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Saturday, October 18, 2003


gurgle...
So, I've downloaded this one song from End of Eva called "Childhood Memories, Shut Away"...even though its only 36 seconds long, the cello is sooo beautiful...*long sigh*
Well, anyways, do you know how frustrated and pissed off I am. A LOT. Dad promised me that I could go *was interrupted by Mom*....
............FUCK YOU MOM!!!! Grr...I'm so frustrated at her. She comes waltzing in and orders me to go in the pool. Why the fuck should I care?!? I don't want to! I'm already feeling like a piece of shit and now you want to drown me?!??!?! Who the fuck do you think you are? Ther person who controls me?!??! Grrr...She even ordered me to get done with it in 15 minutes, and OH my GOD! She's been on for hours, and I, feh, what a laugh! Grr...Now I can't go to see Kill Bill when I was told I could last night by my dad because of my brother's fucking PSATs, and now she just comes in here and makes me even more pissed off. JESUS! I really want to scream at something, banging my finger tips on the keyboard isn't good enough for me. I really want to to...to whack someone in the face right now! I want to punch something, I hate it whenever she does this to me! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I'm really, really annoyed with her...oh and I know she's going to come in here again to get her water, clever damn you. I hate using profanity, but when you get pissed..YOU. GET. PISSED. Grr! I can't stand this anymore!

-Maggie

Music: Tamashii no Rufuran Ayanami version from Death and Rebirth/End of Eva // Website: none // Mood: Pissed the freaking head off and want to kill someone with a spork mood.

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Tuesday, October 14, 2003


Do you know how busy I am?!
Lately, I've been so busy that I've been on the computer for hours at a time with the only food that I can reach for. This break has literally made me hungry for working on websites. I'm tired and my parents have been gone at airens. I feel so unneeded at home and that I feel like shit. I'm such a "scaredy cat"...I haven't called Sarah, I don't know why...I feel a little afraid even though I know Sarah like the back of my hand. I feel like I'm at school and having to go up to an adult and ask for something. I'm too shy with calling up people, it just frightens me. I'm not that big of a social person, but I want to talk to Sarah. I also worry that I'll call her when its like midnight because we have a different time zone. I can't calculate too well. It would be too late right now, *sigh* I feel so stupid.

I feel so icky and I'm in those PMS moods again, probably because my period, low and behold, is back again. It seems its always there. Grr...DIE!
I downloaded lots of fonts today and including Jeremy's SPAM AND TUNA font! ^_^ Its really cool looking! I've also been downloading Ayumi Hamasaki songs over the days, she's a really good singer. Just listening to other languages music is so nice to listen to because the language might be really beautiful sounding or I could focus more on the music. But I do both with her music. Its made me so far on the spirited side throughout this fall break.
It just feels more like I'm staying at home sick, than break. We're not doing any vacations and I'm tired and bored. I mean, I like being on the computer, doing all the editing of my story, reading etc. but I'm tired.
Lately, going to sleep is such a hassle, whenever I wake up I feel like crap, which usually I want to wake up feeling "refreshed" as I did on Friday, that was really nice. I'm beginning to miss social contact. *sigh*
Merkey.net is now planning to do a t-shirt company, hoorah...*slams head on keyboard*
I've made a new layout, I'm so proud of how my html skills have improved! Its right here: summernight.topcities.com/gallery.htmIts for our Evangelion site! ^___^ I'm really proud of how it looks like! YAY! I was working on it all day on Sunday. x_X
God, I hate this, I can't rememeber what I want to say! UGH! KILL ME WITH A SPORK!!!!!!

-Maggie


Music: A Song for XX by Ayumi Hamasaki // Website: Fanfiction.net, Inuyasha Section, New Player Chapter 5
// Mood: Crappy and hungry and drained out.

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Sunday, October 12, 2003


I'll have to make this quick!
So, I have to make this entry really quick! Its nearly bedtime for me, and my dad has been almost snapping at me for getting off the computer even though I've only been on for an hour or so. *sigh*


Mom's birthday is tomorrow, and I don't know what to do for her? I've already got her a card, but I want to draw something for her...I'll probably do that. *nods head* I just literally forgot it since its my first day of break. *sighs*


Today, I've been wearing the same pajamas, an old t-shirt in French and polar bear pajama pants (you know like the Coca cola ones?) Nick keeps on calling me a badass just because I'm saying "feh" to him a lot. Meh, kill me with a spork. <_<


I really am tired, so tired that I want to fall asleep on this keyboard. But I have so many ideas to do for my websites I'm planning out since I'm going to be buying a domain! ^_^ Yes!


