Saturday, July 22, 2006

WEIRDO!

I tried drawing again... it didn't quite work. I think I need to try a real book instead of the free crap on the internet... What the first lesson was was a person (I can't tell if it's a dude or a chick!) sitting in a chair, rotated 180 degrees. I need something a little less detailed, more simple... something aimed at a 15-year-old who can't but just barely sometimes kinda draw... I have yet to find one. I get the concept of the right and left brain, but I don't know how to think about anything without using "symbols" of something. I may just have to work harder towards getting out of that habit, but I don't exactly know how to think without said "symbols." I've been trying to preview this one book about it, but Amazon doesn't have a good preview, my library doesn't have it online, and I more than likely don't know anyone who owns it. It's called (The New) Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain by Betty Edwards. Supposedly, it works, but the five pages of content Amazon gives isn't reinforcing the opinions of others. I forgot to check if the library has the physical book, but I doubt they do.

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Well, I did a little test with myself. I found a bunch of internet stories about one subject, then called the library's dialPAC(Card catalog program). I searched for the same subject matter. The internet yielded more verified hits than the entire Bellevue Public Library! Ha! Internet ain't so bad now. Granted the library's books were far longer, the sheer volume of the internet surpassess that of my local library.

After I did that I proceeded to play with the dictionary and stuff and seeing if it knew certain words. I don't think it knew "manga." (Which I just learned last week is pronounced mon-ga.) I also tried a couple of words that had related words that were in their dictionary. No result. :( Oh well, no one at the BPL needs to know those words anyways, and if they do, they have a reason.

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I forgot to do the TRUmood thing...

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I profess my inability to dance.. even in DDR... I tried Standard, since I had A's on almost every song we (it's my sister's game) had on Light. I failed terribly... I think I need to work out the last few B's and E's (actually F's) before I should think about Standard again. I even found the easiest one. I think I'm just too slow to go to the next setting...

I have Microsoft products in "my drawer." That's scary... I don't have a particular love for Microsoft... Their stuff is useful, useful by far, but it still sucks because when you get it, it takes five years to get ready to go... That's one reason I'm starting to not hate Macs so much... They're neat machines, but I don't think it'd be terribly useful for me... Every piece of software I own is designed specifically for Windows... Then I think, "Hey! I have a linux disc!", but then I remember how much Linux hates me... The oddest part is that penguins don't exactly like me either... Ironic. Evil Linux penguin... The only time Linux ever did me a service was when I was getting a self-signed SSL certificate for my network's intranet thing. Even then, finding the crap was a pain. I still want to make a DigitalID certificate to use in email... I have to remember how to make certificates because they expire one year from issuance... I still don't have my learner's permit... I can't draw... Few people really know me... My cell phone needs to be replaced...

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I think it's safe to say I no longer have a girlfriend... She's been calling, but I never answer it when she calls. She doesn't leave messages... I'm thinking this next year at school, I'm going to keep a clean slate. Hopefully there is no coincidence of schedule that forces me to be in classes with her or her friends. I just don't want anything to do with them anymore.

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I should either just put my iPod on "Repeat One," or go to bed. It's 6, and I keep replaying Madonna's "Hung Up." I don't have a particular fascination with Madonna, I strongly dislike her, to be frank, but this one song is just so... i don't know... I like it, that's about all there is to it.

And THANK YOU subconscious! I burned CDs from iTunes previously, so I only actually 9 tracks compared to 28. Still a lot down the drain there, but whatever. If I could do it, I might hug my subconscious, but that could make me die... So maybe not...

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I dropped a LOT from my intro. I'm sure you noticed.

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And my closing remark, besides telling you to read the other post too, is a bit of lyrics from the song I just switched to.

"Tell me once again, why would you lie to me?" --"Lie To Me" by Daniel Powter off the self-titled album, Daniel Powter.

The sad part is I've lied to the entire world about my identity of myself for a while now. The only part of the entire world I hadn't lied to by saying that I'm "normal" would be the community of others like me and, for now, the only other person I trust enough to let them know, Kitsune. But there's not anything I can do about lying with something so important... Meh, I'll complain about it in the seperate blog I have for it specifically.

'night/'morning/I don't know what time it is.

EDIT: guess which thing here is mine. But only if I didn'y already show/tell you.

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