Monday, October 30, 2006

   Nineteen years of breathing smog, got me mental, so get off me dog!

"Get off me Dog"-ICP yeah, I think this is appropriate.. the following are some e-cards, describing my current mood and mental state. I was actually looking for the last one, but the other ones also come really close ^^ let me explain YAY ^^ well, let me start at the beginning anyway. it's better to keep things in chronological order. the weekend was pretty good. the last seven hours of work were ok, it was rather busy so there was enough to do and the day went by quickly. and even though I didn't really feel like working, my co-worker said that I did very good ^^ well yeah, it's the way I am. it's better for me to work hard so that I can't think about having to leave. besides, I'm still working with someone else and I can't just let her do all the work, now can I? speaking of work: I should be safe until the end of december ^^ the boss from the bookstore needs me on friday evenings and on saturdays ^^ meaning I get about 10 hours of work a week YAY. but it's just for the holiday season, he was very clear on that, but still, it's income and even if it isn't much, I still love to work and every little bit helps. now I have a bit more time to find something for a longer period. but seeing how I want to do an internship in the US in my next year, I can't really have a long contract, cause I would be away for about half a year.. I'll just try and find something that fits my profile, it'll be fine ^^ Silvereagle-sama came to pick me up. I ate and we watched some tv and the rest of the night I pretty much just slept. I was so tired.. (and I still am..) so eventually, I took a sleeping pill and went to sleep. at about 4.30am, I woke up again and sneaked into the room where Silvereagle-sama slept. and I finished my sleep with him ^^ nice and warm YAY ^^ well, finished.. after we both kinda woke up again, I went back to my own bed, he watched some tv and I slept some more.. I printed out everything I need for the case study test and just prepared for the next day. we watched some tv and just cuddled. time to eat and after that I decided it was about time to read the case study that was going to be tested the next day. or so I thought.. *doomsday music* after I read the whole thing, highlighting important parts, I thought I was done. so I checked on the school's site in which classroom the test would be held.. and that's when I saw that it wasn't the case study test on monday, but the test that needs you to study everything that you've had during the last semester -_-' I had been preparing for the wrong test and trust me, 8pm isn't early enough to start reading all the info you got in the past weeks.. I thought that this test would be on thursday, so I had two extra days to prepare.. yeah, I switched them in my head.. anywho, I had a bit of a stress-trip but luckily Silver-sama calmed me down again ^^ we watched some tv, Bones of course! and then it was time for him to go home again.. I took another sleeping pill and went to sleep. today was just wonderful.. remember those cards at the beginning? yeah, it's all for today. after waking up at 6.30am, way too early for me (I am a horrible morning person if I haven't slept well and trust me, I didn't) I tried to get everything done in time. finally got done and left for the bus. that drove away right in front of me. so I had to wait over half an hour for the next bus, praying that I would still be in time for the test that I didn't study for.. got to school just in time thank goodness. winged my way through the test but I really think that I bombed it big time.. and then came the most horrible part.. a meeting with the project group.. three members had to make a brochure, while the other three (including me) make a website. the brochure was supposed to be done today. but appearently, they don't really understand the concept of a deadline. all of a sudden, we need a picture of the six of us together for the brochure. didn't know that and it has to be handed in on wednesday. well it's all my own fault that I didn't know it, cause they put it right smack in the middle of a huge piece of TEXT in the BROCHURE that I didn't completely read yet cause I trusted them to do their FREAKING WORK!!!! *deep breath* ok, that was point one. they also discovered today that the background cannot be seen on the schoolcomputers and now they're all stressing out because now they need to make a new background. my question: why didn't you test that sooner then? of course, according to them, that was a stupid question cause "who would go to school in their vacation?" true, but they have been working on the thing for about FOUR FREAKING WEEKS NOW!!! you can try it with one page first GAAAAHHHH!!!! *deeper breath* ok, that was point two. then, there's yet another problem with the background.. they have a rim and they want to get rid of it. so I tried to explain to that stupid bitch how you could easily fix it by putting the color in Paint, save it as a picture and then add it into the Word document as a background. yeah, you'd have to do it for every page, but at least it would look good. Stupid Bitch, in return, started yelling at me about how she would never be able to do that and that she didn't feel like doing one page at a time. hell, fine with me, don't listen and fuck it all up by yourself. if she would just calmly listen to me, but NOOOOOO, she has to feel attacked and rip me to shreads... *deepest breath up to now* that was point three. and now, they expect the whole group to show up at school tomorrow to help them get their shit sorted. well, not me. we divided the work equally and I'm not going to clean up their mess while I still have to put the whole freaking website together! so that's what I told them. in return, they started yelling at me, telling me that we took all the info for the website from the brochure and thus implying that we had been doing absolutely nothing... and this is where I started getting homicidal, so I just knew I had to leave. told them to let me know when they are going to meet tomorrow, not so that I could come, but more so that I can avoid the school extra at that time tomorrow. I say screw them all, if they're not going to do their work and they don't want to listen to my tips, they can just... well, let's not make this post any worse than it already is ^^ so I left and called Silver-sama to cool off a little. it worked thank goodness, though you probably can't tell from this post hehe ^^" the past week or so, I've been plagued by horrifying headaches.. and of course, I'm refusing to take painkillers.. I just hope that they let up soon. also, my breathing has been acting up again.. it's so scary, even though I know that it can't do me any harm.. it just hurts and I get dizzy and well.. it feels like crap. anywho, I've been whining for way too long again now.. sorry you all had to experience this side of me.. *hugs you all* well, I'm still tired as hell, so I'm going to try and get some more rest.. I'm outta here

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