Wednesday, March 21, 2007

   Thoughts fly away in a mushroom field, randomly telling what's reveiled...

"What U Thinkin' About"-Violent J (and the gang ^^) time: 6.05-(oh hell, does it really matter? time is relative after all! that and I was playing with photoshop for a while ^^")7.45 pm CET mood: strangely cheery and goofy, I hope it lasts physical condition: coughing currently reading: Battle Club volume 3 (from the maker of Ikki Tousen: fighting, nudeness and light yuri) song: Shiny Diamonds - Violent J weather: sunny but cold again. hell, at least it ain't snowing ^^ official baby fish count: erhm.. 65 or less.. I counted at least six dead ones in between the little rocks.. damn I need to clean that bowl *laughs embaressed* HEY GUYS!!! I know, I know, I still haven't visited a lot of you, but screw that ^^ I'll get to it when I'll get to it ^^ I hope you are all doing alright *hugs you all* me? I'm fine actually ^^ like Yensid-sensei said, it's more frustration than depression ^^ I've applied to a grand total of four jobs and I'm waiting for a reply now. they're not my dreamjobs, but hey, money is money and most of the time I like my work no matter what ^^ the past few days have been.. different. not so much when it comes to things going on in my life, but more when it comes to my mood. I've had a few periods of really bad moods. you know, like: but that's pretty much over now ^^ I've been listening to Violent J's own album (I saw own instead of solo, since the whole crew is there anyway) and it's been cheering me up a lot ^^ that, and the manga I bought.. yep, that's what I do when I get frustrated, I buy things >_< not the greatest way to cope, but I figured I could in fact afford it. I know, confusing, but it's true ^^ I bought: Battle Club volume 3, Gravitation EX volume 1 (I didn't like the art of the first manga series, so I watched the anime, but this looks pretty good ^^), Until the Full Moon volume 2 and for Silver-sama Elemental Gelade volume 3 ^^ yep, even when I'm broke, I want to spoil my friends and my love ^^ makes me feel better too ^^ and then there's today.. today I've just been having fun. I didn't care what I had to do. I just wanted to laugh and not worry about anything that's been going on in my life. of course, I ended up in one of my most annoying happy moods *laughs* and inevitably, I rubbed off on others. mostly Inge, who I have been sitting next to all day ^^ we've just been goofing off during all classes (a grand total of two, so don't worry ^_~) and we kind of drove Natasja nuts *snickers* it was just so funny ^^ at the end of the day, which went on longer than expected because of some problems with or rather questions about the project, but that doesn't matter.. where was I.. oh yes, at the beginning of the project we had to write a research planning proposition or something like that, I don't know the english word for it, but anywho, Natas just wasn't able to pronounce the word no matter how hard she tried. she just kept messing up the syllables and I kept messing up the word more just because I was feeling so goofy hehe ^^" then, on the way home, I was in a touringcar/bus/whatever... and they don't have those handy stop-buttons no don't!!! anywho... (man, am I ever annoying with the kitty-pics today tee-hee)there weren't any of those. and a few stops later, an old co-worker of mine got on the bus too. the bus was late and she had to go to work. so we were goofing around about the bus being too late and the driver (we were sitting pretty close to the front of the bus) kept talking to us. he said she just had to blame him for being late for work and we just got happier by the minute. every time somebody wanted to get out of the bus, they had to walk all the way to the front to ask the driver to stop at their stop. but people don't ask 'can you stop at the next stop?' they ask: 'can I get out of the bus at the next stop?' and just before we got to our stop (we had to get out at the same stop) some other girl walked up to the driver and asked if she could get out at the next stop. the driver said yes and I, in my annoying mood, happily replied: 'Us too?!' to which my old co-worker said: "No, you can't!" *laughs* but just a few seconds later, a boy walked up to the driver and asked if he could get out of the bus at the next stop (where we were going to stop anyway). so me and my co-worker both said: 'NOPE!' and the busdriver went along with it and the guy was all like: "what? why can't I get out?" so the busdriver, me and my friend (I'm getting closer with my old co-worker by the second *laughs*) told him that the bus would get too quiet and empty if he was to get out at the next stop too. it took the guy a moment to figure out we were kidding hehe ^^ so, as you can see, I'm happy today ^^ not everything is cool though.. my mom managed to break one of my Genshiken figurines while dusting my room.. but hey, I glued it and now I just hope the head will stay on >_< that and I managed to get a 46% for the resit of my case-midterm.. so that was a bummer. but yet, it hasn't affected my mood ^^ ain't it like magic? but hey, let's get rid of that negative energy anyway ^^ yesterday, thanks to Cati0vz, I found out I've become an Otaku Legend all of a sudden *dances* also, two e-cards and one wallpaper got accepted to the site *huge grin* so things are looking up for me site-wise ^^ and it also means I'll try and make more wallies and greetings for this place ^^ I also read the letter of my imooto-chan Magnus yesterday ^^ 7 A4 papers written full on both sides >_< most of you guys know how she types.. well, all I can say is: you should see how she writes *laughs* it's so.. squiggly ^^" but aside from that *still snickering* it made me feel really good and happy ^^ she really is my best friend and hell, she's my sister for real!! that's how it feels at least ^^ not to bring you guys down, I love you all too *hugs everyone* but it's still different.. well, maybe not so much for a few of you with whom I'm closer than others.. but still, it's different.. it's hard to explain.. really.. *massive huggles to Magnus* love you sweetie ^^ and I'll make sure you read this hehe ^^ I'll try and get her back to MyO, guys!! well, I should cut this short. (what the hell are you calling short weirdo!!) ugh, evil voices *shakes head* I had a slight Yuri and Yaoi rant in my head, but I'll leave it for later ^^ I'll leave you all with a question: What U Thinkin' About? much clown love, I'm outta here.. ow and this is for some special people, you all know who you are ^^

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Monday, March 19, 2007

   Mistakes are a way to learn, but they're also a way to die...