Dance was okay, at least it was fast and I was quite tired yet I wasn't going to fall. I was just dizzy from doing all those sashay turns and the leaps. O_o Ugh...I slammed in the wall accidentally after doing one that was too fast for me to live with. I love pre-pointe, but it can be really tiring. The girl (who was substituting, even though she's a student at the studio, was teaching) gave us Smarties and my mom ate them. Grr...<_<


Anyways, I must go, dad is really getting pissed off at me...*sigh*


-Maggie


Music: Obssession from .hack//SIGN // Website: Komet Tails Designs // Mood: Sleepy
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Friday, October 10, 2003


   Yes, I was bored...
Yes I was bored:


What Anime Type Are You?

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   WOOHOO! FALL BREAK!
Oooh, they did something, some HTML generator on the adding post thing-a-ma-jig...O_o *gawks at it for a while*

So, I'm finally out of school and now on Fall Break! KILLER ASS! I don't know why I said that, but it just...felt so damn good. :P Whatever...

Anyways I'll go throughout my school day:


In Language Arts we just had to tell our poetry books, my book was the only one that sparked up attention since mine was about dreams and nightmares. Four people did Halloween for their poem topic and James, the failing guy, was acting as a suck-up for Ms. Edoff. Pathetic. Travis and I were both muttering to each other about each thing, I know he has trouble in school, but I'm still friends with him. He's really nice and stands up for me whenever someone makes fun of me, but he's a popular guy? How can that be possible? He even laughs at my jokes, even really stupid ones....i don't get it and we can talk about anything...odd. Sometimes I have this feeling that resides in me that my heart bumps at times, am I really liking Travis? No...I can't be. I can't. Angela has already accused me for liking Miles, but I'm just really good friends with him same as with Travis. I mean...its just very weird. My feelings for Justin have been lingering but not as much as it used to be. I think I'm losing him since I'm not in any of his classes and he already has a girlfriend...I would be cheating, wouldn't I? The boys in my life have really been nowadays just Travis, Miles, and Garret, all really kind, funny, "cute", and people that I can relate to. Dear god, am I actually turning into someone weird? Like a valley or popular girl? I cringe as I think about it. How can this be possible? The girl that said I won't fall for anyone? The girl that wasn't going to turn into a girly girl. Have I lost that goal...or am I just being completely obscure? I'm really confused now, I really need to talk to Sarah, god, I haven't heard from her in ages. *sighs* If I talk to anyone in my family, they may all start teasing me, I hate blushing..blushing...it just...*shrugs trying to think of word* I dunno...it just gets me to go oh dear god.

Angela nowadays, we've been talking to each other quite a lot, it makes me feel good. I mean, walking side by side to each other, we keep on bumping our sides because we just aren't either watching our steps or we just keep on hitting each other in the hallways just because we want to.
In Student Aide I was just hanging up posters until the good sticky tac rang out and I had to use the blue stuff...ugh...EVIL! I hate that crap! It never sticks. I swear, I spent for over 30 minutes on one poster to stick one up. I kept on slamming it with my fist which equals to really REALLY horrible pain...I was glad that I got to leave and I said bye to Mrs. Fritton and made my way for Science. I'm always the first one in science, always. I'm special :P

Anyways, we talked about composting. I remember doing it in the past in one of the plant spots in M.A.P (1st through 3rd grade class). It smelled horrible, but after it started degrating it became a beautiful garden and we had to journal about it and sketch it out. Sitting on that hill, the sun glaring in our eyes and looking down at the plot we had where we created our own life. The prickling of the gates that bounded us around so that we wouldn't escape from school and the brush and the thicket of the desert poking in our backs where it was trimmed. Lately, we haven't gone there since the fifth grade. I miss it. Its so close, yet so far away...*sigh* We also watched a movie by NOVA (wootage!) and the tape worm....*gacks*

In PE we did kick ball, Angela and I were at short stop. I kept on using my trademark phrases of Kill me with a Fork, spoon or a spork; depending on the situation that we were in. Our team lost, Miles flipped out, I was cussing a lot but that's just whenever I felt like it because the other team were big jackasses, Angela started saying "Jack..." and then stopped and I finished her word. She laughed and I grinned back and then came back in serious mode. Before going to PE, Miles made a comment on my bandaged left leg were I bound the mosquito bites i got yesterday, 8 in count...so far. Ugh...and I said I scrapped myself badly on the pool side, well I sort of did, but the other band-aids weren't for that...

At lunch it was just usual, I was almost knocked over by the group of over 60 kids or the popular kids or as I put it teenage pregnancy, teen angst kids. Teehee...and I walked over to my tiny group of friends, Molly, Megan, Margaret and I along with other girls and/or boys at the sides of us like Stephanie and Angela. Whoops...forgot those two...O_o

Anyways, in math I gave Garret the Volume Two of Inuyasha after running downstairs and coming back again to give it to him. He's really enjoying it...I'm glad. ^_^ I've already gotten over 5 people into Inuyasha, the manga so far. Mr. Reed just did a survey for us and did some stories of his childhood (very interesting ones as a matter of fact) and we left for Social Studies downstairs.

