Sunday, December 21, 2003

Quiz
I took this quiz for the helluva it:




Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz.

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Saturday, December 20, 2003

Christmas...erm cheer? O.o
I'm choosing to switch from crimson to green every time I post till Christmas comes, just to be a little festive in my blog. :P Whatever...

I woke up around 9am today, as I couldn't fall back asleep and other reasons. I got on the computer, and worked on some of MehveGhibli version 3.0 and tried out some PHP of linking things, however, these were just some tests and I haven't mastered PHP yet. -_-;;

I then came downstairs, due to an aching neck, and called Lily making sure she wouldn't pick me up for pre-pointe, as there was no dance today. I then sat down and watched Mystery Science Theater 3000. I haven't watched the series in a long time due to my dance classes, and I'm going to use my saturdays for waking up and watching it for this winter break! ^_^

I watched Nausicaa of the Valley of Wind for 30 minutes, then switched to Kiki's Delivery Service due to my moods. I then stopped when my mom made me make christmas cookies with her. I haven't made these in years and I really loved having that flour grasped in my hands. So soft! I worked my best, even though I did impale Santa, and lost a limb with a gingerbreadman and made a "wooden peg leg" for him. My dad found an old record of Christmas songs and put it on the stereo. However, we haven't used this stereo in quite a long time, yet, even though without my help, Dad found out a way to start the songs. We then iced the cookies and it was good to eat! ^_^ That was just a little joy that we had.

Dad hung up the lights on the Christmas trees while I helped him out. We recently have gotten the tree and instead of the usual spot by the window, everyone in my family (except for me) agreed to have it this year by the stairs. <_< I don't like it there, and its right by the tile and it will be a hard floor to sit on while we open presents -_- *sigh*

Nick has gotten a new bed, jeez there was lots of noise this morning. >_<

I then worked on MehveGhibli from thereafter and checked out Fiona's blog And she linked me back after I helped her out with some guy calling her a bitch <_< Meh...

I've changed my avatar here too, with my regular one that i use on most of my messageboards with Kikyou. Finally I can change some of the things with the frontpage!

One thing that sucks though is that I have my period and ALSO, I've been having diareah (sp?) for two days now. >_< I've also been wearing the same pajamas for two days too, because A). I'm lazy B). Its the only warm articles of clothing I have. Those were some of the sucky things for today, oh god, my neck is hurting!

-Maggie

Music: Shinjitsu no Uta by Do As Infinty and Weird Al Yankovic | Website: Merkey.net | Going to Do Next: Go to the Bathroom and get something to stop this aching neck! | Mood: Crappy, hungry, and hot.
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Thursday, December 18, 2003

I'm back...after recuperation
After about a week or so of not posting here and trying to wait till my parents have forgotten about the crisis, I've gained up my confidence and I'm going to post here. I've changed also my style now from indigo colored font to crimson colored font. ^_^ I've just thought it would be more nice and not so moody, whatever...

Today was our last day of school, as I can tell you. We have two weeks of winter break and then we come back in January. I've got my three applications of the talent show returned back to me so I know what date I will do it. My three routines will be on the same day during a time of one hour O_o Ugh...So I'll be practicing my things over the break too other than working on my websites and things.

We had our Latin Final today, 150 base words and their meanings. Thank god I had my flash cards, almost all of the words I had totally forgotten about and my neck started aching as I was flipping through my countless flash cards and trying to find "clam, claim." Ugh...X_X I filled in everything on the list, so that will be something I know for sure that I at least didn't skip anything. Let's hope I get a 100%! ^_~

While the Powerpoint Presentations was going on (before our Final exam), Sarah poked my shoulder and asked me this, "Do you like Miles?" I turned around and blushed, I don't know if I actually blushed but I felt my face burning. I then told her, straight in the eye, "I'm still thinking about who I like...really. I might like him that way, but I'm still thinking over these past weeks..." Sarah told me the whole story. She was talking to Miles before school and he said something as a joke that sort of led on to asking, "Miles, do you like Maggie?" Sarah then told me how he reacted and gave a cheeky smile. I also was shocked by this too; some thoughts and circumstances were coming up of this. Sarah then went, "How cute." O_O Ack...

