Such a peaceful night it is
By myself I'm sitting here
Moonlight high above the trees
As memories become so clear
There's a gentle swaying breeze
While my eyes filled up with tears
My heart aches cause you not here
Silently through all the years
You slowly began to fade
And now you're only in my dreams
But now it's too late it would seem
As twilight glimmers in the stream
Sadness cuts my heart so deep
All the time could never heal
All this pain this constant sadness
What I've lost and what I feel
What a life it could've been
All by myself in disbelief
Continuing through the years
With misery and grief
Soon another day will begin
Wishing you were here with me
To share and make new memories
But alas was not meant to be
Sadness cuts my heart so deep
All the time could never heal
All this pain this constant sadness
What I've lost and what I feel
ok so this one guy i know whom i care very much for, his parent are in debt and he's really sad cuz he wanted this one video game that costs a lot. So im buying it for him to see him happy...but what i didnt tell him is that my moms in debt too and that im using the money i got for christmas to buy it for him. so we were talking today about the game and stuff and it seemed as if he really didnt care if i spent money on him as long as he got the game...well idk he seemed eager to get it. I'm happy of course that I can make him so happy but...thinking of the future and the money i need...it doesnt seem important when it comes to seeing him smile. Yet I know I've been straining my limits and hurting myself...and it seems I've been crying a lot lately and i just dont know what im doing anymore! I usually have an answer for everything but now im completely lost and I can't stop crying when im alone...but when I'm with him I'm so happy but as soon as he leaves again I cry once again...I just felt like getting that out....srry if I made you guys feel sad...
from my friend driffter
thnx
