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Gender
• Female
Location
• Mushroom Kingdom
Member Since
• 2006-04-12
Real Name
• Justine... but people call me Steen

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Achievements
• Being a loyal Nintendo fan. I've never played anything but Nintendo consoles. If I touched a PS2 controller, my hand skin would probably melt. Sad? Perhaps.
Anime Fan Since
• I don't care anymore... but for as long as I can remember. My brother was a big influence. He got me into it
Favorite Anime
• I haven't seen an anime that I don't like. Current Favorite: Women at Work
Goals
• Make my comic into an anime series and eventually a video game... FOR NINTENDO!!!
Hobbies
• Drawing, video gaming, loving Roy and other red-haired, sword bearing guys, writing stories, creating stuff, and sleeping... doing nothing at times is good too.
Talents
• I am the ultimate Roy master!!! >:D naw but I luvs me sum roi

myOtaku.com: mamma DX

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I can't take it anymore

Ok…..

I’m normally not the one to bitch here on the otaku but I’ve received so much fuckin crap that I can’t take it any more.

Why I’m unhappy with Michelle?

Mostly the things that she’s said to me…. And here I thought I was the world’s worst communicator:
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1) I can't remember what it feels like to love you.
...
I really can't.

2)And yeah, Apanda called Justine to come over and...stuff. And yeah...it took her like 15 minutes or so, but she came. And...I just seemed like a huge emo.
Like...when we were walking around...I just didn't talk at all.
Justine needs to learn to talk louder, becasue I CANNOT understand what she's saying unless I'm right next to her. I mean, I guess since she's not actually talking to me...she shouldn't have to worry bout it...but whatever.
I seriously don't have a problem with her...I just loose all my "being fun" properties around her I guess.
Whatever....
Amanda was EXTREMLY excited that she was gonna call her after school...so yeah...I didn't really get it but...hah.

3)Justine...I can;t say i miss her being my girlfriend too much
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And amongst other shit in written notes and stuff. Like when she cheated she was like “you should be angry at me.” And at first I wasn’t but when I was angry she turned the tables like she so often does and then said that she was pissed at me. She said shit like “Aimee’s a person too” ….. I fucking know! I never said anything negative about Aimee ever. Even when things got bad. Never dissed her in any way.

She always makes me feel like it’s my job to apologize for anything. And you know what? I usually do even when I didn’t even fucking do anything.

Not talking to each other is a two sided problem. It’s not ALL my fucking fault.

She turns everything I say into shit pretty much. Anything. It’s like she always has to be the last word. I wrote this whole paper about how I felt and sure enough it was replied to in the most fucked up way making me feel twice worse than when I started.
And, yeah, I’m expecting a huge comment or PM that’s going to do what I expect. I’ll be waiting for it. Or ignore it. I don’t give a damn.

She said I never complemented her enough. …… That’s like…. All that I did. The only one’s from her I recall was a list she made only because she said I complemented her a lot…… WHAT?!?!? That makes no sense at all.

She says she has an emotional problem. Ok, wow. The whole world has an emotional psychological problem. And so do I! I don’t recall her ever regarding my problem but she doesn‘t stop taking about hers. It’s kind of selfish, really. Demands attention but won’t give any unless it will benefit her.

She says she feels left out. That it’s like it’s me and Amanda AND THEN her. You’re not left out. Once you make the effort to actually talk to me correctly, maybe you won’t feel like that. You said that you can’t talk with me or you don’t feel comfortable talking with me? Well, I feel confident when I talk to Amanda. I don’t feel scared or nervous about what she’s going to say back to me. She’s never made me feel like shit. And that’s probably why you feel that way. That’s how I feel when you and Amanda are hanging out. I just don’t dwell on it. I don’t care that you guys hang out without me. I know it’s going to happen once and awhile so it doesn’t bug me that much.

Jesus christ……

I apologize (damnit) to everyone. This is normally what happens to me when I keep my feeling inside for too long. It explodes out. I'll prolly regret this but my brian is fried at the moment. There for, I do not care.

Ah….. Sorry.

DAMNIT! I’ll leave with a few pictures.

Left to right is Me, Aimee(in the back) Apanda and michelle on the end

This reminds me of my story sooooo much

Ah…. While I’m at it…. I want to apologize to zinke….. You know what for.

The only thing that makes me truly happy -_-

Ok, I’ll be gone before it gets any worse.

-mDX

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