Friday, December 8, 2006

   Send someone to love me, I need to rest in arms...

'Better Man'-Robbie Williams I just love that line.. and as usual, it applies. time: 10.26-11.29 am CET mood: monthly moodswings, ain't the life of a woman grant? *sarcasm* physical condition: a bit of a cold, and a band-aid on my finger cause of the bloodtest shot thingamabob.. manga: Saikano volume 1 AND Hellsing 4.. I adore Saikano already, the art looks soooo good ^^ and Hellsing is just nice and gorey as usual ^^ song: Long Way to Happy-Pink weather: raining and hard, icy winds hey guys!! it's been a while ne? I've been lacking in updates cause well.. I don't know really.. I guess it's WDX that has been distracting me from this place.. yep, the place is safe again and I'm starting to get back to my old addiction ^^ though I'm still pretty careful.. bad memories and shit, ya know ^^' plus, school has been keeping me off the laptop in the mornings *sighs* and I just like to update while most of you are still sleeping hehe ^^ ow well, I'm here now, ain't I? my week.. it's been alright.. I completely finished my Christmas shopping on tuesday and man am I ever glad to be done with that ^^ it was pretty hard to find presents for some people.. but I managed and went completely bankrupt in the process *big sigh* that means no spending ANY money for the rest of the year.. but with the new year will come new money ^^ I just have to find a steady job before the month ends.. ugh, and the worrying starts again.. (by the way, typing with a bandaid is annoying!!) great fun by the way *sarcasm* I had to stand the whole busride home from Rotterdam on tuesday.. and the busdriver was a jerk, cause he kept on breaking with those jumpy stops that make all the people fall over.. and he just kept on letting more people in the bus and it was so crowded and icky warm and moist cause it had been raining outside.. sweat was dripping down my back.. I hate that busdriver!!! *kicks his bus* I've been skipping quite a few classes already again.. but I just don't really feel up to long days lately.. I'm a horrible example *shakes head* but I still feel like I should be working on my emotional health and when that's all good, I can focus on following classes again.. on wednesday I finished all my letters and presents and cards so I could mail them all on thursday ^^ so 'mooto-chan, Cat and Yensid, expect your stuff pretty soon ^^ yesterday morning was good. I went over to Silver-sama and even though I missed my bus and once again had crappy connection with my train, I got to spend a few hours with my love and that just makes it all worth it.. we went to the post office and send all the packages (Silver-sama paid the shipping costs, cause, as said, I'm flat broke.. thanks honey *glomps*) and after that we just went back to his home and did nothing at all.. we just laid on his bed, cuddling and being together and some days, that's just all I want, all I need.. it was so nice ^^ and then it was time for him to go to work and for me to go home.. which meant I had to wait half an hour for the train again, cause I just missed the last one.. ow well, I could read Hellsing, since I borrowed volume 4,5 and 6 from Silver-sama ^^ (though I've started on Saikano today..) when I got to the busstop and waited for my bus, I spotted an old classmate from highschool and we had a nice chat during the busride home ^^ it was actually nice to talk to her again for a change, even though I still ignore all the emails those people send me ^^" I say those people, cause, well... even though we used to hang out during free hours and breaks in school, I could never really consider them my friends.. it's weird and hard to explain.. out of the bus, I thought it would be a good idea to pick up my sleeping pills from the pharmacy cause it wasn't raining all that hard for a change.. bad idea. when I got them and stepped outside again, the sky just all of a sudden turned black and it started to pour, hail and thunder.. I have to walk about two minutes or less to my home from the pharmacy and I was dripping wet, completely soaked when I stepped inside my house.. great fun *sarcasm once again* the rest of the day was spend not doing anything in particular, though in the evening I watched the movie Mean Girl\\\\\\\\\\\\\€p;,kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk\kk========-======i excuse me for that, my cat decided it would be fun to sit on my laptop.. attention addict *shakes head and laughs* just thought I'd leave the prove in for once.. anywho, I watched the movie Mean Girls and I actually, against my expectations, liked it ^^ it was entertaining and I loved the inner conversation of whatsherface.. the red-head ^^" I'm horrible with names.. it was a nice picture of how highschool girls are and can act towards each other.. I'm scared of Queen Bees.. ow well ^^ I'm kinda the outcast in my school anyway.. I'm just glad that the real school life isn't all that bad as they showed. but of course, in movies, they always have to make it all a bit worse ^^" today has already been quite busy. been to the dentist. nothing wrong, just a half-year check up ^^ though he did warn me to watch my brushing.. I'm even slacking off in that department.. and then I went off to the bloodbank to donate again (no, we don't get money for that out here) but.. they didn't let me.. my bloodpressure was 89 over 69 and that is just too low.. it's probably because of my happy-pills.. that's what they said anyway. I myself blame the fact that I took a sleeping pill last night.. ow well, I'll just have to wait for the next call now. which should be in a few months. now that I think about it, the low blood-pressure might have been because of a combination of sleeping pill, happy-pill and period.. *nods* that's probably it ^^ anywho, I couldn't give blood but they did do the nast hemoglobine test which means an evil sting in your finger.. *keeps trying to get Quinty to try and eat my bandaid* usually, she starts to bite on it right away.. ow well and now I'm home again ^^ the rest of the day shouldn't be too busy. I have to work tonight, I hope it's busy, I love working hard ^^ I should make some homework, but I'm going to try the trick a girl in my class did last week. she never turned any work in and thus, she wasn't preached to by the teacher.. *shakes head* he's such a dork and he just annoys me to death.. it's actually a student giving us Excell-class.. and he's just.. UGH!!! the problem is, the class is about Business Economics in combination with Excell.. and he doesn't really have any Economic insight.. while I do.. so we have nice discussions on that every now and then.. *sigh* he annoys me.. I said that already ^^" ah yes, Sinterklaas, some people asked about it, so here is the explaination (I'll make it short) Sinterklaas is really a holiday for the kids over here. it all revolves around this old guy dressed in a bisshops dress who has loads of helpers called Black Petes (hehe, it's fun to translate that into english ^^) every year half way november, he arrives from Spain in his Steamboat packed with presents. and until december 5th, he leaves small presents in the shoes of kids who have been nice during the year. on the evening of december 5th, the big presents are given and a lot of candy too.. chocolate letters and stuff yummm ^^ I don't exactly know if he was the inspiration for Santa Clause, but I've always been told that Santa was invented by the Coca Cola Company to boost sales during the winter.. but he might have stood model for it.. Sinterklaas is really the holiday of gift giving in the Netherlands, while Christmas resembles the American Thanksgiving. Christmas is more about being with family and friends and being thankful for what you have ^^ in my house anyway, there are families who also exchange a lot of gifts during Christmas. and, in Silver-sama's house, we'll be celebrating Christmas with gifts ^^ well, just one last question and then I'll let you guys go. would you like to see a 'something of the day' again? I used to do AMV of the Day, Greeting of the Day and stuff, but I haven't in a while and I thought that maybe you guys were missing it.. and if you do want it back, what would you like to see? so give me examples of what you'd like, please ^^ much clown love, from me and Quinty I'm outta here

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