During student aide, Mrs. Hill offered me some chocolate milk since they had a chocolate milk and donut party. I hadn't drunk milk in quite a long time, so I got a drink for myself. Mrs. Fritton gave me a present and it was a gift certificate to Blockbusters for $5! ^_^ That was my only gift from my fellow people at school and at least I could use it since a blockbuster is a block away from our house. Just behind us, go across a neighborhood street, then another street and bam! You're there at video tape heaven! *long sigh*

In Science, we had to announce who we thought had done the crime of murder. Half our group wasn't there, so Carissa and I had to do it. Ugh...I was shaking after we told who had done it and when I gave the sheet, I realized my story of what i thought wasn't done. O_O That made me worry like hell since it would be the first grade of the new quarter. Crap.

In Technology we had to write a self-evaluation of what we thought of the class etc. We then had to delete our folders (which I was so pissed off about, since I saved all those music files <_<). We then cleaned the cookies and options, and left for lunch.

Lunch...usual.

In math, I didn't really get what we were trying to do. We were supposed to do this game where we would try to put as many droplets on a penny that it could hold and win. O_O What the hell? So I mostly just talked to Cheeser or Rachel during this.

In social studies, we watched about the branches of government, kill me with a spork. O_O UGH!!!

In SSR, everybody was chatting like bimbos that I couldn't concentrate on my reading! IDIOTS! We then left and I fell asleep on the bus from deprived sleep.

I came home and discovered my new inuyasha fanfiction that has already 2 chapters since yesterday, has recieved 7 reviews in one day! ^_^ That just makes me really happy. 6/7 were positive too, the seventh one was just whining about Kagome not being so polite because she just whiped her mucus on the sidewalk. O.o Feh...

I can't wait to sleep in tomorrow! Whee!
-Maggie

Music: The Politics of Dancing, Living in a Box, Turning Japanese | Website: Fanfiction.net | Going to Do Next: Read Dead Famous by Rozefire 1 | Mood: Head bobbing *head bobs*
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Saturday, December 6, 2003

I don't know how to express this...
I feel torn and found out. My heart hurts and stings from my own family knowing where my blog is and my own feelings of my life. I feel controlled and I'm hurting. For god's sake, I'm crying right now after a lecture my dad had to me about my identity over the Internet and who I am and my feelings of life. They're even accusing me that everyone here might be freaky goons. This hurts me. Now I worry that I can't express my feelings anymore, and I want to. I already like myOtaku. Diaryland was evil and I hated it, and myOtaku feels homely and nice and that everyone likes anime here. I worry that I can't express my love life, my hates and loses, the things I dare not speak of to my parents or anyone that lives in this house. I don't feel comfortable anymore, I'm scared that my parents will find out who I love for and start teasing me, that they'll try changing my own independant opinion. God, these tears rolling down my cheeks are going down so slowly and taste salty. This really s-u-c-k-s. I would usually put an emoticon (^_^ etc.) but I'm not in the mood for it. I don't want to start another blog, as this one is close to me and I like looking through it and seeing how I've matured and on my opinions, bickers, love interests change and morph in just a few months. Now my parents have found out! God! They've barged in my life. Even threatening me to delete things that are close to my heart. I feel so closely to you, my online friends, and I can trust you because you're older in teenage years (14, whatever) and I don't hae to be over-ruled by people in their middle ages. I really want to talk about something, right now, of a flutter that happened at lunch today, however, because of them coming in my life...I feel like they'll tease me. I need to talk to you Sarah or Michelle, I just would like to. *sigh*

-Maggie

Music: Come (new 7th Ending) from Inuyasha | Website: Fanfiction.net: Behind the Masquerade (but I can't post the link, because my parents might read that too and make fun of me...meh) | Mood: Betrayed and Uncomfortable | Going to Do Next: Post on my forums
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Wednesday, December 3, 2003