time: 11.40am-12.48pm CET mood: confuzzled and tired physical condition: alright, think I've got a bit of hayfever though.. been sneezing all weekend currently reading: I gave up on Poison Arrows.. I just can't seem to get into a book at the moment.. I need more time to read lately.. so I started some manga again: My-HiME volume 2 song: The Dirtball - ICP weather: it's freaking snowing!!! it's spring and it's snowing.. damn snow.. last week the weather was so beautiful *sigh* official baby fish count: I think it should still be 71... hey guys I know, I haven't been around to many sites lately.. and I honestly don't think things will get better.. I feel so.. I don't know.. tired mostly. and my mind is just going out to other things than visiting my friends at the moment.. I'm starting to get seriously worried about getting a job.. I haven't heard from the hardware store yet.. I don't think I'll get the job.. I'm getting so tired of trying.. there just aren't that many jobs out there at the moment *shakes head* after I pay back my mom for the clothes, I'll be flat broke for real.. I'm already 10bucks short to pay her.. it's just a good thing I still got some post stamps, or I wouldn't even be able to send letters to my imooto-chan! I don't like to sound this depressed, but I just really don't know how I'm going to get through this.. I still have my savings account, but it would be insane to get money off there just to be able to pay for my monthly savings.. (which goes to the savings account) the anime con is getting closer too.. I probably won't be able to buy anything there.. not if I don't get a job before that time.. I've also still got a huge debt with Silver-sama.. (can you say 500 bucks?!) I know.. I'm just so sick of not being able to get a job that has my interest.. I still feel like crap because of the hotel denying me.. I just want to work again so badly and somehow, I think they can't see that.. they can't see that I'm willing to put in all my effort to get a job I like or like a job I get.. *sigh* I know a shoestore that's still looking for people.. I'll try to apply to that too. on to happier news. the weekend was great. I went to Silver-sama on friday and we were together till sunday ^^ we didn't really do much.. I cried once again at dinner on saturday.. his mom had tried to make something I like, the only problem was.. I hated it.. I haven't been very interested in eating meat lately anyway.. and even though it was meat I like, it was prepared in a way that made it look like.. well.. it was used already.. ya know >_< and I just couldn't try it.. and she got angry.. and I felt the same as last week.. I'm just a bother to them when it comes to dinner. I hardly like anything and even when I like it, I only like it the way my mom makes it.. I'm horrible.. so I cried.. I told them I was trying my best too. and they just kept asking why I wouldn't want to try it.. at that moment, the only thing I could think about was standing up, getting my stuff together and leave for home.. but I can't leave without Silver-sama.. I want him near me. it's just.. his mom gets angry so fast.. it's like she skips the reasoning phase and goes directly into yelling mode.. like I said before, I'm very vulnerable to negative energy at the moment.. at first I got angry at her too.. she was going like: this is the last time I'm cooking especially for you. and I said: fine! then do so! I'll see if I eat it or not, if not, I'll eat bread or something, fine by me! it was what I tried to make clear last week.. I don't want them to have to take me into account.. I want them to just live their life and not be bothered by me.. but I said I was going to talk about happier things.. saturday evening me and Silver-sama went to our favorite bar. my old 'boy next door' works there. his phone was stolen recently and I had to give off an old phone from my dad so he could use that. we drank some beers. for the first time I've tried Japanese beer and darnit: I loved it!! it was very yummy ^^ didn't have that horrible aftertaste of beer which is present mostly at the first one *laughs* oh my, I'm letting my lush-side speak again.. I wanted to go play some pool.. but Silver-sama didn't want to go.. he didn't feel like it.. and darnit, even the puppy eyes didn't work.. so I was feeling crappy again for a while.. but after a while I just decided to stop being a stupid spoiled bitch. so we went home. it was pretty late by then. we watched some tv and I fell asleep on Silver-sama's lap ^^ sunday I had a pretty annoying hangover, but thank goodness it was pretty much gone after some more sleep. my imooto-chan Magnus told me she didn't feel too good, so I tried to cheer her up and failed horribly.. but later that day she was doing better ^^ we went to my house in the afternoon. when we got there I found a huge package from Magnus ^^ it cheered me up a lot!! there was a huge letter in there which I still have to read.. a really sweet card and the cd's of War Of The Worlds which I get to borrow ^^ but the most important things in there: cheer up gifts for me ^^ she's so completely sweet!!! she got me another amethyst ^^ it looks so lovely ^^ but that wasn't even the best part. the best thing in there was a self-made poem called: "Ode to my Onee-chan Lyt" an ode! to me!! and it made me smile so big ^^ I still need to find a place to hang it in my room, but I think I know a place now.. I need to change some things but it'll be fine ^^ she really is my best friend ^^ in the evening Silver-sama and me ordered some manga ^^ he's so sweet too ^^ and we ordered pocky, so we're hoping it will come in this time! (we tried it last year too, but something went wrong with the order and we never got it..) I miss him so much right now.. well, I don't know much more to say.. I forgot I had to go in to college today to work on the project, but thank goodness Natasja didn't seem mad about it, since three other group members also didn't come.. I was ready to get on the bus though and had I known sooner (I texted her and another group mate yesterday, but the other I texted also didn't know and she didn't see my messages until this morning) I would have been there. so she told me I could do my work tomorrow. well, to make up for this insanely long and depressed post, here are some cute kitty pics: they don't have text on it since someone told me it was overdone.. I don't think so.. if there's one thing I hate, it's internet spelling >_< I can read it, but I think it's a crime against language.. (language is one of the few things I value highly!) so to me, these texts are funny as hell, since it would indeed be how cats would type if they were able to type out their thoughts ^^ well, much clown love, I'm outta here, going to try and find some jobs to apply to.

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Friday, March 16, 2007

   are you sure you want to read this post?