In social studies we watched a movie about the Middle Passage, where slaves were kidnapped in Africa and taken to North and South America. They just had to make it depressing, didn't they? They had to have a crying baby and a crying child asking for his momma...god...i hate that. First from feeling ecstatic to teenage disturbance. Thank you Mrs. DeLeon for that wonderful gift with our substitute teacher, Mrs. Mooring...:P

We then had reading where we got to just pack up our backpacks and we got to watch television in class...and it had to be Scooby Doo. Curse it. Angela, Megan and I talked a lot about things, but Angela was more interested in the Inuyasha Vol. 10 book which I brought for her, while Megan and I were gawking at all the volumes of Ranma she has with her...damn, over 10 volumes she got from the library. O_o School then became over, I felt a little saddened, but happy at the same time...I don't know what that feeling really would be called. *sighs* Anyways, that was my day except for listening to my CD all the way back home gazing out of the window...

-Maggie



Music: Grip! from Inuyasha // Website: Think Geek :: I'm Blogging This T-shirt // Mood: Happy...simple

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Thursday, October 9, 2003


   Okay, I'm at school
Okay, so, I guess, I'm at school. Wonderful...yayzies and I'm at technology. I already finished my own M&M’s thing-a-ma-jig...so i went on the internet. WHEE! I feel soo special. O_o Mm-hmm...I stayed up too late than usual, I've been reading like a weirdo and they're just manga...
I'm worried about my Social Studies test today, I don't wanna do it!!! I'M TOO TIRED!
Ugh...kill me with a fork.
So, with the boredom of today, we even have over 1,000 websites for paperclips in a search engine...yes, that's the boredom I live with.
I really wish I could use cusswords, but being at school, its kind of risky. Meh...
I love annoying my brother with the words:
"Feh, meh, bah, heh and keh." I think I got a habit from inuyasha of it. *sighs*
Yesterday, my brother and I chose and planned out what our house will be like for the Halloween. He calls it now "Ninja Cemetary"...so I'll have to be Sango for this Halloween because she wears a ninja outfit and we already have a boomerange bone which is really the bone of a whale rib. I'm even going to wear BANDAGES!! WOOHOO! I don't know why, but it would be cool because the ninja's are really zombies. BWAHAHAH! Its sooo tempting. *gawks at the word "bandages"*
Anyways, so I'll be helping him out. I already got the costume all ready, its okay. I'm just using all the things that are from several items, like bike pads and stretchy black clothes that I have from dance etc. I can't wait! WE'RE GOING TO KICK THE ASSES OFF THE PEOPLE THAT SAY THEY'RE BETTER THAN US! Ha! They have a crappy house! Its pure dog shit...mmmhmm...
-Maggie

Music: Evangelion Good or Don't Be (thank god, I saved some music in my file at school) // Website: Matt's Forums Schwarznagger wins Calif! // Mood: Really, really want this day to get over with mood.

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Monday, October 6, 2003


   The night before, where I couldn't fall asleep. I found out it was because I didn't have a quilt at all and I used a baby blanket to sleep in...not fun. =_= Ugh...

I just burned a CD! WHEEE! It has most of my Inuyasha mp3s...w00t! I'm going to use it at the read in we have tomorrow. I just think I'll be listening to it forever and ever. :P

We also have to disect worms tomorrow, *sigh* I don't want to kill anything. Especially since we have to pin them down. I feel bad about doing such a thing to a tiny creature. A creature that helps our soil and we're killing it so we can look at its 5 hearts. Pathetic. Really pathetic. We're doing 3 or 4 disections this year, they grow bigger as we get closer to the disections. Poor Creatures...*sigh* I feel like a murderer. Kids were joyous about it, I don't think the worms are....no....they aren't. That just brings the feelings of what it would be like to be on death row. Knowing your death is scheduled. I wonder...

Lately, I haven't been writing any kind of story, I've literally been just resting. *sigh* It feels sooo good. ^______^

At PE it was good warmth to walk out in the sun. I kept on playing with the mushrooms, picking them up and people kept on saying I was going to get poisoned. So? I don't really care. I'm just touching it and checking it out. Some 8th graders nearby also screamed at me for picking up "Public School Property." So...I'm part of their property, its as if I'm a real slave to the school, I'm owned by the school. Feh...

I really didn't have much of a day, I got frustrated with the girl I HAVE to carpool to dance. She's a stubborn bitch asshole. *nods head* I hate using profanity, but its the truth...

Ms. Hill, oops, I mean Mrs. Hill, just got married over the weekend. She was my 6th grade teacher and she married Mr. Linn, who was my student teacher in the 5th grade. Its odd, every year my teachers get married near the end of the year.

