Birthday • 1986-07-06 Gender •
Female Location • my dreamworld of japan Member Since • 2004-11-28 Occupation • college student, athlete, and an anime freak!! Real Name • in the intro
Personal
Achievements • learned to snowboard without breaking something lol Anime Fan Since • Speed racer was on the air Favorite Anime • WAY WAY TO MANY! Goals • go to Japan!!!!!! and learn japanese fluently. Hobbies • drawing and singing, watching anime, and whatever im doing now....i forget! Talents • sing, draw
myOtaku.com: marz
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well today is just another day.
we were supposed to have our Zeta formal tonight, but it has been canceled. which i dont mind, cuz i didnt want to have to pay the $40 for me and my date...so instead ill be spending my night home with a cup of hot cocoa and watching anime^^. unless there is something going on at the Sigma Chi house( male fraternity the is really close to the Zetas.....they're my boys...i love them)....but i think anime will win out tonight^^.
sooooo.....................
so im going to start off with this.......
you know the feeling you get when you are in a room full of people and you know you arent alone...but yet you feel so lonely....
well i had that feeling tonight. and all i could do was to deal with it as much as i could then leave.
i felt soo lonely and it ended up depressing me so much. i have all these sisters and i love them and i know they love me.....but when you are the only person in a chapter that has no big or little, its really lonely. and i know that a few people have tryed to "adopt" me as their little, but its just not the same as having your own......and its even sadder when you've been passed around. hell my first big leaves, then the one that adopted me afterward leaves, and then someone else wants to adopt me...i think ive had it.....im tired of being passed around. and i bet when it comes down to it...i dont think i will ever get a little, and that makes me even sadder thinking about that.
i really will be the outcast of my group. hell my "bigs"didnt even leave for the sake of graduation...they just left. and i know i understand their reasons...but it still sucks!
o well what can you do...ill get over it. Comments (1) |
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Wednesday, November 21, 2007
hey hey everyone!
sorry i havent written in a couple of days. ive been a little busy tryng to get things together for school. but yeah.....tomorrow is turkey day!!! yeah!
can you say "going to eat till my stomach bursts!", cuz i am! woot!
hmmm...........so i must really be into christmas this year.....cuz ever since halloween ive been listening to christmas music...i love it^^. and the funnyest thing is...my boyfriend HATES christmas. he wants to turn christmas into "decemberween" yeah you read right.....he said he'll get rid of santa, the elves, and the reindeer and replace them with Frosty and an army of penguins! i love it^^, either way. but yeah. so i have nothing else to say so ill leave you with these wonderful theings... and this...my favorite christmas song of all time...O Holy Night sung by Celtic Woman
YO!
so yeah "Moon's Curse" is from Loveless....just in english^^.
and like i said yesterday, my new love is for Ouran High School Host Club.....it is so good and SOOO funny! hell even my roommate(she really doesnt understand why i am in love with anime) really liked it. i want to buy the anime soo bad. yeah i was watching it on YouTube last night. i had nothing better to do, so i was seeing what animes i could find on there just to past the time...and i found that one. and i remember Elves saying that it was a really good one. so i checked it out. oh man....im asking my mom for this one for christmas...japanese version or enlish i dont care...actually i think i want the japanese version more^^. hehe.....
well i cant think of nething else...so im leaving you with this. i hope you all can veiw it..if not let me know and ill send you to where i got it from....kk Mr. Stephen Lynch everybody
so i have come to the conclusion.....
my new love is.....Ouran High School Host Club!
I LOVE IT, I LOVE IT, I LOVE IT!!!!! Comments (2) |
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can you guess what this is from^^
Moon's curse
in this icy dream
in a world with no words
i profess my love
until it will reach you, someday
the intense wish that fell from those lips
that i held close with wounded arms
i wanted to unravel it for you
because if i throw away the beauty
of our love that existed in the past
i can go toward a more beautiful night tomorrow
Moon's curse
from this icy dream
i wanted to take you far away
how far can i go until i reach a place where
i can beleive in love
by ways only a child who knows no pain can do
you close yourself off to the world
your first words of love that you wispered at my ear
eyes of nothing
i want to decieve them
if i could hold you and
know that i can keep you warm
i am not afraid of any punishment or sin
Moon's curse
we awake from this icy dream
and i float aimlessly
connected to you
how far shall we go
until we gain silence of love. Comments (1) |
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Sunday, November 11, 2007
hiddy ho there neighbor!
well lets see...... i really dont have ne thing interesting going on in my life... yeah, just bordem! ive cleaned my house ive cleaned my yard yep nothing to do i did have pankcakes this morning for breakfast they were yummy and i had a big glass o milk mMMMMMMMmmmmmMMMmmmm milk! so good for you, and so tasty=^^=oh well...... well since i have nothing else i hope you all have a good day. Comments (1) |
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Friday, November 9, 2007
hey everyone
well i decided to change my site to your normal two color theme. dont ask why...not even i know why, but yeah. Comments (2) |
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Friday, November 2, 2007
total pain!
