Friday, January 7, 2005

   Keep on smiling, and the world shall smile with you...
Hello!!! Thanks for the comments, they kind of helped clear my head slightly...although I'm still confused. The thing is, it's not like usual, with me being randomly confused about something that happened, or something someone's told me...I don't feel as though I know who I am anymore.

Not knowing who I AM, means that my opinion of everything is slightly haywire. I don't know who I like, and who I don't, I don't know what's right and wrong, and I feel as though the slightest thing can make me feel very unstable (as I'm used to having a rather organised and carefree life).

Perhaps I'm just growing up *shrugg* as I'm sure many others have felt as confused as I am right now...(I've gotten to the point where I don't even know what music I like best)

Anywho, I'm off to visit all ya sites!!! I would ask you guys something, but I can't think straight right now, sorry!

*GlOmP*

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Tuesday, January 4, 2005

   ZzZzZzZzZ
TO HIEIARTEMIS: I don't think you're messed up either! ^-^

I just had a sleepover so I'm really tired lol. Nevermind, my own fault!

SCHOOL TOMORROW. I don't know if you guys have gone back to school yet, but what do you feel about that anyway? Do you think of school as sucky lessons, and better off without it, or a chance to learn and meet new people?

Everyone here (where I live) is always complaining about school and how much it sucks, but I don't really think its that bad. I suppose its boring at times, but without school I wouldn't know everyone that I did know today, and then things would be so different...

Don't you think so?

I don't enjoy taking days off school (as crazy as that might sound! Lol) Mainly cus all my holidays suck (I always get ill or whatever) and I suppose I'm slightly scared that no one will miss me if I go...

Crazy huh?

PS. I've just read some posts people have made, and although I know I'm not the most supportive of friends (even though I wish I was), and I might not even be your friend (depending on what you think of me) but I just want you guys to know that I will be there for you - cus that's what friends are for *hugzie*
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Saturday, January 1, 2005

   ^-^
I'd like to say thanks to those who commented on the last post!

And of course, A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL! (As well as a warm welcome to 2005!)
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Thursday, December 30, 2004

   Bah
I'm going to talk/rant today. Really sorry!!! But I must get this off my chest.

I've been talking to my friend, who enjoys writing, and so do I. She's very talented for someone who's fourteen, and I told her that I'm concentrating more on my art now, because I don't feel that I'm a good enough writer to be concentrating on my writing.

She then goes, oh there's only some things you need to change for you to be a good writer, and then says that art is only for people who are messed up and need to be convinced that they are good at something. Then she says I shouldn't stop writing because I think I'm not good enough. I'm not going to stop because I'm not good, I'm going to stop doing as much, because I don't think its worth it anymore.

What is annoying about that, is that just because SHE doesn't do art, doesn't mean she can't appreciate it. I mean, I don't dis things people like, just because I think it's not worth doing.

Plus, ANIME and MANGA is ART. Is she saying that we're all messed up?
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

   HELLO AGAIN!
I would just like to say a quick HAPPY BIRTHDAY (I know its a little early) to Inuyasha311 , whose birthday is on NEW YEARS EVE! (*^-^*)

Went to what we folks here call Oriental city. Its a place where you can buy some stuff, like...japanese sushi, POCKY (which I got! ^.^) and loads of other Japanese stuff! No manga though....it really sucks how the only place Japanese in England has NO MANGA SHOP! T-T *sob*

Ah well, I have my Pocky *munches thoughtfully*, I bought quite a few, so you can have some too!



I also looked for some Ramen noodles! Inuyasha's favourite!...Heh, I bought some of that too! ^_^

QUESTION:

Don't you just love Pocky?
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Monday, December 27, 2004

   Next celebration: New Years Eve
Hello!!! Hope you all had a Merry Xmas and got all the presents that you asked for!

QUESTION:

What did you get? What was your LEAST favourite present, and what are you gunna do with it?

