Monday, May 1, 2006

   site change,
I'm thinking of changing my theme,
to the nothingness girl kanna,
she is the one,
who is most like me,
from the show of inuyasha,
i am asking your opinions.
what do you think?
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Friday, April 28, 2006

Separation,
Apartness,
Words that can destroy a relationship,
Difference,
Confusion,
That’s all there is,

I sit and wonder as the rain falls,
And watch as the sky cries,
I wonder,
What are you doing right now,
Are you thinking of me?

Or are my feelings un requited,
Or is my love for you a curse,
Do you love me like you did,
Or did you ever,

As my mind wanders,
Races,
I return my focus to the falling rain,

The peaceful rain that sheds it’s tears,
For the lonely souls,
Not strong enough to cry,
Like me,

I wonder about your true feelings,
Do you really care?
Or is it pity,
Do you fake those three words,
The eight letters,

The words and letters,
I hold so close to my heart,
The words that make my heart skip when spoken by you,
The words that make my face change,
Transform,

From white to red in one second,
The words I once again long,
To say again with trueness,
But you are not here…
To everyone else they are just words,
To me they are my expression,

I confess my true feelings!
Please tell me yours,
I cannot live in doubt anymore!
Is it friends forever,
Or is it forever love.

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Thursday, April 27, 2006

Near death experience,

the car came at me from the driveway,
my life flashed berfore my eyes as I gasped,
the car screeched to a hault,
the persone looked at me,
said sorry and left,

3 more feet would have ended my life,
my patetic life,
and I realized,
you wouldn't have know it happened,
you would be waiting at your comp screen,
waiting to talk to me,

and I remember the deep feelings I feel,
of regret,
and sorrow,
then the rare one,
hope,
the hope to see you again.
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

   this is my random post,
my post of nothingness,
the nothingness I feel,
deep down in the pit of my soul,
the feeling that escapes,
onto the keys and flies through my fingertips as I type,

today was uneventful,
nothing happed,
just blah,
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Monday, April 24, 2006

Fairy Tale

sometimes i find myself here,
when all I want is to be there,
why did I let myself beleive,
beleive miracles could happen,
because now I have to once again,
pretend I don't really care,

you were my fairy tale,
my dream when I wasn't sleeping,
a wish upon a star that came true,
but now I know your not a fairy tale,
and dreams were meant for sleeping,
and wishes on a star just don't come true,

why was I so blind,
it was like you were floating,
while I was falling,
and I didn't mind,

I felt you were my fairy tale,
my escape from the truth,
my dream in reality,
and my wish that came true,
now I know the truth,
you're not a fairy tale,
and you can't escape the truth,
dreams can't be reality,
and wishes never really come true,
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Friday, April 21, 2006

   The thought
It came to me agin,
last night in the hot water,
I thought I could end it there,
right then in the bath,

no one would know,
I would be silent,
by the time someone noticed ,
it would be to late,
should I,
should I not,

I contemplated for a while,
then I chickened out,
you all know now,
all my posts,
are going to be poems,
poems of info,
info for the world
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

heh heh my feelings 4 u this poem is called my fire
My Fire

I once was a nutrual warm,
the way everyone is made,
the cold world transformd me,
turned me into the bitter icy cold,
I was silent and cold lashing out,
randomly at the world,
then I met you,
with your burning anger,
the flames of vengence and hate,
the time I spent with you,
the cold exterior melted away,
melted away with the flames of another kind,
love and passion were the names,
the titals of these flames,
even though your gone and I've returned to ice,
my fire for you remains forever on the inside,
my fire is on the inside...
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Thursday, April 13, 2006

heh
I went with a new theme,
he is my favorite,
favorite character of Rurouni Kenshin,
Sojiro is his name,
an excellent fighter is he,

the words he lives by are,
if you're strong you live,
if you're weak you die,
this is the law of the world,
and the way things are,
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

dunno.
life has lost all meaning,
I cannot see,
cannot breathe,
you are my air,
you are my eyes,

I cannot even feel the beat without you,
you are my heart,
my soul,
without you I cannot even live,
please return,
return to me,

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Thursday, April 6, 2006

yet another poem
my head is spinning,
I cannot take the pain,
I miss your kind words,
I miss your warm embrace,
I miss you wispering to me,
to be unafraid of the dark,

with you I was unafraid,
with you I felt I could do anything,
with you I could take on the world,
but now your gone,
I'm stuck in this rut,
I can't get out,

the beating inside me slows with the ticking of the clock,
as the snow silently falls,
my vision is blurring,
my eyes are burning,
my face is freezing,
I see my life flash before me,

the only worthwhile thing I see,
Is the sight of you and me,
so without you,
I fall,
fall so deeply,
i cannot flee,

my painful lullaby,
sing me into my final rest,
I'll remember you,
always,
sing me into my final sleep,
so i'll always remember your voice...

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