me?

I talk to you night and day, and sometimes in between
And every time we see each other, I hate being me.
We tell each other everything, as best friends always do,
And when we're hurt we can trust the other to come through.

We talk about our high school dreams, our losses and successes,
We even talk about old crushes, past relationships, and wishful romances.
Every time your happy, I am happy for you,
And every time you hurt, I am hurting with you.

I feel like you're a part of me everywhere I go,
Sometimes I want to cut you away, and go out on my own.
For no matter what happens, your always in my mind,
No matter how far I go your always right behind.

I hate the feeling that swells my heart, bursting to explode,
For as long as we're best friends, it can never overflow.
And as long as you see me, the way you see me now,
I'll hide behind my painted smile, until forever comes around.

For what I want you to see in me, comes differently in your eyes,
Because for forever and all eternity I will just be one of the guys.
I will always be the one you come talk to about her,
And you will always come to me when your hurt and need a cure.

You've always wanted to find that one who will love you in return,
I just stand beside you as you look at each girl in turn.
You'll look in front and behind, but somehow you can't see,
The truth has been standing by your side, and it will always be.

So as you start to slowly see, what is written on the wall,
I will be waiting by your side, waiting for your call.
But until that day finally comes, until forever ends,
By your side, blind to you, I will become again.

I will always be here waiting, until your blind eyes choose to see,
But until that time comes. Best friends I must choose to be.

so mabye love just isnt for me.
mabye I'm the one to blame.
mabye I should get over it
before I go insane

I'm not aloud to love.
its just not my forte`
I shouldnt be blushing
this isnt my game

this isnt my scene
yet I long for your touch
I dont want you too look at me
and see my blush

I'm not aloud to want
I'm not supposed to feel
I'm not aloud to be a women
I refuse to have sex appeal

and yet here I am, trying to see what kind of girl you like
and playing with my hair
I'll play around in dresses
and imagine your stares

but that was long ago
and this is now
I forgot how to kiss
I cant remeber how

so while people play
and you sleep.
I'll roll my eyes
and try not to weep.

because your so close yet so far away
asleep on my carpet
I'm going insane.

I've tried love before
and it wasnt enough
I've been hurt before
so i'm done with that mushy stuff

so please try to understand
please try to cope
I cant get hurt again
I wont be that dope

I decided to never love again.
never will this heart yern
I will rip away my longing
I'll be strict and stern

I'll be millitant
I'll be mean
I'll be ugly
I'll be obscene

I'll mock you're clothing
and shout when your near
I'll chew with my mouth open
and I'll always sneer

because it that means you wont love me
thats the risk I want to take
I dont want to cry in your arms
I cant let my heart take a break

I wont be easy
I wont be breezy
I wont be anything at all

I'd rather be your best friend...

than be nothing at all.

(why I dont like being touched, why I dont want to fall in love)
-liz-
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