Saturday, October 28, 2006

   how many times will I ask myself why, ho many times will I cry?

If you don't want to read the whole post, please notice the links to picures from Sea-Life and the Beach and links to my Wannabe Wallpapers at the end of the post! check them out if you'd like and let me know what you think ^^ "How Many Times"-ICP yep, I think this song is appropriate for me. I guess I'm a sucker for self-torture.. can't help but dwell in the past and wishing I could do something about everything that happened.. when will I leave this all behind me? I don't know, but I don't know how much more I can take either.. if only.. yeah, I need to stop thinking that way.. anywho, on to happier things ^^ as for work, today is my REAL last day.. I really don't feel like going, but hell, it's money in the bank right? and I've always been pretty loyal to the places where I work. take the bookstore for instance, I was fired there after just two months (also for not fitting into the team.. *sigh*) but I told the boss that he could still use me as a substitute, if he happened to need someone ^^ I just want to work and as long as I like working somewhere, I'm loyal. besides, I'm still under contract, so basically, I couldn't even say no *laughs* but I don't really mind, I just wish that my boss hadn't said that I could take the remaining days off. ow well, just seven hours of doing something I like. that can't be too bad ^^ and I don't mind acting on a favor my boss asked me. he's a really nice guy and even though I might make him sound like a jerk for letting me off, he has worked with me for full days, so he knows how I am, how I work and what my personality is. he's only 26 or something, but he really is a great boss ^^ as for the bookstore, that might be a little security for me. apparently, the girl who worked there on friday evenings and saturdays quit, so Roland is in need of someone to help out. he's trying it with one of his employees at the moment, but if that doesn't work out, he might hire me again for two months to get through the holiday season ^^ it's easier than hiring someone new who still needs to learn the ropes around the store while it's that busy. I'm still going to look for another job though, cause the bookstore will only be for two months, but it's something, right? Silvereagle-sama didn't stay over after all.. I kinda felt that one coming, but it still sucks.. I really wanted him to stay and he actually was having doubts in the evening (too late) ow well, in two hours, I have to work and he'll come to pick me up after that. he is going to stay over tonight ^^ damn, when am I ever going to study for my tests? I don't really care actually, I'm just going to do my best and see what happens. if I bomb them, there are still make-up tests ^^ as for yesterday ^^ it was good ^^ Silvereagle-sama spend a whole lot of money on me hehe ^^ and I actually bought some stuff myself too ^^' we went to Rotterdam to stock up on some manga and anime ^^ let's see, I'll just make a list of stuff he bought for me (I have to pay him back for part of it though) Anime: -Tenchi Muyo the Movie (Tenchi Forever) -Jubei-chan, the ninja girl (secret of the lovely eyepatch) complete collection. Manga: -Sakura Taisen (Sakura Wars) volume 1,2 and 3 -Kare Kano (His&Her Circumstances) volume 1 -Until the Full Moon volume 1 (yumm yaoi ^^) as for the things I bought for myself (with my own money this time *laughs*) Anime: -Galaxy Angel complete collection DVD ^^ it just looked so cute ^^ Manga: -FLCL volume 1 -Pita-Ten volume 1,2,3 and 4 (it was a box, four for the price of three ^^) it looked so cute and of course, I love the work of Koge-Donbo (the creator of Di Gi Charat ^^) and I bought myself that new sweater I was looking for ^^ so it sure was one hell of a shopping day hehe ^^ you'll have to check Silvereagle-sama's site to see what he bought, cause the only thing I can remember is that he bought Lucky Number Slevin on DVD.. and the stuff for me of course, but (DER) they are in my room ^^ in the evening we watched tv a lot. Silvereagle-sama was a bit cranky at first, but that was my fault.. stupid past-dwelling habit *sigh* but later on he cheered up thankfully ^^ we watched.. some series (Dharma&Greg, Will&Grace, a comedic progam on the news and such, Top Gear and a stand-up comedy program) and then we just basically cuddled and I started to get really sleepy.. so at around 11.15 pm, it was time for him to leave *sob* but I will see him tonight. by the way, the Tenchi Muyo plushies are sooo cute ^^ and I got a little extra with them, the cutest tiny teddie bear ^^ my cat wouldn't stop sniffing Ryo-Ohki yesterday, silly Quinty ^^ now I'm still waiting for my shit from HatchetGear.. maybe we should start emailing them about that.. ow well let's see.. ah yes, I promised photos! I'll put links up, cause my post box is pretty small.. besides, this way you can see them all ^^ Sea-Life and Beach ^^ and then there are my wallpapers that still haven't gotten posted.. I'll just ask for your opinion first, so maybe if you all like them, I'll resubmit them ^^ the first two are for my boyfriend really.. the last one is for an old friend... Protector Eternity Under The Moon I'm outta here

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