Fifth grade=Ms. Moore=Mrs. DeLeon (now my 7th grade Social Studies teacher)

Sixth Grade=Ms. Fritton=Mrs. Fritton (I'm student aide for her, same as Mrs. Hill and 6th science and language arts teacher)

Seventh Grade=Ms. Hill=Mrs. Hill (student aide and 6th grade, reading, homeroom, math, and social studies teacher)I wonder if anyone in the 7th grade teachers are getting married...hmmm...O.o

-Maggie

Song Listening to: A Homage to Inuyasha OST // Site: Shadabadanime // Mood: Sad, but furious...not feeling good...achey...ow
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Sunday, October 5, 2003


   I can't go to sleep...*sigh* ><_>< *blinks*
Well, I can't go to sleep...I don't know exactly. Probably because I just don't feel like it. -_-' I snuck on the computer and right now just reading some fanfiction. I just...feel like it. I don't know what to talk about, I just wanted to write an entry. In two hours, well, 90 min. it will be October 5. *sigh* I don't want to go to bed, I'm freaking hot and I just don't feel good. I'm odd, but oh well...-_-'' I'm being overtaken by boys at merkey.net right now, I'm the only female...grrreat. Especially since there is one pervert prowling around the board now thinking that its all boys. Gack...=~= *sigh* I guess I can live with being up for another hour. No one has found out yet I'm on the computer. I just casually left the living room (where I was trying to get myself to sleep, no luck), went to the "loo" and slowly walked in here. I keep on thinking today is Friday. What the hell is wrong with me with dates?! *sigh* I guess I should just stop writing, my hands feel like boulders are splat on top of them. My muscles are sore, my bones are sore, everywhere is sore, so I keep on trying to stretch and crack them out. Feels good sometimes, especially at the knees. O.o
-Maggie

Music: Song of Love from Inuyasha: The Castle Beyond the Looking Glass // Site: Fanfiction.net "You Stole my Heart" Chapter 15 // Mood: Sticky, Icky Feeling...yeh know?

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Saturday, October 4, 2003


   Quiz...yeah...
Yeah, I did a quiz..actually here:
Yes, its my favorite anime also...one of them, Evangelion:


A complex personality, you appeal only to two kinds of people - those who accept everything at face value and, most importantly, those who deeply understand the greater things you believe in. Skeptics are hard to win over, but those who like you will respect you forever. What Kind Of Anime/Manga Are You?



Which Evangelion Child Are You?


This is actually quite odd for me, I'm mostly Rei or Shinji, but I've come up with Asuka. O.o

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   How Cruel
Well, guess what...my mom is being a really poohead right now. I don't want to call her any kind of cuss word, as she might look over my shoulder and stare. She seems to be a real grouch after I made a comment after her trip...it wasn't supposed to be mean or anything, I mean whenever I go into the computer room, my brother does this:
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU NEED?!"
My Mom:
*scowls*
My Dad:
"No Maggie..."
And its pathetic, they think I'm going to push them off the computer, NOT. What stinking ass parents and sibling can do that to me?! I know I need the computer, I need it to work on things such as my websites etc. I need also to send messages to people and write on this. I mean, I only go into the computer room to either get my pencil sharpened or grab some printer paper.
I don't know...my mom was even really mean to me when I tried to give her a hug and then she makes a comment about how dirty my hair was, well what the fuck do you mean it is? I was sick and I was sleeping for two hours...do you expect me to go into the tub where I can drown?! (even though I probably wouldn't because I'm too tall). But still...it really is just shit she's telling me...when I came into the room an hour ago and she was putting and downloading images for ebay, she suddenly scowled. I asked, "Can I have a hug?" because I was really freaking cold, who brought down the a/c? She frowned at me...I then asked why she won't even give her own daughter a hug. She says that "I believe you will push me off the computer." Ahem, I don't push people off the computer, I pinch them :P Nah, I don't...I then really got irritated and stomped away, first making a forceful boaconstrictor/cobra hug, and watched Saturday Night Live. Because of this, I can't even call Sarah tonight, because my mom's reasons were, I'm having friends tomorrow, and I need to clean my room. Why the shit do I need to do that?! I mean, its just going to get even more messy once I go to bed. Besides, I can clean it in 10 minutes. *sigh* How annoying can it get?!?
Its almost 5pm....I hope I don't dissapoint Sarah. I've been promising myself to call her, but in the end, I'm either too sick to call (soar throat etc.) or I forget or I'm too piled up with homework I have to redue.
CURSE YOU LATIN!!!*sigh*
-Maggie




Music: "Yura Yura" from Every Little Thing // Site: To Be With You::An Inuyasha and Kagome Shrine // Mood: Pissed the Freaking Head off

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