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Wednesday, February 8, 2006
I SWEAR UNTO MY LIFE.....................................
hey guys.
well lets just say that i really wish that i had a million dollars right now, because i just found out yesterday that not only do i owe $200 dollars, which i was gonna go ahead and pay, but i have fees from last semester that equal up to another $550 and someone cents. i really thought that i was going to kill someone. but for some reason all i could do was cry about it cuz i was sooo frustrated. and it the bad part was that i was kinda scaring Krista, cuz she had never seen me cry before and she didnt know what to do. but i cryed so much that my eyes didnt have ne more tears to cry. so later on last night i decided i would cool my head a little and take a shower.......well lets just say i had some very unpleasant thoughts of suicide.........and i really dont know why, but i really considered it, mainly cuz i also decided i needed to shave my legs for homecoming and the razor was right there in my hands, i think thats a main reason i thought of suicide and because i became very depressed wehn i got in the shower. but then i just kinda fell to the shower floor and started crying again, i just couldnt stop myself from crying. and just the thought that i even considered suicide made me cry even more, reason being is cuz i love who i am and who i have become and what i know i want to be. so the whole suicide thought really hurt me inside. and i just i was crying so loud that Krista came into the bathroom to see what was wrong but i didnt answer her. and when i got out of the shower about an hour later she wasnt in the room.........so naturally i went to turn on the tv and take a nap, but when i reached for the remote...the tv was already on, and so was the dvd player with one of my InuYasha movies ready to go. yeah thats right, Krista put in the movie for me, for when i got out of the shower, and i found out later that she used my phone to call my mom and ask her what makes me happy. and of course my mom, knowing everything about me^^, told her that watching InuYasha and just being alone always makes me happy again....so i watched my movie, and thank Krista when she came back to the room. and later on i watched the episode i had been waiting for since last tuesday of InuYasha, when Miroku confesses his TRUE feelings to Sango......it mad me even happier. so today i am much better.....still depressed and frustrated, but still able to hide it from everyone^^.
well i guess you all are tired of reading al my ramblings of what happened to me, and im also glad that you liked the cosplay pics.......and thank you for all the wonderful ideas for cosplay costumes for me, i will take them all into consideration.
again thank you for reading this if you did read all of my post, it means alot. well i need to go now.....*hugs everyone* love you guys!
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