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Monday, January 31, 2005
This might shake ya up alittle
Your kidding me.Thats it.Thats all.That laugh of his plays in my mind as well as a picture of him falling.I wake only to A dream from simply nowhere.A week passes again duel masters is on.As usaul I watch it,but this time for only one reason.The only man that means the most to me not for what he looks like for what he is.He had come back in the previous episode,only for a short time at the end.My heart pounding every time he moved every time talked.As the show ended I did my usual,hanged out with Hailey.The next week passed.Duel masters was on again.This time my heart racing felling as about to explode.The very sick vandistical polt of my dream was real.Ko fell to the floor.Up against the tv I was.As soon as he said I'm still evil I was ok,but when he closed his eyes again my heart pounded.I was scared.My heart wouldn't take.The thing is I couldn't cry.The next night Hailey had left.I was happy until I went to sleep.That picture of Ko laying on the floor motienless played in my mind.I couldn't help it I cried.Nothing can now help me at this point.I cry myself to sleep whenever I have to see it even though I know he is ok.Kokujo my friend will be the only man in my life I will truely have feelings for.He is something very special to me.I don't why that dream happened but I was scared to see it happen over again.Infront of my own eyes.When it was over everything I had a feeling I ran it got me no where and it never helped.I have not been the same person i used to be before that day.No one can help me now.I shrink in this orld full of maiacs and lunatics.Parinoia has taken the best out of me.Now I don't know whats wrong.Whatever it is I'm telling you it can't be helped so don't try.Kokujo means the world to me and no one can take that away from me.Inside of me I can feel nothing much anymore.I have subsided pain.It's like I am gone form this world.I am nothing but a mere shell to a body that shouldn't be.I didn't think Loveing Kokujo would get so far for me.I am now scared of what has happened.I can't walk out into a crowd without be afriad.This is true.In the locer room at my gym class people were crowding around to sing happy birthday to some person I got scared and ran to the back wall.I may look or say I am in a good mood but I never am anymore. Comments
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This might shake ya up alittle