time: 10.15-10.45 am CET mood: kind of sleepy, but happy too physical condition: tired currently reading: I think you all can guess that by now song: nothing really... weather: sunny, but colder than before.. official baby fish count: 71 ok, so I made this pic for a change. it is not to offend anyone or to scare people away from my site. it is purely for fun. it is meant as a joke. and of course as a subtle sign to show you all that I know my posts are long and you don't need to state the obvious ^^ so it is a Gundam eh? that means I now like Rotterdam for its animeishness! I never knew there was a statue like that around here.. or rather, there.. or.. whatever ^^" I now wonder for what reason it is there though, since the anime and manga scene is still kind of hidden in the Netherlands.. ow well, maybe I'll never know, the fact remains that it is there and to me, it shows that the otaku-spirit can be found anywhere ^^ thank you Kikyo27 for giving me the correct name of the artist ^^" I keep forgetting his name >_< so thank you for giving me the right one! this goes out to you: yesterday was GOOD! I really mean it ^^ in the morning me, my mom and my brother went shopping. my bro actually only went along because he needed new shoes and a blazer and he left after he had found both.. but I got a whole bunch of stuff (which I actually can't really pay for, but my mom paid for most of it first...) let's see.. will I list it or not.. I will muahaha!!! it's mostly clothing though ^^ -a white jacket -two pair of shoes YAY! -two new pants, one of them is a white worker pants which will be used for my Winry cosplay. I know I ordered one already, but this one is practically the same as the one I ordered, just 30 bucks cheaper. so that was an easy choice hehe ^^ the one I ordered will be sent back when it gets here -a set of three earrings -and a blouse with short sleeves. I had my mind on that for a while now, but figured that my mom would hate it. until I showed it to her and she went like: that's a nice blouse! so I bought it ^^ YAY again!!! in the evening we (my mom and I) went to see My Fair Lady the musical and I LOVED it!! normally I'm not a fan of musicals.. lots of random singing and stuff like that.. but my dad got a hold of free tickets and I just figured it would be fun to go. and since it wouldn't cost us a thing, it wouldn't be such a great loss if we didn't enjoy it.. but I really adored it ^^ the story is just so cute and I love the romance between Elisa and Henry even though they might not have seen it themselves at the time. I also really liked the dialog between Elisa and Henry in the garden of Henry's mom. and the ending was simply brilliant!!! this will all make no sense I think unless you know either the movie or musical (or probably book if that exists) I had never seen the movie though I had heard of the title, so I didn't know what to expect.. but in retrospect, I'm so glad we went ^^ my mom and me had a wonderful time without fighting and arguing ^^ so nice ^^ now I will finally tell you all the story about Quinty and her pills, although it won't seem like it's that special once I've written it down.. Quinty used to bite herself a lot.. so we went to the vet. he said that she has some kind of allergy or hormonal problem or whatever.. gave her an injection and gave us some pills she has to take. half a pill, every other day.. so the first time my dad tries to give her a pill, she freaks out and of course doesn't want to eat it *laughs* she actually bit my dad in the hand pretty hard. can't say I blame her though, since he was trying to stuff it down her throat ^^" so the next time she had to take one, I thought I'd give it a try. at first she was fighting as hard as ever, she kept spitting the pill out and when we tried to give it to her with a catcandy with it, she'd only eat the candy and put the pill in her cheek to spit it out later.. I tried so much and in the end, there was a tiny little catspit-soaked piece of pill left.. so as a last resort, I put that piece in between some pieces of candy and sprinkled some of the candycrumbs over it. so I hold it in front of her and DARNIT she eats it all and even licks off my complete hand *laughs* so I've been the one to give her her pill since then and the same trick works every time! she won't even spit it out anymore.. she's so silly >_< but this saturday I won't be at home so I wonder what will happen then *grins* I've been told many more times that I can do a whole lot more with our cat than the rest of the family, so I wonder if she will fall for the trick when my mom tries it... well, I should get ready for my long weekend with Silver-sama. I'm going over there today and we'll be together until sunday ^^ that will be good too, though I don't expect to eat chinese food again, since we're both kind of flat broke *sigh* his parents always make him pay for it.. evil!!! and they haven't been willing to even order chinese food for a few weeks now.. ow well, I'll see what happens. and well, since you all asked me to keep the cat pics coming, here's another one which made me think of LS *laughs* much clown love, I'm outta here!

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

   Looks of an angel... and a devillish mind!

dunno what it's from.. some commercial *laughs* I'm not even sure it's completely correct but hey, who cares? (and for those who happen to care, feel free to tell me the source and correct quote in your comment ^^) time: 7.00-8.00 am CET (I'm going back to sleep after this) mood: still a bit cranky, evil yesterday!! physical condition: damn tired song: dunno... currently reading: Morag Prunty: Poison Arrows weather: it's too early to tell, but hopefully it will be another springish day official baby fish count: still 71 if none of them died in the meantime (I mostly only discover that when I clean the bowl >_< ) I think it is about time I posted something other than kitties and do some anime pics instead.. though I do REALLY like the kitties.. hmz, I wonder if there is a compromise... hmm.. maybe I should stick with the kitties ^^" hey guys! I hope you all are well and happy and not sick... I'm pretty much getting to that point, but I don't know if I'll actually reach it ^^" I seem to keep getting lost in the maze that they call 'emotions'.. so confusing.. I have to remember to make a doctors appointment for tomorrow.. or else I'll get stuck without pills for the weekend.. although I would like to experiment, the last, let's say, week or so, tells me not to do that ^^" don't worry about me though, guys, I'm going to land on my feet eventually. since Silver-sama calls me kitty, I must have some of their abilities ^^ but then again, I call him cookie.. *thinks* ow well *shrugs* let me rant about my wonderful days as an inquiry lady *note the once again heavy sarcasm*. the first day wasn't all that bad. spend most my time near Natasja and my inquiry-buddy was no where to be seen.. he kept walking around aimlessly for some reason.. and he kept whining about that if we stick together like we did, we'd get less people to fill in our forms (fault one: we doubled our efficiency since we could get a hold of a lot more people this way, if only one had stood there, a lot of people would have been able to walk by) and that it would look organised. (fault two: O_o' WTF?! organized?! two girls with some papers and those crappy clip-on boards?! HELL NO!) ow well, luckily he disappeared again. after a few hours, we were beat and called it a day. thank goodness. we had interviewed about ten people each and I got to go home YAY!!! but then there was yesterday *dun dun dunnn* yesterday was HORROR!!! I already felt like crap, I hadn't gotten enough