Monday, October 2, 2006

   I'm in heaven right now and I don't want to come down!

"Humdrum"-The Corrs (8 am Dutch time) friday was horrible... but the weekend sure made everything a lot better again!! as for friday, I'll sum it up for you: -people in my project being angry at me for not doing an extra task while it was already supposed to be done by someone else.. -getting stressed and finishing a piece of the project that had to be turned in that day (with a lot of time pressure but thank goodness I don't stress that easily, well, normally I wouldn't.. but I did get rather nervous.) -handing in the project just in time -easily being able to make it to the bus in time to get to work in time, IF the subway didn't decide to try and see how slow it could go before it would fall over. -just made it to the bus -just made it to work (went home real quick to drop off my stuff and put on another shirt) -work was tiring but fun (this is where it gets better already) -Silver-sama called me while he actually had to work and we got some time to talk -I got some time to chat with Grifter-san -I went to sleep. so it wasn't all that bad, but it could've been a lot better. now for the weekend *huge grin* Silver-sama promised to pick me up early and indeed, he was at my place around ten am ^^ I packed my stuff and we set off. I wanted to go to the stores to see if 'My neighbor Totoro' had arrived for me yet and we ended up shopping our asses off ^^ I'm really broke right now and am far in depth with Silver-sama again.(can you say 400 euro?! that means a little under 500 dollar says my phone..) but it gets better, I'll get to that later. I bought: -a red t-shirt (from the brand ILI if that rings a bell with anyone) -a red sweater (of the same brand) -a vest. and this one I truly love! my mom probably hates it, but I don't care I LOVE IT!!! I'll try to get a picture up cause it's really hard to explain, but that will have to be done after school cause I have about half an hour before I have to go hehe ^^' -Lifelines CD of A-Ha, basically just for the song "forever not yours" I adore that song!!! -the new CD of Evanescence (The Open Door) -a Jamie Cullum CD (Catching Tales), because I was in desperate need of some different music ^^" some jazzy tunes sound very good at the moment -a lot of makeup -a ring -some earrings -really cool tribal chopsticks for my hair ^^ (it takes a lot of practise to get my hair up so that it stays up, but I’m starting to get the hang of it) -the first volume of The 11th Cat manga. still need to read it but it looked pretty good and funny ^^ -the pre-release bonus disk of the upcoming Guild Wars expansion ^^ YAY wallpapers, extra weapons and an extra character slot ^^ also the order from Archonia came in, so now I have the first volume of Girls Bravo. Silver bought me a really cool ring. it's huge and it depicts a chinese dragon and it's probably the coolest thing I have ever seen!!! it covers half my finger YAY ^^ I can still use it like normal hehe ^^ and he got me a watch, it's so shiny *smiles* AND he gave me a huge loan.. cause I still needed to give my mom the money for my study.(every month I get money from the government YAY it's not nearly enough though AND it has to go to my parents, cause they pay everything for school ^^') for himself he bought new shoes and we had lots of fun with the salesman hehe ^^ he was so funny ^^ ow and he bought the Shonen Jump. after the shopping I bought us an ice-sorbet and we romantically ate it together cause I could only afford one.. hehe ^^' but it was so much fun!!! and then we went home, showered (I won't go into details ^_~) and then it was time to eat ^^ so we ordered chinese like Silver-sama promised me ^^ it was so yummy!!! then we went upstairs and just crashed on the bed. we kept telling each other that we couldn't fall asleep cause we wanted to watch some program.. when we woke up about two hours later, we watched some tv and then we headed off to the pool-hall ^^ I really wanted to do something that we would both enjoy and I like to pool and Silver likes to see me bend over ^_~ so I thought it would be a good idea ^^ I looked my best for Silver, wore my chinese shirt that's practically see-through, put the chopsticks in my hair (it looks so cool ^^), actually put makeup on (I don't do that often and when I do, it's either because of a presentation at school or for Silver-sama) I had loads of fun, won three out of five games of pool. one because Silver shot in the 8ball before it was supposed to, one thanks to my actual pooling skill (read: pure luck) and one, as Silver claims, thanks to my sexyness. all I did was stand in front of the pocket Silver had to shoot the 8ball in and look a bit.. 'tempting' *smiles* so he shot too hard, the ball bounced off the pocket and landed in the pocked straight on the other side hehe ^^ apparently my pooling skills tend to improve a little after I drink more beer, but then again, they were all just lucky shots if you ask me ^^ plus, according to Silver-sama, I turned quite a few heads, which is always a nice feeling ^^ poor guys, eat your hearts out, I'm all Silver's muahahaha!! I did get spoken to once by some guys, but they just wanted to know if I was with some other group. after three hours of playing pool (even the bartender was impressed) we decided to go home. I slept wonderfully in Silver's arms and was only woken up around 7 am by a 'Honey, where's my blanket?' ^^' yeah, I steal blankets while I sleep, so sue me hehe, I rolled all over and in it hehe ^^ it was mine, ALL MINE!!! anywho, after that we slept till eleven and then I thought it was time to come out. but of course, we spend lots more time cuddling and such ^^ (I'm going to have to save this onto my USB stick and finish it at school.. it's going to be sooo long hehe ^^ but don't worry, it's worth the read if you ask me ^^ plus, I have lots of time at school *hugs you all* I'll be back soon ^^) (1.30 pm Dutch time) ok, so it’s 1.30 and I’m back home again already. I figured that waiting for a class that I can read through on the internet wasn’t worth my time, so I just went home ^^ kids, don’t try this at home, school is important!! now where was I… ah yes, sunday morning ^^ it was great ^^ we spend lots of time just enjoying each other's company, which is always great ^^ I can't really remember what we actually did, but I think it mostly consisted of watching tv, eating breakfast.. just hanging out. I collected my stuff and we cleaned Silver's room up a bit (just getting rid of empty bottles and plastic bags and such.) and later