Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Shadow

I stand here in your shadow,

drenched in the darkness,

unable to see the light,

or even hear the sound,

afraid to even speak,

if I were to anger the best inside,

it would mean cirtain death,

or so I think,

because in a few minutes you look at me,

and smile,

change the whole image,

I thought of before,

the best disolves,

and the you appears,

and we're happy,

for awhile.
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Monday, May 15, 2006

my eyes are closed,

my mind is closed,

nothing can open it,

nothing will set me free,

but meeting with you has opened my eyes,

who could ever beleive such a perfect suprise,

your form and place,

just made my mind race,

I couldn't help myself,

for just once,

I had to think,

what would it be like,

the thought of you and me,

but it would never be,

so I would put it out of my mind,

so I sit alone,

wondering,

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Friday, May 12, 2006

light and darkness,

love and hate,

night and day,

oposites,

like you and me,

but one thing here does not fit,

love and hate,

may be opposite,

but there is something out there that hurts more,

more than hate,

indifference,

as long as you give some kind of attention,

I will feel okay,

the moment you ignore me,

my life ends,

so indiference may hurt even more,

than death it's self.

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

humans are just selfish creatures,

we find something we like,

we keep it to ourselves,

never let it see daylight again,

in the end,

does selfishness bring,

happieness...


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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

srry this one is long,
it took me a while to type,
so here it is,
entitaled,

Me and You

When they’re in love,
Does everyone get this lonely,
Thinking of you everyday,
Sitting in the deep snow,
Do they embrace the pain,
That’s even deeper than darkness,
I call out to you now,
With my tears of snow,
I don’t need promises or such things,
Because of the strength,
You’ve given to me,
Even if my love reaches breaking point,
Only 1/3 of it will reach you,
My feelings are spinning on air,
My heart is saying “I love you”,
With that I can withstand,
The cold of another frozen night,

Like rain in the middle of summer,
The dry,
Bareness moistens,
Your smile is bright like the sun,
Even if it is hopeless,
We can overcome any wall in our way,
The further apart you go,
The more it hurts the one you love,
The more my heart feels the cruel distance,
If only we could meet in an embrace,
I want to get closer to you,
Put my ear against your back,
And hold you,
If I keep my feelings in they’ll tear me apart,
The first time I heard your heartbeat,
I knew you were stronger,
Than anyone else,
With warm rhythm,
We’re two hearts beating as one,
I guess I haven’t learned my lesson yet,
Adults just wouldn’t understand,
It’s painful and distressing,
Wanting to show you my feelings,
Feels like I’ll burst,

We always took the long way home,
Together,
The sky seemed to overflow with bitter orange,
Sort of happy and sad,
Why were we born if we’re only ½ of each other,
I try thinking by myself,
But as expected,
I’m not very good at it,
I envied the strong person,
Who was able to throw a ball,
So far it was out of sight,
I wanted to be like you,
Soft,
Like water,
Hard,
Like a rock,
I want to be stronger than anyone else!
Isn’t it strange,
My tears are falling as I say,
I love you,
I haven’t learned my lesson yet,
And I won’t listen to adults,
Even though they said we couldn’t reach,
We tried anyway,
I give you a goodbye kiss,
Hold me closer,
As we watch the lone sun set,
Together just you and me,
On the day the world explodes,
Just like they predicted,
I want to be with you,
The warm rhythim,
Two hearts beating as one,
I want us to last forever,
So with your power,
Stop the sun from setting,
But it can’t be that way,
You can’t see all my efforts,
Cuz only the end result makes sense,
More effort,
More damage,
This is your daily life,
Taking a cynical attitude,
May give you comfort,
Hiding yourself,
Heated and irritated,
Living only a short time,
If I let my emotions free,
Tomarrow will not go well,
Is the balnce sheet of our lives perfect,
If I add up the plusses and minuses,
Will it really equal zero?
I hurt myself because of you,
Over and over,
But my love didn’t go away,
However manny times it’s repeated,
It revives again and again,
Because It’s love,
You can’t blame my emotion,
You should know it will never fade away,
Even if our love isn’t going well,
We still have each other…

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Friday, May 5, 2006

   I did NOT write this... it's an,
immage song of my 2 favorite characters,
from rurouni kenshin,
they are kinda long but cool,
I'll write something tomarrow.