sleep, had a hard time getting out of bed and such... a typical bad day for someone who takes anti-deps. or at least for me. then we hear that yet another one of our groupmates can't show up to do inquiries!! something about her boyfriend, a fight and her now hiding out in Amsterdam *shakes head* I think I'll have to have a serious talk with Murphy! he should've thought of another law. something more positive.. like: "everything that can go completely according to plan, will go completely according to plan!" ow well... so Natasja paired up with another girl and I was send out with my inquiry-buddy.. I hate him, I truly do! well, maybe it isn't hate, but I just can't work with that @-hole!! when you talk with him, you have to repeat yourself at least two times. and it isn't cause I talk weird or soft or whatever. I swear, it's cause he DOESN'T FREAKIN' LISTEN!! GAHHHH!!!!!! it's true, he does it during meetings too. we have a huge discussion about some question, solve it, create an answer and the first thing he asks when we are quiet is the EXACT SAME QUESTION!!! I guess his type of person also annoys me.. he's this kind of wannabe pimp who thinks he's the bomb, but I'm probably more badass than him.. or at least, I like to think that, so don't burst my bubble guys >_< anywho, on to his actions which annoyed me! (fun ne?) we were sent to a museum. when we got there, it hadn't opened yet and there was this security guy standing outside. so we had a little talk with him about our project and if we could question people OUTSIDE of the museum. that was fine and he gave us some more info on the surroundings (there were more museums in the neighborhood) and he told us that the museum was free on wednesdays so it should get some people there. we stood outside for a while, I got a hold of a grand total of 1 person. who was really nice by the way.. kind of cute too.. and I think he was american.. hmm... anywho, I kept losing track of my inquiry-buddy since he kept walking along with people and then just decided to walk into some street or something.. but then the biggest of all annoyances EVER! without a word to me, he entered the museum.. now, we were paired up for a reason. it means that no one has to stand all alone somewhere in case someone gets agressive or the cops try to take you in (it's kind of illegal to hold inquiries without a permit and of course nor the school, nor the chamber of commerce (who we have to do the project for!) felt like it was needed to give us some kind of proof that we were doing it as an assignment.. great!) but of course, I was left all alone outside thinking he'd come back outside pretty soon.. but NOOOOO! he didn't come back! so I didn't know what to do.. I decided to call him.. conversation: me: where the hell are you?! him: inside the museum, oh shit I'm not allowed to call in here. just come inside. me: wha.. where will I see you then? him: hangs up. I called Natasja, who then told me it's not about having fun and being together (I wasn't enjoying myself anyway!) and that I should try and get a hold of him somehow and wait a bit longer. I decided to go inside the museum, which was free anyway, to try and find my inquiry-buddy. I had to give off ALL my stuff when I went inside: jacket, bag, everything! so I had no forms with me and I figured I'd find him soon enough.. I had been through the entire museum, without a sign of him.. (I have to admit, I took my time. I'm somewhat of an art lover and they had some pretty good pieces ^^ I especially enjoyed the sculpture of 'la petite danseuse' a piece of.. *thinks* Egas or something like that.. I've loved that work ever since I was little ^^ too bad they had a lot of modern art too, I hate that stuff.. I did also enjoy the two works of Salvador Dalí they had hanging. they used to have more though...) at the end of the museum, no sign of him, no filled in forms and a very unhappy Lytjuh. I went outside again, he wasn't there.. I called him again, only to get his voicemail.. and then receive a textmessage saying only this: 'I can't answer my phone here!' so I texted the jerk back, saying that he could go and f.. no, that's not true, I held back. I told him good luck and that I would to Natasja and the other girl. on the way there, he called me. where are you? at the end of the street you fucking twat! ok, so he found me eventually, after a lot of him saying WHAT? and a lot of me getting angrier by the second.. he joins me on the way to Natasja and all the way there, he keeps bragging about how he's got 27 forms filled in, how the security was looking for him, why I didn't get anyone to interview anymore, how I should've handled things, blahblahblah... (two other girls were actually kicked out of the museum) when he was done talking to me (not that I really listened) he decided to call his work to tell them he was going to come in early.. I wanted to yell at him for not even considering helping out the others, but ow well.. counting till ten really works. when we found the others, he boasted to Natasja for a while and I tried to get some people to fill in a form.. no luck.. I don't even like doing it.. I don't want to talk to complete strangers about a subject that doesn't even interest me.. at around 1.45pm, we went towards college, since we were going to get information about our differentation minors (don't feel like explaining it) and Natasja told me about how that freaking jerk told her he had introduced himself to the staff of the museum and that he was allowed to go inside to interview people! now, that was quite different than my version, where we just chatted OUTSIDE and he told me he was being chased by the security inside! so I got pretty angry and told Natasja that he was just plain lieing through his teeth.. and this is the guy who told me to be more social and friendly to my groupmates and who wants to get better at communicating! *shakes head* I wanted to kick his ass.. but I held back, which wasn't great for my mood, or my energy level. back at school things stopped being so bad. I found some minors that are pretty interesting to me and I think I'll make a choice out of those pretty soon. I got to act silly with some guy who I know from highschool *laughs* he was going down the escalator and I was standing next to it talking to some classmates. he suddenly started waving and as I waved back, we both started to get more extreme in our waves. made everyone on the escalator look at us like we were insane, but who cares, it made me laugh ^^ on the way home I had some more small annoyances, but I won't go into that. Magnus and I send texts back and forth, which cheered me up too ^^ she's so great *huggles for her, even though she probably won't read this* today, me, my mom and my brother are going into the city to shop YAY ^^ I've seen some shoes I really want, I need something else than my skate-shoes for the summer.. and I don't know, I might buy something else too ^^ if my mom allows me to *laughs* and tonight, me and my mom are going to see the musical 'My Fair Lady'. I have no idea what it's about, but it will be fun spending some time with my mom again and not fight ^^ oh, I promised you all I'd tell you about Quinty (my cat) and her pills! oh.. well.. alright then.. I guess this did become pretty long already ^^" I won't be around much this weekend, I'm going to Silver-sama tomorrow since he's got the day off ^^ and I won't be able to visit much.. so I guess I'll see you all on monday *hugs to everyone* have a great weekend guys and in the meantime, tell me if this is a Gundam or a Transformer: it's in the middle of Rotterdam and I didn't even know it was there until yesterday!! ow well ^^' much clown love, I'm outta here