I'm 13 now, woah...
So, I'm now thirteen, wow. I can't believe it now that I'm OFFICIALLY a teenager. O_o Kind of weird that I don't feel any older, the only noticable aspect I noticed was that I felt taller for some odd reason while unlocking my locker. O_o That was just strange for me, but I guess it was just the angle whatever. I was worrying that I wouldn't get any presents from my family as they told me that they didn't get me any yesterday (where I wrote that last post >_<) However, when I got home I got simple quickie presents that I really love! ^_^ I got:
Inuyasha: The Castle Beyond the Looking Glass CD
2 How-To-Draw-Manga Books
And an Inuyasha t-shirt that has Inuyasha and Kagome on it! ^_____^ I'm going to wear that tomorrow, for sure. XD I'm listening to the CD at the moment because I couldn't find my CD player (probably because Nick took it or something *shrugs*) There are lots of tracks on it too, however I really want to read the inside (where they have the phamplet) but its all in Kanji ;_; I really wanna read it! So I just look at the pictures and guess some of the things :P However, I know, someday I shall master reading it *determined gleam in eye* Anyways, I got three happy-birthday-calls from my grandma, my friend Alethea, and my dance friend (well actually penpal/big buddy thing, I'm the big buddy :P) Anne. ^_^ It was really nice and Alethea and I talked about Inuyasha and random things and she even asked about my party, I just guessed probably Inuyasha themed. Any ideas or something wih an Inuyasha themed party? O_O Heh...
Anyways, I need to do my current event and finish my grammar worksheet (curse it! Its so confusing -_-;;) Anyways, so nothing much happened to tell you the truth. Its just a normal day only I turn thirteen ^_~
-Maggie

Music: Daybreak (huzzah! I can read that Japanese for the track meanings:P) from Inuyasha CD | Website: None | Mood: Tired and excited | Going to Do Next: Do Current Event, finish worksheet and read
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QUIZZIES!! ^^
Well, sort of...anyways: *coughs* I had to different replies for one answer, one was introduce myself and the other "sleep". I first chose the introduce myself and continued on with the quiz as it was and got:

Your Kagome! you like to hang out with your friends
and are always the first person to volunteer to
show a new student around, you are kind and
giving and enjoy having a occasional sleep-over
with the girls!


What Inuyasha Character are you?
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And then when I changed to my other answer that is true:

Your Inuyasha! You are a punk, you like to pick
fights and hate being in school, your grades
are slipping but you don't care, you are having
to much fun to actually do anything about it!


What Inuyasha Character are you?
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Eh, I like fiddling and mixing up things. ^_^;;
More quizzies:

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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I didn't really get this answer for one of my quizzies, nope...but they're just time-wasters, aren't they?

Lion King!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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mmhmm...went this direction, because I thought it was a different quiz, however I got this! ^^;; I'm such an idiot with directions:

cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Another:

<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics )
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I'm a girly girl?!? I thought I would be a tomboy O_o This kind of scared me. I hate everything that girls like:

A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
We'll, that's all i have now...


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Tuesday, December 2, 2003

I know I haven't been here...
I know I haven't been here for a long time. Probably because of Thanksgiving (no feast really, the toilet wasn't working in Mexico and we feasted on microwavable foods, okay?) I've been gone. I don't really know what much to say. I've been very much in a thinking mood, too much of a one, by the way. [note: this part has been edited out because I just don't feel like having it here for the public, its for my mind to keep for now]
Aunt Chris and her family (god bless them! They're my favorite of relatives) got me my only really good presents that I can actually use. They got me Shakespeare things, the novel of Midsummer Night's Dream, the movie of Midsummer Night's Dream, the biography on Shakespeare, and a fairy sticker box. ^_^ I love it already and I finally get to read something in SSR! ^___^

-Maggie

Music: Owarinai Yume from Inuyasha | Website: Nothing | Mood: Tired and overwhelmed | Going to do Next: Finish this stupid Genetic paper! GRR!
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Tuesday, November 25, 2003

Go Figure
I quickly wrote this poem, out of nowhere. I think it kind of sucks, yet, oh well..I just feel like posting it:

Aki


I never knew that there would be a day,
A day where I thought I would die,
A night that would not go by,
An eternity it seemed, that day would just not die.


I fiddled with my pencil,
Banging against my fingertips,
My head pounding with wondering thoughts,
Would I die or will I be alive?


I knew I cried myself to sleep at night,
I knew I was called a total idiot,
I knew that I was in deep depression,
But what arose was a question to my head.


I don’t want to die, nor do I want to live,
I felt neutral in my situation,
Nobody would understand me,
No voices could comfort me; nothing could reach me


The wind caressed my hair,
Cherry blossoms glided against the gentle wind,
My head was lowered down,
Peering at the grass


Was this really life, as I knew it?
It could not save me like a safety kit,
I don’t know why I was so sad,
Nor did I know why I was so mad.