WELL LETS SEE....
HALLOWEEN WAS A BLAST.....
I HELPED THE SIGMA CHIS WITH THEIR HAUNTED HOUSE.........
IT WAS FUN......
BUT NOW I SOUND LIKE A MAN.......(TO MUCH SCREAMING)
I HAVE BUISES ON MY ELBOWS THE SIZE OF A BASEBALL.......
BRIUSES ON THE PALMS OF MY HANDS........
AND MY SHOULDER JOINTS FEEL LIKE THEY ARE BEING RIPPED TO SHREDS BY EVIL DOGGIES!
AND MY ARMS AND BACK ARE SORE FROM CRAWLING AROUND LIKE THE GIRL OFF OF THE GRUDGE.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT........
IT WAS KINDA WORTH IT.........
WE SCARED A SHIT LOAD OF PEOPLE....
INCLUDING MY SISTERS......(YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!)
AND OF COURSE YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE THE SMALL FEW AMOUNT OF POEPLE THAT ARE GOING TO ACT LIKE DUMB SHITS AND THINK THEY ARE ALL BAD ASS......WHEN THEY ARE FAR FROM IT!
HACK MADE THEM RUN LIKE SCARED RABBITS...HAHAHA!!!!
BUT YEAH
IT WAS FUN........
AND I THANK THE SIGS FOR LETTING ME BE A PART OF IT!!!!
AND I THANK MY DEAR SISTERS FOR GOING.
HAHA YEAH 2 DAYS AFTER HALLOWEEN AND I STILL SOUND LIKE A MAN......NOT COOL!
I THINK I WAS COOL LOOKING.......
OH YEAH....ILL HAVE THE PICTURES POSTED OF MY HALLOWEEN COSTUME PROBABLY TOMORROW OR ON SUNDAY.
what happened to us?
we used to be the best of friends
we knew everything about each other
inseparable!
what happened?
we did everything together
we only knew each other
a short time
but still
inseparable
you need a place
and i let you move with me
you need your space
and i gave it to you
inseparable!
what happened!?
i know,
i know what happened
i found others
that we both knew
and you,
you fell in love with the wrong person
always mad,
mad that i didn't spend every waking hour
at you side
you became possessive
possessive over the wrong person
sure YOU can can find someone
but when i do, you
you fight, hate, and scold me
it pissed me off!being locked out
sleeping in a common room
you pissed off the wrong person
so what happened?
you became obsessed
controlling
cynical
you took out your anger out
if not me
my family
i gave you everything i could
but you wanted more
all i wanted you respect and friendship
but you had to take it to another level
you had to start treating me
as if i was your "boyfriend"
but i was nothing like that
just your friend
but you treated me like dirt
like you were better then me
until it slapped you in the face
i had it with your shit
and you
you just had to go and hit me
i have never hurt ne one
smaller than me
but you pushed it
you pushed the wrong button
im sorry that i put you though that window
but im not sorry for something
that you blamed me for doing
something i find perfectly fine
so i found someone for myself
someone to make ME happy
so for that you take everything out on me
thinking i "broke up" with you
hitting
kicking
throwing
i tolerated it
putting it off
till you, like times before,
insulted me and my family
and you wonder why i never
treated you like the "princess" you think you are
and for that and all the above
we no longer speak.
i have tried
and asked
to see how life was treating you
but all you did
was insult me
writing back on the hell bound "myspace"
"you're a stupid bitch and you dont know what you're missing"
or even
"you're pathetic"
im not pathetic
i never have been
and yes i know what im missing
im missing someone that before
we were inseparable
always together
never apart
but now
you're a distant memory
that pains my past
and though i wish we were still friends
im glad that we arent
or you might be here
in this po-dunk town
ruining my chances
to make the friends
i have made today