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Tuesday, March 13, 2007

   Once again DENIED!

"It Rains Diamonds"-ICP if only it did rain diamonds.. would save me a whole lot of trouble!! time: 9.05-10.00 am CET mood: energetic physical condition: my butt hurts >_< I really should cycle more often... currently reading: Morag Prunty: Poison Arrows song: there's an Insane Clown Posse medley screwing with my head @_@ weather: it's spring I tell you, SPRING!! the sun is shining and it ain't even chilly anymore *dances* official baby fish count: *cough*71*cough* anyone want some guppies? hey guys!!! man, do I ever have to get used to that annoying new (or rather, old) way of seeing who updated >_< I think I prefer the former system, since it allowed me to miss some sites at times *laughs* but I've been trying hard and I visited a lot of people yesterday ^^ I even got up to date with my GuestBook (only to find a new entry today ^^") oh by the way, thank you all so much for 200 (now 201) GuestBook Entries!! I'd make a picture for it, but I don't have the time right now.. I might do it later though ^^ *hugs you all* thank you ^^ I feel pretty good today, but I'm not expecting the day to go right.. the past few days I've been breaking down more than once and it's driving me crazy.. the weekend was spend with Silver-sama who is now probably worrying his ass off over me.. I've been crying a lot.. and not even over big things.. I cried because I felt like a bother at his place, since his parents have to take me into account with the eating, since I hardly like anything.. but sunday was the worst.. the days started pretty good. that is, if I don't count us waking up first to his alarmclock he forgot to turn off and just when we were sleeping again my electronic pet decided to die, accompanied by A LOT of noise *sigh* but after that we slept some more and just relaxed. we went to the beach before we went to my place and all was well. but then we got to my home.. only to find a letter from the hotel. as you can probably tell by now, it didn't carry good news.. all openings had been filled up. they will however contact me when there's an opening again and they thank me for applying. well, whoopty-freaking-doo! *note the HEAVY sarcasm* I was able to hang in there until after dinner when Silver-sama and me were alone in my room again. and then I just broke down.. I couldn't stop crying.. but the funny thing is, the day after such a breakdown, I feel so much stronger.. I wish that feeling would last.. but FUN stuff also happened!!! we went on a search for a bigger fish bowl for my baby guppies. of course we didn't find one, but the search did put a new spark in an old addiction of mine: cameleons. I LOVE those little critters ^^ they're just soooooo cute ^^ with their little paws and pink sticky tongue *squeels* we went to a petshop that sold them and Silver was having a hard time getting me away from them again hehe ^^" the rest of the weekend I've been acting like a cameleon. ya know, whenever I tried to pick something up, I did it with my fingers together, so I just had my fingers and thumb to use and then first tried three times before actually grabbing it.. it's hard to explain but it was funny as hell *smiles* and I made a sand-cameleon on the beach ^^ but his eyes kept falling off.. I'm also trying to get Silver to buy a turtle ^^ why? cause they're damn cute too ^^ I, of course, just HAD to stick my hand into the tank with the little turtles in another petstore and one of them bit me in the finger *laughs* of course that one became my favorite instantly!! I even taught him to swim on his back after my finger (he was just trying to bite me of course, I know that ^_~) I must sound pretty weird, with my obsession for fish, reptiles and kittens *laughs* I pretty much enjoy all creatures ^^ Silver-sama made me watch Looney Tunes Back In Action.. it was so boring.. and lame.. was it worse than Pirates 2? yes. sadly.. I did however smile when I saw the Daleks from Doctor Who appear ^^ and I guess there were SOME funny moments in it.. and since Bones is on re-runs, we were able to finally watch a complete new episode of the Mythbusters ^^ I really like that show ^^ yesterday, I spend getting a lot of my business in order. I went and handed in an application for a job at a hardware store.. I don't really want to work there, but at the moment, a job is a job and it seems I can't be picky since people keep rejecting me *sigh* I'll keep looking. after that I spend most of my afternoon searching through town for a new fishbowl. eventually I succeeded at a store about five minutes from my house.. I had cycled through the whole town already -_-" so now my butt hurts, but my baby guppies have a lot more space and even a diver's helmet with bubbles coming out ^^ they seem happy ^^ I wanted to buy some new fish too, but I was able to hold back.. which is a good thing, cause when I told my mom she kind of freaked out ^^" saying I can't buy anything anymore and that I should save money and that she has to pay for everything and then I kind of tuned her out *laughs* she makes no sense though, cause she wanted to pay me back for the fishbowl and fishfood I bought.. I kept telling her I could afford it myself and that I didn't want her money and all the while she kept complaining about how she had to pay everything for me.. she doesn't listen does she? parents.. *shakes head* I also cleaned out my room, which was VERY much needed ^^ got rid of a lot of papers that were cluttering pretty much every open space ^^' so now, my room looks neat, my fish are happy and I'm trying to get a job again.. I feel strong and energetic today, but I have to go out and make people fill in inquiries today.. stupid group project *kicks it* BUT!! a sunny side!! at first I had to go together with one of the group members I could very well strangle when left alone with him, but Natasja just called, saying that her inquiry-buddy (as I will call them from now on) couldn't come. so now she will be there with us too, which is WAY BETTER!! YAY!! well guys, I wanted to embaress my imooto-chan Magnus in this post, but it's getting pretty long already.. so I think I'll save it for another post ^^ for now I'll only say that I had some wonderful funny talks with her on thursday and friday ^^ it was so good to talk to her on MSN and it also reminds me of the people I keep on fighting for ^^ I do have friends who care a lot for me and I will keep on going as long as those people have my back ^^ you all know who you are and I love you all *massive huggles to everyone* well, better get ready for project (I don't have to go into school this week. SO GOOD ^^) I'll have fun in the bus, seeing how I now have pretty much every ICP song on my MP3player. a good friend of Silver-sama downloaded them all after hearing some songs from me *laughs* he also got me some Psycopathic Rydaz and Dark Lotus albums ^^ I sound so badass right now ^_~ much clown love, I'm outta here (I'll try to visit you guys later today ^^) can't, I'm done.. though I could tell everyone about Quinty having to take pills.. oh wait, no I can't, I've got half an hour to get to the bus and I still have to do EVERYTHING >_< buhbye guys!!!

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Thursday, March 8, 2007

   It's been a bad day, please don't take a picture...

R.E.M., beats me what song it's from... time: 9.00-9.36 am CET mood: actually rested and cheery physical condition: my voice is hoarse, but I've decided to ignore the cold until it goes away *nods* currently reading: still the same two books.. though I should be able to finish Japan today. song: Kickstart my Heart from.. I dunno >_< it just got stuck in my head.. weather: it's quite lovely, sunny but cold.. official baby fish count: dunno, I do know there are at least six new little ones in the big tank *shakes head* well, the past few days haven't been all that great.. even though it looked like it thanks to my last post, since I let all the negative stuff out.. so I'll just list them all in this post YAY ^^ I've been having trouble breathing again.. I blame the cold, dry air and my cold..thank goodness it isn't as bad as it was during the weekend and thank goodness Silver-sama was there during the really bad attacks to calm me down *hugs him* the pressure to get a job has been getting worse. but in my defence, I did finally send an application letter to the hotel in my town, so now I just have to wait and hope it gets me a nice new job ^^' I'm being plagued by headaches and evil lack of sleep.. this is affecting my work at school and especially in the project.. there are a lot of tensions in the project and I seem to be VERY vulnerable to the 'bad vibrations'.. yesterday I broke down and cried my eyes out at school.. thank goodness it was just after the last class, so I could go home without too much questioning. I saw Natasja and Sarah on the subway platform (two gals I get along with) and first I didn't want to talk about it.. I called Silver-sama at work and he calmed me down a bit. after that, I told the two girls that things just aren't going well in my head.. and that's true. it feels like I'm breaking up inside.. my head is filled with something that could resemble static noise, especially in busy rooms.. it feels like I'm going crazy.. but I blame my total lack of sleep and the stress that is coming my way thanks to school and loads of extra assignments next to the project. I also had to throw away my number one and two favorite pair of jeans >_< you could almost see through them and although Silver-sama would have found it fun, I really can't walk around on the streets like that ^^" so they both had to go.. *sob* it does however mean that my mom won't complain about me buying new pants YAY ^^ I ordered new jeans and a pair of white worker pants (which are going to come in really handy for my Winry cosplay!! yes, I've decided, it will be Winry Rockbell (Fullmetal Alchemist) I'll be cosplaying as ^^ I also found the perfect top for it and now all I need are some workgloves, slippers and a red bandana ^^ now that shouldn't be too hard to get together ^^ *excited*) I had to vote yesterday.. something about the regional governments and such.. I never find I really hard to vote, since I always just go for the not-so-uptight-Christian party and as for the person.. the first one on the list ^^ unless I actually know someone on the list (like some time ago, the father of an old friend of mine was on the list, so I voted for him ^^) maybe if I looked into politics some more, I'd change party.. but I don't have the time, energy or interest to really pay attention to all those politicians.. I know *bad*! as far as I'm concerned, I just make it a habit of not voting for the parties that keep having their commercials on tv and posters at the busstops around election time.. I mean, the rest of the year, you don't hear anything from them either.. so why bother? anywho, that was my little voting rant ^^ Silver-sama came by yesterday and we had a good talk about why I've been feeling so crappy lately.. it seems the darkness is pulling harder than ever and it's getting harder for me to fight back.. but don't worry guys, I won't end this post on a sad note ^^ anywho, Silver made me calm down, let all the worries just slip away and made me feel LOADS better ^^ I was also glad that Natasja talked to me on MSN ^^ I feel like she could be a great friend ^^ actually, she is, I'm just scared to call her my friend. I've been fooled before.. I still feel like I should get more rest and sleep.. but after two nights of sleeping as if I had been K/O'd by some big wrestler Silver-sama probably knows the name of (thanks to a sleeping pill per night) I feel stronger again. maybe not strong enough to completely fight off the darkness, but strong enough to hold on until the weekend, when things should get better ^^ I feel more calm and the noise in my head seems to have somewhat disappeared. so don't worry about me ^^ well, I should be getting ready for yet another day at school ^^ I think I might tell my project group that not all is going well in the head of the Lytjuh, so that they won't decide to throw me out of the group if my work starts to suffer under it.. better safe than sorry, I need to be more open with my classmates anyway ^^' oh and MUAHAHAHAH!!! I fooled a lot of you, didn't I? English isn't my first language indeed, it's Dutch ^^ though lately, I seem to be better in English than Dutch.. my groupmates asked me to translate an English text since they didn't understand it and after a while I was like: "well, I know what this means, but what the heck is it in Dutch >_<" ah, fun times ^^ well, I really ought to get going, but in the meantime lets all drink one on Kikyo27's birthday! which was yesterday, but who cares ^_~ this one's for you Kelly: much clown love, I'm outta here