Sojiro (journey)
As for me, I shall go to my place,
And yet,
I cannot see anything at all,
To the flowing of tears,
Surely,
No more shall I be afraid,
The answer that man gave me
Really does not suit my true self
Perhaps I shall discover something
Perhaps there is something that I cannot discover
The piece of me
That has hidden in my heart
Only towards where the winds show me
I alone shall go
If somewhere I will find
My unknown true self
Having run a little too fast
I feel I missed out on something
Even such a mistake
Is surely an answer
Once more only by my pace
I shall become myself, unlike anyone else
Perhaps I shall meet someone
Perhaps I shall hurt someone
Only where the road leads
Shall I try walking
I will go, not waiting for the blade
To catch it with both hands
Perhaps I shall discover something
Perhaps there is something that I cannot discover
The piece of me
That has hidden in my heart
Only towards where the winds show me
I alone shall go
If somewhere I will find
My unknown true self


and misaou (ice blue eyes)
I wish to embrace them in this heart
This courage lost
Remember it once again
Hiding in the shadows
That follows your back afar
Anger,
unspeakable sadness
Keeping them to oneself...
In the dark forests you wander
Purple scars
At a falling star gleaming in the night
Staring Ice Blue Eyes
Those frozen blue eyes
I wish to embrace them in this heart
This courage lost
Remember it once again
The pain of that wound does not cease
Just cry it out
Warm tears
Melt the ice harvest rain
I am waiting...
I ask only for strength
Coldness that burns
Throw away the pride,
and hate,
This time, stop it...
A battle, asking for tomorrow
I am a fighter, defending love
To the heart that flees the darkness
But turns don't look back
That solitude, anger, scream
Let me feel them too
Taking back this
This true courage once again
Melting those frozen blue eyes
And wiping off the tears from this heart
Warm tears
Melt the ice harvest rain
I am waiting...


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Thursday, May 4, 2006

just a random poem,

sometimes when I'm waiting for you,
I become unhappy,
like there is no love in the world,
only saddness,
like love was but a faraway dream,
a dream that never exhisted,
a dream that is fleeing my very mind,
but then I think of you,
and the happieness,
that must have been true,
and then I realize,
some things are worth waiting for...
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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

randomness and a poem.


alone for a while,
i've been searching through the dark,
For traces of the love you left,
inside my lonely heart,
tripping and falling,
onto my hands and knees,
missing you,
and wishing you were here with me,
in my dearest memories,
i see you there waiting for me,
Was it fate that brought us close,
and now leaves me behind,
We met,
we laughed,
we held on fast,
and then we said goodbye,
So far and away,
I see the bird as it flies by,
and I wish I could fly too,
and be with you,
In your dearest memories,
do you remember loving me?
If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your hert will still remember our love,
forever and always,





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Tuesday, May 2, 2006

   Ultimate sacrifice

My love for you is strong,
So strong I’d do anything,
I’d protect you until the end,
We fought and fought,
The enemy is still here,
We are surrounded and I fear,
If I don’t act fast I’ll lose you,
I look over and know what you think,
You have the same thoughts as I,
But I will be first,
I have nothing,
You have everything,
So I’ll make sure you live,
With my ultimate sacrifice,
Stand back I say,
And stay out of my way,
Because either way,
Say your goodbye,
Cuz one of us is gonna die,
You try to stop me,
But my mind is made,
There’s no way to stop me,
From saving my love,
You panic and say no,
But I just smile at you warmly,
You must live on I say,
I’ll be there waiting,
Wherever I may be,
With those words I turn to our foe,
Concentration,
I hold my breath and SNOW!
The enemy is frozen,
I fall,
My body grows cold,
My muscles go numb,
My own power was my death,
But good enough to save you,
You lift me up,
Onto your lap,
My cold body burns you,
But you don’t care,
You hold my hands and ask why,
I cannot answer for I don’t know,
It was love,
As long as you’re here I will be fine,
We will both be happy,
You will see,
When we’re there,
Together,
In the deep blue,
You refuse to release me,
And your body grows cold,
And you say we’ll be together,
Always,
For this was our ultimate sacrifice,
Yours and mine…

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Monday, May 1, 2006

   I changed my mind!!!
I don't want kanna!!!
yet!!!!
so thus I find a new icy theme!!!
theme of nothingness!!!!!
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