I clutched my chest,
Heavy breathing whispered out of my lips,
I wearily gazed up at a bird’s nest,
The babies were swallowing in the worms with tiny sips


My eyes widened,
I knew it, why I was born—
Not to be neglected,
Not of that any sort


I was to be nurtured and fed,
I was to be tucked into bed,
I was told to not lie or fib
And to always get along with my sib’


We then live,
We then grow,
We learn to cook and sew,
And then we die.


That was life,
Yet it was stabbing me inside,
Like a sharp steak knife,
How could I be born to do that?


I guessed life was just a way,
To make everyone jostle around,
Worrying and stressing about their day,
However not thinking about the future like I say


This poem I wrote was to be mixed up with rhyming,
Nobody can tell what kind of rhyme it is,
I laugh at you to figure it out,
Probably I’m just trying to tell you in a way that this is like life


We don’t know our future
We are strengthening in our present,
And we’re forgetting about our past
This was what I was told, that I never will know my life


And so it concludes,
This beastly end,
I never knew I would be able to mend,
The treacherous ending of our lives:


To be born,
To live,
To love,
And to die.

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I haven't really been updating much anymore, that's because I've had the stomach flu and its just awful! So, anyways, I can't say much. Today was my first FULL day of school (yesterday I stayed there for only three periods and then I got a stomach ache and a sinus headache) I can't say much about today, it was the usual of sorts, hated it and couldn't wait to get back home. I talked to Anne on the phone and she keeps on sending me these e-cards! (she's only in the third grade). Its really sweet. On Sunday night I wrote up my Christmas Wishlist in website form and its here: http://summernight.topcities.com/wish_list.htm Sucky layout, but I made it quickly because I wasn't feeling so well and it was late at night X_x I can't say much really, I got a 103% on my make-up test for Social Studies, and I found out I didn't have latin. I'm catching up on my research, and nearly am finished with the project. My Geneology assignment will be a synch, so I'm not worrying that much about it. I need to get the Lariat from my teacher or Ms. Flemming, so I can get my published work of the contest that I had. ^^ But people keep on annoying me with asking questions if I was in the Lariat and remarking on me that they didn't get it (well that's probably because its an add-on chapter story, idiots <_<) I saw Rachel today at school, she seems alive and well and not in that horrible wheel chair! Yet she still had to go on home that I didn't even get to talk to her. :( I really want to talk to her, I miss her. and I lent Garret Inuyasha Vol. 9
You know one thing that i really hate is that, during SSR today, Travis kept on staring at me. I asked him "what was it?"and he said "nothing, there's nothing..." Sometimes I'm wondering if some person whenever they stare at me, if they're thinking of me/daydreaming (oh god! that happened with this one kid who actually confessed his love to me in the fourth grade, he kept on staring at me and staring at me that I couldn't concentrate on my math that I would get bad grades because of it >_<) or that the kid is just staring at me because I'm having a bad hair day etc. *shrugs* That was just one thing I noticed today, nothing much. I also snapped on Sagar about our presentation tomorrow for technology and yet I have REACH. >_< Ugh...I'm so stressed out, and trying to catch up with all the days I've missed is just horrible!

-Maggie

Music: Sokushin Butsu Hakushin Shounin- Inuyasha OST 3 Kikyou // Website: Fanfiction.net - The Things we Do (Introduction) // Going to Do Next: Read the Fanfiction story and/or write another chapter of "The Ressurection of Kikuyu" // Mood: Overstressed yet lightheaded and openminded
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Friday, November 21, 2003

I'm still wondering about this...
I'm still wondering why I have 10-year-old for mine. O_o Probably because I put on cartoons for one of my answers, but that is true...I watch anime, yet there was no anime for an answer, so I dreadfully chose cartoons. *shudders*

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Edit: I've just found out, that I'm thinking. Wait, I am sort of like a 10-year-old, because of the results I could've been. I could've been a 6-year-old, a 10-year-old, a 16-year-old, a 1-year-old, or a 45-year-old. I'd rather be a ten year old but I still wonder. Maybe I'm that inner age because of being a person who doesn't moan and complain and bicker like most teens do and enjoy life as it is. Maybe that's the answer...or I'm just high on something :P

-Maggie

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