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Monday, March 5, 2007

   Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn.

Gone with the Wind-Clark Gable Ken-Ken is absolutely right, he IS really.. well, hot isn't the word.. I guess it's charming ^^ I adore him in GwtW ^^ it's such a wonderful movie hehe and so sad ^^' time for a kitty and no, these are not mine, sadly, since they're all so darn cute ^^' I find the pictures online ^^ *ROFLMAO* time: 10.00- am CET mood: alright, not too sleepy, not really moody either.. physical condition: well, I still got that nasty bit of a cold and I'm sleepy.. other than that, nothing too bad either ^^ song: *thinks* nothing comes to mind really.. currently reading: Japan, by 17 authors AND Poison Arrows by Morag Prunty weather: sunny official baby fish count: erhm.. last time I checked.. 58 ^^ some died, some were born, one went into the big fish tank well guys, I'm here updating again ^^' I feel pretty bad about it though, since it doesn't mean I'll be visiting a lot of you guys.. I just don't seem to have the energy for it >_< I'm trying though.. lately I've been keeping track of some sites, but I'm only reading posts and not commenting.. sorry you guys >_< please forgive me... well, I just wanted to let you all know that I've been doing pretty well.. I'm getting lots of compliments at school, for my attendance and my talent for english *laughs* everyone keeps asking me how I became this good at it hehe ^^ well, my answer: watch lots of tv, get a penpal in England *massive hugs to my imooto-chan Magnus who embaressed the hell out of me last Saturday* love ya sis!!! and basically just get a blog site that requires you to communicate in english. easy as pie, ne? I'm also becoming sort of friends with some people from my class.. I've been hanging out with them in between lectures and basically have someone to sit with during them ^^ it's fun talking to people again and I'm starting to be more open towards them ^^ Silver-sama and me had some wonderful weekends together ^^ last friday he came to my place after work and he stayed for the whole weekend ^^ I was so sad when he had to leave on sunday.. but he's coming over again wednesday, so all is good ^^ we watched The Skeleton Key, which is a GREAT movie ^^ I kept making myself scared *laughs* and that night, I secretly slept in Silver-sama's room (we have to sleep apart in my house, thanks to my parents *sighs*) we also did some light shopping ^^" I'm kinda broke yet again, but at least I didn't use my ATM card *proud* he bought me a Magic (the Gathering)deck and a tournament pack (random cards) and a really cool dragon necklace ^^ I had my eyes on that for a while, but when I wanted to go and buy it last friday, the store didn't have it anymore >_< but the store in the town next to mine did have it YAY ^^ I bought My-HiMe volume 2 (manga) and Fanthology volume 1, which is a collection of Dutch amateur manga. they started re-running Bones >_< darnit!! well, I leave you guys with this, I'd hate to write a massive post while I'm not even visiting you all. I'm really sorry you guys *hugs you all* here's a kitty to show how sorry I am: and this one goes out to Yensid-sensei ^^ I wish I looked half as hyper as this cat.. I could use the energy >_< I'll see you guys around *hugs you all* much clown love, I'm outta here

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Thursday, February 22, 2007

   How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! / The world forgetting, by the world forgot / Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! / Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.

