Friday, June 23, 2006

   turning the key, unlocking the door, embracing the rollercoaster ride...

hey peoples things aren't going as planned... this will be a short post... work has been going alright, and that's about it... I've been crying too much for my own good the past couple of weeks.. it's about time I get off my sorry ass and do something... why I've been crying? plain ultimate exhaustion, stress and parents... these people are telling me Ican't stay over at my boyfriend's house cause I'm already spending too many nights over there... everyone who can count a little knows that about a total of three weeks sleeping there over three years isn't much... it isn't anything at all... my parents say they want me to be home more.. why? so they can either ignore me or yell at me? I hate my fucking life here.. this isn't my life, this isn't any life at all... as some of you know, Silvereagle-sama has been talking about living together.. Iwant that... Iwant my place of my own and to be with him every day.. I'll pack my bags tomorrow and tell my parents not to wait up for me on saturday evening.. yes it's gonna give me trouble, but it's about time I stand up for myself and my life... just one night, it's not too much to ask for is it? I'm sick of crying... ow guys, I'm really sorry, but I can't make it to sites, at least not until like... monday... I just don't have the energy right now.. I tried so hard, but Ijust can't do it... I going to try and have a good weekend and I'll see you guys around kk? well, instead of a greeting, I'll post a songlyric, even though I know no one will read it... it's from The Corrs, they give my mind peace and my heart hope... I wanna feel just like before Before the rain came in my door Shook me up, turned me 'round Made me cry 'til I would drown Stole the daylight brought the nights So much anger I would fight Lost my youth, I'm in the blue Saw all the loneliness in you Want to help you, give you love Shine some light out from the mud Fill the empty, find a rhyme A brighter day, a better time But I'm wondering where I'm gone Can't find the truth within my song All I have I'll give to you To let you know you're not alone I'm telling you Smiling for you only I'm trying for you solely I'm praying for you only No more cry, no more cry I want to hear you laugh again Without the ache to bring you down No, we'll never be the same If only I could take your pain If it's true what people say There still is beauty in each day We find comfort in her strength And wonder soon we'll meet again I'm telling you Smiling for you only I'm trying for you solely I'm praying for you only No more cry, no more cry I'm singing for you only Hey, I'll be weary for you only I'm praying for you only No more cry, no more cry it's not all, but it's enough... enjoy life while it lasts peoples, it's too short to be brought down... I'm outta here ps: funny thing happening: I was just humming during work, ya know, making up a song while making funny noises... an old man walked up to me and told me that he liked that I was doing that ^^ one more thing: I'm over 1000 visits ^^ thank you all so much for coming to my site and making it what it is today ^^ a bunch of rambling, but one of the very few places I feel like I have true friends.. I love all you peoples *glomps everyone several times*

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