Well, I dunno what my least favourite present was...I got some Simpsons DVDs, a cd player (from my mum and dad), three pair of socks, three marshmellows, a teddy, and more chocolate than I can ever eat.

I do wish I got something anime related, but I don't want to be spoilt! What I got, I shall gratefully accept! ^-^ It was nice of so many people to even buy me pressies so yeah!

ANOTHER QUESTION:

What are you thinking of doing for New Years Eve? Going out? Or staying in?

I'm too young to go out anywhere fun, so I just stay in and watch the people in the pub opposite my house cheer and get drunk...hehehe
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Friday, December 24, 2004

   HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
Well, today's Christmas eve! I don't have much to say (as I'm not that interesting) so I'd just like to wish you all a VERY Merry Christmas, and the 'Happy New Year' can wait!

Love you all!

*~{MangoChan}~*
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Sunday, December 19, 2004

   On a happier note...


Hehe, yeah, the pictures a bit big, and I know that it's not christmas yet but...just wanted to post this! Thanks to Inuyasha311 who commented on my last post!

And if I don't post before Xmas, then...MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

(PS. its my dog in the picture! And my dad's slippers!)
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Friday, December 17, 2004

   Erm, yeah
Thanks to all those people who commented last time. I don't know what to say today, because, well, it would take me forever to say the things I wanted to. So instead, I wrote a poem. It's really bad (never been too good at poetry), but there you are. Thanks if you read it!

~*One, The Other, Another, and I*~

One thinks no more of life than the next,
Thinks of it as a waste of time,
And troubles fill her mind,
But still she smiles, as though nothing is wrong.

She does not say the words that fill her mind,
The thoughts that trouble her,
But inside that smile is emptiness,
Hollow and perhaps weakness,
Anger and frustration.

The Other thinks only of herself,
And in her mind she rules her kingdom,
She is herself but everyone is her follower,
And no matter how she tries,
There is no one there but her.

Although she fills her world,
With fluffy thoughts and 'friends',
Her world is empty of reality,
For she puts up a sheild,
Protecting her from the pain of reality.

And Another thinks selflessly,
Troubles filling her mind,
But yet she does not speak,
She keeps quiet for others happiness,
Yet they can sense her thoughts,
Her sadness, she will not speak of.

She will not risk their happiness,
In return for hers,
But her mind is changing,
Being dented by the world around her,
By the stubborn thinking of the world,
Horrors fill her mind,
But perhaps she does not know it.

And I.

I am the one writing this,
And there is no description to describe me.
I am happy;
When by people that I love.
Sad when alone,
But I cannot seem to make those that I love happy,
Although I can sense it.

Perhaps I am the bad one.
For I cannot help us.
We are falling,
falling into the everlasting circle of hatred.
There is no way to stop it,
Although I can see it.

I feel sorry,
It seems as though I have taken
Much more than just one precious thing,
It feels as though I have taken my friends' happiness
In return for my own

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Sunday, December 12, 2004

   Why are people so cruel?
Hello! Sorry I haven't been on in a while, I felt as though I needed to focus on my normal life more than my internet one, so I decided to take a small break (small being a day or two ^-^)

Thanks to all those who commented and tried to help last time! That was really nice of you guys...

At school, things with my friend are okay. But my other friend - my new friend - he's called Matt. He's really cool, like, he's funny and gives me hugs and we both say "I luv you" cus we know neither of us will get the wrong idea, but sometimes he's really mean and really harsh. Cus he's my friend, I asked him:

"If I started crying, what would you do?"

And then he said:

"To be honest, I really wouldn't care."

I was really upset after that, and I didn't talk to him for the rest of the week. I mean, I suppose I don't expect him to be super sensitive, but I would like it if he PRETENDED to care, he is my friend after all...so, I don't know what to think.

QUESTION:

What would YOU do if your friend acted as though they didn't care? Would you ignore it, or do something else (possibly more drastic?)

Well, on a better note, 13 MORE DAYS UNTIL XMAS!!! Can't wait, I just hope no one brings mistletoe into school...lolz
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