Tuesday, January 4, 2005

   love is hate and hate is life.....wait then isn't that saying that life is love?........eck, im so confused.........

anyway, i have elected not to go to sadies this year, some of my friends are pissed though they ask why. thats easy

A)i don't dance.

B) i have kinda swore off dating, social events, ect. so going would make my swear kinda pointless wouldn't it?

C)i don't like spening $40 dollars on a ticket and a dress to get made fun of by the evil preps and jocks that run our school.

See? that simple.

so the night of sadies i will be working with one of my best friends. YAY! can't wait. (easy job)
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Monday, January 3, 2005

   Nothing New
I'm bored. there's not much new other than the fact i still wanna be sleping......

school suxs, everyone knows that.

anyway, i have absolutly nothing to do......cept the fact that i *should* start studying for exams that are in about 2 weeks but i'm lazy.:)
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Saturday, January 1, 2005

   New year, no plans
hey,

happy new years to those who enjoyed the holiday.

i tired to call a couple friends but they were either bussy or didn't pick up the phone.

i got to babysit for my mom's friends, lisa,. both kids were passed out at 10:00

so another year alone.

no biggie. i had no real plans anyway..... so far no new years resolutions.

i was thinking about trying to live out my goal (see left) for the new year...

he-he

it'll kill some of my friends who want me to go out though...............

i have no intrest to go out with anyone right now.
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Saturday, December 25, 2004

hey
i could wish you all merry x-mas, but this, along with many holidays, are not on my fun list.

for example, this year on valintines day, sxybuni69 and i are making t-shirts that say Luvsuxs on one side and have a bleeding heart on the other.

but x-mas, is x-mas.

it's funny my parents had no clue what to get me, so i got a 30 dollar gift card to best buy (so i can buy my c.d s ) and 50 dollars for the mall so i can buy myself new jeans.

C.D's and jeans, it sucks when both your parents are getting laid off and your to young in their eyes to get a job.

but we all know it's not about the gifts. it's about sitting in your P.J s all day watching a movie marathon.

napolane dynomite, dodgeball, all three back to the future movies, Dawn of the dead, and the terminal.

the first few movies we laughed our asses off.

i g2g ttyl

But hope *you* all have a happy holiday.
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Thursday, December 23, 2004

   motivation
hey, below is a motivational peice i have been working on.
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I love you. it's three words that some find so difficult to say, three words that can change your life. For girls, love is something we want to feel. we want to feel the joy that someone cares for us so much that they find a way to express it in words. For men, well, not speaking for them, but i think they find it difficult. saying those three words mean commitment, a commitment not many are ready for. but if you are blessed the joy of having the feeling of complete bliss, don't let it go. If you find someone who loves you for you, don't let them go, because they're the best thing you got.
Those three words can change your life forever, so please don't let them go. if you love someone don't let them go.

i leave you simply asking this,

if you love this person so much, does it matter who they're with or that they're happy?

if i loved someone with my heart and soul, i could give a damn who they're with, as long as they're happy. Becuse they're happiness should make you happy.
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that's it.

it's all for you Stephi.
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

   ummmmmm
do any of you really think my poems are depressing? well, i know they are but do you really think *I'm* depressed?
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Monday, December 20, 2004

more.....
here's another poem, about......someone
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I Hate You
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You wont leave me be, and for that,
I hate you.
You make me mad, and for that,
I hate you.
You make me cut, and for that,
I hate you.
You make me want to leave this world and for that,
I hate you.
You won’t let me tell you all these things and for that,
I hate you.


Don’t you see it?
I hate you
I want you to leave me be.
But you won’t.
And I can’t ignore you.
There’s a fine line that separates
Love and hate.
And I hope a day will come when,
You will see.

It is impossible for me,
To separate the two.


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Saturday, December 18, 2004

   nm new
im bored..... and stuck cleaing, i curse my mother for that, so i better go before she catches me not cleaning......
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Friday, December 17, 2004

   boring
hey ppl. nm new. i'm bored. there is absolutly nothing to do and yet i have so much to do. does that make any sence? hope so........
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Thursday, December 16, 2004

Random stuff......
hey! my team won the meet yesturday! it's cool. i have a depressing poem. wanna read?

ok

Bleed to Death:

Cold and hurtful,
the black blade shines.
Wielded by it's master
to fix complete pain,
on those who choose it.
Forbiden to those who denie it.
for the knive blade brings blood.
to lives lost to time.
Blood that can not be replaced.
No matter how much the blck blade shines
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well there it is.. what do ya think?
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