myOtaku.com: MaggieMehve

myO Still <3's You

Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-12-03
Gender
• Female
Location
• Tucson, AZ :P
Member Since
• 2003-08-18
Occupation
• Student and Graphic Designer for parents. I'm in the 7th grade and I hate it.
Real Name
• Maggie Michelle Thorpe

Personal

Achievements
• uh-huh
Anime Fan Since
• 199...um...1997 or so, but stopped in 1999 came back in 2003
Favorite Anime
• Evangelion, anything by Studio Ghibli, Inuyasha, Serial Experiments LAIN
Goals
• Finish this goddamned long last chapter of the
Hobbies
• um...yeah, you probably can guess by now.
Talents
• I don't want to be the showoff. O_o

myOtaku.com: MaggieMehve

Saturday, December 6, 2003

I don't know how to express this...
I feel torn and found out. My heart hurts and stings from my own family knowing where my blog is and my own feelings of my life. I feel controlled and I'm hurting. For god's sake, I'm crying right now after a lecture my dad had to me about my identity over the Internet and who I am and my feelings of life. They're even accusing me that everyone here might be freaky goons. This hurts me. Now I worry that I can't express my feelings anymore, and I want to. I already like myOtaku. Diaryland was evil and I hated it, and myOtaku feels homely and nice and that everyone likes anime here. I worry that I can't express my love life, my hates and loses, the things I dare not speak of to my parents or anyone that lives in this house. I don't feel comfortable anymore, I'm scared that my parents will find out who I love for and start teasing me, that they'll try changing my own independant opinion. God, these tears rolling down my cheeks are going down so slowly and taste salty. This really s-u-c-k-s. I would usually put an emoticon (^_^ etc.) but I'm not in the mood for it. I don't want to start another blog, as this one is close to me and I like looking through it and seeing how I've matured and on my opinions, bickers, love interests change and morph in just a few months. Now my parents have found out! God! They've barged in my life. Even threatening me to delete things that are close to my heart. I feel so closely to you, my online friends, and I can trust you because you're older in teenage years (14, whatever) and I don't hae to be over-ruled by people in their middle ages. I really want to talk about something, right now, of a flutter that happened at lunch today, however, because of them coming in my life...I feel like they'll tease me. I need to talk to you Sarah or Michelle, I just would like to. *sigh*

-Maggie

Music: Come (new 7th Ending) from Inuyasha | Website: Fanfiction.net: Behind the Masquerade (but I can't post the link, because my parents might read that too and make fun of me...meh) | Mood: Betrayed and Uncomfortable | Going to Do Next: Post on my forums
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