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myOtaku.com: Maiden of life
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Monday, February 26, 2007
Dairy Entry # 1: Past
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For some reason, today I remembered my sad past. I dont know why, but my heart chose to remember them. I guess its cuz my hearts been scarred so many times tht each scar is now just a bad memory and so i guess I'll tell u my past. My past is a lie. I was born into a family who had high expectations for me and i wanted wat they wanted, but b/c they we're far from the perfect family I despised them with a passion. I had parents who fought, a gambling mother, a drunk for a father, how was I able to meet their expectations when they themselves were stupid fools? I struggled, thts how. Even now I still struggle. They are the reason I tried to run away and wen tht didnt work I resorted to suicide but i was cowardly so I remained tormented by darkness and loneliness till the day came wen I was found. The person I found is my bf. He was the one who showed me light, he was my light and he is even today. That day i thought I left darkness behind but i was wrong. Still people have found ways to cut my heart deep and each cut is a memory I cant forget. My hearts been shattered to pieces several times but I'd always hope tht once my heart was put back together the scars would hav gone but the scars never dissappear. As I look back through the years I wonder how I could be so happy now. I guess its thanks to my bf. Even though sadness lingers deep inside I know I have the ability to be happy b/c of him. Though b/c he's the one who gave me light and purpose, its hard to tell him my pains and woes. idk tht just my thoughts lol^^; dont mind me
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