in the afternoon we went to my place. my parents were at my neighbor's house, cause it was the neighbor lady's birthday. so we went to my room and Silver watched some tv, played some Tekken and read some manga while I made my homework. when I was done, we watched some tv I think ^^ and then my mom came in with news that made my money problems a little better ^^ since my brother bought a car, my dad had the idea of giving him a car radio. but my parents always divide things equally, so I was told that I could either get something for the money, or get the money itself. I didn't think it would be much, but it turned out to be about 130 euros!! (which comes to about 160 dollar says my phone calculator thingy ^^) and that means that I should be able to pay Silver back a big part of the loan AND have some money of myself again YAY ^^ but I still have to be very careful with my money.. maybe I should hide my wallet hehe ^^" then we went downstairs to get a drink and to eat dinner. after that, we watched tv, fooled around, talked for a bit and then of course watched a bit of the Mythbusters and the whole of Bones (gosh,I love that show and I hate that it overlaps with the Mythbusters...) and after Bones, Silver unfortunately had to leave again.. I had a little fallback and cried a little (I'm so sorry honey, I know how much you love to see me happy*long hug*) but thank goodness he was still there. I took a sleeping pill last night and slept wonderfully again. just woke up a whole lot less nice hehe ^^' waking up next to Silver-sama is so much better!! but I did wake up to this wonderful sound.. the sound of Fall, Autumn, or however you want to call it!! it really is one of my favorite seasons!! just the blowing wind, the beautiful colored leaves and the rain, ah yes the rain... it was about time summer ended hehe ^^ it's nice that it's a bit warm and all, but it's just not my favorite weather, ya know? school wasn't too bad, kinda short, but that's what you get for skipping classes. but I'm kinda pissed at some members of my group, cause on friday they were acting like everything was fine and that they finished the moodboard that they had to make (if you don't know what a moodboard is, please don't ask me!!!) but today, all of a sudden, they're like: "We still need pictures and we don't know what else to put on it and you all have to come to school earlier tomorrow to finish it!!!" O_o I hate being the leader cause I'm the kind of person who doesn't really dare to say anything about it in the group. I've had lots of occasions in which the group then completely turned against me. not a happy feeling.. but now I think like: then why did you all leave on friday? why didn't they google for some more pics and print them and just finish the damn thing?! me and Inge had to stay longer to finish the Productplan (once again, don't ask!!) so why didn't they? ow well, nothing that can be done about it now. the presentation of the moodboard is tomorrow and for once I don't have to do it. thank god. the rest of this day will be spend by me relaxing. I'm going to read some more of my book, cause I NEED to get further in that. and of course watch Descendants of Darkness (Yami No Matsuei). I love it so badly, especially cause things are all slightly different than the manga, which makes it interesting even though I already know the story ^^ tomorrow at 8.05am I have my doctors appointment.. I was wondering if I should stop taking the anti-depressives. I talked it over with Silver-sama and I'm going to keep taking them. they are starting to help. I mean, the subway-tracks don't look as tempting as they did anymore, I was able to have loads of fun this weekend without the little voice inside my head telling me that I don't deserve it, I'm starting to see the sunny side more and dammit I like it! I think that this weekend I smiled more than I did in a very long time, maybe ever.. so I'm going to ask the doc to keep giving me those pills and the sleeping pills for a while longer ^^ as promised a pic (or sort of) of the vest I bought ^^ I zipped off the sleeves though, it has loads of pockets everywhere (and I mean EVERYwhere!! in the sleeves, on the front and even right below the label in my neck hehe ^^) and it says 'Bye bye Kitty' (it's so evil ^^ and I love it cause I simply hate 'Hello Kitty' hehe.. but it's not one of those sadistic shirts.. I tried to google for it and it brought up some pretty nasty stuff..)I'll try to get a better picture of it up some other time ^^ there, three should be enough ^^ aren't I the cute one with a cameraphone in front of my face hehe ^^ thank god for my mirror ^^ sorry that I'm all fuzzy, this phone really doesn't like to take good pictures although Silver-sama might say otherwise *winks* ooh, photobucket changed.. ow well, the resizing went a lot better this time hehe ^^ ok, I think I've held you guys up long enough ^^ time for a song!! this song is just really appropriate for me at the moment ^^ it's "Time Enough for Tears" from The Corrs Let's read the trees and their autumn leaves As they fall like a dress undone At the ends of summers love will find lovers Who need the shadows of a winter's sun Don't tell me you're leaving We can hide in the evening It's getting darker than it should If we read the leaves as they blow in the breeze Would it stop us now my love Time enough for hard questions Time enough for all our fears Time is tougher than we both know yet Time enough for tears The moon is milk and the sky's where it's spilt It's magic and we all need to believe We can wake in the dream It's not as hard as it seems You know it's harder to leave Time enough for being braver Time enough for all our fears Time is tougher that we both know yet Time enough for tears I heard you say underneath you breath Some kind of prayer I heard you say underneath your breath That you never want to feel This way about anybody else Time enough for hard questions Time enough for all our fears Time is tougher than we both know yet Time enough for tears Time enough for being braver Time enough, I love this time of the year Time is tough, it's running away from us Time enough for tears Time enough (I know I know) (It's O.K It's O.K) (2.20pm Dutch time) ok, this has been long enough don't you think? hehe ^^ let's see *copy and pastes to word* *blushes* I'm very sorry for rambling for almost 5 whole A4 papers.. I'm going to let you guys go now ^^ *hugs you all* I'm getting better people, and I didn't think that I would for a long time ^^ I'm outta here

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