Eloisa to Abelard- Alexander Pope time: writing: late wednesday evening… posting: 10am CET mood: sleepy, I just woke up physical condition: alright, still a bit of a cold, nothing to worry about ^^ currently reading: my own post, just to make sure I’ve said all I wanted to say song: some stupid commercial jingle AAAHHH!!! Get it out of me!!! weather: dry but cold.. yuck official baby fish count: erhm.. about sixty again I think… they’re breeding yet again *sigh* I really should take the small ones out of the big tank… I’d like to begin this post by restating some of the things said in my last post. -First of all, thank you all who pointed out to me that Superman isn’t Marvel (some a bit more blunt than others...) this just goes to show how little I know of and am interesting in Marvel comics. Or American comics as a whole… so let me restate what I said: I am not very interested in movies considering superheroes in their most basic form. I think that about clears that up ^^” -Secondly, I’d like to say that I didn’t say Pirates 2 was terrible. I am however telling you all now that I thought it was an endless string of puns pointing towards the first movie and the jokes that were funny in that one… truth be told, I think Pirates 2 was hopeless and the movies are now just rolling along on the success of the first. This, however, will not keep me from going to see the third one once it comes into theatres. -Johnny Depp was as said very mediocre in Pirates 2. more of the same. I just wish he’d kept some of that boyish charm from Edward Scissorhands.. now that was a great movie. I kinda liked him as Willy Wonka, BUT in my defense, I’ve never seen the original version of the Chocolate Factory (yeah, I know, shame on me!) -Thirdly (and probably lastly…) Nicolas Cage is hot to me. I never said anyone had to agree with me, but I just REALLY like him ^^ but then again, I’m known for my weird taste in men *winks at Silvereagle* -And lastly (HAH! I knew one more ^^) I have to completely get rid of my statement about Jim Carrey. After rewatching the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, I have to admit I can stand him in a serious role ^^ also, agreeing with Bunraku, I love The Truman Show, I guess I just never took that one serious. Though I do prefer him in his more comedic, hyperactive roles, The Mask stays great, but Ace Ventura will always be my favourite Jim Carrey character. Oh and I don’t really care for Orlando Bloom… much like Elija Woods, I remember him only as the character from Lord of the Rings. Which is sad, really, since they’re both pretty good actors. I liked Bloom in Brothers Grimm ^^ Woods is another story.. I can’t help but point at the screen and yell ‘Frodo!!’ whenever I see him… which kind of held back my enthusiasm for Eternal Sunshine ^^” By the way, I will take all you and your mothers on for a championship nagging! I’ll bet ya, I’ll win muahahaha!! Well, maybe not, but at least I’ll have Silver-sama and my ‘mooto-chan rooting for me *laughs * And as for the preps… I guess they are kind of the same as American preps… but I just use the word cause it comes closest to what they are and it lets me get away without an explanation *laughs* Today (wednesday, I’m actually writing this post in Word before going to sleep O_o” yes, really ^^ that’s why the European spelling of English is so very consistent in this one ^^’) I went to the Natural History Museum with my mom ^^ it was so much fun and interesting ^^ I love museums and stuff like that ^^ to me, a day in a museum is just way better than a day at a theme park. The only thing to top a museum is a zoo ^^ or an aquarium. Know what’s even better? A huge aquarium in a zoo ^^ yup yup… anywho… where was I? Oh that’s right ^^ I’m so tired at the moment… we walked through the museum for hours on end! Actually between 10.45 am and 15.45 pm, we could be found inside the museum (with a short break for lunch ^^) We saw a whole bunch of stuff. Mostly animals and plants, but there was also an Anatomy exposition going on at the time, so we got to see that too ^^ pretty icky at times though.. I mean, slices of head and stuff *shudders* guess I’m not as affected by the tv as I thought I was ^^ thank goodness ^^ I bought an ammonite ^^ it’s so cute (ya know, those little snail like critters from ages ago ^^) And this time, my mom was actually able to get on the train same time I did *laughs* I remember that bit of fun from our trip to Amsterdam like it was yesterday ^^ Tuesday Silver-sama came over ^^ he had taken a half day at work cause there wasn’t all that much to do there, so he came over nice and early YAY ^^ We went to Rotterdam and he bought me a huge bag of jelly beans. I swear, in time, I’ll make him go bankrupt just by letting him buy me those ^^” but they’re so yummy ^^ (I saw how there are made ^^ gotta love Discovery Channel ^^) And he bought me the third volume of Absolute Boyfriend (FINALLY, I got to read it and darnit, it’s become even better *laughs*) plus Yellow, which is of course some yaoi manga ^^ well, a girl needs some boy on boy action from time to time *grins* In the evening we watched Get Backers ^^ it really was time for that again, I think we put it on hold for more than half a year ^^” And then he had to go home again… but I will go there friday so we can have a long weekend together again ^^ Damn.. friday is getting closer by the minute and I still haven’t done any studying… That and my parents are pressuring me to get my application letter for the hotel ready >_< I can’t do this all AAARRRGGGHH!!! *brain meltdown* …………………… alright, I’m good again ^^’ I still have to do homework too, but thursday will be a good day for that. After sleeping in hehe ^^ hey, I deserve it ^^’ Well, that’s about it from me. I hope I can visit you guys.. I’ve been coming to sites, just haven’t been commenting ^^” Oh and I’ll keep the kitty pics coming, I’ve got a huge source for them hehe ^^ And finally, thank you all for 1700 visits *hugs everyone* It’s for you guys that I keep up this site ^^ well, that and my unsatisfiable need for rambling ^^ Much clown love, I’m outta here.

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Monday, February 19, 2007

   just can't stay away...

I've been called a liar before for doing the same thing, but I can't help it. I just keep coming back to this place, cause this is where my friends are ^^ time: 2.05-2.55 pm CET mood: sleepy and alone.. physical condition: cold currently reading: nothing, but I plan on starting Eternal Sabbath volume 1 sometime today. song: Walk into the darkness- ICP it's been stuck in my head ^^" weather: grey and cold. official baby fish count: about 50something.. my grandpa took ten with him ^^ well guys, as said, I just can't stay away from here.. do expect longer times between visits, PMs and updates though ^^" I've got the week off, so I have time to hang around online (even though I should be studying and making homework.. ow well, that can wait ^^) but next week will probably get a bit stressy again, since I'll be back to school *sigh* I really don't want to fall back into old bad habits, so that's when I'll probably take more time off from here and maybe only visit and post on mondays.. time will tell ^^ well, about my week... or at least the days you guys don't know of yet.. it's so weird having school on thursdays and fridays now.. I used to start my weekend on wednesday *laughs* the days get screwed up in my head really ^^" and then all of a sudden, it's weekend hehe ^^ well, nothing much happened in school.. I'm starting to get along with some people from the projectgroup. though I'm not expecting them to hang out with me after the project is done, so I'm not getting my hopes up. in the meantime I am making some new enemies with the preps hehe ^^ well, I have to be honest, this one girl was being a straight out bitch to Natasja (one of the girls I'm starting to like) and she even made her cry (well, she started crying when we got away from the rest of the class) so I guess it was my automatic friend-defense system that jumped into gear hehe ^^" besides, all the preps do is talk through lectures, making it so that no one else can hear the teacher.. you'd think that in college people would know not to talk through it all and be mature enough to at least listen to the teacher when he asks the class to be quiet.. so I told them to shut up already cause there were people who were trying to listen.. stupid highschoolers threw some kind of insult back to me, but meh, if they're that immature, I won't take notice of their words. damn, my wrist hurts.. that's not very nice.. I wonder why.. ow well, I just got to get through writing this post ^^ lets see.. other than that, nothing much happened in school. on friday, I went to Silver-sama in the evening in order to surprise him hehe ^^ he had the late shift and came home to a tired me in his bed and a cleaned up room *laughs* it was such a total mess and well, I guess I got kinda bored, so I cleaned ^^ I've been nagging him about it ever since though ^^' which got me a lot of angry looks from him, but he knows I mean it in a good way ^^ as my sis Magnus told me, I'm world champion in nagging, so I guess it's a talent ^^ anywho, Silver was indeed nicely surprised and we had a nice long weekend together ^^ on saturday we went to the city, did some shopping ^^ I bought new pants cause well.. my favorite pair is starting to fall apart ^^" I also bought tiny little rhinestones to stick on my nails, which was a hell of a job by the way, since they would rather stick to the toothpick I used to push them into the glue, than on my nails.. it would be so much easier to just get a manicure.. but meh, they're too expensive ^^ besides, I like messing around with my nails myself ^^ ok, enough girltalk ^^ Silver bought me a bunch of earrings and stuff hehe ^^ *huggles him* Claire's is evil!!! later, we went to see Night at the Museum ^^ finally!! I loved it so much!! I really didn't expect Owen Wilson, who was wonderfully cast ^^ it really was a great movie, though with a bit of a disappointing plot-twist, but hey, the effects were great and I still loved it ^^ it had some nice surprises in it to make it all good again ^^ another movie I'm now very much looking forward to is Ghost Rider!!! why? you ask. 1: it has Nicolas Cage in it 2: it has really cool effects 3: it has Nicolas Cage in it 4: did you see the bike? whoa! oh and did I mention it has Nicolas Cage in it? I love Nicolas Cage.. he's not only hot, but also a wonderful actor ^^ he can really pretty much pull off any kind of role. it's like, whenever I see Colin Farrell, I think of a scared cheater in a tiny phone booth.. I can't stand Jim Carrey in a serious role.. but Nicolas Cage can do anything ^^ he's one of the few hot actors I'm still interested in.. Mel Gibson was quickly erased out of my memory after he grew that beard that makes him look like Bin Laden.. Brad Pitt.. meh, he should've stayed with Jennifer Aniston if you ask me.. George Clooney seems to have disappeard after Oceans Twelve.. and Johnny Depp.. well, let me just say that his appearance in Pirates 2 was a little disappointing to me.. too much of the same. aw man, did I start with the girl talk again? sorry guys ^^" well, anywho, I've seen the trailer for Ghost Rider and I just have to see it now ^^ even though I've never been a big fan of Marvel (I couldn't care less about Superman, Spiderman 1 and 2 past me by without much of a fuss, though the trailer to the third movie looked interesting, X-men.. and I know my sis will probably kill me over this.. I don't really watch it unless there's really nothing else on tv and I feel like watching a movie *laughs* it just doesn't interest me that much..) well, I just hope I'll remember I want to see it when it hits the theaters over here, which will probably take pretty darn long.. in other news... well, after the movie we went for a few drinks at our favorite bar. it's Carnaval in the south of the Netherlands so it was pretty busy.. I don't feel like explaining Carnaval, but if you guys want to know, just ask me in your comment and I'll try to explain it in the next post.. anywho, I found ten bucks ^^ so the drinks were free hehe ^^ and it'll buy me some manga, since I still need to find Absolute Boyfriend volume 3!! during the weekend I read Vampire Knight, which is pretty awesome too by the way ^^ can't wait for volume 2 ^^ on sunday, Silver and me just relaxed, played some Katamari, which is still pretty fun, but bores quickly.. and of course we watched Bones. now, I couldn't possible keep my weekly Bones rant from you guys, so here it goes ^^ damn that Cam but muahahaa!! she got dumped!! finally some kind of action between Booth and Bones. but halas, not all is good in the world of the Jeffersonian, Angela and Hodgins are going way in the wrong direction.. *sigh* I really thought things were going to work out this time, but nope, Angela backed down yet again.. if you ask me, she's still not over losing her once a year boyfriend.. poor girl *shakes head* and this time, I actually didn't feel like I had seen the case before ^^ so yay for that too ^^ next week, or actually, this week, the first season of Bones is coming out on DVD over here ^^ now if only I had a job and some money, I could buy it *sigh* ow well, I'll just have to wait ^^ and then it was time for me to go home again.. I got to visit all of the people who've updated today, but I don't think I'll get to more sites.. I'll try, but remember that I can't promise anything ^^" I still feel bad about posting without really visiting, but I'm doing my best here guys ^^ I'm looking forward to catching up with everyone again though, so I'll try to visit everyone at least once this week ^^ well, my brother downloaded Relic for me (movie of a book from Preston and Child) so I think I'll watch that now ^^ yeah, I could use some horror/thriller now ^^ in the meantime, you guys can look at the cutest evil kitty ever ^^ much clown love, I'm outta here ^^ oh and sis, your letter and stuff is on it's way ^^ there, now I can't forget to tell you anymore ^^ *hugs everyone*

