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Thursday, July 1, 2004
Just Thinking
I realized I haven't really done a serious post ....... I wonder in how long.
I think I'm just afraid of people thinking about what I say.
(But I want to be a writer - ironic neh? -
Then again
I used to think that I knew what I wanted to do. But I've doubted myself to no end.
Really, I'm not a good writer (at least for my own standards)
I'm really an even worse poet.
That kinda hurts to say that, because poetry is such a big part of me.
I guess though, that you can Be a poet without being good at poetry.
I used to wish all the time.
Wish about love. Wish about happiness. Wish about fame, fortune, beauty, magic.
(You know - the usual)
Lately, I don't even know what to wish for anymore.
Except that I don't want to grow up anymore. I don't want to be eighteen. I want time to swallow me up again and drag me back three years.
And even though they were years with more than their share of sadness and lonliness. I'd live them again.
Just so I could. Just so I could have moments again. Freedom and Beauty bouncing around in front of my eyes, and all I had to do was watch.
Now a days - I have a job, new puppies, college planning, and all these responsibilities. And yet, it all comes with this inevitable lonliness.
All I'm talking about is that life is so hard. And I'm being SO pathetic about it.
Hhahahaha............. sigh.
Well, can't end a post without a random google image, now can we?
Let's go with Atlen's lovely suggestion - glammerlous.... was it? (Don't worry - I'll get to the rest of them too)
Sooooooo . I think it's a figurine of a Fairy.
HEre is the Site.
Pen and Paper
Just a Role Playing site.
Anyway.
See you all another day.
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