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Thursday, February 15, 2007

   Even though (everything,) everything's fine, I wish (I just wish) I could find some peace of mind...

'Peace of Mind"-Krezip (Yensid-sensei, don't you dare poke my kitteh!! *laughs*) nothing much to say, this will be one of my shortest post ever!! brace yourself... time: 8.05-8.30 am CET mood: don't ask physical condition: insomnia for the last week or so.. currently reading: Oh My Goddess volume 1 song: durrr.. none weather: sounds rainy and cold official baby guppy count: at least 61, they be breedin' again... hey guys *hugs you all* I think I might take some time off from here.. I haven't been able to visit a lot of people lately and I just feel really guilty for updating without visiting.. I only get around to some sites in the morning, while in the afternoon and evening my energy seems completely drained.. I've been going to bed at 10pm, which is damn early for me, but I still spend most of my time at night tossing and turning.. also, I feel like I might really be getting sick now.. or at least, I feel like staying in bed for a couple days will do me good.. but alas, I can't, cause I HAVE to go to school. I'm on such a good roll when it comes to visiting classes now that I really need to keep going before I once again get the taste for skipping almost every single one of my lectures *sigh* ok so the news about me: college: project is going alright, some tension in the group, but screw that... people really seem to dislike me.. I hear them talking about me and making fun of me in classes.. in English class, the two girls NEXT TO ME were talking about how stupid they thought I was.. hey, I can't help it that I'm bored out of my mind in english class! it's too simple!! and then there are the guys who like to make stupid comments whenever I give an answer cause no one else in the class will make a freakin' sound whenever one of the teachers asks something! I really hate this class (they act like highschoolers..) and I'm so glad when I get home to see some of my friends on here ^^ oh and I learned that I failed one of my tests.. so I'll have to redo it next week *sighs* oh well, at least 40% is still 8% above average (96 of 100 failed the test) work: I didn't get the job. wasn't unexpected really. the main problem was that I don't have my own transport so it's hard to get home after 3.30am (that's the time evening shifts end) it's really a relief to be honest. besides, my dad says that there might be a spot for me in the hotel in my town, which would be WAY better. just need to apply now ^^" love: Valentine's Day was spend rather lonely.. Silver-sama had to work and I had school, so we missed each other. but we did get to call a few times. short, but it's better than nothing. thank goodness Vday doesn't mean much when you can surprise the other any time you'd like ^^ anime: I've began watching Please Twins, which is a great spinoff (mind you, it's not a sequel!) from Please Teacher. I loved PT, and the first dvd of PTw is great ^^ really cute artwork and a great story, with nice small roles for the cast of PT ^^ busrides: well, the busses just plain annoy me lately.. and the people on the busses even more.. this one guy sat down next to me, practically on my lap by the way.. but, I'm polite, so I keep staring out of the window with both my ears receiving blasts of ICP from my MP3 player.. what does this guy do? he starts flirting with me O_o' I have this button on my bag that says 'Bad girl... Go to my room' so I guess I kind of asked for it.. but still, don't just start coming on to someone who just happens to sit next to you on the bus! and I tried to make it very clear that I wasn't interested at all, but he just wouldn't give up.. most of you guys know that I'm a huge flirt, but maybe I should start wearing a sign that says 'Only flirt when flirted to!' I only enjoy it when I start and when I know I'm in full control. I mean, I have my sweet boyfriend and I really don't want things to get out of hand, so I'm not really as bad as I look ^^ (love ya sweetie *glomps*) well, that's it from me ^^ sorry it wasn't as short as promised ^^" I'll be around again eventually. sorry for not getting to all your sites. I'll be reachable through PM though and I will probably still visit the people who updated when I wake up. but I can't promise anything ^^" much clown love, I'm outta here

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